The imperial doctor retreated, and Chen Qian hugged me tighter and tighter, resting his hand on my lower abdomen, warm lips against my forehead, and whispering, "This is my child." Qing'er, I'm so happy, we have a baby. ”

My heart, like being placed on a broken jade ice floe, trembled violently with the undulations of the ice, and the cold air penetrated into my bones, so cold that I almost suffocated.

After Chen Qian left, I sat quietly in front of the dresser, opened the delicate and small rouge box on the table, and sniffed it carefully, and sure enough, there was something different. For a while, there was nowhere to get angry in his heart, and with a throw of his hand, he smashed the rouge box in his hand and split it apart.

Hearing the movement, Li Fei hurriedly ran into the hall to clean up, looked at me with an angry look, and only said lightly: "Niangniang is pregnant now, so it is not appropriate to be angry." ”

I gritted my teeth and looked at her coldly.

It's her again! All along, I secretly put musk in the rouge box to prevent pregnancy, which is a good way to hide people's ears, after all, who would pay attention to a nondescript rouge box? But how did I forget, this Lifei is not an ordinary person, it is Chen Qian's eyeliner. She is delicate and observant, and if she is not careful, she may be aware of it. Although I deliberately distanced myself from her and did not let her serve her closely, she was still packing up the contents of the inner sanctum, and it was easy to change a box of rouge without being discovered!

Li Fei probably saw my intentional estrangement, and Qing Lingling said: "There are some things, Your Majesty doesn't say, it doesn't mean that he doesn't know." Niangniang is a smart person, she should know the proportion, musk and other things are harmful to the fetus, and please don't use it again in the future. ”

"The slave and maid are gone."

Do you know that I have discovered my identity and are going to have a showdown with me? Hmph, looking at the delicate back of Lifei leaving, I gritted my teeth more and more.

The night was dark, the palace was silent, and a person stood quietly in front of the window, looking up at the sky. The moon rises in the clouds, the streamer is as bright as water, and the pear blossoms that bloom in the courtyard are faintly falling, casting the shadow of the flowers that are as broken as stars and the dissolving moonlight lingers. The night breeze blows, shaking the shadow of the flowers on the ground, bringing down the pear blossom snow, falling in the pale white moonlight, which is as white as frost, and the moonlight is integrated, and the beautiful white pear blossoms reflect the frosty moonlight, and it is even more pale and cold.

Seeing this pear blossom moonlight, it suddenly gave birth to a little sadness and a bit of desolation.

"Niangniang, aren't you happy?" Yunxi stood behind me at some point.

Not happy? What do I have to be unhappy about, now everyone knows that Hua Zhaorong of the Hehuan Hall is favored by the emperor, oh no, it should be Hua Shurong. Hearing that I am pregnant, Chen Qian is overjoyed to have decreed that I have been canonized as Shurong, in addition to canonizing Shurong, there is a steady stream of rich rewards, and countless people come to give gifts every day. Who doesn't say that Hua Shurong is now the hottest character in the harem, and her favor is incomparable, and the scenery is infinite.

Seeing that I didn't respond, Yunxi said again: "I know that Niangniang is unhappy, I can see it." But Yunxi doesn't understand, Niangniang is now pregnant with a child, and Your Majesty loves you so much, what else is Niangniang unhappy about? ”

"Silly girl." I smiled helplessly, "Sometimes, things are not as simple as you seem on the surface, and people will be unhappy, because they can't ask for it, and because they don't want it." Now you see me in the palace, I have no worries about food and clothing, and Your Majesty loves me, you think it is good, and others also think it is good. But has anyone ever asked me, is all this what I want? ”

"Niangniang, you don't want to stay in the palace, don't you want Your Majesty's favor?" Yunxi was both confused and confused, "That's why Niangniang feels pain?" ”

"Since all this is not what the mother wants, then what does the mother want?"

What do I want, I just want to be happy and free.

But all of this was ruined by Chen Qian.

Turning my head and looking out the window, the cold moonlight rippling like a lake, my heart is as cold as this moonlight.

——

I went to say hello to the queen today, and it happened that Princess Liu Jingyan of Ancheng also brought her son to greet the queen, and everyone said hello to each other. Out of the palace gate, Liu Jingyan walked over to me with the prince, saying that he was familiar with me at first sight, and he was very close to me, and he wanted to go to my palace to sit, so I smiled and agreed.

When the prince first came to my palace, he was inevitably curious, looked around, walked east and west, and I let the palace people lead him to play elsewhere by his childish nature.

Under the pear tree in the back garden of Yilan Palace, Liu Jingyan and I sat at the stone table and gossiped about homely things, and someone from the palace came to report that King An Cheng came to pick up the princess.

"Lord Wang." Liu Jingyan greeted Chen Ji with a faint face.

Chen Ji swept his eyes and asked, "Where is Uncle Bao?"

Liu Jingyan said: "This kid loves to play, I don't know where he ran again, the prince will wait first, and the concubine will go and call him."

Liu Jingyan went to find Shizi, I looked at Chen Ji's cold expression, and couldn't help but say: "You are so estranged, you really don't look like husband and wife."

Chen Ji said disappretently: "She and I have always understood that we are just a political marriage, and there will be no more."

"She's deliberately creating an opportunity to meet us, did you tell her to do that, and how much does she know?"

