Chapter 16: Grief
Our marriage was in a hurry, there was no etiquette, no silk, and no big dealing, so I got married.
On the wedding night, Sun Jian returned my lost pearl hairpin to me, and he helped me put on my sideburns.
He said: "This is your only token, if I get the treasure, I have been treasured, now you marry me, I will cherish it, you can rest assured, this life will not live up to you, if you disobey, I will die on the battlefield." ”
I don't know why, although I am unwilling, I have palpitations when I hear his heartfelt words.
I don't know if he fulfilled me, or if I fulfilled him, maybe I should thank him, thank him for vowing to threaten the lives of my whole people, and finally fulfill our good story.
I played with the pearl hairpin in my hand, the pearl hairpin is inlaid with a very precious South China Sea pearl, white and flawless five jade petals wrapped in the pearl, although not luxurious, but beautiful.
I finally asked, "I obviously saw you take the pearl hairpin, but when the domestic helper searched the body, the pearl hairpin was not on you, where did you hide the pearl hairpin?" ”
He smiled for a long time, coughed lightly, and said, "On you... ”
I was very surprised, "What are you kidding about me, how can I be on me when I see you taking the pearl hairpin?" I voiced my doubts.
"When you came to me to ask for a hairpin, I pinned it in your belt, but you didn't notice it, and if you turned around and left, the hairpin was already yours."
When he said this, he scratched his head with some embarrassment.
He paused and continued: "I deliberately took your pearl hairpin at the time, just to think that you can notice me, I am sincere to you, you will not marry in this life, and now you can marry my Sun Jian, it is my great luck in this life, I will definitely be good to you, good to Brother Jing, Brother Jing will be my own brother in the future, and we will live together as a family in the future." ”
Yes......
In the future, our family will live a good life together.
I looked back at him, and there was sincerity and affection in my eyes.
I think that no matter whether his words will be true in the future, but at this moment he treats each other sincerely, and my heart can be regarded as a steadfast one.
Later, I asked Sun Jian, "If I really didn't marry you, would you really want the lives of my whole clan?" ”
He stroked his hot cheeks very embarrassedly, but he didn't expect that such an iron man as him would be shy.
He said that he would not do that, he ate the emperor's grain, took the lulu, and led the troops to fight for military discipline.
He is the one who keeps the people safe, how can he take the lead in oppressing the people, what is the difference between that and bandits and robbers?
Since childhood, he has dreamed of sweeping all directions with his soldiers and leading the people out of a new world.
From now on, he will not be oppressed by the bureaucracy, and he will not be left without a fixed place to live and flee everywhere.
"If you really refuse to marry me, I have no choice but to take this pearl hairpin and think about people, and I will return the gift to you."
I asked Sun Jian, "What gift do you want to give me?" ”
"I don't have anything of value on me, a sharp ancient dagger, which is said to have been worn by the First Emperor back then."
"Why did you give me a dagger?"
He said: "In this troubled world, I can't protect you all the time in the name of my husband, and the dagger can defend yourself. What a simple and crude sentence.
"This is an ancient weapon, very spiritual, and will definitely protect your safety and safety." Listening to his words, I was very moved, and I couldn't help but admire him from the bottom of my heart.
Then I thought about it, and your father captured my heart with a dagger.
As she spoke, the mother took out the dagger from under her sleeping pillow, and this was the dagger.
Now, Mother has given it to you, hoping that this dagger will bless you and keep you safe for the rest of your life.
I held this ancient weapon in my hand and was amazed, what a good dagger.
I didn't expect my father to have such a good treasure, I held it in my hand and couldn't put it down.
My mother looked at me and stroked my forehead, "Look at you as if you have seen your father, and he also cherishes this dagger as much as you do." ”
I looked at my mother, her eyes were a little moist, there were a few tears, and I was lying in my mother's arms.
"I'm a girl, how can I compare myself to my father?"
My mother was very helpless, she still caressed my green silk, one at a time, very gently.
"Look at you, how can you look like a girl!" Her voice was cold, with a bit of rebuke, but there was nothing she could do.
I made a dead-faced gesture and lay down in my mother's arms, resting on her lap, my hand raised high, and playing with the dagger in my hand.
The dagger was sharp, with a ruby inlaid on the hilt and glowing red under the dim oil lamp in the room.
The ruby was the size of a bead, and it was very fine, and I gazed at it for a long time.
My eyes were red under the light of the ruby, as if I had gone mad and swallowed my heart.
I looked at it, and it seemed to take me into the moment when my father gave my mother a dagger......
I stood from a distance and watched, looking at them, watching them love each other, hug each other, and be with each other for the rest of their lives......
But now that my father is gone, and now Jiangdong is unstable, although I am a woman, I can't inherit my father's and brother's legacy.
But when it comes to leading troops to fight, I don't lose to my brothers, and I can't slack off because I am a child of the Sun family.
