It was a straw that broke the camel's back, but it was a mountain that overwhelmed Jinyan.

The Empress is critically ill!

Jin Yan thought that the mother emperor was just a disease caused by autumn dryness, but unexpectedly, from autumn to deep winter, the cough became more and more intense, and he had coughing up blood.

In Jin Yan's heart, the mother emperor is her mountain, which will always stand majestically, she never thought that this mountain would have a day when it could not be supported, and she never thought that her mother emperor would leave her one day.

Looking at the emaciated mother emperor like a withered yellow leaf, Jin Yan's heart ached, but he couldn't do anything. Such and such things were already unbearable for her, and now it is even more difficult for her to breathe.

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Jinhua Palace

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The empress who had taken the medicine seemed to have a little more energy at this time, and Jin Yan sat on the edge of the bed and looked at his mother emperor without blinking.

The Empress Tai thought that when Jin Yan was young, she was always very busy, but this child was very clingy, so she always handed her over to her grandmother when she was not paying attention, and she sneaked away.

Over time, Jin Yan also learned to be obedient, always looking at himself with those big round eyes without blinking, for fear that if he didn't pay attention, he wouldn't be able to find his mother emperor.

Later, Jin Yan grew up, had his own friends, had his own things, and had his own world, and that gaze never appeared again, and now looking at it again, it is so joyful and embarrassing.

The Empress reached out and took Jin Yan in her arms, just like when she was a child, patting her vest one by one, as if those young and beautiful years had never passed.

At this moment, both mother and daughter chose to be silent, but the empress sighed in her heart, time has always been the fairest and most ruthless, and she is afraid that she will not be able to survive this winter. Looking back on the life she has had, those people and things that have passed in a hurry, she has regrets and regrets in her heart, but she has never been soft-hearted and retreated.

This daughter is like her but not like her, if she was born in an ordinary family and has a virtuous son-in-law, this life should be plain and smooth. just sitting in such an eye-catching position, the slender shoulders have to carry the country's society and bear the responsibility of the rise and fall; A pure heart is subject to intrigue and intrigues, and is filled with love and hatred. She's gone, will her child be able to resist all this?

In such an eventful autumn, at the end of her life, she was full of reluctance and concern, and she could only teach this time.

"Jin Yan, what you have done in the past year since you took the throne, although it is not the best, but it has gradually come to the essentials, I am very relieved of these, only one thing, although I understand you, but I can't rely on you!"

"Jin Yan, do you remember what your mother emperor said to you when you were six years old?"

Jin Yan remembered those words very clearly, and she even remembered every movement and expression of the mother emperor when she said these words. In fact, when she was growing up, this was the golden rule engraved in her bones, and it almost became her belief, if it weren't for the appearance of Ying Qi later, she would have a different life trajectory now.

"Mother Emperor, the sons have never forgotten."

The Empress Dowager chuckled, "You have never forgotten, but you have never done it." ”

"Mother Emperor...... I ......"

Jin Yan wanted to explain something, but the Empress Dowager stopped her.

"I don't mean to blame you, in all fairness, except for jealousy, the queen is already very good, which is one of the reasons why I agreed to this marriage in the first place. If you can be with the person you love for life, it is also a blessing in life, but now the situation is no longer a matter of the two of you! Do you understand? ”

Jin Yan blindly buried her head and didn't answer, she didn't understand, she just didn't want to say.

The Empress Dowager pushed Jin Yan away from her arms and looked at her solemnly, "You can be a mediocre monarch, or even a faint monarch, but you can't ignore my Jin clan for a man!" ”

"Since you don't have an heir, then why is it so difficult to find a man who has an heir with you, but to let you change someone to sleep?! It's been a long time, you have been corrupted by Nanqian's idea of male superiority and inferiority, and you are willing to abide by the three obedience and four virtues that imprison women, chastity and martyrdom! ”

"Don't forget, you are the empress of Beiluo, and you are the example of thousands of women in Beiluo, can you have a little bit of the empress's mind and courage!"

The mother emperor's word hit Jin Yan's heart in pain, but it was difficult to speak, and she could only explain negtially, "No, mother emperor, no, I just love her, I can't hurt him!" ”

As if she had exhausted her last strength, the Empress Dowager was panting and still every word was very clear, "No one doesn't let you love her, he already knew before he got married that he was destined to share your love with other men, and now like this, I would rather fight to the death than allow this marriage that day!" ”

"What are you hesitating about, how long do you think this matter can be delayed?!"

It was like sounding the last alarm bell, and when he heard this, Jin Yan was already crying bitterly. She didn't know that the matter was imminent, but she knew so well what the result would be of Ning Weiyu's broken sentence.

