One year and three months later, in what is now April 1918

In this year and three months, Yun Yun mainly did four things: first, continued to study at the Kyoto Women's Normal School; second, accompanied Li Yuanying through the production period and postpartum period, and raised the child with her cousin's family to the current age of one year and two months; third, trying to get rid of the obscure and unpredictable relationship with Chen Rundong; Fourth, communicate regularly with Zhuang Yuncheng and Fluttershy in Shanghai. The regular and fulfilling life made her have no worries, so the little waves that Chen Rundong was shocked easily touched her sensitive and fragile girl's heart, making her suspicious, unrealistic, and insecure.

These days, in addition to Yun Yun busy with his own affairs, Chen Rundong has also returned to Hunan twice, once because his mother came to the provincial capital to see a doctor, once because his mother died, and he seems to be as busy as Pepsi on weekdays, so although it has been more than a year, the two have not met much time, and they only greeted each other, Yun Yun didn't understand Chen Rundong after all, she didn't really understand his ideals and beliefs, so she understood Chen Rundong's various "not enthusiastic, not active" behaviors, she understood as indifference and didn't care, That kind of worship for him also dissipated as Chen Rundong was only busy with his own affairs, but Yun Yun still liked him, but this kind of liking changed from simple and plain at the beginning to a complex and strong emotion formed under the domination of possessiveness, and she decided to either confess and have him; Or break up and never get along. This can't be blamed on her, because it has been more than a year and a half since she met Chen Rundong, Yunyun feels that she has been in unrequited love, and her several attempts have also failed, she is very depressed, and she also hates Chen Rundong's "cold" attitude towards herself, so when she likes him more than she hates him, she wants to end this unclear relationship, and if she doesn't succeed, she will become a benevolent!

Chen Rundong started cleaning in the library of Peking University, and later became an administrator, and in these days, he met many celebrities, Hu Shi, Li Dazhao, Chen Duxiu...... He heard many famous lectures, read many books, and thought about many things, especially the impact of "Marxism" on him made new ideas explode in his mind, which made him indulge in deeper thinking and joy, so during this critical period, he ignored Yun Yun, but he himself did not know that he had pushed her to the brink of danger in the dark.

On this day, Yun Yun had the courage to go to Chen Rundong, she dressed herself up plain and elegant, she knew that Chen Rundong was a simple and unworldly person, she held a bag in her arms, walked step by step, stroked the hair on the sideburns, her eyes kept blinking, her face was white and red, after making this decision, she was more nervous. After walking for a long time, she came to the place where Chen Rundong and her classmates lived, and she knew that Chen Rundong would be here to talk with his classmates at noon.

Yun Yun stood by the door and tried to regulate her mood, repeating the scene that she had rehearsed more than a dozen times in her heart. After a while, she thought she was okay, so she took a deep breath and was about to lift her foot, when a schoolgirl walked out.

The female student was startled, looked at Yun Yun, and asked in surprise, "Who are you looking for?" ”

Yun Yun was also stunned, she had never seen a girl here. "I ...... I'm looking for Chen Rundong them. Yun Yun said jerkyly.

"Oh." The girl said, "Go in, they're all there." ”

Yun Yun didn't react, and the female classmate bypassed her and left. Then, Yun Yun cautiously went in, and saw Chen Rundong leaning against the door frame and holding a blue book and laughing, and several people in the room also laughed. When they saw Yun Yun coming, they suddenly stopped, gave Chen Rundong a look, and whispered, "Little junior sister is here." ”

Chen Rundong also stopped laughing, turned his eyes over, and said in surprise: "Xiao Yun, why are you here at this time?" ”

"Looking for you."

Chen Rundong was stunned, and the people in the house coaxed, urging: "Go quickly, go quickly." ”

Chen Rundong handed the book to a classmate who was nearby, but for some reason, he had never seen Yun Yun so serious and straightforward.

"What's wrong?" Chen Rundong walked into her and asked with concern.

Yun Yun pursed her lips and looked at him, then turned to leave. Although Chen Rundong didn't understand, he also went out. Out of the door, into the alley, Yun Yun slowed down, turned her back to him, and asked in a calm tone as much as possible, "Who was that girl just now?" ”

"Friends."

"Whose friend?"

"She is friends with several of us, and she is also Yang Jiayu's sister."

Yun Yun turned around, frowned and asked, "Why haven't I seen her before?" ”

"She is from Hunan, she has only been here for a few days, and soon her classmates will be going to France, so she came to see off her brother and these friends."

Yun Yun was suddenly stunned for a moment, before making this decision, she almost forgot that they were all going to France, "You go too?" Yun Yun hurriedly asked.

"I'm not going, I'm going back to Hunan." Chen Rundong said.

Yun Yun paused, she felt that she was thinking too much, she didn't know what she was doing now, she didn't understand the meaning of this matter, he wanted to go back to Hunan, if she confirmed the relationship with him, did she want to go with him?

