happened to write about "The Golden Vase of Plums", so I flipped through a few chapters to find inspiration for writing, and I saw a passage:

If a person arrives in that poor field, suffers infinite desolation, endures unwarranted annoyance, comes late to touch the rice urn, suffers from the overnight cooking, gets up early to look at the kitchen, is ashamed of the half-star fireworks, his wife is hungry and cold, and is frozen, that is, the porridge and rice are still difficult, and the surplus money is used to sell wine! There is even a kind of hatefulness, relatives and friends have white eyes, and their faces are shabby, that is, Lingyun's ambition, which is extraordinarily consumed, how can he compete with others!

Big Bird Now ...... That's a bit of life in the past few years.

Some people may say that if you don't work hard, you deserve to be poor.

If this is the case, the big bird will have nothing to say, if you don't work hard yourself, who is poor if you are not poor?

But that's not the case.

Let's talk about the nearly nine years since Otori graduated from university.

After graduating from college, I was different from many confused college graduates, I was not confused at all, I was absolutely full of confidence, and my own feeling at that time was that as long as I struggled for ten or eight years, I could be like Jack Ma.

I carefully designed my own development path and wanted to take a shortcut, a shortcut to success.

After picking and choosing, I naively thought that I had found a shortcut – to work with my dad.

My dad was a contractor at that time, a small contractor, and there were some migrant workers under him.

Yes.

The starting point I chose for myself was the contractor.

At first, it proved that I chose the right one, and I made more than 100,000 yuan in just two months.

At that time, I really thought that making money was an easy task, so easy!

It didn't take long for me to realize how wrong I was.

I graduated from college in '09.

The real estate industry was excellent that year, and it was not enough to describe it well, and a pig could make money in the real estate industry that year.

In 10 years, I didn't know the height of the sky, and I ran to Wuhan with hundreds of people alone, and I lost tens of thousands of yuan.

At that time, I thought it was nothing, and I just thought it was a matter of paying tuition.

One year, I took dozens of people to Tuli River to build a house by myself, and this time I lost more than 100,000 yuan, some of which I earned myself, and tens of thousands of yuan were given by my parents, and a large part of them were borrowed from my classmates (some of them have not been repaid yet, it's not that I don't want to pay them back, I sometimes dream that I can't pay them back, that feeling, I really can't describe it to you.) ）

To tell the truth, there are also reasons for the loss of that year, the wages of workers have risen crazy, 80 a day at the beginning of the year, and it has risen to 120 in the middle of the year, the price of the package does not rise, the wages of workers have risen wildly, how can there be no loss of money, and there is no way to retain workers, they run around, change places to raise the price, they also formulated a lot of messy rules, like what to guarantee workers (a month to guarantee twenty-seven jobs, cloudy and rainy they don't care, anyway, less than twenty-seven jobs, you have to pay them according to twenty-seven jobs, I still remember clearly, One month it rained twenty-two days, and they worked for eight days, but I had to pay them twenty-seven days), and one day for another, and if they didn't agree, they would leave, and the birds would not bird you. I did a project, and hundreds of people were replaced. It's not that I don't want to stay, it's that I really can't stay, if you make him unhappy at all, he will leave immediately, and he won't wait for you until the next day.

Although I lost a lot of money in one year, I really learned a lot of things and really grew into a qualified contractor.

In a year or two, my father took over a sewage treatment plant project, with a total cost of nearly 10 million yuan, which is a very big project for a small contractor team like us.

My father ran the materials and I was in charge of the site management.

Halfway through the project, I calculated the profit, and I could make at least two million.

At that time, I was so happy.

But it quickly took a turn for the worse.

The project payment has been delayed.

At that time, our father and son had a disagreement.

I said stop, I can't do it anymore, the more I do it, the deeper I sink, stop and settle the money in front of me and do it again.

My father said that if he (the boss) stopped, it would be over, and we would be finished, and at that time my family had already put in a lot (hundreds of thousands).

I didn't screw my dad, my dad raised the money to pay the workers and continued to work.

I still can't tell how much my dad carried, and he probably can't say either.

I calculated, it should be hundreds of thousands, after all, at that time, my family only had one house, a Toyota Camry (second-hand, it was worth seventy or eighty thousand), and the house still had a loan, and with these two things as collateral, you could get a loan of hundreds of thousands.

Because the house is a second loan, the interest rate is very high, as if the cheapest is three cents and the most expensive is seven.

It's all usury anyway.

In the beginning, it was about 10,000 or 20,000 yuan a month.

At that time, we can still hold on, and we will pay it back when the day comes.

But the project money has not come down (it has not come down until now, and I can't get the money if I win the lawsuit, I just don't give it, I love which to sue, I advise Taoist friends, if you can't go to the court, you must not go, it's too pit, I'm very disappointed in the Chinese court! Slowly, there is no money to repay the interest.

My dad began to reverse the loan, that is, to change the loan of another company and repay the previous company, as a result, the principal continued to rise, and the interest to be repaid every month also continued to rise, and when he did not pay it back, he had to repay sixty or seventy thousand yuan every month.

