396. Difficult Choices
Watching Paul Lacas go away, I can't tell how I feel. Forget which philosopher said that the best way to free yourself from hating people is to forgive them.
I don't know if it's right to think so, but after he left, I seemed to feel a lot calmer, and I can't say why, but it happened.
The Nine Ghosts and the others also left immediately, leaving me alone in the house, silently looking at the greenstone at hand.
I know that this is part of the key, and just by closing it with my pendant, I can get one step closer to my dream of going back!
Gently, I pinched up half of the greenstone with my right hand, and took out the pendant from my arms with my left hand, and when I slowly approached the two, they burst into bright light like reunited relatives!
I was almost blinded by the five-colored light! But I still tried my best to look at the stone pendant that gradually merged into one, for fear of missing a little detail!
It was as if a violent wind sounded in my ears, and I was once again in that strange space! The strong pulling sensation came again, and I knew this was the feeling!
And with that, a magical gate that gradually appeared not far in front of me!
Yes! The gate arrived as scheduled, and there were five bright spots shining brightly on it, only the last two grooves were still dark!
I know, those are the last two stones, but I don't have any clue right now.
The gate came along, and that man, I mean, my father, would be here too?
I suppressed the excitement in my heart and raised my voice and asked, "Father! Are you there? I found another stone! β
A moment later, my father's voice sounded from the sky: "Yes! I am here! Child! β
My heart was on fire, and my father immediately said, "You are doing a good job! Child. I'm so proud of you! β
I have always had deep respect and regret for my father who took me to the end of the world when I was a child, so I only feel a heartfelt excitement at his words of approval!
After a long period of patience, I said, "Father, where are the remaining two stones?" That's what I'm most concerned about.
Unexpectedly, my father didn't answer and asked, "Qilan, before I answer your question, you answer me a question first." All right? β
I didn't know what he was going to ask, but I still nodded solemnly and said, "Okay!"
The father's voice was very sincere: "Qilan, after you find all the seven stones, you can indeed have a chance to return to the modern era!" But! β
When I heard the first half, my heart beat wildly, but when I heard this "but", I knew that things were not so simple, so I tried to calm down as much as possible, let out a long breath, and quietly waited for the following.
"However, after you go back, you will never be able to return to this world, this time and space, you will be separated from everyone, everything, everything here, you ...... Still willing to go back? β
"I ......" my father's words made my heart sink violently! I just felt a stirring in my heart, and then I asked aloud, "Why?" Why can't you come back? I've been through so much and why? β
The father's voice was full of regret: "I'm sorry, my child, I know it's cruel, but it's just the way it is!" I'm trying to do my best, at best, like I am, to get my consciousness back here, that's all. β
I was silent, not knowing what to say. It's only been eight years since I came to Daming, but it's much more meaningful and valuable than my previous thirty years!
Here, I live for myself, I have found my true love, I have found my career, and I have found a group of people worthy of my cherish!
However, in the modern world of the previous life, I still have a blood revenge that has not been avenged, and my mother has not been found, and I still have to ask Uncle Suzuki face to face - why did you betray me?
For a moment, I felt as if my heart had been torn apart, and I fell into deep pain and hesitation!
Why! Why! I worked so hard and gave so much, but the reality gave me such a cruel multiple-choice question?
What exactly should I choose? And who can tell me?
I clenched my fists, gritted my teeth, and stood there motionless.
There was a long silence, and neither my father nor I spoke.
After a long time, I think it was almost a century long, and my father's voice came again: "Qilan, in fact, you don't have to worry about it like this at all."
I looked up confused and asked, "What do you mean?"
The father's voice was full of apology: "Dad is incompetent, since you were a child, he has not been able to give you a peace and a good childhood. Since I left, you have suffered so much and suffered so many grievances to get to where you are today, and I have no reason for you to give up these and suffer more. This...... Not what I want to see. β
At this moment, I just felt that my throat was completely choked, and it became difficult to breathe! The eye sockets are red, and it seems that something is swirling in them!
Over the years, I've pushed myself to be strong and forced myself to be who I am. In the words of modern people, if it is not forced by life, who wants to make themselves talented?
What I endure, what I insist on, is unknown to others. When you encounter something, you can do what you can, and find a way to do what you can't do.
Before I came here, I didn't have a childhood, I didn't have happiness, I didn't have a life of my own. In order to find my mother, in order to get revenge, I turned myself into a mere machine!
I love this world, I can't bear the people, the things here, and everything here!
But can I, for the sake of my own happiness, let the facts that have always existed and be there fall on deaf ears?
My father's exculpation did not make me feel lighter, but more heavy!
I couldn't help but mutter, "What kind of advice is this?" Do you want me to be an ostrich with its head hidden in a haystack? β
The father couldn't help but laugh dumbly, and said softly, "I mean, it's still a long time before you find the two remaining stones, so you don't have to be in such a hurry, my son!" The reason why I tell you this is actually to give you a vaccination, and as for how you choose when the time comes, I support you! β
"It is a father's greatest wish to make his children happy."
