I sat on the rocking chair in the courtyard of the Xiwu Palace, slowly looking at the sky, breathing a sigh of relief, but I also let Qiushui take the piano that I had played in the imperial garden far away, and I didn't want to see it. so as not to feel sad when you see it.

I lowered my head and muttered, if I don't replace my sister in the palace, will I be with my second brother now, or if I don't enter the palace, I'm afraid that there will be no Lin family now, and now I am not favored, and my life is very leisurely, otherwise with my aunt's temper, I am afraid that it will be difficult to move an inch in this palace. Alas...

At this time, Bailu ran back from outside in a rage, panting and interrupting my murmuring. I raised my eyes and looked at Bailu and asked, what does it look like, and said slowly, don't worry.

Bailu took a sip of water, and then she said that she was upset for me, and it had been rumored outside that I was angry with the emperor in the imperial garden, saying that I and Concubine Shu didn't know how to lift.

I smiled at Bailu, this harem was originally a land of tigers and wolves, how could I hope that this kind of thing would not be looked down upon by those who have low eyes, and it will be used as an after-dinner refreshment, as the only pleasure for this lonely and empty harem woman, I asked her not to care,

I told her I knew she was doing it for my good, but I wouldn't care, because there is a saying that a companion is like a tiger. If you want to survive in this harem, you have to withstand the wind and rain, so I can still stand such gossip.

Bailu didn't listen to the persuasion and scolded there, saying that one day I would always shut up those people, let me serve the emperor well and get the favor I deserved. I smiled and didn't speak, just watched Bailu talking to himself alone.

I turned my head and suddenly saw Liu Jianxue rushing from his Changchun Palace in a panic, and I knew that she had also heard those rumors. I hurriedly got up to meet her and dragged him into the house, and Yanagimi asked me what was wrong as she walked, and she was very worried about me when she heard about it, so she hurried over

, I think it's not easy to make a confidant in this kind of place, I pulled him to sit down, looked at him and said softly, I am really honored to know you when I see snow. Liu Jianxue smiled at me, I like you just to be familiar with you at first sight, not to mention that I think you are a reliable person.

Sitting down and drinking a cup of tea, I didn't wait for Liu Jianxue to ask, I consciously told her the truth and told her not to worry, but many details were omitted. Liu Jianxue saw that I didn't react much, so she put her mind at ease, sat with me for a while, and then asked Hua Zao to help Liu Jianxue back to Changchun Palace.

After Liu Jianxue left, my thoughts flew back to what happened that day, and in the morning I took Bailu and Qiushui and Aunt Cangyun to greet the Queen Mother and the Queen Mother, and then I saw my aunt's gesture to me. I followed my aunt Shu Guifei out of Kunning Palace and came to the Imperial Garden to enjoy the flowers, I knew that although it was called flower appreciation, it was actually beating

In my aunt's opinion, I have been sleeping for so long no less than a few, but my stomach has not yet responded, only me and the emperor know whether I have a bed or not, I look at my aunt, I know what my aunt means, as long as I am pregnant with a dragon, the child will be raised by him, because I am just a noble person and have no qualifications. It's not been a day or two since my aunt had this idea. Although he himself is constantly pampered, he also has no children.

said that she was her own aunt, but she clearly understood that my aunt didn't like me since I was a child, if it wasn't for my sister who couldn't enter the palace, why would she be now. I looked down and smiled self-deprecatingly. I looked up at my aunt, who asked me, "What the hell is going on now, why don't you see any body?" and I bowed my head and said nothing.

"Won't you take the opportunity I create for you?" Have you taken my words to heart, as long as you are pregnant, our Lin family can be more solid, this is the value of your existence in this palace. Got it?

Knowing my aunt, I will work hard, and now I will not resist the waiter, because the second brother has already married, and I have no chance, if I want to live in the palace, I must firmly grasp the emperor's favor.

When my aunt and I were about to go back to each palace, we saw a person in the corner, and when we looked closely, it turned out to be Xu Promise, and my aunt hurriedly glanced at me, it is estimated that our conversation just now was all listened to by Xu Promise, and my aunt is also a person who has been through strong winds and waves, so she was shocked and quickly calmed down.

I asked Aunt Cangyun to come over and greet Xu Promise, Xu promised to come over, and Xu promised that the limelight had been very strong in the past two days, and the emperor turned over the sign and slept more times, and people floated.

Xu promised to come over directly, and he didn't feel the need to say hello to me and my aunt, and said arrogantly to my aunt, "Concubine Shu, what can you do with such a waste, why don't you and I join forces to pull the queen down,"

My aunt just glanced at Xu and said Are you worthy, do you have this ability. You don't have any qualifications to negotiate with this palace, this palace estimates that what this palace said to this palace niece just now has become a bargaining chip for you to negotiate, you are too polite, you don't look at what you are, you still want to be the queen, this palace has no disrespect for the queen at all

Xu promised to listen to his aunt, aren't you afraid that I will tell the emperor?

