"I used to think about how people should live in this life to be meaningful. Changgong has been living for the Qi country all his life, and it is his belief to protect his family and defend the country, and he is willing to do so. And Zi Wei, he has the way he pursues, and everything he does is based on a passionate chivalrous heart, and 'righteousness' is his belief. This is their life, their way of living. "I envy Changgong and Ziwei for having their own beliefs, and I also have a hazy yearning in my heart.

My heart was filled with emotion, and there was also a firm yearning, "They all have their own beliefs, and I don't." All along, everything I do is to live, and I have never thought about anything deeper, but Changgong and Ziwei reminded me that people can't live just for the sake of living, that would be too boring. Now, I am doing the same thing as Zi Wei, and I can finally understand why Zi Wei and Chang Gong are so attached to their beliefs. Perhaps, this is the faith I have been looking for. ”

People can't live for the sake of living all their lives, and I have to pursue my own way.

I want to help these children who have no father, no mother, and no family status, so that they can live in this world in the future and no longer be looked down upon.

After listening to this, Yu Wenyong looked at me with an appreciative eye, "Qingqiang, if you are a man, I will definitely ask you to worship the official and enter the court and create a great cause with me." ”

After a conversation, between me and Yu Wenyong, the previous suspicions were released.

Yuwen Yong left, but Qinglan stayed.

"Madam, Qinglan has something that I haven't told you all about, today, I want to confess to you."

Looking at Qinglan's worried eyes and cautious look, I vaguely had a bad guess.

"There's a letter from Chen Guo, Chen Ji - he's not dead."

My heart "chuckled", and it was extremely cold in an instant. I haven't gotten the news of Emperor Chen's death these days, so I vaguely guessed it, but I still can't accept what Qinglan said today.

He was rescued by a nearby fisherman and escaped. Madame, beware that he will send someone to take revenge on you. "Qinglan is worried about me.

"He was poisoned and injured, and he fell into the water again, so he didn't die? Why, a person like him is still alive, but a person so good is dead? God is so unfair! ”

I felt a strong sense of disappointment and anger, and a raging sea of anger rolled in my heart. I swept the tea cup out of control on the table, and with a "bang", the tea splashed and the teacup cracked.

The anger was followed by indescribable sadness, and tears fell down the ground.

"Madame, although he was saved, he had been soaking in the water for too long, and the evil cold had entered his brain, and he had a head wind, and every time he had a head wind, he was in pain. He was poisoned and had a head disease, and it is estimated that he will not live for a few years. Madam, you have taken revenge. Qinglan saw that I was emotionally unstable, and hurriedly comforted.

"What, Chen Ji has a head wind?" I grasped the main point, asked Qinglan with questioning eyes, and got her affirmative eyes, I immediately smiled and said coldly, "Since ancient times, no one has been able to cure the head wind disease, this disease has a headache and dizziness, blindness and deafness, life is worse than death, how many emperors have died from this disease." Chen Ji actually got this disease, what a retribution, he deserves to die! ”

Chen, I'll just wait, waiting for the day when you will be slowly tortured to death.

——

Time flies, the years are rushing, and four spring and autumn seasons have passed unconsciously.

I was wearing a cyan power suit, and my long hair was tied up high with a thin belt, neat and neat, like the dress of a child of the rivers and lakes.

"Curator, take this money and go buy some clothes for the children." After completing my employer's assignment, I rushed back to the Yijian Pavilion and handed over the money I had earned this time to the curator.

The curator took the money bag gratefully and looked at me with some distress, "Thank you for your hard work." Zi Wei is not there, the burden of Yijian Pavilion has all fallen on you, in fact, you don't have to be like this. You'd better find a good man to marry as soon as possible, and don't be so tired. ”

"Curator, don't say that, it's all my willingness. Seeing the children happy, I'm also happy. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am today. I smiled and turned my head to look at the children playing on the grass, and my heart suddenly brightened like a warm sun.

The curator looked at me and persuaded: "All these years, you have been alone, and it is also hard. Forget about the worries and find someone to marry, so as not to work so hard. ”

The smile on my face froze, and I whispered, "I'm fine on my own." ”

Some people will never forget for the rest of their lives. In this life, it is enough to be able to love someone so hard and be loved by someone so deeply.

The curator has said many times to persuade me to marry, and knowing that he can't persuade me, he can only sigh helplessly.

The curator remembered something and asked me, "Do you have any news with Zi Worry's child when you go out this time?" ”

My expression darkened, and I whispered, "No." ”

Over the years, walking among the rivers and lakes, I have also asked people about Jing'er's news from time to time, and Guiyun Temple has often gone there, but there is no news of Jing'er.

In this life, can I still find Jing'er?

I looked sadly at the children playing on the grass and couldn't help but think, "If my Jing'er is still here, she will probably be as old as them." ”

A little girl in a red dress caught my eye, she was not playing with other children, but alone, holding a long red whisk, turning lightly. The red breeze flies in the wind, and it is very beautiful.

