391: Her grave
Zong Xuanyi had been watching her from the side, and he suddenly remembered the day she died. Her eyes looked very flustered, eagerly looking for him in the crowd, and then the moment she saw him, her eyes gradually turned red, but the tears did not fall after all, and all that was left in her eyes was thick tiredness and despair.
At that time, he didn't know that she had already known her plan and had already made up her mind to die. He thought that if he was only injured a little, he would be fine. He was so cruel to her, and did so many unforgivable things, and it wasn't worse than that.
His heart suddenly felt like it had been pierced by a knife, churning in it so hard that he couldn't even breathe in pain, but he still remembered to hold her hand. He secretly told himself over and over again in his heart that he would not let go of her again, and that only one time was enough for life and death.
This time, Nalan Jinxiu did not refuse him. Because her mind was on the tombstone with her back to her, she was wondering what would be carved on it, and she was also thinking that the person buried in the tomb should have only a handful of bones left.
Zong Xuanyi found that her hands were particularly cold, a kind of biting cold. He warmed her hand in the palm of his hand, just as he had warmed her for so many days.
At that time, he would always smile and put her cold hand on his warm skin. And then laughed badly. He didn't understand why she was so happy when she was playing pranks, but she always said to him proudly, because I like to warm my hands!
It's not that she's afraid of the cold, it's not that no one warms her hands, it's just that the person she likes is him.
He had asked himself countless times, obviously to get close to her, to take revenge on her father, and to seek justice for the dead people. But why was he lost in his emotions?
Later, he gradually figured it out, because of the feelings she gave him, the best thing in the world, single-minded, never double-minded. After her, there were many women who showed favor to him, and each one of them had a purpose.
Some are for his money, or for his status, and some are for ulterior motives to approach him. He finally realized that the rarest thing in this world is a lover.
There must be very few people who are really willing to give themselves to you completely. Many people spend their lives in poverty, and maybe they don't meet a single one, but he doesn't cherish it when he makes an appointment.
He thought countless times that if time could come back, he would definitely do everything he could to be good to her and return her a wholehearted affection.
Nalan Jinxiu was held by his hand, walked over slowly, and after seeing the words engraved on the tombstone, his breathing suddenly stopped, as she expected, this is her tomb!
She stood quietly in front of her grave, looking at the words on it, and felt a pain in her head, which slowly spread to her chest, and then to the limbs.
She was thinking that if she died casually like a normal person, sleeping in the ground forever, it seemed that nothing would happen.
If that were the case, she wouldn't have met her third brother, she wouldn't have a child, and her life would still be regrettable. She turned her head and said coldly: "Since this is the tomb of your first wife, and the dead are the greatest, why don't you let me put incense on her!"
Zong Xuanyi signaled to the people behind him, and someone came over with incense. Nalan Jinxiu lit the incense and put it in the incense burner. In the green smoke, she could clearly see that the tomb was still engraved with an epitaph.
Jun Nalan Jinxiu, Jinling people's family, born for five years out of ten and returned to Yi......
Attributed to Yi, attributed to Zong Xuanyi.
She married him when she was fifteen, and at that time she thought that she had finally achieved what she wanted, but she did not know that it was only the beginning of her tragic life. A trace of pain seeped into her cold and hardwood heart, and she recognized it as his handwriting, carved by his own hand.
He used to be the husband that Daddy found for her, taught her to read and write, and even taught her how to write Bagu Wen and how to solve problems. How could she not recognize his penmanship?
If there was only a gap between the husband and the student, maybe she wouldn't be so miserable. Because then she wouldn't have any illusions about him. But that's not the case, so many painful and deep memories are like engraved in her blood and bones, how can she forget them?
Her head grew heavier, her heart ached, and she found herself without tears. It's not that her reason is already strong to this extent, it's that she can't show weakness now, otherwise it will be equivalent to admitting it.
Zong Xuanyi was originally forcing her. With his understanding of her, when she saw her grave, she could no longer face it calmly, and she would always show emotions that she could no longer refute. That way he would be able to get her back.
How could his wife marry someone else? Who else in this world could be worthy of her but himself? But the reality was very different from what he imagined, and she seemed to have no other emotions except that her face was even paler.
He looked into her eyes and saw that it was hollow. If this was a wrestling between two people, he knew that he had lost, and he couldn't watch her continue to be tortured. So he took a few steps forward, stretched out his hand to cover her eyes, and said in a dumb voice: "If you don't dare to look at it, don't look at it, I'll take you back." ”
Nalan Jinxiu pulled his hand down, his expression was still very indifferent, if it were any person, he wouldn't feel uncomfortable when he encountered this kind of thing! She stared at the tombstone, but her words were to him: "I have already seen what you want to show me, can you let me go now?"
