For me, business is not friendship, business is not friendship, business is not friendship, as long as I am not a person who is deliberately evil, I still have basic patience.

After throwing that sentence to Hua Mei, I actually regretted it a little. Why bother? Can't be together, that's no fate, you can't hurt each other, right?

So I calmed down, looked at Hua Mei and continued: "Maybe I was a little heavy just now, but that's what it means. You have your choice, I have mine. Of course, thank you for your last-minute help! I'll remember. ”

Hua Mei was silent for a long time, and then said faintly: "Qilan, have we really come this far?" Just because I'm out to sea alone? Or is it because of the ...... of kites"

When I heard the name of the kite, I was furious again! If it weren't for her, how could the kite get hurt? How can you be unconscious?

When I was fighting wits and courage with others, fighting to the death, the kite would always stand silently behind me, but what about her? Because I was in a bad mood, I disappeared without a trace! How many times have I reached out to help, but I haven't gotten a response? Why? Just a marriage contract?

Thinking about it, my face was clouded again, and at the same time I fell silent, and I stopped talking.

Hua Mei looked at my expression, probably understanding my thoughts, so she sighed heavily. After a pause, Fang said slowly: "Qilan, I know you're blaming me." In fact, when there was an accident at my family, you rushed back from Dongying to rescue me, and I am very grateful in my heart. ”

I said lightly: "There is no need to mention these things again." I'm just doing my morals. ”

Hua Mei shook her head and said, "No! I'm going to say! Qilan, I am very grateful to you for not forgetting your friendship, and I am also grateful for saving my father. Just at the time...... My mother died suddenly, and my heart was in great pain! I didn't know how to alleviate it, so I had to make the choice that was most relaxing for me. I'm sorry, I know this disappointed you! But ......"

She looked into my eyes and said slowly, "But I haven't relaxed my attention to you for a moment!" I understand and care about your every move! ”

As she spoke, she took out a thick notebook from her bosom and handed it to me.

I hesitated, but then took it, and there was nothing written on the leather cover, which was about two fingers thick overall. So I glanced up at Hua Mei, and she motioned for me to look at it with her eyes, and I paused for two seconds before opening the book.

It turned out to be a diary.

On the first page, I looked at the date, which was the day when I abandoned my official position and left the Ming Dynasty by boat from Yantai Port. I saw that the content was written-

"He's gone! He's finally gone! Why could he leave me alone? Qilan! Why are you doing this? You're gone, what should I do? ”

"Father said that someone wants to be unfavorable to him, but the court has its own judgment, doesn't it? And my father is cooperating, and Shousuke hasn't died, so why did he leave me alone? ”

"The swear of the mountains and seas and the flying of wings are all lies? Didn't you say that you would get married right away? Qilan, do you know how many times I have secretly worn the bride's phoenix crown, just fantasizing about the scene of marrying you? I can't help but laugh out loud at this point! And at this moment, holding the phoenix crown again, I only have tears! ”

"I'm going to find you! Even if we want to separate, I want you to tell me to my face! Qilan! ”

Looking at the familiar, beautiful font and feeling the emotional fluctuations between the lines, my heart is full of mixed feelings. Feeling Hua Mei's burning gaze, I didn't look up, sighed slightly, and continued to look down.

The following content, from our meeting at sea and drifting on an isolated island, to her return to the Ming Dynasty, and then there was an accident at home, I traveled thousands of miles to help, and I wrote in great detail.

Reading this diary, I seemed to be talking to her softly, as if listening to Hua Mei silently telling her thoughts, I couldn't tell what mood I was, and I didn't think too much, just watched and read quietly.

After she went to sea alone, because she was worried about my safety, she specially asked for a small team of secret agents from his father Li Zaixing, and sent them to Dongying, always keeping an eye on my whereabouts!

I fought wits and courage with the nine ghosts on Honshu Island, and tried marksmanship with people on Kyushu Island, including when I was besieged on Mount Shidake when I was fighting, and she was paying attention to everything! When I was in danger, she tried to come to the rescue several times, but every time I arrived, she always received the news that I was safe......

It turns out that she has been paying attention to me! I thought to myself. couldn't help but raise her head and glanced at Hua Mei. She was staring at me with burning eyes, her eyes misty, and she was biting her lower lip tightly.

I couldn't help but sigh slightly, lowered my head again, and continued to look at the diary.

After I went to sea, she still paid silent attention to me, but the channels for getting intelligence information were obviously narrower, and there were obviously fewer cases of writing about me, and more of her worries about me.

The fake foreign devil was also mentioned in the middle - Charlie, and it was really for medicine. I couldn't help but smile slightly, the man's ridiculous self-esteem!

Glancing at Hua Mei, she was looking at me, and seeing my smile with content, she laughed twice and said softly: "I'm not a casual woman." You're thinking too much, Qilan! ”

I was noncommittal and kept watching. From the record some time ago, Hua Mei mentioned the word "conspiracy" more, so I read it more seriously.