"Mother Emperor, give me some more time, and I will definitely think of a way to do both! Mother Emperor, I can't lose his ......"

The Empress seemed to have heard an extremely funny joke, and she laughed endlessly, completely ignoring Jinyan's surprise and confusion, until she laughed out of tears but suddenly calmed down, and once again took Jinyan in her arms, and taught her like a loving mother.

"Ayan, my son, the mother emperor has only understood two things in his life."

"The first thing is that there is no way to have both worlds in this world, and some are just involuntarily."

"The second thing, what is loss? The real loss is when the person dies. ”

"Ayan, no matter who it is, if you give birth to an heir, it will be my Jin family's bloodline after all, and you will have an explanation."

"My fool, at this point, you alone can't protect him. Either go with him or let him go......"

"Ayan, this Jin clan river and mountain has exhausted the life of the mother emperor, and you just let it be ruined!"

"You! Do you want me to die without looking at you?! ”

Jin Yan didn't know how she got back to the Splendid Palace, she only remembered that her exhausted mother emperor grabbed her wrist with her weak strength, as if she was saving something, more like she was saving something.

******

It was another snowy night, and the two were busy with their own things, and Jin Yan patiently reviewed them one by one. Suddenly, her hand shook, and then looked down, even her fingertips trembled slightly, she quietly looked at Ying Qi, and found that he didn't notice this, so she quickly pressed the fold on the bottom layer.

It was a joint letter, sprinkled with tens of thousands of words, from the current situation in Beiluo to the crisis, from the founding empress to the deep understanding of righteousness, from the bloodline inheritance to the ardent expectations, from the hundreds of officials and the people to tears. Such a large length of words and words are really touching, and in Jinyan's opinion, this is the only paragraph they really want to tell themselves.

"Folk rumors spread in Beiluo, rumors that Nanqian married the most favored prince to Beiluo, intending to cut off our country's veins, which is really ill-intentioned, if this matter is not properly handled, it may lead to a dispute between the two countries! It's hard for the queen to be alone! ”

Jin Yan thought that she was finally going to break her promise......

In the evening of the next day, Jin Yan went to Jinhua Palace, and after dinner, she sent a palace attendant to rumor that she would serve the mother emperor and let him rest early.

She had already figured out that she needed an heir.

If he is his biological father, he will be able to protect the child to grow up safely and inherit the unification, and she can also be separated from Ying Qitian! From now on she won't have so many responsibilities, only each other, and that's the best she can think of.

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Jinnian Palace

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Jin Yan's arrival was beyond Zhan Nian's expectations, he thought he would have to wait for a long time, although he had been waiting for a long time.

Straight to the point, Jin Yan asked directly, "Zhan Nian, I need a child, only you are the most suitable, but no one knows that you are the father of the child, are you willing?" ”

Such an authoritarian and ruthless, just one sentence, made all Zhan Nian's waiting turn into a joke in a moment. He stared at Jin Yan without blinking, he wanted to see the slightest difference in that calm, almost indifferent expression, but what he read was always just a meaning.

She needed a child and was forced to come to him just because he was the most suitable. And even if they have the most intimate contact and the deepest bond, they still will not have the slightest connection. Like the shadow hidden in the darkness, he is a projection of the sun, but he has no qualifications to see the sun.

It's really eccentric, but it's a pity that the object of eccentricity is not him......

A person with a thousand dollars in his pocket, even if he has ten thousand taels of silver, still feels too light; A destitute man can rejoice even for a penny. Zhan Nian is the destitute person, although his heart is sour, he is still glad that she came to find him and no one else. Shadows are shadows, what does it matter if others know it?

"Your Majesty, I just want to know if you remember?"

Jin Yan was slightly flustered, she thought that he might refuse her, there might be a request, at least he would ask clearly, but she asked such a sentence, would she remember? Is it enough for her to remember?

"Yes, I will remember, Zhan Nian, I will remember." Jin Yan cautiously emphasized again and again.

A soft sigh echoed between the two, and Zhan Nian silently said in his heart: You will remember, where will you remember? Is it the end of the earth or the world?

He picked up a strand of broken hair next to Jin Yan's ear, pinned it thinly, and sighed slowly, "Although it is not the way I want, I can't refuse." ”

Jin Yan smiled lightly, "That's fine......"

She took the initiative to wrap her arms around his neck, but buried her head in it, not looking at who he was, it didn't matter who he was......

Zhan Nian picked up Jin Yan and walked to the depths of the dormitory, and a heavy curtain fell, until the two of them could no longer be seen......