I was stuffy in the house for three or four days, and I kept sleeping and waking up, waking up and sleeping, and after eating, I lay down on a chair in the yard, eating a little peanut, half-squinting, basking in the sun, breathing in the fragrance of the peach tree, and I didn't even know what night it was.

Yuyin accompanies me every day, and she doesn't know anything about the outside, and even Mu Jing didn't come to me.

But for me now, it's a good day.

In fact, when I think about it, in the final analysis, my father was still a little loose with me, except for looking at me everywhere, but he never asked me to do anything.

If I can live like this for the rest of my life, even if I am alone forever, it will be good.

At that time, when I was in Peach Blossom Village, I thought that I could live a quiet and comfortable life for the rest of my life, away from the capital as a place of right and wrong.

When Mu Jing was about to leave, I stayed in the courtyard as usual, I was lying comfortably, but I was in a daze, and I didn't notice him coming in.

When Yuyin came in to bring me fruit, she was startled to see him leaning alone on the roof of my room with his wine.

Seeing that I had come to my senses, he jumped down and landed beside me.

"Xiao Yan, I'm leaving today, won't you send me?"

Bringing the wine to my lips, I shook my head and habitually pushed it away, before I got up.

"Don't drink any more wine?" He said this on his lips, but on his face he was accustomed to it.

But I was surprised that he was leaving so soon, and I felt that what he had said to me that day was true, and that he had really come to tell my father and mother about me.

Although it didn't work for me, he really ran for me after all, and I didn't care about him before.

Finally he just said a few words to me telling me to take care of myself, and he walked away.

As soon as Mu Jing left, another person stepped into my yard, and I couldn't help but shout: "Yang, why are you here?" ”

"Knowing that you have nothing to do during this time, I will come to talk to you."

Yang didn't like to stay in the house, so he took me to the restaurant.

I don't like to drink medicine so much, I'm really afraid of what will happen to my body, I don't dare to drink like the previous few times, he drinks, I drink tea.

I don't know if it's my delusion, I've seen Lingyang a lot recently, and every time I see him, I always have endless words.

When I saw him now, I remembered King Chen's affairs again, and I was still entangled in my heart whether he still had me in his heart...

I don't believe that he would change so easily.

There was no reason, no thinking, it was my intuition, it was my intuition that told me that he still had me in his heart.

After drinking three or four glasses of wine, Yang Yang slowly opened his mouth to talk to me.

"At that time, you were with Ah Hang, and I didn't agree with it. What kind of character is Ling'er, I am her brother, I know best, she will definitely not give up with you when she comes back. ”

Murong Ling, I really don't like her, but she is Yinyang's sister, and she and Lou Yihang are a couple, I just hate Lou Yihang's deception of me, Murong Ling... I shouldn't have anything to say about her.

"Your sister..."

"If she has offended you, I hope you will look at my face and don't worry about her."

Care?

What is her identity as Murong Ling, and what qualifications do I have to deal with her?

"She's been spoiled since she was a child. Her affair with Ah Hang, in the final analysis, has nothing to do with you directly, and they shouldn't involve you. ”

Lou Yihang has already involved me, so far, it's useless to say anything, I still feel bitter Yangyang, although he and I have a good relationship, but in the end, there is no love for growing up together, in this matter, it really makes him embarrassed.

"I know. Blame me, I didn't like Lou Yihang in the first place, and I shouldn't have agreed to him in the first place. "I really blame myself.

"Even if he is sincere to you, but you don't love him, and live a lifetime with someone you don't love, it's unfair to you and him."

I let out a long sigh and returned to the question I was struggling with, as if muttering to myself: "I also thought that he might still be alive, and Mu Jing might be lying to me." But since he's still alive, why did he lie to me? Is it really because he doesn't have me in his heart at all? ”

Chongyang didn't say anything anymore and lowered his head to drink.

I know that Yang must know something, I want to hear him say, as long as he says it, I will believe it.

After a long silence, he didn't know what to ponder, and drank the wine one by one, as if he had done something wrong.

I reached out and grabbed the glass in front of him, and he looked up at me, and finally said, "Perhaps, he really has a last resort." ”

I smiled lightly, let go of my hand, and only listened to him continue: "You also know that over the years, there have been no other women around him, think about it, the person you love, does he also love you wholeheartedly, is he a person who will easily change his mind?" ”

I didn't answer, but I felt in my heart that as long as I had his words, it would be enough.

