When I was a child, in my dreams, there were people coming and going on Chang'an Avenue; Flower alleys with the smell of bone sieve; There is also a song of the person on the life-seeking platform, bypassing the sea of red lights in the world, and I don't know who the bright moon is into. At that time, all the dignitaries and nobles were anxious to see the appearance of the "immortal".

"I don't know how much that beauty costs?"

"You don't understand this, the one above is not something you can enjoy. That's Pisheng. ”

The audience was quiet for a while, just drinking alcohol, and the enthusiasm just now turned into a cold sweat, which was chilling with the wind.

Pisheng, as the name suggests, lives on skin, and has been recuperated since childhood, for the use of imperial nobles. Legend has it that only one out of every 100 people can be skinned, and they are as flawless as jade, and they are confined to the golden pool all day long. His short life, only about thirty, was buried in the backyard of the prince of the unknown family, which is just a legend.

They don't have names, they all call them Pisheng.

The lights are brilliant, the night market is slowly changing, and the sound of Jin Quan's shattering and glamour is devouring everyone's soul. I timidly hid in the crowd, obviously trying to get close to him, but I was pushed farther and farther away from him. The sugar gourd in my hand shattered on the ground, and my heart was suddenly overwhelmed. As I struggled to grasp something, all I saw was blood flowing from the roots of the high walls, and cracked silver hairpins.

Pisheng committed suicide.

Or, my brother, he's dead.

My dreams are always forced to end here, and I tried so hard to remember what happened next, but in the end it just turned into a black shadow, hidden in my heart and never echoed again. If someone asks when this dream happened, I will only be confused and will not answer.

Whenever I was awakened by this nightmare in the middle of the night, Agu outside the curtain would always comfort me softly, and even said that the dream was fake, don't care. The candle flame on the platform flickered on and off, but it couldn't illuminate Agu's face clearly, and the cool breeze also took advantage of the weakness at this time, blowing people cold.

"Yi'an, don't worry about it, Senior Sister said carefully."

Agu's whirring hands woke me up, and I saw a beautiful scenery in front of me that had not yet disappeared from the first snow. I looked at the broom in my hand, laughed helplessly, and hurriedly began to clear the snow. The four seasons of the Prayer Mountain are distinct, especially the snow scene is the most beautiful, but unfortunately although this good reputation has ushered in many pilgrims, it has also suffered us miscellaneous disciples, so we have to sweep out a way as soon as possible to welcome nobles from all walks of life.

"Agu, I've been haunted by that dream again recently, and I don't know what to do."

"Xiao An, don't think about it. Zuo but ......." Agu just wanted to comfort me, but suddenly stopped. I had a scoop in my left eye, and it was really greasy. I saw Bi Qiu's sneaky little steps walking towards the back mountain, and her cheeks under the cloak were unusually flushed. When she saw that we were tired of being together, she rolled her eyes again, and then she left satisfied.

"Agu, is Biqiu going to be an aunt?" I was not ashamed, and calmly turned around and asked my fellow disciple with a crimson face. Agu shook his head, and only after a few snorts before he began to taunt.

"This kind of woman is really shameless, and she is used to seducing people. Xiao An, don't let her spoil you. ”

I didn't see Agu so angry, so I didn't answer and listened quietly. He was bored talking to himself, and when he saw that I looked serious, he became more and more angry, so he simply ignored me and turned to leave. I know that he cares, after all, Biqiu is in the same group as me, and I often can't get used to seeing me as stupid, if she gains power, I will be guilty.

"Agu, I want to go down the mountain to play." I stopped him and smiled at him.

"You're crazy! What a fool! "Agu really ignored me this time, he had already swept most of the snow road, and then he was gone. I didn't know what to do, so I had to stay and continue working. There are a few plum blossoms on the plum tree in front of me, I suddenly got up, just looked at the four nobody, I ran over as soon as I slipped through the smoke, and began to pick plum blossoms to make wine and drink.

When he had made a good wine, he shared it with Agu.

It is said that I climbed high and looked far away, and now I climbed up, and I did see some things that should not be seen, which is probably the "long needle eye" that Agu said. I looked at the squatting down and slowing down my movements, so as not to disturb the two people who were "doing business" over there.

