Chapter 264: Pour out your heart
Fan Li said: "Sister, has the king's attitude towards you changed? ”
A sad look appeared on Yayu's face: "Brother, can we talk about some happy topics, my sister doesn't want to talk about him." ”
This answer says it all. Gou Jian's cleanliness habit is very serious, not only physiologically rejecting everything he thinks is unclean. And also psychologically, rejecting everything he considers unclean.
In order to destroy the spirit of the king of Yue, Wu Zixu took Yayu and forced Yayu to accompany Xia Chen, the envoy of the Jin State, to spend the night. Later, King Wu was obsessed with the beauty of Yayu, and forcibly summoned Yayu into the Wu Palace. Fan Li found Xi Shi Zheng Dan to rescue Yayu from Wu Palace.
In these matters, Yayu is the victim. In the face of a powerful enemy, Gou Jian, as a king, can't protect himself, let alone a weak woman in Yayu? There is only one way to avoid being humiliated, and that is suicide.
At that time, Yayu did express suicidal thoughts and died to preserve his chastity. It was Fan Li who dissuaded Yayu. Because in the great cause of recovering the country, Yayu is too important, the name of Yayu's virtue is widely spread, the more people love Yayu more than Goujian, Yayu has no substitute for the role of cohesion and morale.
Yayu has a strong temperament like fire. She is not afraid of death. When the Wu army besieged Huiji Mountain, Yayu took three hundred palace women to commit suicide collectively, and it was Fan Li who saved them.
Yayu understands the general situation, taking into account the overall situation, she would rather be humiliated than die, completely for the king, for the restoration of the country.
However, the development of things was completely unexpected, Yayu's efforts did not receive the pity of King Yue, but was disgusted by King Yue. He thinks that Yayu is already an unclean person. But for many reasons, he didn't dare to abolish Yayu.
But he never touched Yayu again. In public, he and Yayu can say whatever they need to say, and do whatever they need to do, giving people the illusion that the country is complete. But in private, when the husband and wife are alone, they never talk and communicate with Yayu, and when they sleep at night, they do not disturb each other, and they sleep separately.
Cold abuse!
This undoubtedly sprinkled a handful of salt on Yayu's wounds, and it was a more serious insult to Yayu, even more than the insult given to her by King Wu.
As a woman, what else does Yayu have to live?
Under Zimei's arrangement, Fan Li met with Yayu alone many times, comforted Yayu, encouraged Yayu, and Yayu survived.
Before, Yayu only saw Fan Li by chance, she was shocked by Fan Li's beauty, demeanor, and temperament, and sighed that there was such a good man in the world. But that's the end of it. Because Yayu, as a king, will not have more thoughts.
However, Yayu was disgusted by King Yue, was coldly abused by King Yue, and in the despair of hesitating between death and immortality, Fan Li's appearance became his lifeline and her emotional sustenance.
Yayu knows that the appearance of this kind of emotion is wrong and contrary to the code of ethics. But women are sensual creatures, and once such feelings are born, they are crazy and desperate.
As for what will happen to this love, she doesn't care about it. When he was in Wu, he could see Fan Li almost every day, and it was difficult to see Fan Li since he returned to Yueguo. Since the construction of Gusutai, I haven't seen Fan Li for six or seven years.
Yayu spent this long time in bitter thoughts. Suddenly, Fan Li appeared, and the person was now sitting beside him. Yayu feels happy, pleasantly surprised, and feels inner peace and pleasure. But at the same time, I feel aggrieved and sad. She wanted to tell, to tell about her misfortune and pain.
But Yayu didn't say anything, and the complex emotions in his heart turned into tears and flowed to his heart's content!
Fan Li knows that tears are the best way for women to release their emotions, and verbal persuasion is superfluous at this time. Fan Li didn't say a word, just stroked Yayu's hair.
Finally, Yayu's emotions calmed down. She raised her face and asked Fan Li to wipe away her tears. Then he took Fan Li's hand and covered his face and said, "Brother, you are the only one in this world who can understand the bitterness in my sister's heart." My sister has been able to live until now because of you. ”
Fan Li's heart was full of love and pity, this unfortunate woman aroused his infinite sympathy, admiration, and wanted to help her and comfort her desperately. Her beauty, her charm, is also tempting him. This kind of indecent love between kings and ministers made him feel ashamed and guilty.
Both men had mixed feelings.
Fan Li sighed softly, adjusted his emotions, and said, "Sister, the treatment you have received is unfair. From the defeat of the Vietnamese army to everything that happened later, you are not responsible for anything. All these consequences are caused by that person's self-righteousness, selfishness and narrow-mindedness. If he could have listened to Fan Li's words, he would not have ended up today. He never reflected on himself, but it was up to you, a weak woman, to bear the consequences. At the beginning in Wu Kingdom, he couldn't even save his own life, what can you do? I am his servant, and I should not speak of him in private. But his actions really made Fan Li despised. ”
Yayu was stunned, Fan Li's words surprised her. After getting along for so many years, Fan Li has always been respectful to King Yue, bowing his head to his ears, and has never heard a word of subtlety. Today, it suddenly sounded like a volcanic eruption, and he said so many words of criticism and condemnation to King Yue in one breath. Jean Yayu didn't know how to answer.
She reached out and stroked Fan Li's cheek, and said in a trembling voice, "My good brother, it's the first time I've heard you talk like this." I know, you said that because you feel sorry for your sister, right? ”
Fan Li's mood was agitated, he didn't feel that his eyes were a little damp, he looked at Yayu's eyes, and said hoarsely: "Sister may not know how painful Fan Li's heart hurts when he hears that you are being abused." You are innocent, and you are hurt like this, and I can't help you. I feel bad. ”
Yayu's tears flowed again. She choked up and said, "Brother, this is already the case, and I have long lost hope for him. I'm still alive because my brother can still give me a glimmer of hope, I'm an ordinary woman, I want a shoulder to lean on, I hope someone can listen to my grievances, I hope someone can wipe my tears for me. This is the minimum requirement for a woman to live. This little prayer is something that only you can fulfill for me. I live for you! ”
Fan Li hugged Yayu tightly: "Sister, Fan Li is grateful for her sister's affection, but Fan Li is confused, I don't know who I live for." The restoration of the country was originally a matter of King Yue, but I don't know when it became Fan Li's business. With Fan Li's ability, I can lead my sister and Xi Shi to fly away, no matter where you go, I can let you live a good life. But it's so paradoxical, I completely take the restoration of the country as my own business. And you can't stop doing it. I'm worried that I won't be able to visit you as often in the future. ”
Yayu smiled: "Sister, as long as you have this heart." With your heart, Yayu will be satisfied, and you can go about your business. My sister will live well. Waiting for the day when you succeed in returning to the country. ”。
"Yayu is a great woman!" Fan Li whispered in Yayu's ear, "Can we lie down?" ”
Yayu said, "Whatever you want, Yayu is yours." ”