In this life, the most difficult thing to deal with is change, and the most difficult thing to resist is fate.

Bai Zhou was captured, and the price paid was the life of the scholar, and Xiao Yi transferred troops without authorization, and the consequences he would face were too big to bear.

Zicheng came to the city with tens of thousands of horsemen, and Xichuan's soldiers abandoned the city and retreated, so Zicheng returned overnight without stopping, because he understood what serious consequences would be if the border was empty.

But in the end, it was still too late.

Su Yu has been stuck in chaotic dreams all the time, and she has been experiencing the scene of the scholar slowly falling down in front of her again and again, and she has tried her best every time, but it is always to no avail.

In the sound of thousands of troops and horses killing in her dream, there will still be people who keep calling her "Yu'er" and "Yu'er". ”

She stepped on the blood all over the ground, went to search, and gradually, vaguely saw the figure of the man.

In fact, in this world, there is only one person who calls her name like a treasure, and that is her Xiao Yi!

In the chaos, Xiao Yi's voice was still drowned in the killing sound of the collision of knives and guns, she went to look carefully, but she never found his figure, and even the sound of ghosts crying and wolf howling in her ears was quiet, leaving only an endless dead silence.

And by her side, there is only one lonely, and there is only a handful of phoenixes left.

Feeling a sharp pain in her abdomen, Su Yu suddenly opened her eyes, and at first glance saw a dark face full of worry, looking at her quietly.

Opening his mouth, Su Yu looked at Ah Shrimp and muttered, "Where is Xiao Yi?" ”

When Ah Shrimp heard this, he wiped his tears with his hands and asked, "Master, what do you want to eat, I'll do it." ”

Su Yu came back to his senses, turned his face sideways to look at the two swords hanging quietly on the wall, and then looked at the portrait of her that Xiao Yi often looked at on the wall, touched his stomach with his hand, felt that there was no life in it, his heart trembled, and asked Ah Shrimp: "How long have I been in a coma?" ”

As soon as these words came out, Ah Shrimp actually cried, and said honestly: "It's been a month, and I woke up in the middle, always talking nonsense, and I couldn't recognize myself there, either calling Uncle Wen or Master Xiao." ”

Su Yu's tears fell, looked at Qihuang, and stopped talking.

At the beginning of the battle of Baizhou, Xiao Yi poured most of his troops to help, and the result was not the punishment of the unauthorized transfer of troops and horses, but the Beidi army that took this opportunity to attack on a large scale.

Ye Luheng, the emperor of Beidi, almost poured the country's soldiers and horses, burned and looted the border passes and several nearby cities, and swept them away, and Xiao Yi also lost all the news in that bloody battle.

When Su Yu desperately arrived at the border pass, there was only a broken wall and ruins left here, and even the corpses of the soldiers and people who died in battle did not have time to be completely buried.

Jiaojiao hid in the cellar for three days and three nights to save her life, but her Xiao Yi couldn't hide, he was the faith of the border soldiers, he was the most feared figure in the entire Beidi army, everyone could retreat, but he couldn't.

On the pile of corpses outside the city, Zicheng found Xiao Yi's phoenix, which was covered with mud stains and dust, and it was no longer bright.

Su Yu believed that Xiao Yi was not dead, because she and Zicheng did not find Xiao Yi among the tens of thousands of corpses, and Xiao Yi also said that when he was old, he resigned and went with her to wander the rivers and lakes.

He just accidentally lost his beloved sword.

Stretched out her hand and stroked her lifeless lower abdomen, Su Yu looked out the window, tears fell uncontrollably, she didn't believe that Xiao Yi was dead, but their children were really gone, just when she was crazy and had to turn over the corpses one by one in the rain, their children disliked having an incompetent mother like her, so they quietly left.

When the child left, her body, and even her heart, were about to tremble, but in the cold rain, the child finally brought her the unforgettable warmth.

The window of the room was slightly open, and the willow trees outside the wall had faintly pulled out tender green, Su Yu came back to his senses, sat up against the quilt, and looked quietly at a finch in the treetops for a long time.

A shrimp brought a bowl of porridge and carefully placed it on the table, Su Yu glanced back, saw some red beans boiled to soft and glutinous in the porridge, and thought that this should be a delicate craft.

"Master, you can eat some food."

Ah Shrimp spoke softly, as if he was afraid of scaring Su Yu, and in his words, there was even some pleading.

Su Yu picked up the porridge and drank it all one bite at a time, and when he saw the surprise in Ah Shrimp's eyes, he handed him the bowl again and asked, "Is there anything else?" ”

"Yes, yes!"

Ah Shrimp happily answered, holding the bowl and running towards the kitchen again.

Su Yu's eyes were hot, and he gently wiped it with his sleeve, and tried to smile at the sun outside.

It's been a month, she's been crazy for a month.

She can't just be decadent like this, at the ends of the world, she still has to find Xiao Yi, just like when she fell into the Weishui River, he looked for a long time along the embankment, inch by inch.

