Chapter 283: I Want to Cry Without Tears

The night is so peaceful, the night is as gentle as water. In the late autumn season, the warmth in the quilt makes the cold air outside contrast and warm, making people greedy and not wanting to come out.

Zhou Xian lay motionless, but he couldn't sleep for a long time, and his husband Li Yu was lying next to him. Li Yu was more sober because he tossed and turned, tossed and turned countless times, and kept tossing and turning, and sighed quietly from time to time.

Zhou Xian empathized with Li Yu's inner fear...... But she wasn't so frightened, because she knew she was lying to him.

Zhou Xian's heart was full of sympathy and wanted to tell him the truth. However, if he was told that he was deceived about being sent back to the palace, he will investigate why he lied to him...... It's all over! That's it, silently helpless to watch him fearful and sad.

The warmth in the quilt made Zhou Xian feel as if someone was holding her, but the quilt was too light, and that feeling was not enough. It's like having a goose feather sweeping on the body, but it's not fun, and I really want to be warmly and indulgently embraced.

Various scenes and feelings appeared in his mind, Zhou Xian pursed his lips, and his eyelashes trembled slightly in the night.

With a "quack", Li Yu turned over again, immediately interrupting Zhou Xian's reverie. She immediately blamed herself: her husband was scared to death next to her, thinking about something completely different; But I think about anything else, and I don't share it for him at all......

But she couldn't help but think that she had just been exposed to a completely different world, and that it was a completely different experience from what everyone had told her before, and what she had experienced. By chance, she even began to question, who is better between Li Yu and Guo Shao?

Maybe who's good and who's bad isn't much better...... Zhou Xian remembered that Guo Shao had a place in his heart, and he was just pity for himself. Zhou Xian has always thought that she is a beautiful and beautiful woman in the world, she is tall and arrogant. She said in her heart: Do you want me to put down my body to compete for favor? No, absolutely not. Men should fall for me, not me.

Li Yu is also a talented nobleman, and all of his are Zhou Xian's. Zhou Xian was never willing to lose him...... Besides, how can he be worthy of him, worthy of the curse between each other and the oath that swore forever?

Zhou Xian couldn't find himself in his heart, and he couldn't solve the chaos. Right and wrong, right and wrong, are all mixed together. It's so uncomfortable, if there are only two people in the world, and there is no other interference, it would be simple!

The only way is to forget about him! As if Guo Shao had never been, he left him far away, letting him gradually disappear and disappear in the passage of time...... Zhou Xian felt melancholy in his heart, if he still forced himself, the only way to dispel his troubles was to dispel his troubles. So what happened this afternoon was indeed a mistake! If Zhou Xian had persevered and endured the past at that time, he would not have added a deeper impression.

…… At this moment, Li Yuyou turned over and called softly, "Emperor E." ”

Zhou Xian hesitated for a moment, then said a soft "um", and said one word tactfully with two tones.

Li Yu wanted to speak and stopped, hesitated for a long time, and then said with difficulty: "I have been thinking about it for a long time, there is no problem with the words of the Empress Dowager of the Zhou Dynasty, they are not related to us, and they are insatiable, of course they will covet Li Hongji's conditions...... No matter how generous the reward we promise, it is indeed a pie. ”

Zhou Xian remembered the night he was at Chen Jiali's house, how could he take the initiative to propose a deal unless he had to? She had already thought about it, and immediately said: "What the husband said is very true. ”

Li Yu said: "Why don't you ...... If you don't ask Chen Jiali to ask Guo Shao to come to the house, you ......"

"What!" Zhou Xian was so shocked that he almost sat up, "What do you mean, husband?" It can't be like this! ”

Li Yu hurriedly said: "Don't be impatient, Emperor E, listen to me." You're just dancing......"

"Husband, are you coaxing me like a three-year-old child? So who is Guo Shao, I took the initiative to dance, and I want to make him tempted, do you think he will let me go? Zhou Xian said angrily, "You all force me...... Li Hongji is too, I shouldn't have been born like this when I was born. What have I become now, a piece of gold and jade plaything that has been sent to play around? ”

Li Yu said: "In troubled times, there is indeed a lot of helplessness. We have to weigh the pros and cons, maybe we can't bear ourselves, and the end will be even worse......"

"Husband, have you changed your mind?" Zhou Xian turned around and asked in a trembling voice.

Li Yu suddenly said in a straight voice: "How could I change my mind!" It's just to discuss with you, and if you don't agree. ”

"I disagree!" Zhou Xian said angrily, and he felt like a "wicked person sues first", obviously he was already sorry for his husband, and he had to put the responsibility on him, so he couldn't help but soften his tone at the moment, "Husband, don't think nonsense, even if I sell myself, it's useless now." Just wait. ”

Zhou Xian's tone softened, but Li Yu was a little angry: "It's already cornered, and letting Emperor E grieve for one night may cost us both our lives...... Otherwise, you may have to suffer the grievances in the end, and you won't be able to save the big things......"

"But if Guo Shao takes a fancy to me, aren't you afraid that he will forcibly occupy me?" Zhou Xian almost cried.

