Foreword: Love you, miss you, love you, in this life, in the next life, in the life to come.

Body:

A family whose wife died of illness at the beginning of this year. The husband and wife are in love and inseparable on weekdays. The death of his wife dealt him a heavy blow, so after his wife was buried, the husband went to his wife's grave every day to burn incense and light paper, and whispered.

No matter day or night, whether it is cloudy or sunny or rainy, and no matter what the villagers talk behind their backs, almost every moment, every minute and every second, they talk to themselves and cry loudly in front of their wife's tombstone.

"After you left, I really didn't feel comfortable in my heart, I always met you vaguely in my dreams, but I didn't really see you. And last night, I dreamed that you were sitting at a table in the house, wearing the wedding dress of your youth, looking at me beautifully and smiling at me. ”

"I asked you where you went, and you smiled and didn't say anything, just hugged my body, put the corners of your mouth close to my lips, and kissed and kissed. And when I wanted to ask you, you were gone. When I opened my eyes, it turned out to be just a dream, a dream that matched the real world. ”

"I guess you'll miss me, and so will I. ”

With tears in his eyes, the man poured a glass of wine in front of his wife's grave, sprinkled it on the loess in front of him, moved his chopsticks twice, and continued:

"Before you died, tell me that the one who can't let go of me the most is me, the children are adults, their character is strong, without you, they are just sad for a while, and for my husband, I may never be at ease. ”

"You have said many times that I am too careful in my mind, and my heart is as delicate as a woman, yes, I am really like this for you. ”

"You said that I can only love you alone in this life and this life, so after you die, I can't take a wife anymore, what are you talking about, since I am your husband, I want to love you wholeheartedly, how can I fall in love with other women? What's more, that person is you. ”

"When the people of the village saw that I often ran to you, they talked about me a lot, some whispered that I was possessed by ghosts, some said that I had become crazy, some said that I was incurable, some said that I was pathetic and lamentable, some said that I was a child and a child, and some said that I was pitiful and ridiculous. Whatever he does, they say theirs, I do mine, how will they know about my agreement with you?"

The man's tears flowed down and he didn't wipe them, and the tears were slowly dried, and the long tear stains were engraved on his face.

"You said, after death, you want me to come to see you often, you are afraid of loneliness and loneliness, don't let me leave you here alone, come to see you often, chat with you, and see the sunset that ends. Always clean up the weeds on your grave because you like to be clean and don't like clutter. ”

"How could I forget what you told me, the last words you left me, this is what I promised you, and I will do it. If you are treacherous, I really owe you everything. ”

"Rest assured, two children, all are fine. Ping'er participated in the imperial examination and passed the examination, and everyone in the village said that our family had a Wenqu star. Qing'er inherited your silkworm reeling and textile business at home, and the clothes woven from silk are first-class, and she looks as beautiful as you, I think, she will marry a good mother-in-law. ”

The man poured a second glass of wine and poured it into the loess a second time.

"In my days without you, I often look at the clothes you wore and the various tools you used when you were alive. Looking at it, you will remember the ups and downs you have walked through. ”

"I remember when I was younger, I met you for the first time, I was only eighteen years old, and you were only fifteen. I sat on the edge of the bed with you, and my heart was beating nervously, and I didn't dare to look at you. Or do you take the initiative to talk to me and tell me that I will be your husband in the future, and you will follow me for the rest of your life, and you reach out, grab my hand, and giggle. At that time, I looked up at you in surprise, there were peach blossoms in your eyes, at that moment, time seemed to stand still, so that in the depths of my memory, you will always retain your posture at that time. ”

"The two families decided to be married, I went to join the army, and before leaving, you told me that I was less majestic, and on the battlefield, the sword had no eyes, and I couldn't beat it, so I ran back. Don't be rash, life and death in a moment, it's not a joke. ”

"In the year I joined the army, life was difficult, and the army was ambushed by the enemy many times and was defeated by the enemy. I think of your words, if you can't fight, you can run away, and you can really escape death every time. You can say that your words saved my life. ”

"After a year of military service, I came back, and I remember the day of reunion a year later, you were washing your mother's clothes by the river, I called your name, you turned around, stunned, smiled, threw down your clothes, turned around, ran over, jumped into my arms like a fawn, and wept wordlessly. I still remember that day, the aftermath of the bell ringing came from the temple in the distance. ”

"Married, I lifted your red hijab, you lowered your head for the first time, groping back and forth with both hands, very nervous. You told me that after tonight, you will completely become my other half, and the two of us will each hold half of our hearts, and it will be incomplete without anyone. I'll blow out the candle and hold you in my arms······"

"Since then, you have lived with me for thirty years, and you have worked hard in this family, and all kinds of big and small matters have been well organized and meticulous. also gave birth to two sensible and well-behaved children for me, Ping'er and Qing'er, I have a son and a daughter, and no one is happier than me. ”

"I thought that I could enjoy the blessings of my children in the future, but you had an incurable disease, although I went around buying medicine and seeking medical treatment, but there was no medicine to cure, and no doctor could save your life. I just can't let go of my two children. You said that after you die, you will bless the family and protect me and my children. ”

After the man finished speaking, he picked up the flask and poured the third glass of wine on the loess.