She's dancing, this little girl, she can dance at such a young age.

Feeling watched, the little girl stopped, looked at me with a pair of big eyes as clear as water, and showed a slightly timid smile, like the first saffron under the morning light, very beautiful. It seems that it is a beautiful embryo.

Look at the appearance of this little girl, about five or six years old. was born so good-looking at a young age, and she must be an amazing beauty when she grows up.

With a red whisk in her hand, she walked up to me gently, showed a smile as pure as snow, stared at me and said, "Auntie, you are so good-looking, as beautiful as my mother." ”

Pretty? I'm old. Although I laughed at myself in my heart, I was also happy with her praise, and when I saw her smile at me so cutely, I also had a good impression of her, and asked, "Why have I never seen you before, are you new?" ”

The little girl nodded.

"What's your name?"

"Out of the dust, my name is Zhang out of the dust." The crunchy and tender sound makes people happy.

I smiled and said, "Hibiscus is out of the dust, beautiful and refined." You'll be a great beauty when you grow up. ”

The little girl looked at me with a pair of big eyes, revealing a longing, "I heard them say, you know martial arts, can you teach me martial arts?" ”

I looked at her and said with some surprise: "You want to learn martial arts, why?" ”

The little girl's face showed a sad look, and then she raised her little fist firmly, "I want to learn martial arts and avenge my father and mother in the future." ”

This girl, who behaves well and can dance, must have a good family background and a good upbringing. I don't know what happened to get here, and it's pitiful.

I felt a little pity for her, and said, "It's very hard to learn martial arts, can you stand it?" ”

"I'm not afraid of hardship." The little girl pursed her lips, revealing a little stubbornness. The big eyes looked at me pitifully, "You can take me as an apprentice, Master, I will learn well." ”

Before I could say yes, she called "Master", and I couldn't help laughing, "Okay, I can teach you to practice martial arts, but if you are afraid of hardship and tiredness in the future, and you can't continue to practice, I will expel you from the master." ”

The little girl was not afraid of my scare at all, and said, "Don't worry, Master, I am very capable of enduring hardships and will definitely be able to practice well." ”

I smiled and reached out my hand, which landed gently on her little head.

——

I started teaching the little dust martial arts.

On this day, when I was instructing Xiao Chuchen to take a step, Yu Wenyong came.

"I know you've been looking for your child all these years, and I tell you the good news, your child, I've found it." Yu Wenyong excitedly told me the news.

I was startled and immediately asked, "Have you found my child?" It's true? Where is he? ”

"If I hadn't ordered the destruction of the Buddha back then, your child would not have been lost in Guiyun Temple, so I have been sending people to find the whereabouts of the child all these years, and I finally found it. He was adopted by the Li family and his wife, in the Yongkang County Mansion. ”

I was almost speechless in surprise, "Really? Where is the Yongkang County Mansion? Take me there! ”

Yu Wenyong smiled and took my hand and said, "Go, I'll take you there!" ”

Along the way, Yu Wenyong explained the reason to me in detail.

It turned out that Yu Wenyong had been blaming himself for ordering the destruction of the Buddha that caused the separation of our mother and son, and had been sending people to investigate the whereabouts of the child for many years, and finally learned the whereabouts of the child from a pilgrim who was incense in Guiyun Temple. When the pilgrim was staying at Guiyun Temple, he saw with his own eyes that the abbot of Guiyun Temple had handed over a baby in yellow swaddling clothes to a man named Li Quan. According to Yu Wenyong's investigation, Li Quan was the son of Li Chongyi, the prince of Yongkang County.

Jing'er, it's on the Yongkang County Mansion!

Along the way, I was both surprised and scared, happy that Jing'er was finally found, and what I was afraid of was that if the news was wrong, what if the child was not Jing'er? A heart was pounding, uneasy, and finally came to the Yongkang County Mansion.

"This is Jing'er's clothes when he was a child, and when I just hugged him, he was wearing these."

With red eyes, Mr. and Mrs. Li placed swaddling clothes, apricot-colored clothes, and peace charms in front of me one by one.

I picked up the yellow swaddling clothes, and after only one glance, I couldn't help but redden, "This is Jing'er's, exactly the same as back then." ”

I picked up the peace charm again, my fingers gently stroked it, and the tears deepened in my eyes, "This is the peace charm that Qingqing specially asked for Jing'er back then." ”

I picked up the faded apricot coat and put it in my arms, and my words were already crying, "This is the clothes I sewed for Jing'er back then, and I still remember every stitch and thread." ”

It's Jing'er, that's right. Jing'er, I finally found it.

I hugged the little clothes in my arms tightly, and the hardships and thoughts of the years turned into silent tears, gushing out.

Exegesis:

(1) The title is from Han Wei in the Song Dynasty, "Uncle Man's Guest House Meets the Gentlemen in Jianli", "Suddenly the old man came, a life chronicle." ”