Biqiu is undressed and shares a room with a stranger. I carefully put the plum blossoms in my sleeve and kept them, and I didn't have any other feelings. I watched this scene and I didn't know what to use. I think that everything in her life should be decided by herself, and we others can't do anything. What's more, Biqiu has nothing to do with me. And the man next to her is a well-known pervert in the sect, relying on his aunt's identity, he has long done many things to steal and touch dogs. Even if I wanted to meddle in my own affairs, I was just asking for myself.

People are always alive by themselves.

At the moment, in the small firewood room. Qiao Dong raised his head and squinted at the figure in the tree in front of him. Biqiu was a little unhappy, she leaned into the arms of the second young master, and exhaled the aroma: "Master, what's the matter?"

"He's serious, a fool?" Qiao Dong's keen intuition turned to the window with bad intentions, pushed Biqiu away with his backhand, got up and walked to the desk to drink water and rest, and the atmosphere suddenly became boring. Biqiu put on her clothes and said to this master.

She didn't know where she was at the beginning, and her head was burned out with injuries in the winter, and there was nothing of value on her body except for a silver hairpin. What's more, she is not in good health, she is a waste of money, why should she care? Biqiu was sullen in her heart, and she was even more disdainful in her words.

Biqiu looked at me stupidly outside the window, and still aroused a sense of alarm for no reason. The step she has finally climbed to this point can't stand in the way anymore! Her heart was crossed, her hands wrapped around Qiao Dong's waist, and her tone became more and more coquettish.

"Yes, it's not enough to have me, I don't even want to try this piece that hasn't grown."

"How is it possible, just her? Just a fool. ”

Qiao Dong said perfunctory to Biqiu, while squinting at her appearance, but he looked down on such a small woman even more, although he was squirming, he was not a fool. An ordinary person's origin is so unclear, can he still stay well in the Prayer Mountain, doesn't it make people suspicious?

It's just that he didn't think much about it, the soft fragrance and warm jade were in his arms, who could recruit this? After all, I'm just an inconspicuous episode to them.

I didn't know how many times their minds were turning. Although I didn't want to see it, I didn't pay much attention to it, and I went back early to prepare for dinner and wine.

The dining hall has three floors, and now it is heated with the only one in the world. I love the gray stone pavement in front of the church, reflecting the shadows of people who are not there, more than all the scenery. I couldn't help but quicken my pace and squeeze into the crowd.

"Xiao An, are you better?"

Not far away, I heard a familiar voice, even if I didn't raise my eyes, I knew it was Senior Sister. Senior Sister Sun Yun is a disciple of the inner door of the Qing Sect, because she is careful and careful, she comes to take charge of the work of the miscellaneous disciples of the outer door, she is always busy on weekdays and can't see people, if she sees me, she is also angry with me, so back and forth, I think it is very interesting.

It's just that she has an excellent personality and treats me differently from others. I am convinced of this, after all, I am a well-known fool in the sect, and my behavior is not to say anything, and I am used to getting into trouble, and she takes care of me a little more, which is also to save herself trouble.

"Senior Sister Yun, good evening." I withdrew my thoughts and bowed.

She changed into a water-blue plain skirt today, and the bottom of the skirt was embroidered with white plums, which made her whole person extraordinarily watery. She just smiled at me and gently touched my head to give me a shallow reassurance. For some reason, I don't think she's as happy as she sees, and the corners of her eyes are full of loneliness.

"Xiao An, if you are still riddled with nightmares, why don't I go to the Nine Temples under the mountain for you one day to worship, so that you can be more comfortable." Senior Sister Sun Yun frowned, and secretly handed a piece of candy in my palm, which was considered to be comforting. I held her cold hand and smiled stupidly. She and Agu are the people in this sect who really care about me, but it's a pity that she is different from Agu, and even I can't tell the difference.

Like, I can only be the fool they know in their eyes.

I opened my mouth and swallowed back what I wanted to say, causing myself to inhale the cold wind and cough coldly. I looked at the white plum on my sister's cuffs, and for some reason there was only that snow-white in front of me, which was one with heaven and earth. I felt like I had been robbed of something, and my chest ached. The figures in front of you overlap, who is gone, and who is still on the way back?

"Agu, I want to go down the mountain......."

Hearing my sister's exclamation, I fell unconscious. Actually, I didn't see Agu, but for some reason, I always felt that someone was waiting for me at the bottom of the mountain, and I should go there. I heard several different voices in a daze, and then my mind was pulled back to reality by a silver needle.