My aunt looked at Xu Cheng coldly and said, I am afraid that you will not have a chance at all, Huaixing, I am looking at the imperial garden this year

The maple leaf is not very red, or give Xu a chance to render the color of this imperial garden, Jingtai, appreciate Xu promised a piece of red

Xu promised you to remember that this palace is a concubine, and the reward for you is also a punishment, and the punishment is also a reward, hahahahahahaha

Let's go, go back to the palace

The emperor finally knew, but he punished his aunt for facing the wall for 3 months, and he was grounded.

And I didn't suffer much impact, just punished for copying the Diamond Sutra, but this matter had a great impact on me, because in front of my eyes, a human life was gone, and I felt the fragility of life in the harem.

The emperor has also come to my palace many times, and I have really given myself to the emperor, and I have also risen to the position with the emperor's favor on my face.

Seeing that Xue has come to my palace many times, I have been persuaded many times to find a way to let the emperor stay often, otherwise life will be very difficult. I verbally agreed. and sent her away,

The emperor has come many times, and my heart is also very uncomfortable, because in some ways, I still don't accept the emperor's favor of me, and my heart is resistant, because no matter how I say it, I don't have the emperor in my heart, in order to live in this harem,

I have always understood that in this harem where there are tigers and wolves in front of me, if I don't work hard to catch it, remember the emperor's favor, the Lin family and I will have no value of existence, and the value of my existence is to let the neighbors have a certain ability in the previous dynasty, and my aunt will have the face to have a high status in the harem

Now the form in the harem is to remove the queen, my aunt has the greatest ability, and my value as her niece is to conceive a child for my aunt to raise, so that my aunt's position in the harem will be strong and strong

The emperor dotes on my aunt very much, although I don't know if this kind of favor is an honor, or a kind of love for me, I am afraid of losing, I know, because for the emperor's favor of my aunt, my aunt has been paranoid and in love with the emperor

Why does the emperor have fewer children in the harem? That's because the aunt doesn't want the emperor, and if there are any children to get rid of the queen, the aunt has not yet been able to get rid of the queen's children, and when the woman is older, the aunt will know that for him, the child is an important love, nothing

I don't want my aunt to be helpless in the harem, I also want to give me and Bai Lu, and Qiuyue a guaranteed day, for the seventh prince in my heart, I also have a certain understanding, I always know that the emperor is the one who will give me food and clothing for the rest of my life, and I can only live trembling in the harem

in order to keep the glory and wealth of me, the Lin family and my aunt

Although it is not important in my opinion, for them, glory and wealth are the guarantee for the rest of their lives

I understand why my aunt and Jianxue asked me to keep the emperor every time? Because in this way, we can ensure that only the glory and wealth of the second half of our lives will not leave us

If one day I have a child, then I will tell my child not to hurt others for the sake of power, because you have to understand that there are some things that are yours, yours, not yours, and you can't take them away

Just like me, although I like the second brother, but I don't have the ability or the blessing to control the second brother, the second brother will not abandon the Lin family in order to marry me, this is the real royal family

The face of the royal family is the most important, if the emperor knows that I am entering the palace instead of my sister, I believe that the consequence of me and my neighbor is that I have no way to change my current situation if I don't exist in this world, I can only live silently, in order to protect the status of my neighbor and aunt in the harem, I have paid too much, and I believe that I will pay more in the future

For example, the child I gave birth to, he is not mine, he is not destined to be mine, he must not be mine, he is my aunt's, she belongs to the neighbor's family, I have no ability to raise it, if this child is in the hands of my aunt, then my aunt will definitely let him sit in the position of emperor

Because my aunt wants to protect her status in the harem, except for the queen's aunt, I don't have this ability, so I will enter the palace to help my aunt,

In fact, after a long time in the harem, you get tired of it, and you also want to live an ordinary life, but I don't have this ability

I can only make sure that my existing life is very leisurely, that I can protect myself, the people I want to protect

You see, although my aunt was grounded for three months, the emperor still went to see my aunt, this is the status of my aunt's capital in the harem, and the death of a concubine is only in exchange for a three-month ban on my aunt, no one will complain, why?

Because the person who has a position in this harem is the real king

I have had a very painful life over the years, you see, every time the emperor comes to me, my aunt's maid Jingtai comes to me and asks me to think of a way to beg the emperor to let the emperor go to see my aunt, I wish my aunt is very sick, I think about it so much

It's just my idea, and I don't know if it can be realized in the future, I hope it can be realized, but for my wish, I'm willing to work hard, I want to protect myself, the people I want to protect, not for myself,

Sometimes people are very selfish, and I may also hurt others for my own selfishness, how can there be people who stand in high positions and have no blood in their hands

I'm afraid that my hands will be stained with blood in the future, I just want me to live a safe and secure life in the future, I hope you don't understand myself, see that I am like this every day to confuse myself, let myself live a little more comfortable!

That's how my days have passed, muddy, or vigorous, this is what I need to think about in the future

You see, Jing Tailai came to see him, and he came to me, and asked me to go to the emperor and let the emperor go to see my seriously ill aunt