I am grateful to Yang for being kind to me and honest with me.

"Don't you believe him? You must believe in him in your heart, right? He asked, as if tentatively.

I still didn't answer, and lowered my head to drink my tea.

Zhenyang came to me this time, he didn't just deliberately want to reveal this to me, no matter what his hardships are, as long as I know that he has me in his heart, then it will be enough for me, and I can be regarded as having an explanation for my former self, I am not wishful thinking.

It doesn't matter if you're not together, and the person you love won't necessarily be the person you're going to marry in the future, didn't I think the same way at that time?

"Yi'er, why don't you go to him and make it clear?"

I...

？？？

"Say what?"

Zhenyang sighed, drank another glass of wine, and said, "You have agreed to be with Ah Hang before, if you don't tell him what you think, how will he know what you think?" ”

I couldn't help laughing, how can such a smart person as Zhenyang know nothing about feelings, I had already said it very bluntly that day.

"What else am I going to tell him? Is it really like I thought before, pestering him and asking him to marry me? ”

"I just think that you already know everything, you have to learn to face your own heart and face it bravely."

Pestering him and insisting that he marry me, I did have such thoughts at that time, and I also felt that as long as I was in front of him, I was not afraid of anything.

But what am I thinking, living my own life...

Just because of that person, he is the king of Chen.

The brother Yun in my heart, the Ling Xie Yun in my memory, he is helpless and alone. It's as if we're living only for each other.

But now, he has his own more important things to do, those things are far more important than mine, he is not only himself, but also the prince of South Vietnam, and his existence is not only for himself, but also for his mission.

As if he had completed his task, Yang left in a hurry as soon as he finished speaking, and I slowly returned to the mansion, but along the way, I saw someone pointing at me.

My mind was still a mess, and I didn't have that much to think about if something was going on.

I lay down in the courtyard again, and I had nothing to do, so I took the book that Mu Jing gave me last time to learn cooking and read it tastelessly.

I am the same as Mu Jing, I was born with no talent for cooking, I used to hear Mu Jing say that when my mother was as old as me, her cooking skills were already amazing, when their brothers and sisters were together, every time my mother cooked and ate, Mu Jing learned from her for a long time, but she didn't know at all, and she didn't even put the right amount of salt.

Every time he heard Mu Jing talk about the past, his face was full of smiles, and there was a trace of happiness. Mu Jing seems to miss his past very much.

But I never heard my mother talk about her past.

The only thing I've heard is a little thing between her and her father, such as the paragraph about Sister Wan and her mother, and only a few words about how they met, how they fell in love, and how they were together, and her mother's family was against her being with her father.

"Second sister, why do you still have the heart to read."

Xingyi stumbled in, sweaty, I got up and handed the tea on the table to her, seeing that she was in such a hurry, I hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?" What's wrong? ”

"You don't know yet, huh? There are people out there, and some people are telling you about you and King Chen. ”

"Me and King Chen?"

Xingyi probably said a few words, I don't know who said at first that I and King Chen knew each other when we were children, and now that he has returned to Beijing, we have rekindled the old relationship, and said that I had promised to be with Lou Yihang before, and now I have abandoned King Ling, who has always been in love with me, for King Chen.

...

This is the first statement, one spread ten to hundred, and now the people who are talking about this matter say this: The second lady of the Su family climbed the dragon and attached the phoenix, and when she met King Chen, she didn't know his identity and abandoned him. Later, he hooked up with King Ling, and he was fascinated, and when King Chen came back, Miss Su found King Chen again, but King Chen ignored her, so she was fascinated by King Ling on the one hand, and pestered King Chen on the other...

If it was in the past, I must have 10,000 grievances in my heart, obviously it was Lou Yihang who provoked me first, I never took the initiative to approach him, let alone climb the dragon and the phoenix to abandon King Chen, if you want to say abandonment, isn't that also that he abandoned me? If I'm really with him, how can I be willing to do it...

But now when I hear such news, there are no big waves in my heart.

I even selfishly felt that it was okay to do this, no one would dare to marry me in the future, no one would easily provoke me, and it was better for me to live alone.

But when such news came out, it was not only me who caused harm, but also the Prime Minister's Mansion, as well as my father and mother.

It doesn't matter what others think of me, but my father and mother...

I can't help but lament my own incompetence, but what can I do?

What can I do? Will Lou Yihang and Lou Jing be pulled out to say something fair?