According to what I have heard, Master Huiyuan has left Yecheng now, and no one knows where he went, but he is out of danger after all. Zi Worry Quanxia has knowledge, and it should be relieved.

I watched with tears as Zi Wei's coffin was buried inch by inch into the soil, thinking to myself, I didn't even see the last side of Zi Wei, at the last moment of his life, did he want to say anything to me, what would he say to me?

But these questions will never be answered.

I love you, but you don't know it.

If you know, isn't it possible to go less sad and go without regrets.

If we could be more honest with each other and say what we thought earlier, wouldn't we have today's regrets?

I watched Ziwei's coffin completely buried, and closed my eyes with tears.

Goodbye, Zi Wei.

After burying Zi Wei, I prepared to leave Yecheng.

Qinglan and Jiang Yu stopped me and asked, "Madam, where are you going?" ”

"I thank you for helping me, but we are different, and we are separated." I said lightly, "Don't follow me anymore." ”

Although I said that they should stop following me, Jiang Yu and his party still followed me secretly, and I walked mine on my own, and I couldn't see it.

Along the way, I heard something.

There are many temples in the Zhou State, occupying the land of the common people, because there are many monks, and there is no need to pay taxes, the state taxes are reduced, the labor force is reduced, the treasury is difficult, and the people are poor. Emperor Zhou then ordered the demolition of the Buddhist temple, ordered the monks to return to the laity, and the temple property to be returned to the subjects. Some people oppose the destruction of the Buddha, saying: Your Majesty offends the Buddha, and after death, you will go to hell. Yu Wenyong said: As long as the people are happy, what if I go to hell? This matter spread, and the people praised the emperor for loving the people like a son and being willing to go to hell, which is a rare Ming monarch.

I instantly thought of Jing'er, the Buddhist temple was demolished, what should Jing'er do?

Thinking of this, I was so anxious that I immediately hurried back to the Cloud Temple.

On the steps of Guiyun Temple, the emerald green green moss climbed, and the yellow leaves were messily distributed on the stone steps, and no one had swept it for a long time.

I tore the seal without hesitation, rushed into the temple, and shouted, "Jing'er, master abbot!" ”

There was no one in the temple, the Buddha statue was demolished, every room was empty, I walked around every corner, and there was not half a figure. I fell to the ground and wept sadly, "Jing'er, my child ......"

I went to the government office and asked them if they had seen a child in the monastery, and after asking why, they told me to go to the monks who were still lay.

I found some monks who were still lay according to the news given by the official office, and they told me, "Donor, a few days after you left, the imperial court issued an order to demolish the Buddhist temple, and the abbot master had no choice but to beg a couple surnamed Li to take the child back for adoption." The abbot master swore to die and refused to return to the world, went on a hunger strike to resist, and passed away. ”

I said anxiously: "The couple surnamed Li, which couple are they, where are they, and where do they live?" ”

"I don't know about this, only the abbot master knows."

The abbot of Keguiyun Temple has passed away, where can I find this couple?

After many fruitless investigations, I returned to Guiyun Temple in despair.

"Jing'er, my child, where are you?" I sat helplessly at the temple gate, crying bitterly.

"It's all because A-Niang is not good, A-Niang didn't protect you well, A-Niang lost you."

Why did Heaven do this to me? I've lost my child, why should I take my only child, why?

I sat at the door of Guiyun Temple for a whole day and a night.

——

"Her head is so hot, Manager Jiang, I'll take care of her, you hurry up and find a doctor."

In a daze, I knew I was sick, but I didn't want to wake up, I would rather sleep forever, not thinking about anything, forgetting all the pain.

"Doctor, why hasn't she woken up after sleeping for so many days?" It was Qinglan's voice.

"The patient's heart is stagnation, great sorrow, sadness and liver, and the cause lies in the heart knot. She doesn't want to wake up, and I can't. A helpless sigh.

I continued to immerse myself in the silence of my dreams.

In my dream, I saw Zi Wei, who came to my bedside, gazed at me gently, and gently touched my face. I was very attached to this moment of tenderness, but he was leaving.

I struggled to get up and shouted, "Zi worry, don't, wait for me!" ”

Zi Wei turned his head, his body was shrouded in a strange light, like a dream, "Qingqiang, I'm leaving, this is providence." ”

I begged, "No, take me with you." ”

Zi Wei looked at me softly, "You can't go, you still have Jing'er to take care of, go back." ”

My heart ached, and I said with tears: "Jing'er is gone, I lost him!" ”

"One day, you'll see him. What has been lost has been lost, you have to cherish what you still have, don't let go, and live well. ”

After Zi Wei finished speaking, his bright eyes stared at me deeply, and then, turning his head, the cyan figure was surrounded by a bright halo.

Zi Wei's figure gradually disappeared by the bedside, and I struggled and cried: "No, Zi Wei, don't go, don't go!" ”

I woke up from my dream and opened my eyes.

I kept thinking back to what Zi Worry said in my dream, yes, I still have Jing'er, Jing'er has lost his father, do you want him to lose his mother again?

