Foreword: The third door, the suspicion of mirroring

Body:

"It's strange that there is no picture of the beast in this door, what the hell is going on?"

As the door opened, countless candles were lit, and behind the rows of candles were countless mirrors, the light reflected by the mirrors made it impossible for Gu to open his eyes.

After Gu He slowed down for a moment, he slowly opened his eyes, and the light of the candle flame flickered back and forth in the mirror.

"It's the first time I've seen so many mirrors in my life. ”

Gu walked up to those mirrors, and his image was reflected in the mirrors.

Gu looked at himself in the mirror: "Unconsciously, I have become an adult, thinking back to the situation of my teenage years, life is in the world, life is not eternal, fleeting, short-lived." It seems that through a mirror, you can see the previous past, those crying, laughing, painful, sad, vividly, as if you can reach out and grasp it, but although it is close at hand, it is difficult to reach, like countless bright stars hanging in the sky; ”

"This is a person's life, just a few decades, only a few decades, during the Great Qin Empire, King Yingzheng of Qin sent special people to refine the elixir, look for immortals, spend the country's manpower and financial resources to build the Great Wall, build a huge mausoleum, in the end, even the first emperor of the ages Yingzheng did not live to be a hundred years old, this is the fate of people, no one can change it. Everyone will die, and no one can escape, but in the process of death, everyone's choice is different. ”

Gu raised his head and looked around, and said abruptly, "Where will I go?"

As soon as the words fell, all the mirrors began to move, and Gu clenched his sword, ready to fight.

I saw that all the mirrors were placed in front of Gu in an orderly manner, and in those mirrors, what was reflected was Gu itself.

"Aren't there any traps?" Gu's sword-wielding hand relaxed slightly.

"Ominous breath, candles moving. Gu muttered to himself.

But seeing all the candles "whirring", the flames rendered the mirror, and the mirror changed.

(Scene in the mirror)

"I, gone, take care of the children, this time for military service, I don't know how many years. A man said.

"Come back early, my child and I will always be waiting for you in this house. A woman holding a baby said.

There were tears in the man's eyes, "If I ······"

"No if, you are my man, my man I know in my heart, he is brave and fearless, with one against three, plus the protection of me and my children. He will come back, and when he returns, he will be a majestic general, with a sword and armor, straddling a tall horse, followed by thousands of horses, and a bright and bright man who will greet me and my children in the envy of others. ”

The man smiled and nodded, turned around, and walked into the array of troops, slowly disappearing in the bustling farewell procession.

The woman held the child and looked in the direction where the army was leaving, for a long time······

After that, the woman came to the landlord's house, carrying the child behind her, and worked as a maid to fetch water and wash clothes.

When the child is hungry, he will cry on his back, because there is still work to be done, and the woman has no time to cover up, so in front of the other slaves, she squats on the ground, undresses her clothes, reveals a shriveled **, and feeds the child a few mouthfuls of milk. Because the child couldn't suck milk, he chewed the ** with all his might, and the woman's brows wrinkled again and again, but there was still a smile on the corner of her mouth.

The landlord came to inspect and saw that she was not working, so he went up and kicked the woman to the ground, and scolded: "I see that you have a poor child, so I accepted you, you are good, in the name of feeding the child, you are lazy and do not work, how can you find it? I don't want to do it? I don't want to do it, get out! The last thing that Lao Tzu lacks is that you are lazy and lazy. ”

"Master, please, please, I'll work, I'll work, please give me another chance, you let me work, you're saving me!

"Alright, alright, come and wait for me at the door tonight. ”

The woman should take it.

In the evening, the woman came to the door of the landlord's house and knocked softly.

It took the landlord a long time to open the door, and when he saw the woman coming, he said, "Come in." ”

"Master, what is the matter with me?"

"Do you still want to stay here and work?"

"Yes. ”

"This is easy to do, as long as you serve me well tonight, I promise to let you stay enough. ”

"I ······"

"What am I, let me tell you, if I hadn't devoted myself to the Buddha and taken in you orphans and widows, otherwise, the two of you would have starved to death in the wilderness, how could you?

"Yes, sir, I promise you. The woman took the child off her back, and the child was still asleep, sleeping so soundly.

Then the woman unbuttoned her clothes, and the landlord couldn't wait to throw her into his arms.