"Miss Lin is fine, there is still medicine for typhoid fever."

I looked through the curtain and saw a strange man. He wears a cyan robe, long hair and a weak crown, and wears white jade and caryophyllum on his waist, so he looks like a humble gentleman. There are dark patterns of green bamboo embroidered between the sleeves of his clothes, and now they still emit golden light in the sun, I am afraid that they are not ordinary. The bamboo forest healer should be a disciple of another sect of Renmen in the mountain of my prayer.

It's just that I'm a miscellaneous disciple of the outer sect, how can I be a doctor? It seems that Senior Sister Yun is kind again, not only letting me sleep in her room to take care of it, but also asking others for such a trivial matter. Presumably, she and Agu are the people in this sect who really care about me. I always bothered her, but she treated me as gently as ever. I secretly thought that in the future, as long as she has a good time, I will treat her very well, so that I can repay the favor.

Then why did he call me Miss Lin?

Who the hell am I?

Later, I fell asleep again. My life is so boring, except for recuperation is to eat, in addition to eating is to sleep, I am illiterate, Agu has to do one more job of mine, and he is too busy to take care of me. I was trapped in this square hut, like a mascot, and I was enjoying myself.

But fortunately today, Agu is here, and Senior Sister Lianyun has also brought a lot of snacks under the mountain.

"Xiao An, you have to hurry up, it's going to be the festival soon, don't miss it."

"Senior Sister Yun is right, you get better quickly. I'm tired and thankless all day. Now that the snow is clearing in front of the door without you, I'm bored. Oops, stinky Xiaoan, why are you eating me! ”

It's winter, but the sun is warm. I stole Agu's snacks as usual, and frolicked with him as before. After a few days, I felt like a world away, but fortunately, everyone around me was there. Senior Sister Yun looked at me in a daze, got up and prepared a steaming pot of milk tea for me. Her milk tea is silky and sweet, and it has a different taste in all seasons, which is heartwarming.

Taking advantage of Senior Sister Yun's absence, I hurriedly grabbed Agu's hand: "Agu, I'll be fine after taking the medicine in two days." There are a lot of people at the festival, can you accompany me down the mountain to play? "I trust him and I want to play with him in peace. I want to go down the mountain, every day, I want to be in the middle of noisy crowds, I want to walk across unknown bridges, I want to walk through pavilions and pavilions to see what the world should be like.

I don't want to just dream big.

But I've never seen Agu's expression like this, a kind of fear, extreme fear, as if I would die if I went down the mountain. I tilted my head to look at him, until it made him blush and stammered no, not convincing me at all, a little fool.

"Agu, I just want to see it with you."

Aguten stood up suddenly, and he was still sweating as he held my hand. Senior Sister Yun saw his embarrassment when she came in, and asked Agu to go out and wash her face, and by the way, she brought me a soft pillow to lean on. After Agu left, the room was not as lively as it was. Senior Sister Yun touched my forehead and whispered, "Yi'an, now you can't go down the mountain yet." Wait, okay? ”

Who I am now? Could it be that Senior Sister Yun also thinks I'm stupid?

I'm a little angry, but I can't prove that I'm not stupid. I've been in Qingmen for three years, and I'm a good-natured and delicious fool in the eyes of others. I don't remember everything before I went up the mountain, not even the name.

"Okay."

Later, they were all gone. The room suddenly became so cold, I watched the steaming milk tea turn into a stagnant cup of water, and the sound of the snow crushing the branches outside the window was a little harsh, and I was always awakened, and I had unknown nightmares back and forth.

In my dream, I was walking on the bustling Changhua Road, surrounded by the shouting of street vendors. I walked to the front of a small shop and lined up to guess the lantern riddles. I loved having a glass lamp embroidered with a white horse ascending clouds, and then I tried so hard that I finally came across it, and the next moment it was broken by a man in white, and it didn't make a sound. The crowd dispersed and the fire began to spread, but I just wanted to hold the shard and hide it in my arms so that it wouldn't hurt so much.

I really like him, I like him so much.

When I woke up again, it was noon the next day. The snow outside had melted a lot, and everything was eager to show what it was. I don't know how many people were buried in a snowfall. The medicine prescribed by Fan Lang became more and more bitter, and he was very curious about how I was so slow, and even a cold wind and cold wanted to take away the will to live.