When I walked out of the cemetery, the canopy had already darkened, and on the way back, a cold wind blew, and the man's heart was even colder.

At this time, the surrounding darkness is changing, and slowly the darkness becomes light.

After a little more waiting, the man found that all around him was shining with golden light, and looked down at his feet, there was a golden river flowing under his feet, and he looked at the river carefully, and what flowed in that river was not water, but large and small, irregular, thousands of unnamed insects, some of them were oval, some were square, some were feathered······

The man was especially amazed and looked at the "river" at a loss.

At that moment, he heard a familiar voice calling his name.

He looked up, searching for voices, and saw her.

She was still the same as when she was young, very beautiful, big eyes, black and shiny hair, as if a breeze was blowing and pulling her hair, she stroked the back hair with her hand, her slender fingers were snow-white and bright, the raised right hand, a little white skin leaked barely, and the wrist of the orchid sleeve showed the jade bracelet he gave her.

"Where have you been all these days?" he asked in a trembling voice with tears in his eyes.

"I miss you so much, I really miss you. He said.

She was on the other side, still smiling and calling his name.

"Zhixin, you come here, you come here. She called to him on the other side of the river.

He looked at her infatuatedly, and slowly moved his steps towards her.

"Don't go over, she's not your wife, she's just the lovesick spirit in your body awakened by your thoughts and your affection, the river under your feet is a golden spirit river, the spirit river is the original origin of all spirit seeds, and the light under your feet you see is the hatchling of all kinds of spirit seeds. On the left bank of the Spirit River where you are is the secular world, and on the other side is the spiritual world that belongs to another world. Once you cross this river, you will become a mutant of non-human and non-spirit, and no one will see you when you return to the earthly world, no matter how loudly you speak, no matter what sound you make, others will not feel your presence at all. Even your body can pass through the entities of worldly people. ”

This is because, although your consciousness is still worldly, your body has become spiritual. If you go to the spirit world, what you feel is a deeper level of pain, where there are no human beings, there is nothing in the world, only all kinds of single spirits that cannot speak, the wife you are looking for is just an illusion, it seems that she is communicating with you now, but she is just your consciousness, because your thoughts day and night awaken the lovesick spirit in your body, and the lovesick spirit takes you with such a deep and unforgettable consciousness, transforms into the appearance of your wife, and deceives you, just like a mother I once met who received the feast of the spirit. ”

The man saw the figure of a man looming on the other side of the Spirit River, he had snow-white hair, the long white hair covered his right eye, and he carried a wooden box on his back, sitting quietly on the other side of the Spirit River, watching him with his left eye.

"Zhixin, you come here, you come here. She was still shouting, still waving.

The man looked at the white-haired man on the other bank, hesitated, and continued to walk towards the other side of the Spirit River.

The white-haired man stood up on the other side of the bank.

"I am the one who takes care of this spiritual river, my name is Lingshi Gu, the love of the world, the meaning of the world, the importance and degree, seeing clearly and not obsessed, is the way to survive. I hear clearly what you say at her grave, you are a seven-foot man, who has the appearance of a man, but lacks the spirit of a man. The so-called heroes are short of breath, and their children are long. However, you can't be a hero in your life. ”

"Your wife, under the Nine Springs, will not be happy, let alone happy, to see you so depraved. What she is worried about, as long as you achieve perfection, she can look at that world, that is, try to look at the future, chase the happiness of survival, in the face of setbacks and hardships, forge ahead, after you have a firm belief, the belief to live forward, and put it into practice, she will really smile, and before that, all smiles are fake smiles, all are bitter smiles, are hesitant about the future. ”

The man stood in the middle of the Spirit River, weeping bitterly and hoarsely. This was what he had suppressed for months, and it was seen through by an unknown person on the other side.

The crying stopped, he raised his head, looked at her on the other side, and said, "I will always remember you and live well with your hope." ”

As soon as she finished speaking, her body turned into a shiny golden light and slowly dissipated.

The river slowly faded in color and became pitch black. Look at the man again, he is gone.

The man stood again in the darkness, but he saw the lights under the hill, and he knew that there were two children in a light in the village, worried about him, expecting him to return. It's where he belongs, and there's her smile. With this in mind, he walked briskly down the hill.