Chen Ji explained softly, "What I ask her to do, she never asks for a reason, because she doesn't care what I have to do at all, don't worry." ”

"You really respect each other like ice." I walked as I spoke, seemingly leisurely and casual, but in fact I was secretly checking to see if anyone else was eavesdropping.

Unconsciously walked under the pear blossom tree, Chen Ji also followed, reminding: "Niangniang don't worry, this king has asked Qinglan to take care of the wind on the side, and it will be fine." ”

I relieved myself a little, "That's fine." ”

Suddenly the wind rose, shook the branches and pear blossoms gargled like rain, and the flowers flew like flocculents, falling on my body, on my sleeves, on my head, on my forehead, and even between my eyebrows and eyes, blurring my vision.

Suddenly, a broad and powerful hand landed on my arm, and with a slight pull, it pulled me away from the gloomy. I hurriedly slapped the pear blossom snow on my hair and between the sleeves of my clothes, and made a mess. Looking at my embarrassed appearance, Chen Ji couldn't help but smile, it was indescribably warm, the slender fingers covered my cloud hair, gently brushed the pear snow flakes on the silk, and slowly fell.

The slender, slightly calloused fingers inadvertently brushed my cheeks, warm and numb, and he and I couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and then retreated at the same time.

"Thank you, Lord Wang." I didn't even dare to look him in the eye.

"What you asked me for, I brought you." In a word, break this ambiguous atmosphere.

When I looked up, I saw Chen Ji holding a bracelet with a red gold bell in his hand, the size of a thumb of a gilt bell engraved with blue and white entwining, and it was round and round. Chen Ji pinched the bell between his fingers, broke it hard, and actually broke the bell, and a faint bitter medicinal fragrance came to his face, and there was actually a finger-sized jet-black pill hidden in the bell. After a few moments, he closed the half-open bell again, and there was no flaw in it.

In just a moment, the person on the other side took my hand, and the red gold bracelet had already advanced into my wrist and landed quietly on the jade wrist.

"In this way, there will be no suspicion." Chen Ji said lightly.

Under the daylight, the red gold bracelet swayed slightly, the golden light was gorgeous, and it was reflected between my eyebrows, and I slowly hooked my lips, "The prince is really thoughtful, thank you." ”

"You've really decided?" Chen Ji looked at me with a complicated expression, "Do you really want to do this?" ”

Taking a deep breath, I said with a firm and icy word: "My heart has been decided." ”

"Do you know that a woman has a miscarriage for the first time she is pregnant, and she hurts her body, and it will be difficult to get pregnant again in the future." Chen Ji's dark eyes were dyed with a layer of melancholy, "Are you ruthless enough to do this?" ”

"I had to be ruthless."

If I don't do this, will I give birth to Chen Qian's child and have children for my most hated life? If it is because of temporary unbearableness, because of the so-called deep affection of flesh and blood, give birth to a child. has a child, and has an inexhaustible relationship with the child's father, and then retreats step by step for the sake of the child. In order for the child to have a father, stay by the side of the person he hates the most, entangle endlessly, and stage a sadomasochistic relationship with him? Not to think about it, this is impossible!

Princess An Cheng came over with the prince, and as soon as the prince came, he snuggled up to Chen Ji and was very attached.

Chen Ji touched his head lovingly, and asked with a smile, "Shubao, are you having fun?" ”

"Happy." Shizi said in a childish voice, "Shurong Niangniang is beautiful here, there are pear blossoms, green vines, maple trees, and a lot of flowers and trees that I have never seen." ”

I couldn't help but bend down and smile at his round and cute face: "If the prince likes it, he can come here often to play in the future."

"Qing'er, this courtyard is really lively!"

The people who came were naturally Chen Qian and Jiang Yu, the father-in-law of the head manager, Chen Qian's eyes turned to me, his eyes were soft, "What are you talking about, so happy?" ”

"It's nothing, it's just a joke with the kids." I'm as calm as a waterway.

Chen Qian approached me, took my hand, and looked at me: "But I just saw you smile so happily, I have never seen such a smile, and it is really thanks to the blessing of Shubao's child." There was a hint of bitterness in his voice.

"Brother Huang, the younger brother will retire first." Seeing this situation, Chen Ji took his family to retire in a timely manner.

Jiang Yu also retreated with interest, and even withdrew irrelevant people.

Chen Qian wrapped her arms around me from behind, her chin resting on my shoulder. I was held by him, motionless, my eyes falling on the long flowers of a tree in front of me.

"Just hold you like this, watch the flowers bloom and fall, the clouds roll up, let the streamers fly by, and the earth is barren. That's good, this is about what the ancients called the quiet years. Chen Qian gently kissed my earlobe.

It's sensational, but it's a pity that I don't eat this set. Still, my heart skipped a slight beat uncontrollably, and I confess that I am not wood, and it is impossible for me not to feel anything about it. After all, there is a man blowing in your ear and saying soft love words, and it is impossible for anyone to be indifferent without blinking an eyelid. Women, in their bones, still like to listen to sweet words.

Exegesis:

(1) The title comes from the Song Dynasty Yan Jidao's "Linjiang Immortal" "Falling Flowers and People Are Independent", which refers to the quiet independence of people in the falling flowers.