Let's talk about it here, the reason why there is so much interest is because Party A issued two remote checks, a total of 500,000 yuan, and said that it could be deposited in a month.

At that time, I was in a hurry to pay the wages to the workers, so my father took the two checks to a loan company to cash out (gave 400,000 yuan, agreed, if we can save it in a month, he will give us another 60,000 or 70,000 yuan, that is, I will charge 30,000 or 40,000 yuan in handling fees, I don't know how much, my father did it, at that time, even now, he didn't tell me about it), those two checks are still with me, who wants to see them, you can look for me.

As you can guess, those two checks won't be saved in a month, and those are bad checks.

From then on, our family was in tragedy.

My dad can't resist the pressure, someone asks him for money, he either borrows or loans, anyway, it's good to be able to pass the current level, every day is to play around for money, out of sight and out of mind.

According to his meaning, he will wait for the project to be completed, and then pay back as much as he can, and then pay back the rest later.

In fact, it was the last project in my house.

Slowly, the more you owe, the more you owe, and when you really can't pay it back at all, according to the algorithm of those who owe usury, you already owe four or five million.

My family's two houses and a car have been taken away (even so, I still owe four or five million, now, it may be seven or eight million, I only borrowed a few hundred thousand at first, even if I add the blank check, it is less than one million, and I have repaid nearly two million for several years, and there are two houses and a car, and I owe so much, I don't care anymore, I can't manage it, I will now take care of the family's food and drink life, if I can, I want to buy a campus house, adults can do anything, I can't lose children).

Some people may ask, why do you have two houses in your family, isn't it one?

Well, I got married during this time.

That's when I think the situation is good.

It just so happened that I had settled a project payment at that time, and I paid more than 200,000 yuan for a down payment loan to buy a house, which was my wedding house.

As I said earlier, my dad didn't pay the interest and went around borrowing and carrying it.

But there will come a time when he can't borrow and can't lift it.

Once, he said that he was forced to pay back the money, and the creditor did not allow him, so he shouted and shouted to kill, and asked me to give him the marriage room to use, and he wanted to use my marriage house to raise some money to pay back the man's money, and when the project money came down, he would withdraw my house first.

If I don't have it, it's okay, I have it in my hand, how can I watch my dad face such a situation?

So, I knew that this was a matter of meat buns beating dogs, but I still forced my daughter-in-law to take out the house and notarize it with the loan shark.

The project money has not come down.

The loan shark took away my family's two houses and a car.

I spent more than 200,000 yuan to buy a house, and I repaid the loan for nearly a year, and I ended up paying off 150,000 yuan.

We lived in that house for two months, and we had been smelling it before.

We were kicked out, our things were not let us pack, afraid that we would not leave, and then they pulled our things to Jiangbei, and it took a few times to come back, and I still remember that scene, when my daughter-in-law still had a big belly, she was about to give birth.

The house was gone, and my daughter-in-law was all about me, and my father-in-law, who had passed away, was also coming to me, and they were all about to drive me crazy, and I almost divorced her several times, and once I almost pressed my fingerprint.

There can be children.

Now that my father-in-law has passed away, my daughter-in-law is much better, and life has to go on.

We first moved to my parents' house, and the family of six (I also have a younger brother who is still unmarried, and my daughter was born at that time) are crammed into a house of more than 60 square meters.

This is actually quite good, after all, it is my own home.

But it didn't take long for my parents' house to be taken away by loan sharks.

At that time, we had to rent a house.

But we don't even have the money to rent a house.

There is no limit to human wisdom.

We accidentally thought that my parents still had insurance.

We borrowed 15,000 dollars from their insurance.

Let's talk about it, the insurance is also at the end of the deadline in September, and I don't know what to use to pay it back.

Our family of six survived with that money.

During that time, I didn't even have a mobile phone (on purpose), I used to mix well all the time, the big brother in the circle of classmates, but at that time I knew better friends I all owed them money (many of which have not been paid back now), I really didn't have the face to talk to them, I was afraid to hear their voices.

I don't know how long I've been at home, I don't dare to go out of the house, I'm afraid of running into acquaintances, I'm scared, I'm afraid, I'm afraid.

Then I thought, I can't just go on like this, when will it be the end?

It just so happened that I couldn't find a book to pass the time, so I wondered if I could write one myself, so I became an online writer in a daze.

At first, the contract could not be signed.

Later, he earned three hundred a month.

And then, a thousand months.

And then two thousand.

When I was a year or six, my family couldn't live anymore.

I have to make money!

At that time, I said to myself, I will write whatever subject matter is easy to make money.

An author told me that it is easy to make money from entertainment articles.

I changed into a new vest, which is this Ren Niaofei, and began to write "Reborn Entertainment Empire".

The book made me some money, and I was finally a little bit better off at that time.

But just when the empire was about to make more money, it was blocked.