"Charlie is actually Spaniard! What exactly is he trying to do? Why lie like that? ”

"Qilan in East Africa? There was a head-on conflict with the Santos Chamber of Commerce! The Santos Chamber of Commerce ostensibly belongs to Portugal, but in fact it is a Spanish influence? ”

"Listening to Uncle Sheehan, the all-out competition between Britain and Spain has begun, and there are all kinds of old maritime powers Portugal and the Netherlands, and the Ming Dynasty has become a battleground between Britain and Spain. No wonder Charlie, the damn spy, infiltrated the Ming Dynasty! ”

"Could it be that Charlie is actually a double agent? He is ostensibly British, but in fact he is a spy for the Spaniards? That's the explanation! Everything he did was to destroy the relationship between the Ming Dynasty and Britain! No wonder this is the case! ”

"Charlie, this damn guy! I actually want to ambush Qilan in West Africa! No way! I will never allow that to happen! But where is Qilan now? He seems to be missing...... Unreachable. Forget it, I can't contact him, I'll help him solve the obstacles on the way! ”

"Enemy south of the Cape of Good Hope! It's Charlie's fleet! Damn it, you're still driving the boat you stole from me! I'm going to destroy you! ”

"The Spanish fleet is retreating, what are their plots? Uncle Sheehan told me to be on high alert, so I spread out my formation in a long line to prevent the enemy from sneaking up. ”

"Thirty nautical miles southwest of Luanda to the enemy! The enemy will be crushed at the first touch! What are their plots? Take a detour to see it! ”

"Mass enemy tracks found west of Sao Tome! It seems that they are ready to fight an ambush here! Who are they going to ambush? Could it be Qilan? ”

"We were discovered! Start fighting! The enemy is outflanking from both flanks! Speed up the retreat! ”

"Thank God! What a timely storm! Speed up the evacuation! ”

"The enemy retracted back to São Tomé, and they did not pursue! Why? Is it ......?"

"Qilan has been attacked! I'm going to save him! ”

On the next page, there are a lot of irregular ink stains, which look more like smudges after the ink has been wetted with water, and there is even a little blood at the bottom! It looks like a finger has wiped off a trail of blood.

At the far right end of the bloodstained notebook after opening, I looked up, only to see a small wound under Hua Mei's right cheek, which seemed to have been grazed by a fragment of something.

Seeing me looking at the wound on her face, Hua Mei seemed a little embarrassed, she tilted her head slightly, and whispered, "It was made when she sank the Spanish ship that attacked you." My boat shook so hard that I fell. But it will be fine soon, the wound is not big, and it should not leave a scar......"

After reading this diary, this thick diary, my heart is full of mixed feelings. I looked down at the kite again and reached out to gently caress her face. I looked up at Arashi again, and she was looking at me with her lips pursed slightly, but she didn't say anything. But I can see that she is very resistant to Hua Mei! Of course, I understand very well, after all, she and Kite are sisters, and Kite's current situation is largely caused by Hua Mei.

If it were me, I wouldn't forgive!

But from my point of view, from the words and bits and pieces of this diary, I can read Huamei's concern for me. I know now that even though I never saw her, she was always concerned about my well-being.

In contrast, it seems that I am angry and care less about her......

Of course, in my heart, I have always regarded her as my fiancée, but whatever I can, I will definitely do my best, just like this rush to help, I know there will be danger, but I still came, and I kept saying that I was just doing my moral, but what about deep down? Is that really the case?

I asked myself, and honestly, I couldn't give myself an accurate answer. But I know very well that the reason why I was determined to marry Kite and Lan was that I didn't think that Hua Mei had changed her mind and that I was really disheartened before making the decision.

I love kites, and I like Lan too, but what about Hua Mei? Maybe deep down in my heart, she is the first or real choice I made after I came to this world!

But at this time, the kite fell into a coma in order to save me, and there was no sign of recovery for so long, it was impossible for me to leave her and think about other problems! I promised the kite that I would never be separated again! Then I'll do it!

Thinking of this, I gently closed the thick diary and handed it back to Hua Mei. She took it silently and said softly: "Qilan, I know you're blaming me, but ...... But I also have my own struggles. Especially after my mother's sudden death, I was in a bad mood, so I ...... So, please don't resent me! ”

I lowered my head and sighed heavily after a long time, and instead of answering her question, I asked, "What about after that?" What are your plans? ”

Hua Mei bit her lip, as if she had made up her mind, she said in a very soft but firm voice: "I figured it out!" Qilan, you almost took your own life for me! For a man like this, I don't want to miss it again! If you don't resent me and don't drive me away...... I want to go to the West with you, is that okay? ”

Without waiting for me to answer, she continued: "The Nine Ghosts and Masaki told me about your plans. Qilan, after the matter of finding a special medicine for my father was shattered, I didn't have any plans, so let me follow you, okay? ”

This question puts me in a dilemma. Reject her? From all kinds of her, it can be seen that my estrangement from her lies more in misunderstanding and distance. But promise her? Does that mean I've accepted her again? What about kites? Take 10,000 steps back, what should Lan do?

I glanced up at Arashi, who was silently wiping her cheeks outside of gauze. I sighed and was about to speak, when Hua Mei suddenly said, "I heard Uncle Sheehan say that there is a famous doctor in St. George's, who is particularly good at treating trauma. I don't know if the condition of the kite can be cured! Let's try it! ”

Hearing this, my eyes lit up and I asked, "Really?" ”

Hua Mei smiled and said, "Uncle Sheehan said it!" It is said that when he was young, he went to Nanyang to study medicine, and he was very famous in the local area. Later, with the caravan here, I settled here! Uncle Sheehan was seriously injured that year, and he couldn't even speak clearly at that time, but this doctor later cured him! ”

And such a clever doctor? I glanced at Lan, and Lan's eyes were spewing with hope, so I turned my head to look at Hua Mei, suppressed my excitement and said, "Okay! Then do it! We rushed to St. George's at full speed to ask the doctor to treat the kite! ”