"Have you eaten, I invited you to eat Chaos?" Chen Rundong smiled and said, "This time, you can have one bowl per person, and you can also eat large portions." ”

Yun Yun didn't hear it too clearly, but when she heard Chen Rundong speak, she felt that she should always respond, dissolve such a frozen atmosphere, and buy herself some time to think, so she nodded her head woodenly.

The small noodle restaurant before was gone, and Chen Rundong took her to a nearby noodle restaurant and asked the boss to cook two bowls of Chaos.

"Yes, you're going back to Hunan." Yun Yun looked at him and muttered to herself.

"Well, it's our battlefield, there's a lot to do in front of us, and there's a lot to plan for the future."

Yun Yun couldn't listen to what he said about the things in front of her and the picture of the future, no matter what, she wanted to get an answer now, as for his return to Hunan, it would be seen when the time came.

"Senior brother, do you like me?" Yun Yun asked suddenly.

Chen Rundong's expression, which was still full of longing just now, suddenly became dazed. After making sure that he had heard correctly, he stared at his little sister across the table, thinking that she was not joking.

"I see." Chen Rundong was stunned for a long time, and then said suddenly.

Yun Yun didn't know what to mean, "Got it?" She thought, "Got what it means?" ”

At this time, the chaos was good again, the boss brought it up, Chen Rundong pushed the first bowl to Yun Yun, and put a pair of chopsticks on the bowl.

"Eat."

Yun Yun glanced at the steaming chaos, and was not in the mood to eat, and asked, "What do you mean?" ”

"I'm a rough man, and I haven't thought it through yet."

"Does this need to be considered?"

"Let's eat first." Chen Rundong lowered his eyebrows, not daring to look at her squarely.

Yun Yun was very puzzled, but she was already disappointed, and her mood fell to the bottom. She stared at the bowl of chaos stupidly, "I've had lunch, and I can't finish it." She said smugly.

Chen Rundong was at a loss, only stirring up the chaos in his bowl.

Yun Yun suddenly picked up the bowl and rushed to Chen Rundong's bowl, half of it was gone, and then she ate it quickly, even though it burned her mouth and burned her tongue, she was silent. "I'll go first." Yun Yun got up and left, Chen Rundong was not good at dealing with these things, and seeing Yun Yun leave, he knew in his heart that he would have to spend an afternoon analyzing this matter before he could come up with a more timely solution.

Yun Yun went out angrily, her mouth was indeed hot, and she felt numb for a while, but this could not withstand the depression brought to her by Chen Rundong's ruthlessness, and she accelerated her pace hatefully.

At home, Li Yuanying and her aunt were teasing the child, Yun Yun entered the door and went straight back to the house, not seeing her aunt and Li Yuanying on the right.

"Mom, I'll take a look." Li Yuanying said.

"Hmm."

Yuan Ying got up and went to Yunyun's house, went to the door, knocked on the door and asked, "What's the matter, you walk with a ** smell, who messed with you?" ”

"Alas~" Yun Yun sighed and said vaguely: "Come and see, what's wrong with my tongue, it hurts." ”

Li Yuanying approached, Yun Yun frowned and stuck out her tongue, and Yuan Ying saw a small white bubble growing on the tip of her tongue.

"Oops!" Li Yuanying said, "It's blistering, what's wrong?" ”

"No wonder it hurts, it's burned." Yun Yun said angrily, "It's not because of that broken senior brother. ”

"What's the matter with your hot mouth?" Yuan Ying asked with a smile, seeing her excited appearance, and quickly pushed her to sit at the head of the bed.

"I'm so angry, he hesitated for a long time with just one question, and he still has to think about it, heh, I know that I am self-inflicted, he doesn't like me at all." Yun Yun puffed out her round eyes angrily.

"Did you really ask?"

"No, how much courage do I muster, he's good, he still has to think about it, once this kind of thing has to be considered, it's no fun." Yun Yun fell headlong on the bed and sighed.

"Don't be discouraged, maybe there's hope."

"It's okay, I actually feel a little relieved, a year and a half, I'm really fed up with the tormented days, it's easier to say it, all along, I have ignored a situation, he is leaving, he is going back to Hunan, why didn't I completely cut off his emotions at the beginning, sure enough, love makes people stupid." Yun Yun said to herself, "But I'm still reluctant, it's not easy to like someone, this is the first time I've fallen into this beautiful trap, and when I find out, I don't want to struggle." ”

"Poor Yunyun, what are you going to do?" Li Yuanying stroked her back.

Yun Yun was stunned for a long time, sat up suddenly, and said thoughtfully: "You are right, maybe there is hope, he is a nerd in terms of feelings, and his consideration is reasonable, he may want to give me a better answer." ”

Li Yuanying pouted, what she said just now was actually just a comforting word, she was convinced that this kind of problem did not need to be considered.

Yun Yun decided to give him two days to think about it first, and she began to deceive herself, but despite this, the deep loss could not be concealed by self-deception, and her heart still sank halfway.