Chapter 118: Death
If Ye Jiu hadn't told her personally, Qi Niang would still be living in a dream she made up and didn't want to wake up. ⌒ The flute, which still carries Jiang Qi's cold breath, is silently crying. In fact, as early as when she received Jiang Qihan's last letter, Qi Niang had already faintly expected that Jiang Qihan suddenly left Qihua Valley, perhaps not only to worship Dugu Rang's predecessors, but to prepare in advance to say goodbye to Qi Niang, so that Qi Niang slowly got used to the days without him. It's not that she hasn't heard those rumors, it's just that she hasn't admitted them.
"When?" Qi Niang clenched her fingers, trying her best to look free, but the tears that kept pouring out of her eyes and the suppressed crying in her voice betrayed her, and the heart that had already been healed was emptied of a big hole again, and the salty cold wind poured in, but she couldn't get out, blocking her heart uncomfortable. The pain in her heart reminded her that she was not the hard-hearted killer she once was, she was just a grieving wife who had lost her beloved.
Not wanting to embarrass the person in front of her, Qi Niang put away her fragile emotions and stubbornly looked at Ye Jiu with her eyes open.
"Half a year ago, I met him in a small village in southern Xinjiang. I didn't come to tell you in time, because I was afraid that you would be difficult to accept for a while, maybe I did something wrong......" Ye Jiu fell into deep self-blame and regret.
Qi Niang wiped the tears overflowing from the corners of her eyes with her hand, shook her head wordlessly, and then, she got up, walked to the room, and then came out with a wooden box and put it on the table.
Ye Jiu looked at Qi Niang suspiciously, and saw that she took out a thick letter from the box and handed it to Ye Jiu. It was Jiang Qihan who asked him to send a letter to Qi Niang. Ye Jiuhu unfolded suspiciously, originally thinking that it was some warm and trivial greetings, but the further back he looked, the tighter Ye Jiu's brows tightened. And Qi Niang just sat quietly and watched him.
Between the lines, there is a precipitation of a person's loneliness and self-abandonment, as well as resentment and unwillingness to the world, those cities buried in people's hearts, like a bottomless whirlpool, almost want to drown people. Jiang Qihan counted his various revenge on Qianjilou, as well as his calculations against Bian Che, in order to pull out the power of Qianjilou, Jiang Qihan did not hesitate to use the trust and feelings of the person he loved the most. When Jiang Qihan was alive, he couldn't wait to present all the good things to Qi Niang, but before he died, he let Qi Niang see his darkest side.
Ye Jiu looked up at Qi Niang, only to see Qi Niang smile bitterly: "Qi Han once mistakenly thought that Bian Che was his father-killing enemy, so he wanted to take revenge, and later the misunderstanding was resolved, but Qi Han's hatred for Bian Che has not diminished at all, or even worse." In order to make Bian Che suffer, Qi Han even calculated me and asked Xi Feng to post my portrait in the city, so that Bian Che could throw himself into the net. But I didn't blame him at all, I understood his suffering, and I wasn't surprised at all by what Qi Han did. The only thing I can't let go of is that I have been married to him for so long, and he has never been able to trust me as fully as I trusted him, and even when he is dying, he will not tell me. If I had known, I would have prevented him from going to southern Xinjiang, and even if he had a few days to live, I would have accompanied him to the end. ”
Ye Jiu folded the letter, returned it to Qi Niang, and said to her: "Maybe he told you this, but he didn't want you to be too sad about his death and start a new life." When I met him, he had a message for me to bring to you, and he wanted you to forget him. ”
Qi Niang's tears surged out again, she cried, laughed, wiped away her tears, and the tears flowed down again, over and over again. The last words Jiang Qihan left her were to tell her to forget him. They have experienced so many lives and deaths together, and have had so many happy memories, can he forget it with a word of forgetting?
When Qing Huan came over with wine, she saw that Qi Niang, who had always been calm, had an emotional breakdown for some reason, panicked, and hurriedly came up to ask, but saw Qi Niang holding a flute tightly in her hand, so she immediately knew what was going on, she went up and hugged Qi Niang, crying and said, "Madam, you want to mourn!" What if I cry and break my body? Even if the pavilion master is gone, you have to take care of yourself for the little boy! ”
Qi Niang cried and laughed: "Since you want me to forget him, why did you give me true love in the first place, and let me live and die, Jiang Qihan, you are really a full negative man!" However, after scolding, Yue felt depressed and grief-stricken, and almost went with Jiang Qihan. However, thinking that they still have Jiang Ning, I felt a little comforted. That was the only thought Jiang Qihan left her in this world, even for the sake of their children, she had to cheer up.
Perhaps in response to this sad scene, the rain refused to stop, and even tended to get worse and stronger, until the evening, when the sky began to clear. When Ye Jiu was leaving, he asked Qi Niang if he was willing to go down the mountain with him, and he and Sixteen were willing to take care of Jiang Qihan's child with her, but Qi Niang said: "Although I really want to be with you, I also miss Xiao Sixteen, but Qihua Valley is where I lived with Qi Han, and I don't want to leave yet." What happened to me here, can you not tell Xiao Sixteen for the time being, Xiao Sixteen is a straight person, if she knows that I am here, she will definitely tell Bian Che. ”
Ye Jiu thought for a while and said, "Bian Che has been looking for you for a long time, do you really want to see him?" Ye Jiu felt ashamed, he knew that Qi Niang was in Qihua Valley, and he also knew that Jiang Qihan was dead, but because of his selfishness, he never told Bian Che the truth, and he delayed looking for Qi Niang in the future, but told Bian Che that Qi Niang had gone with Jiang Qihan. didn't expect Bian Che to believe it, and still refused to give up looking for Qi Niang's traces.
