Chapter 18: Looking back at the man at dusk

Zhou Shengsheng's marriage looks really a failure in the eyes of outsiders: his wife often has affairs, and the children are still Wang's next door, and these two things seem to be known to everyone all over the world, including himself, of course. A man who lives his life like this, who is so miserable, is better off dead than alive. But life has to go on, life has to go on slowly, he himself can't die if he wants to, because he has had a moment of beauty in his heart. It is that beauty that can support him to live day by day, month by month, year by year.

Zhou Shengsheng remembered that when he was 15 years old, the moment he saw the white peony for the first time, it felt like it was close in front of him. At that time, the scene at that moment was like a dream, often appearing in my own dreams and real fantasies, and I often couldn't tell where was a dream and where was real. That kind of scene will appear in front of your eyes anytime and anywhere, and make you feel miserable or happy!

It was a warm autumn noon with the fragrance of osmanthus flowers, or a cold winter evening when snowflakes fell, of course, for a man with normal feelings, who would remember the weather on a certain day so many years ago, Zhou Shengsheng, as a normal man, of course would not remember.

It may still be nearly dusk evening, in a café with dim lights, and there is a melodious love song by Liang Jingru inside:

"Finally made this decision,

I don't care what others say.

As long as you're just as sure,

I would like to go with you to the ends of the earth.

I know it's not easy,

My mind has been reviewing to convince myself.

I'm most afraid that you will suddenly say that you want to give up,

Love really takes courage,

Come face to the gossip.

As long as you look at it for sure,

My love has meaning.

We all need courage,

To believe that we will be together.

I can feel you in a crowd,

In the palm of my hand,

Your sincerity.

Finally made this decision,

I don't care what others say.

As long as you're just as sure,

I would like to go with you to the ends of the earth.

I know it's not easy,

My mind has been reviewing to convince myself.

I'm most afraid that you will suddenly say that you want to give up,

Love really takes courage,

Come face to the gossip.

As long as you look at it for sure,

My love has meaning.

We all need courage,

To believe that we will be together.

I can feel you in a crowd,

In the palm of my hand,

Your sincerity.

If my strong willfulness,

will accidentally hurt you.

Can you gently remind,

I'm too anxious though.

More afraid of missing you,

Love really takes courage,

Come face to the gossip.

As long as you look at it for sure

My love makes sense,

We all need courage,

To believe that we will be together.

I can feel you in a crowd,

In the palm of my hand,

Your sincerity ......"

Listening to Liang Jingru's courage, Zhou Shengsheng felt that he was full of courage. Courage was there, but the development of things was completely beyond Zhou Shengsheng's expectations. When he confessed his affection to the girl who always appeared by his side, the girl disappeared like a frightened bird. Only a faint fragrance is left, which makes people feel fragrant.

"Could it be that girl is the incarnation of Chu Liuxiang's son? Otherwise, how could they disappear in front of me all at once? What a fast body, such a quick speed! Did I just say it so directly that it scared her? No, she is paying attention to herself every day, paying attention to her words and deeds, although that attention may be a kind of surveillance, but it is indeed a real concern. Since we've been together for so many years, and we've been with each other for so long, don't we feel at all in love with each other? Even if we can't get along, can't we still be with each other? How can you just go? How can you just run away? Why don't you take me with you? Am I so unbearable? Actually, I still have a lot of disappointment and likes you, but why should you refuse? ”

At this time, another melodious song began to echo in the hall, still listening gracefully, just like Zhou Shengsheng's mood now!

At this moment, it suddenly felt so familiar.

Like yesterday, today is being screened at the same time.

My tone turned out to be like you.

Isn't it the proof that we have loved,

Almost, I lied to myself and lied to you.

Loving is not necessarily proportional to being loved,

I know it's a stroke of luck to be hurt,

But I couldn't fully surrender myself.

Strive to change for you,

But it can't change the emergence of reservations,

I thought it would be forever by your side.

As if it were yesterday,

But yesterday is very far away,

But with my eyes closed, I can see.

It's a pity that you didn't accompany me to the end!

We walked together but lost the intersection,

Thank you for holding my hand,

I can still feel the tenderness,

That part of our hearts was close to our hearts,

I think I have more power to care about you.

Maybe you've walked into someone else's landscape,

I hope there is also a projection of starlight,

Strive to change for you,

But it can't change the emergence of reservations.

Thinking that it would be forever by your side,

As if it were yesterday,

But yesterday is very far away,

But when I close my eyes, I can see,

It's a pity that you didn't accompany me to the end!

