The wounds of childhood
"Do you know why you never got out of this predicament? Just because your heart is too soft. Ji Mi was fiddling with her own affairs, but the words in her mouth were always related to Pan Xi.
Of course, Pan Xi knew the meaning of her words, and lowered her head in silence, and only said after a while: "But after all, they are the ones who gave me life, and I can't be unfilial to them......"
In the face of family affection, Ji Mi and Pan Xi are really two completely different people, Pan Xi wants to get rid of such parents so much, but her heart doesn't let her do it, which leads to her always hesitating when making decisions related to her parents now.
"It's still up to you, maybe you can set a rule for them, they, go out to work to earn money to pay off their debts, you give them a little silver every month, so that they can meet their living needs, but when they run out, they are gone, you don't have to ask how to use them, you can only wait for the next month." Moreover, Pan Nian's debts must be repaid by himself, and after a while I will send someone to inquire who he is working for. "Ji Mi has made up her mind to make Pan Nian live like a man with hands and feet.
To be honest, she shouldn't have taken care of other people's family affairs, but the appearance of this family has seriously disturbed Pan Xi's life, even if it is for Yun'er, she has to pay some price for these three lazy people.
Only when Pan Xi left the room, Ji Mi suddenly felt a faint pain in her head, "What the hell is going on today...... How could the head hurt so much. "The voice is getting weaker...... She wanted to call someone, but she didn't know what was wrong with her throat, and she couldn't make a sound.
In the end, Ji Mi fell into the room, and it was Lan Xiang who found out that she was unconscious when she asked her to eat, "Come on!" Come on! Miss fainted! ”
Almost all the people in the house gathered in Ji Mi's not too big courtyard, and Chiyo Mu carried her to bed, "Go and call the doctor, Mi'er...... Mi'er? ”
But at this time, Ji Mi couldn't hear him speak, she still closed her eyes tightly, and slept on the bed with a painful expression.
"Hey, the old man told me last time I came, don't let Mrs. have too many emotional ups and downs, did something happen today?" The doctor looked very serious, and this expression made everyone feel very bad.
After all, it is a family matter, Lan Xiang only picked the key general, after listening to it, the doctor nodded, as if he knew that there was such a thing, "Madame is just a little tired, plus I am worried about what she said, the old man will prescribe the medicine and take it, adults don't have to worry too much, but in the future, you must pay attention, don't let Madame worry about these trivial things." ”
If you ask about the exact symptoms, the doctor can't say the whole thing, after all, ancient medical methods were limited.
But after Ji Mi woke up, listening to what everyone said to her, she always felt as if she had a particularly hypocritical illness, sleeping in bed every day and drinking those bitter soups, when is the end of the day, "No, Lanxiang, I'm almost suffocating when I lie in bed every day, let's go out for a walk." ”
"Good young lady~ But the master said that if you go out, not only will you bring Tianyue, but also me and Yuegui Chang'an, as well as Yeyue and Youye from time to time." What's going on? Ji Mi almost fell down when she heard this, she was just going out shopping, why did so many people follow.
Ke Lanxiang felt that it was very necessary, with them, going out was a posture of not approaching people, and no one dared to take the initiative to stir up trouble without a long eye, so that the young lady could go shopping with peace of mind?
Walking on the street, Ji Mi was surrounded by several of them in the middle, the momentum was so great, not to mention getting closer, many people didn't dare to take a second look, the street because they didn't have the hustle and bustle of the past, Ji Mi also felt even more bored, and hurriedly spoke out to stop a few of them, "Don't be like this, I feel uncomfortable in my heart, if you want to go shopping, just go shopping." ”
Listening to her words, several people converged a little, no longer the expression of "those who are close will be killed", as usual, the street soon returned to the previous crowd, crowded, passers-by crowded with each other, "Miss Mi shopping, her face doesn't look very good, don't work too hard in everything, it's all the lady of the gods, if there is anything, leave it to the next person to do it." ”
On the way, I met the proprietress of the rouge shop who was buying vegetables, and the two were already friends, and they all had to say hello and chat when they met, "It's so obvious, I've not been in good health lately, and I'm worried about it." What's new in the store? ”
"Not yet, if I am the first to inform Miss Mi, then I will go grocery shopping first, and the family is still waiting for me to cook." The proprietress smiled, narrowed her eyes, bent down and saluted, and walked in the direction of the vegetable market.
Most of Ji Mi's old acquaintances on this street are shopkeepers and beggars on the street, but since she opened a soup kitchen, the beggars' faces are much better than hers.
"Look, it's Miss Mi." There was a beggar who was idle on the side of the road and had nothing to do, practicing calligraphy with a tree branch, pointing at Ji Mi and shouting to the people behind.
The beggars surrounded Ji Mi one after another, "Miss Mi's face is not very good, is there too much to worry about?" ”
"It's rare to see Miss Mi, is this going to buy something?"
Everyone, you have a mouth, I have a word, gossiping, but Ji Mi doesn't feel noisy, but has a very warm feeling, but...... Is her face really ugly?
It must be ugly, after all, everyone can see it.