As I was thinking, my mother suddenly pushed me away, and she threw herself on the edge of the bed, and a mouthful of blood gushed out, splashing all over my skirt.
I looked at my mother and was shocked, I didn't know what was wrong with my mother, maybe I was worried that my father and brother would die early.
I am even more worried that the second brother Jiangdong Lord is unstable......
Or, when the eldest brother was running for our family's life, my mother was injured by the enemy's poisoned arrow in order to protect the young me.
I cried and cried, this is my mother, my only mother, you can't be okay, and you can't be okay.
"Mother, mother, someone... Fast pass to the military doctor, fast pass the military doctor...... ”
My mother's mouth was full of blood, and she took my hand tightly, trying to say something......
But she was blocked by streams of blood gushing out of her body, and she couldn't speak.
I cried, "Mother, don't talk, don't talk, the girl is here!" The girl is here! ”
The mother's head tilted back slightly, and her closed eyes opened as quickly as she could, fearing that once she closed them, she would never open them again.
My mother's hand tightened and tightened, swallowing the blood gushing from her mouth and muttering.
"Xiang'er, my Xiang'er, my mother knows that you are bent on avenging your father, these are the affairs of the man, it is you and your five brothers, not my Xiang'er's business, the mother is most at ease is you, you must listen to your mother's words, be your county lord of Dongwu, don't be reckless, wait for you to get married, find a good husband to marry."
Speaking of this, my mother seemed to be unable to continue, and a mouthful of blood gushed out, and my mother smiled at me, as if nothing had happened at this moment.
As if the mother was still sitting here unharmed, the mother struggled to swallow the blood gushing from her mouth.
My mother's trembling hand stroked my green silk, "You always sneak out to go wild, and my mother hasn't shampooed your hair for a long time,"
My mother's hand stopped at the end of my hair, as if she had thought of something......
"Mother hasn't come yet to prepare a hairpin for you, mother doesn't seem to be able to wait for that day, my Xiang'er don't blame mother!"
I couldn't stop crying and shook my head desperately.
"No, no, what kind of disease is my mother, why have I never heard anyone mention it, my mother wants to be well, I still have to wait for the day when my mother will coil my hair and wear a hairpin?"
My mother smiled and asked me to sit with my back in front of her, and Ah Yu had already brought in the military doctor.
The military doctor was just about to kneel and salute, when his mother waved her hand and said, "Let's all go down!" Don't even bother me talking to my daughter. ”
The military doctor was neither advancing nor retreating, and by this time my four brothers had already rushed over.
The second brother waved his hand at the military doctor, and the military doctor respectfully retreated.
My four elder brothers were all flustered, and the second brother was just about to say something, but my mother shouted, "Don't make any noise, Zhongmou!" Go and bring the grate, and I will grate it for Xiang'er. ”
I couldn't cry silently, and the second brother was very obedient and went to the dressing mirror to take the jade grate and put it in my mother's hand.
My mother's hands were shaking so badly that she combed them slowly, for fear of hurting me.
"Mother, daughter is not afraid of pain."
Mother smiled, "Of course Mother knows that my Xiang'er has never been afraid of pain, but Mother is reluctant to let my Xiang'er hurt." ”
I wanted to turn around and hug my mother, but I didn't, I couldn't.
Because I know that my mother is resolute, and I am my mother's daughter, and so will I.
My mother combed my hair one by one, but her hands were shaking more and more, and it took a long time to put my hair in a bun.
My mother plucked the hairpin from her head and fixed my hair in a bun, "Turn it around and show it to my mother." ”
I turned around and looked at my mother with tears on her face, and my mother smiled, smiling very kindly, "My grandson's daughter is a heroic beauty." ”
Her trembling hands wiped the tears from my face, "Don't cry... ”
He looked at the four elder brothers who were standing upright, and said weakly, "Don't cry, the children of my grandson family are not allowed to cry if they shed blood or tears." ”
I touched the tears on my face and smiled at my mother.
My mother looked at me and smiled, "These are the children of my grandson's family." ”
My mother looked at me as if she could spend her whole life watching me grow.
She smiled sweetly and gently, "My daughter is really beautiful, wearing this pearl hairpin is even more beautiful, my mother seems to see you and the appearance of the hairpin, this pearl hairpin is left by your grandmother to my mother, and it is also the object of love between me and your father, my mother's wish is fulfilled, it is ...... ”
As soon as she finished speaking, her mother collapsed on the couch......
It was all so sudden, as if in this moment, I lost everything......
In fact, when my eldest brother fled with the whole family, or looked for a new place to stay, or was chased by enemy troops behind him, I never cried.
And this time I was finally able to let go of my body and mind to cry......
Don't be afraid of being ridiculed, don't be afraid of being violated, don't be afraid of the enemy, don't be afraid of everything......