Chapter 55: Doubts

My eldest brother killed his family, why did he save me......

I burned to death like this, didn't he understand the hatred in his heart......

Although our two families were hostile, I rejoiced in seeing him.

I didn't think he was my enemy, but I wanted to be close to him.

As soon as he let go of my hand, he will fall down on another child of the enemy's family.

In this way, is he also avenging his loved ones?

But he didn't, and from the day I came to Soochow, I lived in his house.

He saw that I was always so well-behaved, polite, and polite.

I always felt that I was the real owner of this house, and that he was just a servant in the house.

At first, he didn't dare to see me, and when I practiced swords, he always hid in the corner and watched secretly.

Then he left silently, and it looked like this for more than two months.

One day I couldn't help it, I wanted to tease him, and when I practiced the sword, I deliberately went straight to him with the tip of the sword.

He was unhurried and easily avoided.

I was annoyed, "Since you have peeked for so long, I will accompany Miss Ben to practice swords, if you are unlucky and die under Miss Ben's sword, it will not be in vain that you have peeked for more than two months." ”

He listened to me, not impatient, not ashamed, not annoyed, just dodging my sword at once, and did not have the heart to fight back with me.

Seeing that the situation was even more atmospheric, I shouted, "You still don't fight back, do you really want to die under Miss Ben's sword?" ”

When he saw me say this, his face was filled with a smile, and the smile became more and more sweet.

We don't know each other like this......

It wasn't until I met and grew up that when I was fifteen years old, my second brother sent him to Haichang and promoted him to lieutenant.

At that moment, I thought, it would be great to marry him when I grow up.

As I ran, I looked at his hair, which looked as beautiful as a waterfall, and I was delighted to see it.

But at this moment, he gradually lost his strength and slowly collapsed.

I hugged his upper body and cried desperately, I knew we couldn't get out, I knew we were going to die here.

However, there is an uncle, I am not afraid, I am not afraid of anything, I am afraid of losing him......

Tears clouded my eyes, I tried to keep my eyes open, he raised his hand to wipe my tears, "Don't cry, don't be afraid, don't worry about me, you run." ”

I shook my head, "No, I can't leave you behind." ”

"Fool, only when you go out can you find someone to save me...... ”

"No, you lied to me, and when I went out, you were burned to death."

I was about to take off his hair towel when he held my hand, "Don't take it off, you'll die if you breathe too much gas." ”

"I'm not afraid of death, as long as Brother Boyan is here, I'm not afraid of anything."

As I spoke, I hugged him tightly, for fear that at this moment, he would turn into a sea of fire, turn into ashes, and disappear in front of me.

I'm afraid, I'm really scared, I'm afraid he'll leave me, I'm afraid he'll die, I'm afraid we'll die here like this.

I thought about it, and I don't know if my eldest brother has put down the rebellion this time.

They pretended to surrender, confused the eldest brother, and unknowingly killed people invisibly.

This time, I realized that I was not trusting anyone, especially the enemy......

I know that I can't give up, and if I give up, we're all going to die here.

I still have my mother and my brothers, so I can't die, and Boyan can't die.

I bent over, hunched over, and carried Boyan on my back.

He was so tall that I couldn't even carry him, so I swayed and walked slowly.

From time to time there were houses around him, trees were falling, and Boyan was panting and very weak.

"Quickly let me go, leave me alone, so that we can't get out, I don't want Xiang'er to die here, I want you to live well."

Listening to his words, tears wet my face......

I said firmly: "I will not leave you, just like you rushed into the fire to save me, we will not die, we will all live well." ”

He listened to me and seemed to let go of his heartstrings, and he lay on my shoulder, not struggling to let me let him go.

I smiled and struggled forward, I don't know how long and how far I carried him on my back.

All I know is that the fire in front of us is sweeping us wantonly.

I don't know how long I can hold on, maybe my persistence is in vain......

A double image appeared in front of my eyes, as if my mother was waving to me in front of me, "Xiang'er, what are you rubbing!" Why don't you hurry up, Mother is waiting for you! ”

Yes! What am I rubbing?

I struggled to walk, and I knew I really couldn't walk......

I smiled and beckoned to my mother, "Mother, I'm tired, I want to rest." ”

As I spoke, I collapsed limply, Boyan, I really can't carry you......

When I woke up again, I was lying on the wide collapse, and I was looking around in panic.

My mother was lying on the floor, and I thought that my mother must have taken care of me and fell asleep.

I pushed my mother in distress, and my mother woke up, and she cried happily when she saw that I was awake.

I looked around and asked, "Mother, where is this?" Bo Yan! How is Bo Yan? ”

When my mother saw my anxious look, she took my hand and patted me on the back of my hand.

"You only have Bo Yan's kid in your heart, have you ever thought about how anxious your mother is when she can't find you? When your eldest brother found you and brought you back, you were as soft as mud, and your mother was afraid that you would never wake up again. ”

As she spoke, my mother began to cry, and I rarely saw her cry.