After a long time, the door of the landlord's house was suddenly kicked open, and a fat woman, holding a feather duster, shouted: "Good you brute, you are getting bolder and bolder, and you like to mess with flowers and grass, I will kill you!"

The fat woman picked up the feather duster, lifted the quilt, and beat the landlord with a red strip, and the landlord ran around with his head and begged for mercy, until he was beaten by his wife until he was beaten by his wife until he was purple and green here, and green and purple there.

The woman had enough of the landlord and looked at the woman on the bed with disdain: "Hey, I should be the vixen, it turns out that you are a lover who has a man and is still cheating outside, and you can't be idle when you have a child, you can really do it, what kind of bullshit, it's really the blind old lady's eyes." ”

The child was crying on the table, and the woman was naked, holding the baby in her arms, comforting him and weeping silently.

"I regret it, you vixen still know how to cry, take your torn clothes, get out of the way, get away, don't appear under my nose again, let me see you again, the old lady has to kill you!" The fat woman didn't say a word, and threw down the woman's clothes on the bed.

The woman put on her clothes, tightened her back to the child, and bowed deeply to the fat woman.

"Get out! Who likes your apology! The old lady is afraid of ruining my reputation!"

The woman came out of the house with the child on her back, surrounded by servants who worked together during the day.

Someone was pointing behind her.

"This woman is really a scheming ghost, and wants to use the power of her master to climb up. ”

"It's a pity that she miscalculated the power of her master's wife, a vixen like this, she will make people lose face. ”

The woman carried a bad reputation and walked all the way, and a few days after returning home, her husband's parents, knowing about the woman's indiscretions, blasted her and the child out of the house.

The woman knelt in front of the door for a day and a night.

The next day, the mother-in-law got up and splashed the urine from the urinal last night on her daughter-in-law's body.

"I won't forgive you for being so unruly! How can you be worthy of my son by doing this! Get out!"

The woman got up decadently and walked down the path of begging.

Many times, she felt that she couldn't hold on anymore, and felt that she might as well die and end up at ease.

But every time she had such thoughts, she would be awakened by the crying sound of the child on her back.

"In any case, there is nothing wrong with the child, I want to raise him as an adult, let him be a man, a good person, and that is the only reason why I survived. ”

The woman was holding the child, her body was so thin that she couldn't even cry tears.

Just as she was about to collapse on the road and die, a group of beggars came over, and the leader looked at his men, who immediately took out a few pieces of moldy steamed buns, and he came over and handed them to the woman.

"Thank you. The woman fell to the ground, nibbling on the steamed buns, and the child was in her arms, desperately biting the shriveled **, wow, crying.

The woman barely survived, and for the next three years, the woman lived with the beggars.

The leader of the beggars was very good, and whenever he begged for food, he always put it in the hands of the woman.

This beggar is dumb and deaf, for three years, he has been helping the mother and son, every time the woman says thanks, the beggar sees that the mouth shape means thanks, waves his hand again and again, and smiles, which means you're welcome.

One day, the woman followed the beggars to the streets of Kyoto, a general, dressed in mighty armor and a gem-encrusted sword at his waist, straddling a tall horse, unusually mighty, followed by countless military horses.

The woman recognized her husband at a glance and was about to call out his name. but he heard the words of passers-by in the streets.

"Who is this man?"

"You don't know this person? This person started from the grassroots, was heroic on the battlefield, rose five levels in a year, and later became today's general. Li Qing guarding the southern border. ”

"He's Li Qing?"

"yes, do you know what he's doing back to Kyoto right now?"

"His Majesty the Emperor wants to marry the fourth princess Yan'er to him. Hey, look at the mix of people, how comfortable it is, we only have to work and farm the land. ”

"But I've heard that he has his own wife. ”

"That vixen, he was kicked out of the house by his mother a long time ago, and he is very indecent, how can he still worry about that goods now that he is famous. ”

"That's right. ”

When the woman heard the conversation of the passer-by, she instantly collapsed, couldn't hide her tears, and sobbed softly.

That night, a belief or a straw that a woman has relied on for many years in her heart completely disappeared with the wind.

She tore off her turban, hung it on a tree, and wept bitterly:

"Yes, you have become a great general, and you have achieved fame, and you are followed by thousands of military horses, and you wear a steel helmet, armor, and a sword at your waist, and a tall horse under you. Yes, here you are, the one I have missed for countless days and nights, here you are, here you have been for me for countless nights but who have supported me to live in this life. You have fulfilled your promise, but you have forgotten your promise to me, and what I am waiting for is not joy, but betrayal. The one who enjoys happiness is someone else, not me. ”

The woman muttered to herself and hanged herself.