Qi Niang shook her head and said: "My fate with him has long been over, you go back, take good care of Xiao Sixteen, if there is a chance, I will definitely go down the mountain to see you." ”
Ye Jiu stopped talking, looked at Qi Niang, and then said, "Take care, I will come again." ”
After Ye Jiu left, Qi Niang said to Qing Huan: "Qing Huan, prepare your bags and go to Kazhou to find a house." ”
Qing Huan was puzzled, "Madam, why are you looking for a house there?" ”
"I'm going to move to Karzhou with Ning'er, if you don't want to go, go back to Hanjiang Pavilion, you don't have to follow me anymore."
Qing Huan shook his head again and again, and said in a panic: "Madam, don't drive me away, I'm used to serving the little son, and besides, I don't want to leave Mrs. You, Madam, where you go, Qing Huan will go!" ”
Qi Niang looked at Qing Huan deeply and said, "You were originally from Hanjiang Pavilion, but because I married Qi Han and followed me for so long, now that Qi Han is no longer there, why should you suffer with me anymore?" ”
"I don't feel bitter, Madame is very good to me, instead of going back to Hanjiang Pavilion, it is better to follow Madame everywhere." Qing Huan said that she didn't want to go back to Hanjiang Pavilion alone, she looked at Qi Niang hesitantly, and asked, "Madam, why did you suddenly change your mind and leave?" Is it because you're afraid that the person named Bian Che will come to you? Doesn't Madame want to be found by him? If Madame doesn't want to see him, Qing Huan can turn him away and make him never go up to Qihua Valley, so that Madame and the little boy don't have to leave here. ”
Qi Niang shook her head helplessly, and said, "Alas, you don't understand......" If Bian Che wants to see her, how can a strange flower valley be able to stop him.
However, Karzhou is far away, and the matter of finding a house cannot be done overnight, and during the time when he planned to move away, Ye Jiu also came three or four times, and every time he would bring some gadgets that children like up the mountain to give to Jiang Ning, but it was a pity that Ye Jiu was not good at communicating with children and was lifeless, so Jiang Ning was always reluctant to approach him, and every time he got into Qi Niang's arms.
Ye Jiu was also quite helpless about Jiang Ning's fear of him, and thought seriously: "Am I very fierce?" ”
Qi Niang smiled and said, "It's not fierce, it's just too serious, do you know how Qi Han teases him on weekdays?" Ning'er likes to let Qihan play with him the most, and every time Ning'er smiles from ear to ear. As soon as she finished speaking, Qi Niang suddenly stopped talking, lowered her eyes, Jiang Qihan's name was still like a thorn, deeply rooted in her heart, every time she thought of him, this thorn would involve the gap in her heart and hurt faintly.
The two fell silent for a while, and Ye Jiu coughed for a long time, and said without words: "Why haven't you seen the girl next to you recently?" ”
"She went out and bought something." Qi Niang was talking nonsense and didn't mention to Ye Jiu that she was going to move away.
Ye Jiu's eyes flickered, and he said, "If you need anything, you can tell me at any time." ”
"Thank you, but we'll just settle our affairs by ourselves, how can I trouble you, I'm already very happy that you came up to the mountain to see me."
Ye Jiu had a strong heart and did not answer again. Compared with the grief when she first heard the news of Jiang Qihan's death, Qi Niang seems to be in a much better mood these days, and thanks to Ye Jiu's frequent visits, it always makes people miss the time when the three friends were together in the past, so that Qi Niang temporarily forgot some sad things.
Ye Jiu looked at Qi Niang who was coaxing Ning Er to sleep, his hands clenched slightly, and he said coldly: "Qi Niang, I have been thinking these days, if I found you first after we separated in Red Lotus Castle, would it be different if there were some things later." Perhaps, I won't become Bian Che's subordinate, and you won't join Qianjilou. ”
"Ye Jiu." Qi Niang raised her head and looked at Ye Jiu without blinking, without saying anything, but she already understood what he meant in her eyes.
"I know a lot of things are my wishful thinking, I have never had any extravagant hopes, and I have promised Sixteen to spend my life with her, but Jiang Ning is still young, and I can take care of him in the name of a friend." Ye Jiu said very seriously.
Qi Niang shook her head and said, "Ye Jiu, I understand your intentions, but I have already thought about it, I want to take care of Ning'er by myself, I don't want to affect the relationship between you and Sixteen because of me." In a few days, I will be leaving the Valley of Strange Flowers, and as for where I will go, forgive me for not being able to tell you. But don't worry, I'll be looking for you when I'm settled. ”
Ye Jiu looked at her in surprise, he didn't expect that he and Qi Niang had only been reunited for just half a month, and they would face separation again. But seeing that Qi Niang seemed to have made up his mind, he had no choice but to say: "No matter what choice you make, I respect your decision." ”
Qi Niang smiled happily, "Thank you, Ye Jiu." ”
Ye Jiu also smiled, and suddenly felt a lot more comfortable, he said: "Xiao Sixteen is going back to the capital, today is the last time I come, so I can't send you." This time, it's time to practice it for you in advance. ”
"Okay."