By the time Zhang Fan walked out of the palace gate, the sky had already darkened, and I don't know why, although Zhang Fan had returned to the capital now, his desire to go home was unprecedentedly strong at this moment.

"My lord," Wang Meng waited outside the palace gate, and when he saw Zhang Fan coming out, he hurried over to greet him.

Seeing the car next to Wang Meng, Zhang Fan nodded at him and sat in the car.

"Go home," Zhang Fan said without being verbose.

After Wang Meng listened to Zhang Fan's instructions, he didn't have it, and ordered his subordinates to go directly to Zhang's mansion.

When he arrived at the door of his house, Zhang Fan got out of the car, looked at the lofty appearance of the courtyard in front of him, but suddenly stopped, even if he was eager to return home as soon as possible, but when he really arrived in front of his own door, he stopped, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

"My lord, my lord......" Wang Meng saw Zhang Fan standing in front of the gate of his house, not moving, and couldn't help but go to the mountain and call twice.

"Oh, Wang Meng," Zhang Fan, who was awakened, saw Wang Meng beside him.

"Is there something on your mind," Wang Meng couldn't help but ask when he saw that Zhang Fan was a little distracted.

"No, nothing," Zhang Fan said with some hesitation, "It's just that a few days ago, I was in Jiangnan, although I didn't stay for much time, but there were too many things happening there, and now I am standing in front of the door of my house, somehow, suddenly I have a ...... It feels like a world away,"

After Wang Meng listened to Zhang Fan's words, he didn't show any surprised expression, but looked very understanding, and said: "This kind of mind of the adult has actually been lowly before,"

"Oh," hearing Wang Meng say this, Zhang Fan also became interested and asked, "Let's hear it," as he spoke, Zhang Fan didn't care about his identity at all, sat on the steps in front of the door of his house, and patted the stairs next to him, signaling Wang Meng to sit down and talk.

Wang Meng hugged his fists and thanked him, and he was not hypocritical, so he sat next to Zhang Fan and said: "My lord knows that the lowly post was originally born in the army, and the lowly family has been in the army for generations, and the father and grandfather of the lowly family, and even above, are said to have died on the battlefield.

"At that time, I was still very young, I didn't know a lot, I don't know what my mother was sad about, but I knew that it must be related to my father, every time my father could return home, my mother's face would often show a smile, and every time my father went out, my mother would be sad all day long.

"At that time, I always felt that my father must have done something sorry for my mother, and I hated my father, and even told my mother about my humble position, but my mother would teach my humble position a hard lesson every time, but then I would always explain it with good words, and gradually, my humble position finally understood, my father did not dislike this family, but because my father was serving in the army, all matters must be obeyed by the orders of the superiors, if there is a war at the border pass, my father will also follow the battlefield, It's been a long time, and every time you may never come back,"

Zhang Fan listened to Wang Meng's narration quietly, without interrupting him at all.

"I know that one year, the Tartars harassed me again in the northern frontier of the Ming Dynasty," Wang Meng continued, "that time the imperial court ordered the pursuit of the Tartars, wanting to inflict heavy losses on them, and which time, the Tartars used a strategy, in order to lead our army into their trap, and the lowly father was among them, as a result, more than 10,000 people, none of them or those who returned, all died in Mobei, and when my mother received the news, she fainted on the spot, but until the lowly family mourned for her father, she still did not see my father's body, He was buried in an empty coffin, containing only a set of clothes worn by his lowly father.

"On that day, when I saw this picture, especially my mother's sad appearance of crying and weeping, although I didn't hate it in my heart, I hated it very much, I hated my father, why did he go to serve in the army, if I didn't go, I didn't have to make it look like this, I hated the army, I always felt that the army hurt my father, not only that, but also those who joined the army, and I swore at that time that I would never join the army like my ancestors.

"However, it's ridiculous to talk about," Wang Meng said this, but he couldn't help laughing, as if he was laughing at himself, "This oath made by the lowly position was broken by the lowly position himself in the second year.

"In the winter of the second year, because of the death of her father, her health was also deteriorating, and she was already bedridden, and she had to be taken care of by her humble position every day.

"I still remember the winter of that year, the weather was cold, it was the coldest year in the history of the humble job, every family in the village hid at home and refused to come out, and the same was true for our family, but one night, my mother suddenly coughed badly, which made people feel uncomfortable, and the humble job really couldn't stand it and let my mother continue to suffer, so I had to take some money and feel that the pharmacy in the town went to help my mother buy medicine.