So I stepped forward to wipe the tears on my mother's face and comforted her, "Mother doesn't cry, haven't I come back well?" Besides, if Brother Boyan hadn't rushed into the fire to save me this time, I would have burned to death, so how could I still see my mother crying here? ”

As I spoke, I secretly looked at my mother's expression, and she reacted quickly, stopped crying at once, and nodded firmly......

"Xiang'er is right, it's our fault, Bo Yan that kid came to save you regardless of his previous suspicions, proving that he has a mind and a righteous person, and this person can take on a big responsibility...... ”

It seems that my mother really trusts Bo Yan this time, instead of seeing him as a rebel.

"Don't worry! He is fine, just a few more puffs of poisonous cigarettes, the military doctor has already treated him, and he will recover in a few days. ”

Because of this rebellion, in order to save my mother, I led the enemy into the sea of fire, so that the Sun family was rescued, and I myself could not rush out of the fire.

If it weren't for Bo Yan, I would have been killed by the rebels this time instead of being burned by the fire.

In short, Bo Yan is my life-saving benefactor, and I will never be able to repay his life-saving kindness in my life.

Thinking of this, I smiled, such a beautiful memory, how can I forget it......

I only heard Bo Yan say: "You said that you couldn't leave me at the beginning, but I can't leave you this time, I will definitely send you to Jingzhou safely." ”

As he spoke, he baked the fish and brought it to me, and he saw that I ate it sweetly.

In fact, I haven't eaten such delicious game for a long time, and I'm so anxious in Soochow that I can't eat it.

This time, in order to be able to return to Jingzhou smoothly, I was afraid that I would not have physical strength, so I ate desperately.

Suddenly, I was choked, and Boyan patted me on the back, "You slow down, it's strange that you don't choke like this." ”

I saw his disgusted look, and I said, "If you don't eat it, I'll eat it all." ”

Bo Yan shook his head helplessly, "Okay, good, it's all yours, it's all yours, no one robs you." ”

As he spoke, he brought me the fish that had been tested on the fire rack, and I took the fish in his hand and was not polite to him, but ate it in a big gulp, and I was angry when it was hot.

"Slow down, don't get hot."

I ate on my own, and I didn't eat a bite, and I retched to my stomach.

He patted me on the back and said distressedly: "It's all said, let you eat slowly, you see, it's choking...... ”

As soon as he said this, it was as if he had said the wrong thing, and we all fell silent......

His hand stopped in mid-air, neither slapping, nor putting it, neither of us spoke, and there was an air of embarrassment in his tone.

After a while, I turned my head and looked at him with a smile, "Thank you, Brother Boyan." ”

When he heard what I said, he relaxed, and he helped me sit up, "When has Xiang'er been so polite to me?" ”

Oh, yes......

If I had been in the past, I would never have been so polite with him, nor would I have lost a lot of words, less humorous than before, and I would not be so uncomfortable.

Now I don't even look at him, I don't know why I'm so weak.

It's like a child who does something wrong, for fear that the family will be down, blame, I'm afraid, I'm really afraid......

I looked back at his clear eyes, and said solemnly: "Brother Boyan helped me like this, I don't know how to thank and how to repay, if you are found by the second brother, I am afraid your fate will not be easy, just send it here, let me go by myself on the next road, I will feel at ease." ”

He listened to me and remained silent, thinking that he might have been persuaded by me.

Just as I was about to say goodbye......

He opened his mouth firmly, with rare tears in his eyes, lingering, back and forth, turning back and forth, turning around, and my heart was sour.

"I'm not here to help you, I'm helping myself, you don't have to thank me, and you don't have to think about how to repay me, these are all things I did voluntarily for you, as long as you live happily, as for the lord who knows that I rescued you, how he punishes me is my business, you don't have to worry about it, presumably the lord will not come to the point of killing me."

When he said this, my heart trembled, I know the second brother's personality, if he really crosses his bottom line, he will definitely not let go of Boyan.

Not only about Bo Yan's future, I'm afraid that I won't even be able to save my life when the time comes.

I only heard Bo Yan continue: "Since you came back, I have changed my name, Lu Yi is now Lu Xun, how does Xiang'er think this name has changed?" ”

When he asked me, I couldn't answer for a while, so why did he change his name?

"Why do you need to change your name?"

He looked at me and smiled bitterly, but didn't say anything.

If he doesn't say it, I won't ask again, and he is about to say that it's time for us to go......

At this time, hundreds of Soochow soldiers surrounded us, and we stood up in panic and drew our swords to each other.

At this moment, Liu Yu walked out of the crowd unhurriedly, speaking softly and charmingly.

"The county lord is going to fight against each other, don't forget, you are also from Eastern Wu, do you want to compete with your second brother, can you fight against him?"