The next day, when the beggars woke up, the leading beggar saw the woman's body hanged herself, made a "yaa" sound, and hit the boulder next to her, bleeding from her head.

When the other beggars saw that the boss was dead, they dispersed.

There was a young beggar who carried the baby in his arms and went on a wandering path.

The young beggar thought that the baby would not survive, but the baby had a strong desire to survive.

The bark of the tree is ground into powder, and the baby eats it, and the raw skin and flesh of the dead mouse are eaten by the beggars, and the babies also eat it, and the black and dirty water is brought by the beggars to drink, and the babies also drink it.

The beggar was surprised, and he originally wanted to leave the child behind, so he chose to keep the child.

The beggar carried the child on his back to the mountains to pick wild fruits, and after searching for more than an hour, he did not find them, and when the beggar was lost, he saw a fiery red fruit hanging on a branch not far away, so bright and dripping. The beggar was ecstatic, he had not eaten for several days, and this was the second worry, and his greatest concern was that the child had not eaten for a day, and he had to pluck the wild fruit and let the child taste it.

He reached out to pick it, and then the rattlesnake hidden behind the bright red fruit suddenly appeared and bit the beggar, and the young beggar swooped down, grabbed the rattlesnake by the neck, and killed the snake, and his hands were bleeding, knowing that he would soon die, he peeled the fresh fruit he picked and put it in the child's mouth, and the child eagerly ate it. After that, he put the rattlesnake, skinned, depoisoned, and placed it next to the child. He began to be nauseous, his heart was pounding, his vision was blurred, and at the last moment after his death, he saw that the child was still vigorously eating the fruit, and the young beggar smiled, and he also died with a final smile.

At dusk, an old man wearing a hat, on crutches, walked up. He found the dead beggar, and he thought the baby next to the beggar was dead, but when he looked closer, the child was asleep.

The old man was greatly surprised, he picked up the child, and when the child woke up, he did not cry or make trouble, but reached out and grabbed the old man's beard and played. The old man laughed out loud in surprise.

After that, the old man carried the child to the grass house on the top of the mountain, where a teenager was waiting for the old man. The old man showed the boy the child, and the boy said happily, "I have an extra brother." ”

This old man is Gu's master, that teenage boy is Gu's senior brother Zhao Lu, and that child is Gu.

The patterns and voices in the mirror image disappeared, and now what remained in the mirror were Gu frightened, angry, sad, and demented faces.

"Is this where I came from? Is this my unsolved background? Is that woman my mother?"

Gu couldn't believe all this, his eyes were full of mixed emotions.

"Mortals of the world! Are you all terrible ghosts?!Mother-Mother, she is so pitiful, but you play tricks on her, you bastards! Mother just wants to live, take me to live! Why don't you let her go! Why! Whenever I see your ugly faces, those who only know money, fame, and beautiful women in their eyes! You ravage my mother in every way! You don't want to die!"

Gu covered his head, and instantly collapsed, he pulled out his sword and slashed at those mirrors, "Ah! all smash! smash! smash!"

The mirrors were all knocked down to the ground one by one, shattered, and the crystal shards cut Gu's hands, feet, and cheeks.

However, the fragments of the mirrors moved around on the ground, and after a while, they converged into a complete mirror.

Gu was even more crazy, brandishing his sword and slashing it again, and all the mirrors became complete again after a while.

"Why?!Why do you even have to go against me?!Ahhh

Gu kept cutting off those mirrors, and the fragments of the mirrors cut him again and again, and in the end, Gu's hands, feet, and face were all scars, although the appearance was very shallow, but it deeply hurt his heart.

In the end, Gu ran out of strength and fell into the mirror fragments that had just been chopped, he felt the fragments stirring, and then, all the mirrors were assembled again.

Gu was lying on the ground, feeling that his surroundings were very quiet, he could only hear the flame of the candle, and when he turned his head, every mirror behind the candlelight reflected his embarrassed appearance at the moment.

Gu looked at the same self in each mirror. Tears silently flowed down the corners of his eyes little by little.