Li Yu said: "That's a problem...... Let you suffer only once, I can still grit my teeth and hold on; If I lose you, the gain will outweigh the loss, and I can't bear it. ”

Zhou Xian hugged his arm sideways and said, "Husband, I'm ...... Alas! ”

Li Yu said sadly: "I have always been uneasy in my heart, and I always feel that you will leave me." Because I'm not even ...... None can be given to you. ”

Zhou Xian suddenly felt his worry, and couldn't help but say: "Husband, in fact, there can be other ways...... Li Yu hurriedly asked: "What way?" ”

Zhou Xian gently put his onion-like fingers on his face, and his thumb caressing his lips inadvertently, and his face suddenly became hot. But she didn't dare to say that she had been married to Li Yu for two years, and she still knew Li Yu well...... Although he is a literati, his heart is quite high, and it is impossible to do that kind of humiliating thing. Zhou Xian's ears seemed to ring his ashamed scolding: Lewd woman! I didn't expect you to be like that, I'm so blind!

"It's just another way, more than one." Zhou Xian's voice trembled and flickered, and he blushed and exhaled like an orchid, but fortunately, the light was very dark. In the darkness, I seemed to see the bronzed face, the straight bridge of the nose, and feel the rough beard of the stinging hand.

Fortunately, Li Yu did not get angry, and muttered: "There are indeed a lot of lewd tools in the world, and there are also in the palace, and some of them are carefully carved with jewelry and jade, which is indeed very rare...... But isn't the Emperor disgusted with such things? ”

"Of course I was disgusted and felt like throwing up!" Zhou Xian panicked, "I'm ...... I'm just listening to my husband's gains and losses, and reminding you that what a woman needs is not necessarily that dirty thing, and that husband doesn't have to worry about it at all. I can also take care of one from my brother's house, and I will treat him as if he were my own...... The Taizu of the Zhou Dynasty did not have a son alive, and his adopted son had no blood relationship with him, so he didn't care; Your brother's son, adopted as an adopted son, is still a member of the Li family. ”

Li Yu was relieved for a while, and suddenly asked again: "When you entered the palace today, have you already committed yourself to Guo Shao behind my back!?" ”

"Husband, ......" Zhou Xian was so shocked by the sudden questioning that he fell asleep.

Li Yu said: "I looked at you very strangely before, why is your face tired, tired but more slippery and ruddy?" The smell is also a bit weird. But because I didn't find any real evidence, I didn't dare to say for sure. After some temptation just now, there is even more speculation. You've lost your body, so you don't feel the need to meet Guo Shao again......"

Zhou Xian was frightened, and hurriedly shook his head and said, "I didn't hide it from my husband, it's all your cranky thoughts!" There really isn't, no. ”

Li Yu was silent.

Zhou Xian said in a trembling voice: "Or I will listen to my husband's ......" Li Yu said coldly: "What if Guo Shao wants to force you to stay?" Zhou Xian said helplessly: "I will force each other to death, and I will persuade the two countries to form a friendship." ”

Li Yu suddenly sighed, slowed down his tone and said, "Emperor E, I was wrong just now...... I couldn't think of a way out for a while, so I was talking nonsense, and I was really scared. I actually...... I care about you a lot, you are more important than everyone else. ”

"Husband, I believe in you." Zhou Xian choked up and said, "You and I are not a couple for a day or two, how do you treat me and what kind of heart, don't I know yet?" ”

……

The next day was a crisp autumn day.

Guo Shao went to each of the two battalions in the left wing of the Hujie Army, and did not go to the Guards Department, but went to the Privy Council to ask Wei Renpu for help and to send some forbidden army roster files to read. Ordinary military generals do not have such authority, but Guo Shao does not follow the rules. He not only read the dossier, but also took notes with a notebook. From time to time, Wang Pu quietly came over to see what he was writing, but he didn't stop it.

When it was time for You, Guo Shao quietly left the Privy Council, took a turn at the Donghua Gate, and left the imperial city with his entourage.

As soon as he got home, he was told by Lu Chengyong: "Mrs. Chen's Aunt Sun came in the afternoon and left a letter, telling me to hand it over to the lord." That Aunt Sun recognized me, last time we went to Mrs. Chen with the lord to change clothes, and visited General Li Chuyun's house at night, which was remembered by Aunt Sun. ”

Guo Shao opened the letter and looked at it. Chen Jiali specially set up a dinner party and choreographed a new dance for Guo Shao to watch.

Guo Shao pondered for a while, remembered Chen Jiali's wonderful dance, and immediately became interested. He left a note for Yulian and ordered to prepare a carriage and horses to go to Chen Jiali's house; The fact that you don't have a kabuko at home but can watch beautiful songs and dances is a rare pleasure in this era when entertainment is lacking.

This time he didn't call Jing Niang, but Jing Niang followed him into the carriage without his consent. Guo Shao had no choice but to let him.

"Chen Jiali's house is a lewd nest!" Jing Niang's face was displeased, "She still pretends to be clean and self-conscious, and she is too tall to be tall." There really is everyone in the world. ”

Guo Shao whispered: "Just watch the dance, why don't you sleep tonight?" ”

"I'm not so, who do you want to go to!" Jing Niang said with a red face.

The carriage walked from the east of the city to the west of the city for a while, and when it arrived at Chen Jiali's house, the sun had gone down, and I saw lanterns lit everywhere on the street.