That day, the lowly office finally knocked on the door of the Langzhong family, and was scolded for this, but the lowly job did not feel hard, but when the lowly job finally rushed back to the village, it was far away to find that the village was a fire, and the lowly job panicked in his heart, and ran back to the village with a roll, and found that he ...... It was found that the village had been ransacked, the village was not big, there were dozens of families, hundreds of people, but at that time they were all dragged out of their homes and lying on the ground, all the men in the village were killed, and the women were all gone, except for the old man and children...... At that time, I didn't know what to do, my mother was even weak, and it was freezing and snowy at that time, how could she survive.

"I stayed in the village alone for two days and two nights, thinking a lot, and I began to know why my father was going to join the army to kill the enemy, to protect the villagers and neighbors, I didn't think that my father would have such thoughts, what my father wanted was to protect me and my mother, from that time, I made up my mind and broke my oath to join the army and kill the Tartars, but what I did was not to defend the country, but to take revenge,"

When Zhang Fan heard this, he was silent, he had read Wang Meng's dossier, which had a detailed record, and the Wang Meng recorded above fought bravely, no matter when he would always rush to the front, Zhang Fan used to think that Wang Meng was just simple bravery, but now he is the Tao, it turned out that hatred prompted Wang Meng.

In other words, hatred is a wonderful emotion, it will make people become very irrational, easy to be impulsive, and then easy to make mistakes, but in the same way, hatred can also give people great courage and strength, as well as tenacious beliefs, to help people achieve their goals, this is simply a contradictory existence, but the existence of two contradictions of failure and success can be perfectly reflected in the body of "hatred".

It's just that the only thing Zhang Fan doesn't know is why Wang Meng said these words to him.

"I still remember the lowly position," Wang Meng continued, "at that time the lowly post was only sixteen years old, although in the village they were all old enough to marry a mother-in-law and have a baby, but for the army, the lowly post was just a child, and they refused to accept the lowly post at that time, and the lowly post refused to leave, and finally they agreed to let me in, but the lowly post never told anyone what happened to the lowly job."

"Since then, the lowly position has served in the army, and the lowly position does not care whether he can be an official, whether he can control anyone, as long as he can let the lowly position go to the battlefield to kill the Tartars, this idea has been in the mind of the lowly for a long time, until the lowly position is married.

"That time, the lowly position had just been married, but it was the Tartars who came to make trouble again, and the lowly duty had to go to the battlefield, but that time the lowly position was on the battlefield, but there were some changes, I don't know how, no longer as brave as before, I saw the enemy's sword cut over, and I also knew to dodge, until the war was over, and when the lowly returned to the door, I didn't understand what was going on.

"At that time, the lowly position was like an adult now, standing at the door of his own house, but he refused to open the door and go in, I don't know what he was afraid of, but also since that time, when the lowly duty went to the battlefield again, what he thought in his heart was changed, although the lowly duty still had the ruthlessness of the Tartars, and wanted to kill them to avenge their families, but at that time, if they had to fight with their lives, I am afraid it would be difficult, and the lowly duty had a concern in his heart,"

After listening to Wang Meng's narration, Zhang Fan also fell silent, in the final analysis, it was not his own will that he came to this era, even if he was an official in the imperial examination, it was just to make his life better, everything in this world had nothing to do with him, he was worthy of the world if he took care of the Zhao family at most, but gradually, Zhang Fan also changed, he married a wife here, and now even the children are about to have him, he has friends, subordinates, and of course, opponents here, These people are gradually becoming a part of Zhang Fan's life now, and gradually becoming Zhang Fan's concern, especially his family in this life, Zhang Fan has truly regarded them as his own family, and there is no longer a trace of gap.

This is also the reason why Zhang Fan walked to the door of the house just now but didn't dare to go in, his heart has changed, and now in the face of these people who have been regarded as family by them, he doesn't know how to face them for a while.

"The young master is back," Xiao Xiangmei, who opened the door by chance, saw Zhang Fan and immediately ran back, shouting the news in her mouth.

"Family, forget it, I don't want to think so much," Zhang Fan thought silently in his heart, "They really exist, they are my Zhang Fan's family,"

Standing up slowly, Zhang Fan walked towards the door of his house,