I want to live, my children are still waiting for me, I must live well and find me and my children.

I suddenly had the will and courage to live, and an inexplicable force supported my body and mind.

"Madam, you're awake!" A cry of surprise rang out.

Qinglan walked briskly to the bed, his face full of joy. Knowing that she was taking care of me these days, I asked, "How long have I been asleep?" ”

Qinglan said: "It's been more than ten days, Qinglan almost thought you couldn't wake up." ”

"Thank you for taking care of me." I thanked her.

"I want to eat something."

Seeing that I cheered up, Qinglan happily brought a bowl of gruel, I took the bowl, my stomach was empty, but I didn't have any appetite, but I still held a small wooden spoon, scooped it up, put it to my mouth, and swallowed it.

I have to eat, and if I don't eat, I won't have the strength, and if I don't have the strength, I can't do anything. I want to eat, I want to live well, and I want to find Jing'er alive.

I forced myself to eat the porridge, and with the porridge in my mouth, tears fell unconsciously.

Can't stop, don't cry, I've got to finish this bowl. I pursed my lips to prevent myself from crying, and with tears in my eyes, I silently finished the whole bowl of porridge.

After eating the porridge, I gradually gained some energy and could talk to Qinglan more.

I asked her, "How did you and Jiang Yu get to Qi Kingdom?" ”

Qinglan replied: "Now that the two countries of Zhou and Qi are at war, Your Majesty has ordered us to go to the country of Qi to investigate the situation. ”

I know who Her Majesty is in her mouth, Chen Ji has already abolished Chen Bozong and established himself as emperor. This majesty is undoubtedly Chen Xu.

I started eating and drinking normally, and after a few days, I was able to get off and off the ground.

In the afternoon of this day, I was resting at the side of the desk, and Jiang Yu's happy voice came from outside the door, "Madam, look, who has come to see you!" ”

A person walked slowly outside the door, with deep eyes and a heroic face, and he called me with a smile, "Qingqiang." ”

——

I am not surprised by Chen Ji's sudden arrival, Qinglan and Jiang Yu have been able to take care of me by my side for so long, most of them at his behest.

Looking at my weak appearance, Chen Ji said with concern: "Qingqiang, are you okay?" ”

"Can I be bad?" I laughed and said forcefully, "I have to be good to live." ”

As he spoke, he felt a trace of sourness in his heart.

Seeing this, Chen Ji's voice lowered, "I know everything about you." What are your plans for the future? ”

"What can I do, naturally, I am desperate to live and find my child." A strong conviction welled up in my heart.

"Do you need me to help you?" Chen asked.

"No, my child, I'll find it myself." I refused.

Chen Ji smiled helplessly, "You are still the same as before, so stubborn and so temperamental." ”

As he spoke, a voice suddenly broke in from outside the door, "Qingqiang! ”

At a glance, the person who came was slender and his face was cold and resolute, and it was Yu Wenyong.

Jiang Yu chased to the door, and was stopped by Yuwen Shenju behind Yuwen Yong with a sword, and when he saw Chen Ji, he had to confess, "Your Majesty, the slave can't stop him!" ”

"Yuwen Yong, what are you doing?" Chen Ji's eyes were full of hostility and asked coldly.

"I'm here, and naturally it has nothing to do with you." Yu Wenyong also looked hostile, he turned his gaze to me, and his tone became softer, "Qingqiang." ”

He walked up quickly and said to me, "Qingqiang, I'm here to find you." ”

His gaze was earnest and full of concern.

I stood up at once and said to him, "What are you doing with me, to see if I am dead?" ”

Yuwen Yong was stunned, "Qingqiang, why do you say that?" ”

"Do you still want me to be kind to you? Isn't it because of you that I am who I am today? "I angrily accused him.

Yuwen Yong was stunned for a moment, and then said, "Thank me?" Qingqiang, do you have any misunderstanding about me? ”

I stared at him fiercely, "Misunderstanding, if you hadn't spread the news of the world's chronicles, how could Zi Wei have died?" If you hadn't ordered the temple to be demolished, how would my child have been lost? It's you, it's you! ”

A trace of apology welled up on Yu Wenyong's face, "I'm sorry about the child, I didn't know it would become like this." But I didn't spread the story of the world's ambitions, and I didn't do it. ”

I questioned him, "You are trying in every possible way to get the map of the world, who else is not doing it?" Also, how do you know that I'm here, and you know so much about me, did you send someone to spy on me a long time ago? ”

"Qingqiang, you misunderstood me too deeply, I didn't do it, you believe me!"

Yuwen Yong's face was painful, he wanted to get close to me, I stepped back, full of hatred: "Don't come here, you killed Zi Wei, I lost my child, you are all your fault." I hate you, I hate you! ”

At this moment, I saw a sword of Chen Ji on the case, so I pulled out the sword without thinking and pointed it directly at Yu Wenyong!

Exegesis:

(1) The title is from the Song Dynasty Su Shi's "Last Year, September 27, I Gave Birth to a Child in Huangzhou, Famous and Unknown Gan'erqi", "Return to the Arms"