CHAPTER 40
Qian Xu immediately fought back with a backhand, but the person behind her suddenly blindfolded her and whispered in her ear: "Guess who I am?" ”
Tilt Xu said helplessly: "Don't make trouble." ”
The person behind him said, "Do you know who I am? ”
"Of all the people I know, you're the only one who would do that. Let it go. ”
The person behind him refused to let go, still covering his eyes and said, "Then tell me, who am I?" ”
He said, "Words are sparse." ”
"Alas. Boring. ”
Tilting back, he saw Yan Shu let go of his hand regretfully, stared at her with a smile, and said, "Why can you guess it's me, I deliberately lowered my voice." ”
He said seriously: "Even if you change your skin, I can recognize you." ”
"Huh?" Yan Shu said strangely, "Why? Could it be me...... What does it smell like? ”
"It's not the smell," he said, seeing that Yan Shu began to make a gesture to smell his sleeve, and reached out to stop him with a smile, "It's because I remember your breath." ”
Yan Shu lowered his sleeves, and said "oh" in disbelief, "Is my breath different from others?" ”
He nodded, but didn't explain. Yan Shu pursed his lips, didn't ask any more questions, sat down on the eaves in the corner of the house at his feet, stretched a big lazy waist and simply lay down, his hands pillowed behind his head, and looked at the moon behind the clouds very comfortably. Seeing this, he also sat down side by side with him, and lay on the layers of tiles like him, but he didn't feel embarrassed.
"Yan Shu, why are you here?"
"And what about you, why are you here?"
"I can't sleep."
"Then I can't sleep."
“...... So why are you here? ”
"Because I can't sleep."
"But...... Why are you here when you can't sleep? ”
"Hey, you can come, can't I come?"
"But ......" was about to retort, when he suddenly understood and looked at him sideways.
Under the moonlight, the side face of Yan Shu is like a jade carving, and the eyes are like a sparkling lake, glowing with gentle light. He looked at the moon quietly, and suddenly felt that he hadn't spoken again for a long time, and turned his face to speak, but found that he had been looking at him fixedly for a long time.
"Huh?" Yan Shu was a little embarrassed, turned his face again, his eyes fell on the roof in the distance, and said, "What are you looking at me for?" ”
Tilt Xu still looked at him and said, "I just dreamed, did I wake you up?" You don't have to worry about coming here with me. ”
Yan Shu blinked and said, "I heard you shouting, 'Don't kill her'." You've always slept quite shallowly, and I guess I can't sleep after this kind of dream, so I thought, come and have a look. Then I saw you walk out of the room and wander around the palace. ”
He smiled, was silent for a while, and suddenly said, "Thank you." ”
Yan Shu didn't speak, but the corners of his lips quietly raised.
The two of them were speechless for a while, and they both stared at the moon in the sky.
After a few more moments, he sat up, his fingers fiddling with the tiles at his feet, and asked as if he had asked casually.
"Yan Shu, why did you save me in the first place?"
Yan Shu also sat up, seeing her playing with her head down, her lowered eyelashes trembled slightly, he wanted to laugh a little, but he didn't show it, and said softly: "I happened to pass by your Taoist temple and saw the fire in your temple, so I ran over to take a look at it when I was curious, and I saw you tied there covered in blood, burning and dying. ”
Tilt Xu turned his head, his eyes flashed with an unknown light, and he looked at Yan Shu and said, "But I'm a Taoist priest." ”
"I know." Yan Shu smiled, "But I just thought at the time that you should be saved." If I don't save you, I'll regret it. ”
He wanted to ask "why", but he took back the words that came to his mouth, and finally held back a sentence of "thank you".
Yan Shu reached out and touched her head, and said with a smile: "How many words of thank you have you said today." I'm also doing it with my hands, so I don't have to worry about it, I don't have to worry about it. ”
In fact, he didn't say anything, that day he saw Tilt Xu being tied to the fire, and suddenly his heart was like a knife. He didn't have time to tell what the emotion was, so he hurriedly jumped off the eaves and rushed to save her.
Because he's so afraid.
I'm afraid that she will disappear into the fire in the next second.
And this unknown panic, he attributed it to the inexplicable feelings that arise after a glimpse of the life.
But how can this be explained, do you want to tell her that I actually fell in love with you at first sight when you were almost burned by the fire?
The words were ridiculous, and he touched the back of his head with a little weakness, but he didn't notice that his expression was darkening on the side, and he seemed to be struggling with something in his heart.
After a while, he suddenly raised his head and said in a low voice: "Yan Shu." ”
"Huh?"
"Do you want to ...... Look at my dreams? ”
Yan Shu was stunned, met her firm eyes, felt a little uncomfortable for some reason, and said, "What's wrong?" ”
He lowered his head again, but his voice was unusually clear: "Yan Shu, the dream I just had was a memory from my previous past. A paragraph that I can't ...... Forgiveness of the past. I, I want you to see it, because ......"
Her voice suddenly lowered, she didn't hear clearly, and leaned over and said, "Because of what?" ”
Looking at his bright and concerned eyes, he was suddenly speechless.
Because, I'm not worth saving.