We walked together but lost the intersection,

Thank you for holding my hand,

I can still feel the tenderness,

It's a pity that you didn't accompany me to the end!

We walked together but lost the intersection,

Thank you for holding my hand,

I can still feel the tenderness,

Thank you for holding my hand,

It also warms my chest......."

Listening to the singing in his ears, Zhou Shengsheng's heart was sour, and there seemed to be tears about to flow out of his eyes: "It seems that my youth can be officially marked as an end here." I finally managed to scare away the woman who was always around me. But I know that she has bad intentions, so why is she still so sad, what's wrong with her, do you really like her......"

Suddenly, Chow Sang Sang felt that the scenery around him began to change rapidly, and the café seemed to slowly become transparent, revealing the outdoor scenery! What's the matter, how can you clearly see the outdoor scenery inside the café, is it because of the loss of love, the mental disorder, and the hallucination?

In an instant, Zhou Shengsheng found that the clothes he was wearing began to emit a metallic luster, and his body began to be out of his control, and he slowly stood up from the sofa, not knowing where to go. Suddenly, he found that everything around him had disappeared, and the most terrifying thing was that the ground under his feet had also suddenly disappeared, and he was like a stone falling into the abyss, and began to fall rapidly! The speed of falling is getting faster and faster, and Zhou Shengsheng feels that his face is about to be lifted by the wind brought by the fall!

Suddenly, a woman dressed in red appeared in front of Zhou Shengsheng's eyes, and the woman looked at Zhou Shengsheng with a smile on her face, just like when she first saw her.

The woman looked at Zhou Shengsheng, reached out and gently grabbed his clothes! With the tugging action of her hand, the fall of the two of them seemed to gradually slow down, and finally stopped. The two people seemed to float gently in this gray void like feathers, sometimes up and down, sometimes left and right.

Zhou Shengsheng's face was still full of sadness, and he said loudly with sadness: "Why don't you let me go, didn't I already tell you back then, the two of us are not suitable, you are not my dish!" I'm not worthy of you! I'm hiding here, why don't you let me go. You just let go, let me go, I also have my freedom, I also have my thoughts, let me go, let me live my own life, let me live as my own ......"

The woman in red looked at Zhou Shengsheng with a smile and said, "What do you say?" How did I not know? Do we know each other? What is your last name, sir? The little woman is polite here, looking at Gongzi Haihan. ”

"Turn to ashes, I know you, you are a white peony!" Zhou Shengsheng shouted angrily.

The woman laughed, and then said: "Then you are mistaken, I am not that person at all, my name is Wang Hongbing, I am from another world, you should not know me at all!" We don't know each other, don't you get so close to me? I won't tell you my contact information? ”

Zhou Shengsheng gritted his teeth and said: "Cut, you just escaped from the king of Hades, how could a knowledgeable person like me recognize the wrong person!" We've lived together for so many years, how could I not know you! You are her. ”

The woman was surprised and said, "What do you say, how can I not know! Do we really know each other? ”

Zhou Shengsheng said with a wicked smile on his face: "You will know immediately!" Come on, come on, let's fight three lilies, you know my strengths, and I know your depths. ”

All of a sudden, everything seemed to start to speed up, to get faster, to come alive, to move......

The underground monitoring room has become a hellish existence! Countless robots began to attack its shell from the outside.

Feeling the scorching heat coming from his body, Zhou Shengsheng woke up suddenly, he looked at the photo of his marriage to the woman in front of him, seemed to remember something, and a faint smile appeared on his face: "What are you thinking about again, this substitute body of mine is really not very integrated with your original body!" Looks like I'm still dealing with it carefully......"

The things in your dreams may be skewed when you recall them, and the happier the past, the easier it is to forget. My first meeting with that woman was not so magical at all, or it didn't seem to be so wonderful at all! When the two of them first met, it seemed like two passers-by meeting for the first time. Just a few simple words of greeting each other, how can there be so many flying around, miles and waves!

Zhou Shengsheng can still vaguely remember when he is awake, that is a shadow that is not very clear, the shadow of the woman. The woman seemed to be talking to a lot of people in public. And he himself seemed to be able to think of only a very vague shadow now, a shadow that was getting more and more blurred, a shadow that was getting fainter and almost disappearing......

The woman's voice seemed to be a little hoarse, but in Zhou Shengsheng's ears, it felt very beautiful and ambiguous! In fact, they didn't intersect at that time, they didn't look at each other at all! Only he was hiding in the crowd and secretly watching her, and that might be the truth of the matter.