He recalls that when he traveled alone, he encountered many moments of life and death, as well as hardships and hardships. But he didn't shed a single tear at those times, and at this moment, he shed tears that he hadn't shed in ten years. He originally thought that he had put aside the world and become an invincible powerhouse in his heart.

It turns out that Gu is wrong, it has always been wrong, the reason why he didn't shed tears was not because he was strong but because he often avoided his past, and he didn't know and didn't want to know. And after knowing it, what awaits me is endless pain.

"I'm really pathetic, isn't I? I don't even remember my own mother, when she was bullied, not only did I not help her at all, but I became a burden to her, maybe without me, she couldn't have worked so hard. ”

Gu looked at himself who had grown up in the mirror: "I hate myself, I hate it, I am an excluded person everywhere, no one wants to really accept me, so my heart is only buried in the depths of my heart, and I have never told anyone, the vast world, it seems that there is no place for me, I am a complete failure." ”

"Are you discouraged? It's not like you, the other me. A voice from the bottom of my heart said.

"There is no point in human life, is there no point? Too much kindness will be squeezed by others, too brutal, and will be recorded in the annals of history for thousands of years. I don't know the answer to why people live, I have been looking for a long time, and sometimes I feel that I seem to have found it, but it will soon disappear again. ”

"I once told you that you are alive to find out the death of your senior brother Zhao Lu, and you are alive for other people. ”

"I think now it's good for people to die. Don't be imprisoned by the world, don't be bothered by the world. There is no need to be a cow and a horse, no need to work hard, and no need to swallow your anger and be troubled by fame and fortune. Only death is true rest and tranquility, regardless of the world, regardless of the world, and throwing oneself into the bosom of nature without any shackles. ”

"Moreover, why do I live for others, I am tired enough, how can I have the remaining experience to worry about other people's affairs. ”

"Gu, this is not you, as your soul, I know you best. You're just blinded by the phenomenon, let me wake you up. ”

"It's not the real me, it's ridiculous, it's the real me, I'm not as noble as you think. ”

"It's people, they will be confused, some people are in a circle in confusion, and they can't get out of their lives, and some people simply don't want to ignore it, only focus on the present, let go of what should be put down for the past, and for the future, it's not something that can be achieved by thinking about it yourself. A person does not know what the meaning of life is, it is because he has lost his faith for a short time, and a person who has no faith support is destined to go unwell if he does not go long. Gu, you have to understand that you are not alone, there are many people's thoughts of life flowing in your life, your mother's love for you, the company of young beggars, the love of senior brother Zhao Lu, the caress of your master, and now, Zuo Si's attention to you, Lan Ting's admiration for you, and Right Si's care for you. There is no shortage of people around you who recognize you. ”

"You have helped many people in your journey, and you have been helped by many people, and there is not only ugliness in this world, but on the whole, there are always more good people than evil people. You have felt the warmth of the world. It was warm, lovely stuff. You don't forget them, living for others is to let you pass on the will to live, you have been saved by many people, many people have taken their own lives to save you, you can only live well in the world, live well, will not disappoint their expectations. ”

"When you were a baby, you had an amazing will to survive, and in such a difficult environment, you were struggling to survive, and now, do you feel that life is boring, worthy of your own firm sense of survival when you were young? Could it be that the more people grow up, the more they forget the fundamentals? No one can live an easy and smooth sailing. If a person's life really has no waves, how boring it would be. The other self, do you know what the most terrifying thing in the world is? not the beast you faced, not the phantom assassin killer you hunt down now, not the terrible demons and monsters that people often say. The most terrible thing for a person is himself, once he falls, the heart will die, the heart will die, even if the body is still alive, but it is no different from real death. ”

"So, you have to live with a mission, with the hope of the living. You have experienced so many divisions and unions, and you have experienced so much in the world, that you have understood the blooming of your heart after death and life. ”

The Gu lying on the ground stood up, and there was a flame of unadmitting defeat in his eyes again.

"Yes, how could I have been held up by the pain that had preceded me, I was the one who had died many times. You say, I'm not even afraid of death anymore, what am I afraid of? What are you still holding on? I'm going to live, I'm going to live well. No matter how dangerous and unfathomable the road ahead may be. ”

After Gu said this, all the mirrors in front of him cracked, turning into thousands of dandelions and flying away.

With the appearance of the fourth gate, Gu understood: "O fierce beast in my heart, I have defeated you. ”