I let out a long breath again, and handed it over to time, which seemed to be the best way to go.
So I raised my head and looked at the empty sky, where there was a faint whirlpool of things, like a galaxy, and asked softly, "Father, are you alright?" β
The father's voice was full of smiles: "I'm fine, my child. Thank you for everything, I didn't expect you to be so good, I'm so grateful. β
I smiled too, and although I felt that my nose was sour, I still smiled happily: "It's just the result of hard work, nothing to boast about." β
The father gave an approving "um" and spoke again: "You have become a mature man, Qilan!" You're better than your father, that's true! β
I nodded and continued to ask, "Where are the remaining two stones?" Father, you tell me, I'll go find it! β
My father didn't answer my question directly: "These seven stones are actually just the crystallization of divine consciousness, and they have no fixed form or fixed position. As long as you follow your heart and move forward bravely, you will definitely find what you want. β
It seems that the father did not know where the stones were. But he had a point, the stones were obtained suddenly, and I didn't know where to get them, or what was the right way to go. But when I've done something, they seem to appear like that, without warning, but with clarity.
I looked into the void and said loudly, "Don't worry, Father, I'm always moving forward!" Someday, I'll find all the keys and open that shuttle door! β
"I'm waiting! My son! The father's voice seemed to be getting farther and farther away: "I hope you will still be healthy and safe when I see you again, child, take care!" β
After saying that, the strong pull of time and space came unexpectedly again, and I was like a small boat in the angry waves of the sea in the void, completely unable to control my body, but I knew that I was safe.
"Take care! Father! I murmured, and there seemed to be a soft "um" in the distance, and I knew my father had heard it.
I don't know how long it took me to go back to my house in Dublin, or rather, I never left it.
Maybe it's just a dislocation of time, maybe it's something invisible, intangible, or unpredictable that is acting on all this, but in short, it happened, very naturally.
Gently clutching the pendant in my hand, I seemed to be able to feel a trace of time and space throbbing from above, and after the greenstone became complete, I really felt that the pendant had become different!
The red stone seems to make my vitality more tenacious, the white stone makes me seem to be more deaf and clear, the black stone makes my attacks attach a corrosive and cutting effect, the purple stone brings me is not clear, I just vaguely feel that my luck has been very good recently, is it this kind of metaphysical effect that purple brings?
And what about the green stone, what does it bring me? I tried to get my consciousness into the pendant, especially the green part, and the green stone began to glow green, which was very beautiful, but I didn't know what it did.
At this moment, I felt a tingling and itching sensation on my arm, and I raised my arm in amazement, only to see that the wounds that had been grazed by sawdust, iron pieces, and ammunition fragments in the naval battle were recovering at a speed visible to the naked eye! And those that have scabbed over are rapidly growing new muscles and skin!
Don't...... Is it like the power of Karasim, the green oneβI mean, the whole green stone brings the power of healing?
I immediately lifted my clothes, and what was happening to my jaw-dropping was happening - the wounds on my body, large and small, were healing, fading, disappearing, and even the scars from the battle against the Tatars years ago were quickly disappearing!
Can it really be cured? This...... It's amazing!
Immediately, a person flashed in my heart - a kite!
With this ability, can I cure her?
Yes, I will! Absolutely!
The joy almost drove me crazy! I rushed out of the door and shouted, "Zhengxiao! Filial piety! β
The Nine Ghosts were silently wiping their blades not far away, and when they heard my call, they immediately ran over and asked urgently, "What's wrong?" Mr? β
I grabbed his arm and asked eagerly, "Is there any news of kites?" Even if it's a clue? β
The nine ghosts didn't answer yet, but they heard a female voice at the door: "Yes, Qilan." β
I turned my head quickly, but I saw a person I didn't expect at all to appearβit was Hua Mei!
She's been away for so long, and she's back today! And listening to her, it seems that she has found the whereabouts of the kite!
I rushed to Hua Mei in a few steps, and was about to open my mouth excitedly, but I saw Hua Mei looking at me with a complicated face.
My heart throbbed. Yes, it stands to reason that Hua Mei is my fiancΓ©e, and now that I am reunited after a long absence, I didn't ask her if she was okay, so I wanted to ask about other women's situations, which is unreasonable.
So, I looked at Hua Mei's tanned face, but it was still beautiful, and asked softly, "Is everything okay after going back for so long?" β
Hua Mei said with a smile: "Are you asking me, or are you asking something else?" β
I smiled helplessly and said, "The main thing is to ask you." β
Hua Meiwan smiled: "As you can see, I'm fine, but ......" Her face was a little gloomy: "Qi Dudu's physical condition has been very bad recently, I guess...... As you said at the time, his end is near! β
"Smack!" The stone pendant I was holding in my hand suddenly fell to the ground!