"Huh?" Luo Ping'an turned his head suddenly, saw that Zhuang Zhuang was a little surprised, and said, "Why don't you sleep yet, what are you doing here?" ”

"Squad leader." Solemnly pretended to be relaxed and said, "Didn't you sleep too?" ”

Luo Ping'an didn't say anything more, but replied in a low voice: "I can't sleep." ”

solemnly walked to Luo Ping'an's side, pressed his hands on the cement guardrail of the drying field, and followed the latter's gaze into the distance.

In the distance, a cold moon hung in the sky, and the dark silence of the ground formed a rather desolate picture.

Somehow, solemn suddenly felt a sense of sadness for no apparent reason, and his heart was empty.

Luo Ping'an didn't speak, and smoked by himself.

Suddenly, he coughed violently.

Zhuang Zhuang said: "Smoking is not good for your health, I used to smoke, but then quit." ”

"Quit it." Luo Ping'an said: "In our hometown, we all smoke the horn of tobacco leaf rolls, have you ever smoked it?" ”

Shaking his head solemnly, he said with a smile: "I haven't smoked it, but I've seen the older generation smoke it." ”

Luo Ping'an said again: "I haven't smoked for many years, not long after I joined the army, the squad leader told me, Luo Ping'an, you have to quit smoking, you are not allowed to smoke in our special forces, this is responsible for you." ”

Speaking of this, Luo Ping'an turned his head to look at solemnly and said: "Especially if you are practicing snipers, smoke is easy to expose you, and it is not conducive to your long-term incubation, and it is easy to affect your concentration if you are addicted to sniping." ”

Solemnly said: "Since this is the case, then you still smoke?" ”

Luo Ping'an didn't speak, looked into the distance, still smoking his cigarette, and said after a long time: "I don't need to quit smoking." ”

Zhuang Zhuang couldn't help it, and said, "I heard that you want to be discharged from the army?" ”

Luo Ping'an didn't deny it, and nodded directly: "Hmm." ”

Solemnly anxious, he asked, "Why?" Aren't you going to be transferred to a non-commissioned officer? You can transfer at the end of next year. ”

Luo Ping'an smiled sadly, he looked at the solemn soldier in front of him, who was one year less senior than himself.

He didn't know where to start.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Zhuang Zheng asked again: "Squad leader, can you tell me why you want to retire from the army?" ”

Luo Ping'an said: "There is something at home and there is a lack of money, so I have to go back to earn money to support my family." ”

"Won't you get paid if you become a non-commissioned officer?" He solemnly said, "Is there a lot missing?" ”

"Well, a lot." Luo Ping'an said: "At least my salary as a non-commissioned officer is not enough. ”

Zhuang Zhuang didn't think about it, and said directly: "Squad leader, if you are really short of money, I can lend it to you." ”

Luo Ping'an was stunned, and it took a while to regain his strength, and said, "Solemn, I heard that your family conditions are quite good, why did you come to be a soldier?" ”

Zhuang Zhuang scratched his head, in fact, he couldn't figure it out himself.

But today, Zhuang Yan no longer wants to be like before, when others ask him why he came to be a soldier, he always says that he let his father Zhuang Zhenguo come to the pit.

So he shook his head and said, "I couldn't control it at home, so I sent it." ”

Luo Ping'an said: "I'm different from you, being a soldier is my ideal, I want to be a soldier since I was a child, the first time I saw a soldier when I was eleven years old, I felt that I should be a soldier when I grew up, go to the army, and then make contributions in it, I like that military uniform, I like to touch the gun, I like to smell the gunpowder smoke coming out of the barrel when I shoot, I like the steamed buns that can kill dogs here, I like this kind of life of 10 kilometers a day, every day I practice to the fullest and go back to the row house and fall asleep." ”

"Then why did you even want to leave the army?" Solemnly asked.

Luo Ping'an thought for a while and said: "I figured it out, when I was a soldier, my father left, and it should have been me, the second brother, who supported the family, but I chose to be a soldier, my eldest brother didn't say a word, quit his job, and his girlfriend also blew it, returned to our hometown, returned to our village, and supported the family." ”

"I remember what my brother said to me that day, brother, let's go! Go to the army, be your soldier, have me at home! You're done, my brother has a light on his face......"

Speaking of this, Luo Ping'an threw the cigarette butt on the ground, stepped on it and crushed it vigorously, his eyes turned red all of a sudden, and said, "My brother is so good to me......"

Majest didn't speak.

This is the first time he has heard Luo Ping'an tell his own story.

"Now my brother is sick, hepatitis C, it costs a lot of money, and it has to be controlled with medication in the future, otherwise it will worsen. My sister is still in high school, next year's college entrance examination, my mother is old, as a son, I can't let my mother, who is dozens of years old, still work in the fields, and ask her to support the family. Before I was twenty-one years old, I rarely listened to my family, my father did not allow me to be a soldier, I resisted, my father left, I should have stayed, I didn't stay to be a soldier...... I'm selfish enough, and from now on, I have to fight for my family and do something for them. I can't keep asking my family to do something for me, I have to do something for my family. I'm not just a soldier, I'm also a man, and if a man can't even take care of his family, he's a bag, not a man......"

The last words were obviously a little trembling, it could be seen that the emotions in Luo Ping'an's heart were tumbling, but he was trying his best to restrain himself.

solemnly said: "Squad leader, if it's just a matter of money, I can help you." ”

Luo Ping'an turned his head to look at Zhuang Zheng, his eyes did not move away for a few seconds, and finally said: "Men still have to rely on themselves, let people help, they can help for a while, but they can't help for a lifetime." Solemnly, I appreciate your kindness. ”

Suddenly looked up at the moon and said: "Go back, rest early, tomorrow your training will be very slow, the day after tomorrow will really jump, you must have enough rest, don't be confused and give your life to the airborne field, it's not worth it." ”

After saying that, he turned around and walked towards the row house.

After walking a few steps, he looked back at Zhuang Zhuang and asked, "Is there a contradiction between you and Xu Xingguo?" ”

Zhuang Zhuang didn't expect Luo Ping'an to see it, and his face turned a little red.

"No ......"

He stammered, a little embarrassed.

Luo Ping'an said: "Come on, don't treat me as a fool, not to mention that I'm not stupid." But I advise you, it is also fate that comrades-in-arms can stay together for a few years, eat the same pot of rice, and sleep in the same room. When you are discharged from the army, you will know how valuable this comradeship is, and if you leave, you may never have the opportunity to see each other again in this life. Although we can't be soldiers for a lifetime, we are comrades-in-arms for a lifetime! Is there anything you can't say? ”

The solemn face turned even redder.

Luo Ping'an didn't say anything more, turned around again, and quickly disappeared at the end of the corridor.

Standing solemnly on the drying ground, the bright moonlight was like mercury, shining him brightly.

Looking at the end of the corridor, the direction in which Luo Ping'an disappeared, he suddenly felt as if he had lost something, and his heart was empty, like a sleeve that had lost its arm, swaying in the wind......

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