"You know I'm not going to let go. ”
"I don't know!" her voice rose suddenly.
Zong Xuanyi was angry now, and the pain in his chest was reminding him not to be impulsive and not to do anything that hurt her. But intellectually, after all, she can't accept that she is married to someone else and loves that person deeply.
"My patience is limited, I hope you don't push me. Zong Xuanyi took her hand and said indifferently: "I was worried that you just had a tire gas and are not suitable for a long trip, since you are fine now, then come with me!"
Nalan Jinxiu frowned: "Where are you going to take me?"
"It's good anywhere, but you can't stay in Jinling. Otherwise, Ji Hongye came to the door, and it would be really difficult to deal with it. ”
Nalan Jinxiu thought that if he took him away and hid her, then the third brother might not be able to find her. Since then, there has been no him by her side, only the nightmarish Zong Xuanyi remained, and she shook her head violently.
"I'm not asking for your opinion. Zong Xuanyi took her hand and walked forward, but she didn't cooperate, so he hugged her domineeringly.
"You let go of me, Zong Xuanyi, you madman!" Nalan Jinxiu was not at all at ease in his arms, and punched and kicked him.
Zong Xuanyi turned a blind eye and only said coldly: "If you think about the child in your belly, then you'd better keep to yourself." You just took the tocolytic pill, and it is not good for your child to toss it like this. ”
Nalan Jinxiu listened to his words, and felt a little relieved. According to his meaning, he shouldn't do anything to the child, at least not now. But where is he going to take himself? With his strength, it is very simple to hide someone.
She was afraid that the third brother would not find her. I was a little flustered, but now my mind suddenly cleared up. You can't let him take him away, you have to think of an excuse to stay. She reached out to cover her stomach and said bitterly, "My stomach hurts." ”
Zong Xuanyi, who was originally holding her, stopped with his feet. He looked down at her, trying to tell from her look if she was lying. But all he could see was her pale face, and there was an extra layer of sweat on her forehead.
She had a stomachache at this time, and it was very likely that she was cheating, but he couldn't let her take the risk, so he had to carry her back to the bedroom and let people go to Dr. Chen. Dr. Chen hurriedly came over with the medicine box, and after cutting the pulse and convincing the fetal medicine, the pulse phase has been much smoother, and there is no major problem.
"Then why does he have abdominal pain?" Zong Xuanyi asked.
Most of the painful stomachs of women who are pregnant and have not yet reached the labor period are signs of miscarriage, and Dr. Chen naturally does not dare to slack off. Baba took the pulse again and found that Nalan Jinxiu was pretending to have a stomachache. So, he reported it truthfully.
She was pretending, which had long been expected by Zong Xuanyi. Seeing that Dr. Chen couldn't help, he waved him down. He sat down on the edge of the bed, kept eye level with Nalan Jinxiu, and asked her in a gentle tone: "You also heard what the doctor said just now, and you want to leave me like this?"
"I'm going home. Nalan Jinxiu was calm, and she didn't have the slightest embarrassment of being caught lying by herself.
"This is your home. ”
"It's not!"
Zong Xuanyi glared at her viciously, his expression was very cold: "You are the lady I am marrying, I have not divorced my wife, you will always be my person." ”
Nalan Jinxiu pinched the corners of the quilt fiercely with both hands, she has now determined, Zong Xuanyi has already determined her identity, it doesn't matter if she admits it or not, it is impossible for him to let her go.
"I'm already married, and I'm about to have children, isn't it difficult for you to be strong?"
When she said this, it seemed to ignite his anger even more. Although he didn't speak, the green tendons on his forehead burst out, and his two hands were clenched into fists.
He was trying to suppress his temper, because he didn't want to hurt her, because he knew that it would not be easy to recover if he was lost. He had already decided in his heart that Ji Hongye would definitely not be able to stay. One is to cut off her thoughts, and the other is that he has long been in the way of his eyes, and wants to get rid of it as soon as possible.
"If you don't let people go, won't my family come to look for them?" Nalan Jinxiu was afraid from the bottom of her heart when the three of them stood together, because it would be tantamount to reminding her that she had a past that she could not look back on, and she also hid it from her third brother.
Zong Xuanyi sneered: "Do you think I will be afraid?"
Just when the two couldn't hold each other, Chen Zhi knocked on the door outside. Zong Xuanyi said something to him at the door, and then turned his head to Nalan Jinxiu with a heavy face: "I have something to go out for, you stay well." ”