Ji Mi responded to them with a smile, "I've been in the house for a long time, come out for a walk, is the food in the soup kitchen okay recently?" Are those guys still mindful? ”
To find out what's going on in the store, it's easiest to ask them, and it's easy to get a real answer.
"Okay, okay. In the soup kitchen, the guys in the soup kitchen have a smile on their faces, and other soup kitchens dislike us a lot, right? The beggars around him nodded in agreement, and when they said this, Ji Mi was relieved, and talked to them for a while, and then went on shopping.
Along the way, I saw the ones that had become commonplace, the same vegetable sellers, the same candy stalls, and nothing had changed. Ji Mi suddenly stumbled when she thought about it, but fortunately Lanxiang helped her, "Miss is okay, right?" Why don't we go back first? ”
Looking at Lan Xiang's worried eyes, Ji Mi felt that she was useless, she was just shopping, why did she suddenly faint when it was dark in front of her...... Could it be that she had some incurable disease, and then these people all hid it from her???
Okay~ I started thinking crankily again, in fact, it was just low blood sugar, but the doctors didn't know about this disease, so they couldn't say it, just because she was overthinking, thinking too much, and getting angry, so she often fainted.
At this time, an old woman walked by, and the old woman smiled kindly and took out a piece of candy from her pocket and gave it to Ji Mi, "Girl, eat a piece of candy, my mother-in-law used to have a sudden dark eye, and later found that eating a piece of candy would be much better." ”
After eating the candy, Ji Mi felt much better, and her brain seemed to suddenly brighten up a little......
Wait a minute, suddenly my eyes are black, and I often faint, and eating some sugar will relieve it...... Hypoglycemia!!! That's it!
She was in good health when she was alive, but when she arrived here, she became delicate and weak, and it turned out that the doctors had not said the exact illness because they did not know about it.
"Are you feeling better?" The old woman's expression was very kind, which reminded Ji Mi that when she was in country N, her commander, the commander of the special operation, had clever means, but as long as she smiled, she would give people a cordial feeling.
Ji Mi was very grateful to the old woman for reaching out in time, "I'm much better, thank you old woman." I don't often see you on Xiulan Street, are you here to do something? I can help you~"
She is very well-behaved, and she is an older person who will like it when she sees her, and the old woman is no exception, "I have come to find my son, and this little thing will not trouble the girl." ”
The old man's legs and feet were not good, and even when he stood up, the old woman wasted her strength, "Then where are you going to find your mother-in-law?" Any idea where he is? ”
"He's a good gambler, he should be in the casino's ......" When he said this, the old woman's face was obviously not good-looking, and Ji Mi snorted coldly in her heart, it turned out that she was a useless loser again.
There are many casinos on Xiulan Long Street, the largest is Boss Du's six-color casino, and the smallest can be seen in small corners in many places.
"Then let's find it for you, what's your son's name? What does it look like? What kind of clothes are you wearing today? Ji Mi's question embarrassed the old woman......
Because...... Her son had been away from home for a long time, and she had no idea what he had become of or what kind of clothes he was wearing, except for his life.
But who is Ji Mi, just knowing the name is enough.
"Tell me to go down, and find this man named He Yuanyi in the large and small casinos in the capital." At first, the old woman only thought that Ji Mi was a little girl with a bad body, but she didn't expect her aura to be so powerful, and looking at her subordinates, all of them were extraordinary, presumably this little girl was not an ordinary person.
Chiyo Mu has many subordinates, and they are all outstanding, so he soon found the old woman's son, He Yuanyi, in the Thousand Yuan Casino.
When he was found, he was still addicted to the gambling table, and the old woman staggered into the casino under the protection of the night moon. The man has gambled so much that he only has dice in his eyes, and the old lady is not as important as a silver or two in his eyes.
"Plain Easy ...... Let's go home......" The old woman grabbed He Yuanyi's arm and begged him to go back with her, but He Yuanyi didn't look at her at all, so she rudely pulled her hand back.
The sound in the casino was deafening, there was the noise of men when they were pressing, and the sound of dice tumbling and falling in the dice cup, and the old woman's voice seemed very weak, and even sounded a little pitiful.
Ji Mi looked at such an embarrassing scene on the side, shook her head and sighed.
The mother-in-law was still shaking the man's hand, and the man suddenly became irritable, shook his hand hard, and threw the old woman to the ground, still cursing in his mouth: "I said that you old thing is not good to stay at home, what are you doing here, tell you, hurry up, don't bother me!" ”
This......
What kind of bastard is this, Ji Mi stepped forward to help the old woman up, patted the ashes on her body, "Bring him out for me." ”
Ji Mi helped her mother-in-law out of the casino, and He Yuanyi was then taken out by Ji Mi's two men.
He recognized Ji Mi, and the moment he saw the person in front of him, he knelt on the ground ordinarily, "Miss Mi." I don't know where the grass people offended Miss Mi and wanted to take me out of it. ”
What about the ruthlessness just now? Isn't it amazing? Ji Mi sneered and asked, "Do you know this person?" ”
He Yuanyi nodded, "Yes." "His mother, how could he not know.
"And what was your attitude just now? I almost broke your mother, and it's too late for you to regret it. Ji Mi's words didn't shake the man's heart a little.