At that time, he seemed to be only a young boy of sixteen, and she was close to twenty-three years old, almost ripe! They are two completely different people, two people who could not have crossed paths at all. If you can look back and look at it again, who can know that eight years later, that woman actually married him, and he is Zhou Shengsheng. They still crossed paths, and in the end they were together.

At that time, she was participating in a competition for the design of a square, and when she was talking about the plan, she had actually discovered him, and he didn't know at that time, she had actually been looking for him for many years, and it seemed that according to the time on earth, it should be almost a thousand years! The two of them sometimes get together, sometimes separate, but this time it seems to be a little long, the last time they met, it seemed that the Xuanwumen change had not happened, and now it has been so long that I am about to forget him......

She smiled at him, and everything in the world came to a standstill! She slowly walked in front of him, looked at Zhou Shengsheng, who was already motionless, gently stroked his immature cheeks, and said with a smile: "Your time is up, it's been a thousand years, why did you come, our world is about to be destroyed, why did you come!" For more than a thousand years, where you have been hiding, this is your fate, and it is impossible for you to hide from it! ”

A flash of lightning suddenly appeared in the suddenly static space-time, striking the motionless Zhou Shengsheng into ashes, and a humanoid light and shadow slowly emerged from the ashes. The blurred light and shadow looked at the still world in front of him, looked at the woman in front of him, and seemed to show a smile, and then began to drift into the air like a puff of green smoke!

The woman looked at Zhou Shengsheng, who had disappeared, with a smile on her face, and said softly: "You can hide, but this is your fate, you can't avoid it forever, and you will know the reason for everything in it soon!" Ha ha! You can't go anywhere but come back here again and let me see you again. ”

With the woman's laughter, the whole world began to move again, Zhou Shengsheng seemed to be still standing in the crowd and looking left and right, but his feet seemed to be full of gray dust, very thick and thick!

Zhou Shengsheng looked at the woman in the crowd who was still introducing the plan, and a slight smile appeared on his face, "You are here, we can finally meet......

When I first saw her, she smiled like a flower. He was fascinated by her beauty and talent. From then on, he remembered her. By chance, he said to her, "If you promise me three conditions, I will help you fulfill your wish." A smile appeared on her tear-filled face. After he fulfilled her wish, she fulfilled the first two "conditions". Then he joked: "The third condition is to promise me three more conditions." She laughed and said that he was cheating, and asked him to think carefully about the third condition. Day after day, their relationship grew closer. When he was in a low mood, she tried her best to amuse him; When she was sad, he gave her deep comfort and silent companionship. He thought they could go on like this forever...... Eventually, she began to distance herself from him. And the other "he" confesses, sets up a situation, and cares for everything. She was moved to tears. She had completely severed all contact with him, leaving him alone. He never told her that he wanted to be with her, forever and ever.

But another flash of lightning struck, and Zhou Shengsheng was once again turned into ashes, and once again drifted into the air like green smoke.

Zhou Shengsheng in the control room suddenly opened his eyes, and sweating profusely came out of his body.

Zhou Shengsheng, who was frozen in liquid nitrogen in the display screen, was still lying there so calmly, not moving.

There was a song with a strange pitch playing on the stereo in the control room:

"Remember?

Outside the window, the moonlit ocean.

Do you remember?

It is love that makes each other light up the night.

Why do we use silence to become dependent?

Once a starry sky,

Gradually haze.

Heartbreak leaves,

Turn back to the original desolation and wait.

For the sake of loneliness,

Whether or not to find someone to fill in the blanks in your mind.

We have become the world,

The most familiar strangers.

In the future, they will have their own twists and turns

Each mourns.

It's just that we love so much,

Love so deeply.

So the dream awoke, stranded, and silenced.

waved his hand,

But he couldn't get back to his senses.

If you could have endured it at the rendezvous,

Excited souls,

Maybe tonight I won't let myself sink in my thoughts.

Heartbreak leaves,

Turn back to the original desolation and wait.

For the sake of loneliness,

Whether or not to find someone to fill in the blanks in your mind.

We have become the world,

The most familiar strangers.

In the future, they will have their own twists and turns

Each mourns.

It's just that we love so much,

Love so deeply,

So I woke up from the dream, ran aground, and fell silent.

Wave your hand

But he can't get back to his ......."

Listening to this, Zhou Shengsheng's eyes moistened: "Yes, between me and her, it seems so familiar, but I feel so strange." Some of them were because I was too young at the time, young people always think that everything has a chance, but some opportunities may only appear once, and if you lose it, you will lose it forever, just like the relationship with her, you always think that you have more opportunities, and you can have countless opportunities, but you are wrong, loss is loss, and you will never have it again......