If you have any plans for the rest of your life, Su Yu asked her heart, and there was only one answer there, which was to look for Xiao Yi, whether he lived or died, even if he found it for a lifetime.

Sometimes Su Yu would feel that God had played a huge joke with her, and suddenly, several of her dearest and loved people were hidden by God, the purpose was to make her a human being for a lifetime and taste all the hardships in this world.

The doctor in the camp who loved and Su Yu carried the bar, I don't know if he couldn't escape a catastrophe, maybe he had been buried on the barren hills with the carload of corpses, or maybe he was wandering, I don't know where he fell, since Su Yu remembered him, he was never seen again.

A shrimp said that in the month she was in a coma and madness, a slightly fat boy came, and he didn't say a word, but after treating her every day, he looked at her with distressed eyes, and then left the prepared medicine, without saying a word, and left.

Ah Shrimp asked, is this person what she often calls Uncle Zhulin?

Yes.

Su Yu let out a long sigh, time has passed, life or death, they have all changed, and even Zhulin, who has always been too lazy to mess around with them, has become silent.

In fact, think about it, at that time, Zhulin was the person who silently healed them after they were injured in trouble, I remember that once after the hornet was stung, several masters punished the four of them to kneel in the ancestral hall, when the chubby Zhulin climbed the window and threw the medicine he prepared to them, and he himself was stuck in the narrow window behind the ancestral hall, and was pecked by the swallows under the hall.

Remembering this, Su Yu sneered and laughed, tears fell in his mouth, salty and astringent, and his bitter heart panicked.

Sometimes, Su Yu was stunned, and in a trance, he would think of the night when he was on the Zhuxintai, and the one who slashed the cold long knife into the scholar's heart was Tang Zhe's closest guard! He was really willing to take the life of a scholar!

The most poignant thing is the scholar's eyes full of hatred before he died, that look was accompanied by the scholar's blood, so that Su Yu glanced at it, and it was already completely contaminated, as if the hatred had been deeply rooted in her heart and could no longer be erased.

The hurried footsteps approached, and Ah Shrimp came in with a bowl full of porridge, and when he raised his eyes to look at Su Yu, he took a step back in surprise and asked helplessly: "Master, master, why are your eyes so red?" ”

Su Yu raised his sleeve and wiped his tears, shook his head, and closed his mouth and didn't want to speak again.

Ah Shrimp obediently handed over the porridge, tiptoed to see Su Yu's rapid drinking, and explained: "Aunt Jiaojiao said that she was recovering from a serious illness and wanted to drink some light, she heard that the master was awake, and she hurriedly asked someone to buy chicken on the street, saying that the master would be able to make up for it after a few days." ”

Su Yu smiled hard, raised his eyes and saw that his lower abdomen was slightly bulging, and Jiaojiao, who happened to enter the room, said, "Thank you." ”

Jiaojiao smiled, Su Yu had experienced it, she saw it in her eyes, and now that she has been up for more than a month, the person in front of her has gradually come back to her soul, Jiaojiao couldn't help but smile, provoked tears out, and said like a child: "What else do you say thank you or not, as long as you can get better, General Xiao will •••••• the spring."

"I'll be fine." Su Yu interrupted Jiaojiao's words, "I still have to go to find Xiao Yi, I know, he is somewhere, waiting for me." After that, Su Yu raised her eyes again and looked at it, it should have been when others took care of Jiaojiao, but Jiaojiao tried her best to figure out how to take care of her, which made Su Yu's eyes soften, and said again: "Jiaojiao, thank you." ”

"But ••••••" Jiaojiao is soft-hearted, and she can't see others like this, she wanted to persuade Su Yu to open some, but outsiders who have never experienced it can easily persuade others to want to open, at first they also firmly believed that Xiao Yi was still alive, but if Xiao Yi was still alive, why didn't he come back for more than a month? The sword of a person who practices martial arts does not leave his hand, why is there only a phoenix left in the original sea of ruins and corpses?

When the words came to her mouth, Jiaojiao couldn't bear to debunk it, so she only turned around and said to Su Yu: "Then you have to be physically well before you can go to find it, what do you want to eat, just tell me, the soup I make is better than my mother-in-law in the kitchen." ”

Su Yu nodded, yes, if you don't have enough strength, how can you find Xiao Yi, maybe this search will be a year, two years, or three years, ten years, or even a lifetime.

The wind gently hit the house from the window, and the old willows that had just shown green outside, with a bit of spring, swayed gently in the breeze in the sun.

I remember that a long time ago, the old man Changhe said, saying that she had a bad fate in this life and wanted to taste the hardships of this world, at that time, Su Yu felt that she could survive the days when she ate the last meal and slept on the thatched hut straw mat, thinking that there could be any hardships in this world, she couldn't bear it.

Thinking back now, Su Yu really understands what the so-called bitterness is, what you really feel bitter in your heart, is bitterness, just like the bitterness in her heart right now, she feels that cramps and peeling her skin are not enough to compare.