Instead, he looked into the distance with an indifferent expression and said, "She deserves it." Although he was a gambler, he was not a ruthless person, and there were many times when he was in a dilemma about whether to forget the past because of his mother's change, but he found that he could not forget it at all.
"She is the mother who gave birth to you, how can you say such a thing, not to mention that the old woman is so old and still comes out to look for you, why do you have no conscience so much." Lan Xiang couldn't bear it anymore and pointed at the man's nose and reprimanded.
But He Yuanyi's next words left her speechless, "Yes, she gave birth to me." But do you know what kind of life I used to live? When I was a child, she beat and scolded me at every turn, refused to give me food, and burned me with tongs, and the scar has not disappeared until now, and I don't want it to go away, because this scar reminds me all the time of what kind of life I lived in the past. She also committed adultery, and when I found out, in order to prevent me from telling my father, she threatened me with a red-hot iron rod, saying that if I dared to speak out, she would put it in my mouth and make me unable to speak for the rest of my life. In front of people, she was a gentle and kind woman and mother, and behind people, she hated to kill me with her own hands. ”
It was hard to imagine that He Yuanyi could say so calmly about the hardships he had suffered, and he continued: "I really regret that I helped her hide so many things, I should have told my father, but unfortunately, my father only knew before she was angry with her that she had committed adultery with other men for many years. My father, though he doubted that I was his own son, left me all his possessions, what do you think she came to me for? It's not for my father's money, even if I lose it all, I won't give her a cent. ”
In this regard, Ji Mi felt that he had done the right thing...... Like Ji Wuyang, she broke off the father-daughter relationship.
After listening to He Yuanyi's story, everyone's eyes when they looked at the old woman changed, and sure enough, who would have thought that the old woman with a kind and kind appearance would treat her own son like this.
Lan Xiang looked at He Yuanyi embarrassedly, she didn't even know that he would have such an experience, "The injuries left by childhood are often the most difficult to heal, old woman, you really hurt him very deeply." "Scalding with tongs, threatening with red-hot iron rods, who would have imagined that such a fierce man could have experienced such a tragic thing.
"Mother knows it's wrong...... You can go back with your mother. The old woman looked at He Yuanyi guiltily, but He Yuanyi said that he didn't want to go back, he would rather wander outside.
He Yuanyi tore off his shirt, revealing the scar, twenty-five years have passed, but the scar still looks shocking, Ji Mi covered her mouth in surprise, and frowned tightly, "I treat you now, compared to the things you did to me in the past, less than one-tenth." ”
How did this get hot, the tongs are just a clip, so thin, but the scar on it, such a big piece, must have been scalded a lot, and now Ji Mi understands He Yuanyi's hatred for her.
When people are old, when they think about the things they have done, they regret what they may do, no matter how the old woman begs for forgiveness, He Yuanyi pretends not to hear.
"Miss...... We've been out for too long, the master will be worried, let's go back. Lan Xiang's words quickly pulled Ji Mi's thoughts back, and she immediately responded: "Yes, let's go back, old woman, you and your son have a good chat, we have to go first, there is still something in the house." ”
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Leaving the mother and son, Ji Mi breathed a sigh of relief, "Hey, the world is so big, there are no surprises, you really can't just look at the surface of things......"
Really, when looking at He Yuanyi, who would have thought that he had suffered so much, so much trauma when he was a child, he was well disguised and looked optimistic and strong, but who knew the pain in his heart.
Back in the house, Chiyo Mu was drinking tea and chatting with her uncles, and when she saw Ji Mi, she quickly pulled her over and sat down, "Mi'er's face looks good, and it's right to go out for a walk." ”
"Yes, my face was still a little bad when I went out just now, but now it is much better, and it is all ruddy." Yu Yuejin handed over a piece of snack, and after Ji Mi ate it, she felt more comfortable.
By the way, she remembered, low blood sugar, "Zixun, if you go out with me in the future, bring some sugar cubes with you, or prepare a purse for me, and I will fill some sugar." ”
"Okay, what kind of candy does Mi'er like to eat? And, why do you suddenly have to bring sugar on your body? He didn't understand it very much, but after listening to Ji Mi's words, he understood a little.
"I have low blood sugar, that is, I will suddenly faint in front of my eyes, and if I have some sugar cubes on my body, it will not be so dangerous...... "Low blood sugar...... Although Chiyo Mu had never heard of it, since Ji Mi wanted it, he had a reason, so he just did it, and he didn't need to ask too much.
After Ji Mi figured out that she had low blood sugar, she paid attention to bringing some sweets with her, and ate a piece as soon as she felt that something was wrong with her body, so she suddenly fainted less and less, but sometimes if she didn't pay attention, her feet would still be weak.
The body is gradually returning to its former state, and Chiyo Mu is also very happy to see them, so the most in the Ji Mansion is now all kinds of sugar, and what Ji Mi doesn't like, or can't eat, will give it to the beggars outside to eat, and it won't be particularly wasteful.
"Hey...... I really don't like this kind of body. Ji Mi peeled a piece of candy and put it in her mouth, well, it's so sweet.