It hurt me very much, and the hard work of the past two years is gone, and the book is gone, but the key is that the way to get money is gone.

Next, I want to try transformation, because this book closure has sealed me to ashes, and my life is back to the past, and I am miserable.

I opened "Bloody Sun Heroes".

It's a pity that the transformation failed, and I wrote more than 100,000 words, which is completely impossible.

At that time, there seemed to be a resurgence of entertainment literature.

For someone like me, who is seriously short of money, there is no choice, and I immediately opened a book "Rebirth Begins in 1992" on entertainment and business.

Although I can't recommend it, the results of that book are still good, and after writing a million words, there is no problem with more than 10,000 a month.

I managed to get out of the new book period, and when I was about to harvest, I was blocked again.

This time I was completely chilled, and I was in time for my girl to go to kindergarten, and I needed money very, very, very much.

I swear to heaven that I will never touch an entertainment article again, never get a book sealed again, I will use my next book to earn a down payment for my daughter's campus house, and never rent a house again!

I picked and picked, and I chose a Water Margin, I really didn't know it was a niche text at that time, so I felt that the Three Kingdoms were written too much, and I couldn't read the Red Mansion, the framework of the Water Margin was good, and the results of "Water Margin Survival" were also very good, so I entered this pit.

Only when I wrote it did I know that there were really few people, not to mention that compared with big entertainment texts, even compared with other historical texts, it was far from being comparable.

I look forward to earning hundreds of thousands of dollars with a book, and putting my good friends (really good friends, it is impossible to make such good friends in society, the money has been owed for many years, never asked me, and in turn comforted me, it is my greatest luck to know them in this life, if I can mix well one day, I will definitely repay them!! Returned.

But this result is really miserable, there is no reward, the results do not rise, two shifts a day, and it is only two or three thousand yuan a month.

If I go back to writing urban essays, I will earn at least two or three times as much.

To be honest, as soon as it hit the shelves, I didn't want to write it, for me, an old author who has been writing for five years, this achievement is not worth writing at all, not to mention that I am so short of money.

But when it was put on the shelves, too many people rewarded me, and some even added me to tell me that he liked this book and told me not to give up.

I'm not lying.

At that time, I didn't have a penny, and starting a new book meant no income for at least three months.

Children want to go to school, families have to live, what can they do without money?

In addition, seeing the support of so many people, I gritted my teeth and wrote, how can I say that there are not two or three thousand a month, write and write, maybe the grades will go up.

I write very carefully, try to make three changes a day, and my readers know that I can't move two times a day, otherwise the book of the empire would not have been written for as long as two years.

My grades have gone up, and you have given me all kinds of tips, which has given me hope.

I wrote it more attentively, hoping that it would have a miracle of turning over.

But just as I was writing a book with fighting spirit, my daughter suddenly had a high fever.

Later, the fever reached almost 40 degrees, and my daughter-in-law and I were terrified and took her to one of our better hospitals.

At first, it was said that it was otitis media, and it was best to be hospitalized (fortunately, hospitalized), and it would be cured in a few days with anti-inflammatory injections.

However, pneumonia was later detected, and the dosage was increased.

Then there was emphysema, and I took eight bottles of medicine a day, and the weight of the medicine was heavier than that of a child.

I was terrified, especially after checking out the emphysema, I cried out (at that time, I didn't know it, otherwise I would have cried, I had nothing, just a child, if she had something, it would be similar to asking for my life).

I just turned off my computer and went to the hospital.

There is good news and bad news.

The good news is that a doctor said that this is a cough that comes from a long time, the child is small, the lungs are still developing, and it can be cured if it is treated well.

The bad news is that there is no money left, and the credit cards (five thousand) are all transparent.

If you don't have any money, you just stop taking the drug, and there is no delay at all.

I have no money, and I have nowhere to borrow, and those who can borrow have long since finished borrowing, and I have blocked all the ways I can borrow money myself.

Later, I heard from a friend that 360 can lend, and the loan is very fast.

I didn't have a choice, so I got this loan.

Seriously, it's like selling yourself, I advise you, if it's not a last resort, don't touch that thing.

While waiting for the loan, my heart, hey, don't mention it, I feel like I'm living a really bad life, I don't even have the money to treat my child, and I'm a man?

Later, when I wrote about yesterday's two watches, I wrote those words for help.

My mindset really collapsed.

What I didn't expect was that you actually rewarded me nearly 100 times, more than 1,000 yuan.

You are the best readers.

God hasn't completely abandoned me, I still have you.

When I saw that reward, I thought, I'm going to have to finish this book anyway! Certain!

I want to talk about the people who gave the tips one by one.

But this was originally a single chapter thanks, and I actually wrote it for a night.

I'm really tired.

I'm really sleepy.

That's a long list.

I won't list them all, I'll add more to you later, and thank you again then.

I have to sleep, I have to do salt therapy with my child for a while, I have to show him his ears, and I have books to write tomorrow, full of things.

Thank you, you have given me confidence, you are really the best readers, I am very lucky.