Fan Lang has been taking care of me since this cold storm, he is an inner disciple of Renmen, and he likes Senior Sister Yun since he was a child, so he is willing to see a doctor for me. He speaks very softly and does things carefully, I think he is a perfect match for Senior Sister Yun.

If I hadn't seen him secretly dosing me, I would have believed him.

"Miss Lin, the festival the day after tomorrow will even be attended by the retreat patriarch, don't miss it."

Fan Lang left the last bowl of medicine and turned to leave. The wooden bowl contained a sticky black potion, the bitterness of which could be smelled even through two curtains. I'm a man who eats everything, but I'm disgusted by bitter tastes, and I'm afraid to avoid them.

I got up and fed it to the withered peach tree outside the courtyard, Agu loved the peach tree and hoped it would blossom and bear fruit. It keeps evil spirits out for me, and I'll have to treat them. In recent days, the weather has begun to warm up, and even the birds have come to report spring early.

I lost a lot of weight when I was sick, and yesterday Aunt Li from the embroidery room rushed to send a new door dress, but I wore a little big. I looked at the red plum under the white sleeves, and my heart rejoiced.

Things are suitable for the situation, and people are suitable.

There was no dream tonight, so I packed up my things early in the morning and moved back to my old place. After a week of work. The road of the prayer mountain has been swept away, and all the curtains of the door are hung with red knots and ropes, and the silver bells are ringing when the wind blows, so it is not festive. The windows in the event lobby are bright and clean, the desks are neatly arranged, and although the door rules do not like luxury, they are still careful everywhere, mainly low-key.

I didn't find Agu, he seems to have been lost.

"Xiao An, what are you standing here in a daze?" Agu's voice came from above, and it turned out that he was laying out the curtains. I came back to my senses and went to help. I saw that the bright red gauze curtain and the atmospheric ink were mixed into a good poem, and the two ends of the gauze curtain were embroidered with the unity of the sect's emblem, and Agu and I were on one side, like the bride and groom in the story.

"Xiao An, what are you smiling at?"

"Agu, we're going to be so good all the time." I hugged the curtain and hung it carefully. The sun also peeked curiously from the little corner of the sky, pouring down a beam of light to illuminate us. Anyway, there was no one, and Agu and I were lazy on the eaves basking in the sun, eager to finish everything.

"Agu, are you really not going down the mountain with me?"

When we got tired, we lay down and whispered. I still didn't give up, and asked him again. I looked at Agu, straight and straight, he wouldn't lie to me.

Agu couldn't stand me, he lowered his head, blushing, and swallowed a few times before saying, "Xiao An, I... We'll only go down for a while, okay? Otherwise, he will blame me. ”

Sure enough, only Agu understands me best, but he is talking to himself like this, is he afraid that the patriarch and elders will punish him? I saw that Agu's body was trembling and his face was red from freezing, so I simply leaned on his shoulder to reassure him.

"Agu, we'll all be fine, don't worry."

"Xiao An, you don't understand." Agu was a little lost, he looked at me, and his eyes reflected me. I don't care, as long as he understands. The first day I came here to open my eyes, it was Agu who accompanied me, we lived together in jokes for three years, and we were together every day, so only Agu understood me best.

"Xiao An, let's go get ready."

Because of my companions, my mood is much better. Without blinking, I smashed the cans of pigs that had saved money and solemnly placed them in the cloth bag I had brought to the mountain. Agu said that the clothes in the door were too conspicuous, I don't know where he borrowed two sets of clothes from the shopkeeper and asked me to dress up in disguise, and now everything is ready, only the east wind is owed.

At 3 p.m., the festival officially began.

We can't leave in a hurry yet, and the miscellaneous disciples of the outer gate have to wait. We held a jade bottle of water and accepted the baptism of the elders of each sect. Sprinkle water, burn flowers, and light nine furnaces, after which you will perform three kneeling and silently accept the teachings of the patriarch. The first snow has just disappeared, and the afternoon has lost the blessing of the sun, and the cold wind blows and the body is still cold. The clear water is on the forehead, the broken flowers are held in the palm, and the sandalwood of the nine furnaces is entwined, but there is no heating in the world.

Agu took advantage of his long sleeves and squeezed my hand.