"I ...... Help you dream. He said in a low voice, his fingers trembling a little, and he gently tapped his forehead, "This dream can let you see my ...... A piece of the past. ”
Yan Shu lay down, closed her eyes in accordance with her movements, and said, "I must look at it carefully, but why are your fingers so cold, are you cold?" ”
He didn't answer, but said softly: "Yan Shu, no matter what you think or what you want to do after reading it, I accept it." ”
Even if you want to kill me to vent your anger on the demon, I will cooperate.
The night was still dark and peaceful, and he sat beside Yan Shu, waiting anxiously for him to wake up. She wondered how he would react when he woke up, but she wished he hadn't.
What will happen to him, will he be angry, will he be disgusted, or will he be detached?
He...... Will it still be the same as before?
Preparing for the worst, he closed his eyes and waited.
In fact, it didn't take long for Yan Shu to wake up after closing his eyes, but he felt that his days were like years. Yan Shu opened his eyes, and saw a pale face and closed eyes, his expression was complicated, he hesitated, reached out and touched her face, it was really cold.
"Tilt, you open your eyes and look at me."
Hearing this, he opened his eyes and looked into his deep eyes, waiting anxiously for his words.
Yan Shu looked at her quietly for a while, and suddenly said, "You, why do you want to show me this memory?" ”
This tone is neither light nor serious, so that people cannot guess his thoughts. Tilting his throat was dry, he didn't dare to look into his eyes, and lowered his eyes and said, "I just want you to know...... What kind of person I am. Even if I don't say it now, you'll know what I've done sooner or later, won't you? ”
"yes." Yan Shu said calmly, "What you have done, you can't hide it after all." ”
The hand was hidden in the sleeve and gradually clenched.
She was waiting, waiting for a result, or a judgment.
The air seemed to have condensed at this point, and no one spoke for a while. Yan Shu looked at her, and she looked straight at the eaves.
After a while, a warm hand suddenly fell on the tilt of the head, and she raised her head blankly, smiling at her eyes. For some reason, the more gentle he was, the more she felt ashamed. So she subconsciously shrank back, dodging Yan Shu's hand.
Yan Shu smiled and said, "Tilt Xu, now I know what dreams you have." Didn't you want me to see it, why did you hide from me after watching it? ”
"It's not a dream...... This is what really happened. ”
Yan Shu reached out to hold her face, forcing her to look up at him, and said softly, "I know." This is just a thing of the past. ”
"Yan Shu" turned his head to escape his hands and whispered, "I've done a lot of stupid things in the past. No, it's wrong. ”
Yan Shu said: "That was in the past. ”
"I have killed countless demons. ”
Yan Shu said: "It has been. ”
"I never understood why demons want to harm people. So I caught the demons when I saw them, and killed them when I caught them, regardless of their pleas. Later, I gradually realized that maybe it was not their intention to harm others. But it was too late. ”
"I thought the world wouldn't allow them, but now I know that it was me who wouldn't tolerate them."
In the end, he was speechless, and he raised his hand and covered his face.
Yan Shu said softly: "You can understand that it is the greatest salvation. ”
He raised his head, looked at him deeply and said, "Why do you comfort me?" I have killed so many of your kind, don't you hate me? ”
Yan Shu said admittedly: "I can't hate it." The past can't be changed, and you're not the same person you used to be. You see, when you face Jin Chen, Yan Yan, and me, you are not the same you you used to be, are you? Looking at his mournful and wooden face, he was inexplicably uncomfortable, and said softly, "The reason why you did that in the past is because no one told you that it was wrong. The world says that all demons are harmful and deserve to die, so you believe it. But it's not your fault, you know? You can't be blamed for that. ”
He smiled bitterly and laughed at himself a little tiredly: "I did something wrong, and I want you to comfort me." I know it. ”
Yan Shu said: "If you knew it in your heart, you wouldn't be so afraid that I hate you." ”
She looked at him, and suddenly felt at ease in her heart, she smiled palely, reached out, and held Yan Shu's hand.
Yan Shu held her tightly back, pulled her into her arms with the other hand, rested her chin on her shoulder socket, and smiled: "But I'm very happy, leaning life." Because you're willing to take the initiative to tell me. ”
Tilt Xu let out a soft "um", reached out to hug him, and closed his eyes.
At this moment, someone in the room under their feet violently lifted a tile, poked out his delicate head, and said angrily to Tan Xu and Yan Shu, "How long do you have to talk??? ”
Early the next morning, Tan Xu and Yan Shu got up and wanted to take a carriage into the palace with Yu Wenwei.
Thanks to last night, Yan Yan drove the two back to sleep, although he didn't sleep for a few hours, he was in good spirits, and his words were also full of energy, but Yan Yan, who was traveling with him, had a blue face, and he had an expression of not approaching anyone with a sword.
"What's wrong with you?" Yu Wenwei frowned and asked.
"Back to the prince," Yan Yan gritted his teeth, "two bats hung at the door of my house last night, chattering all night, and I couldn't sleep well. ”
Yan Shu pretended to be surprised: "Huh?! Bats can still chirp, weird! ”
Yan Yan glared at him hatefully, and turned his face to say no more. Tilting his eyes drifted out of the window, as if he didn't care about himself.
Yu Wenwei was a little confused, but he didn't show it, and was about to say something, when suddenly the carriage stopped suddenly, and everyone fell forward uncontrollably.
"Who?"