【End of this event】Gongsun Li and her "home"

From that small courtyard to her grandmother's study, and then to her father's shoulder, she stood in the tide of the times and became a noble member of the imperial palace in Luoyang, and also walked from Qinglu to her husband's house with the eyes of the fan, and walked through the last few decades later, to the grave a few feet underground, she finally stopped. There is nothing to be afraid of regretting, these places have people she loves and loves her, so they are all her homes.

If you want to introduce the eldest daughter of Duke Yan to outsiders, it must start with the sentence "The eldest daughter of Duke Yan is twenty-eight this year, and she was brought up under the knees ......of Aunt Gongsun since she was a child."

Such a standard beginning almost made everyone think that Ah Li was brought up by the eldest mother.

Because Mrs. Bian was only a lowly kabuki from Cao Zhengxi's family in the past, people thought that it was a grace to give Ah Li to the eldest mother to raise. Although the Han Dynasty had the pride of "heroes don't ask about their origins", the lowliness of Le Ji and the relationship between Cao Zhengxi and Yan Gongshi still made the status of Mrs. Bian among the five concubines embarrassing.

And in the case that Mrs. Zhao and Mrs. Feng of the side room, who have the toughest background and background, are not pregnant, everyone thinks that it is best to give Xiao Ah Li to Aunt Gongsun to raise, just like Bian Yu was the first to get pregnant and gave birth to a girl, which is far more in line with everyone's hearts than boys.

But the eldest mother obviously has her own ideas about Xiao Ali's education-

When Gongsun Li was very young, about three or four years old, he just remembered for a while, and the concept of "home" was in a confused and confused way.

She seems to have two "homes".

One is the small courtyard of the mother, Mrs. Bian, where a lot of fragrant flowers and trees were planted, and when the flowers bloomed, buzzing bees and uninvited butterflies made the yard very lively. It seems to like this lively, at that time, the fat cats of the entire Gongsun Mansion love to squat in the corner, looking up under the shadow of the sun to watch the buzzing bees busy, from time to time the paws jump up and flutter the butterflies and bees, and then run into the grass, one day waiting for the eldest lady to send someone to find, the cat's head has been swollen for some time.

Ah Li was lying in the window between practicing calligraphy and watching interestingly, but Mrs. Bian was so frightened that she confessed to Aunt Jin who was looking for a cat. Not long after, the fragrant flowers and trees in the yard were cut down by my mother and even the roots were dug up. Xiao Ah Li squatted in the window and saw the servant slashing with a knife on the most fragrant unknown flower tree, the falling red flowers were trampled by people coming and going, and then the people who were sprinkled and swept washed with water, and the mottled juice on the ground was like blood.

Later, the eldest lady heard that the flowers and trees in Mrs. Bian's courtyard had been cut down, so she didn't say anything, but ordered someone to plant a few green bamboos. Xiao Ah Li leaned against the wall, and could only see the green bamboo leaves in this small courtyard, a cat walked through this corner, looked at it, and without waiting for Ah Li to identify it carefully, he jumped off the wall and walked away.

The other home is the hall where the grandmother and grandmother do the work, where there are not many beautiful and fragrant flowers and trees, and there is no golden splendor of the house of the giant and rich that outsiders imagine, but it is also very "lively".

Bamboo slips and paper filled with bookshelves cut off layers of indoor space, dozens of accounting rooms that played with abacus around the clock crackled wooden abacus, and maids and servants moved like flowing water from the piles of paper piled up with official documents, bringing news and movements of the Amway to my grandmother thousands of miles away. Wearing the glasses that had taken countless craftsmen to figure out, my grandmother raised her hand and lifted her weight lightly, which could drive the huge and ferocious beast of the Amway to bite and plunder the land of Kyushu.

Ah Li practiced reading in the back, and the eldest mother sometimes asked her to come and read the official documents of the Amway and the letters from Daddy. When she was older, her grandmother would ask her what she thought of what she had just recited. The affairs of the world in Kyushu, the changes in Shenzhou, all affected her in her grandmother's words and guidance to Ah Li.

When she grew up, she met her father outside. The concept of home has changed. From the mother's yard, the grandmother's house became Daddy's shoulder. Her understanding of home is no longer confined to a place to live under the tiles.

Daddy, who is black and hairy, is tall and looks like a big cat (it was later confirmed that the adults who left the house are more like dogs than cats). But it's no longer Ah Li touching the cat, it's her father's big cat who comes to tease her.

That was when Xiao Ah Li was the most like a child in his life - Ah Ping Ah Ding was a boy who couldn't be so close to Daddy, Ah Zhen was too young, and he preferred the ballads of the nurse and Mrs. Qin to his father's shoulders and arms.

Ah Li was sometimes placed on the shoulders by the tall daddy, and everyone could see her happily clapping her hands speechlessly and shouting "Adult, Adult". Gongsun Xun, who doesn't need prestige and attention to identity, was infected by his daughter's happiness, and the arrogance and jumping off when he was a teenager - to put it bluntly, it was unreliable to recover, grabbing his daughter and throwing it into the sky and then again, and the military generals under him couldn't cry or laugh. When he was full of wine and food, he loved to take his daughter out for a walk, and asked what it was, even if it was a spiritual vessel. At the end of the Han Dynasty and the beginning of the Yan Dynasty, it became popular to hold the door god of the child, until a thousand years later, the merchant did not stick the God of Wealth behind the beckoning cat, but a little black man holding a little girl with cinnabar between her eyebrows.

Tired of playing, Ah Li fell asleep on his father's shoulder, and somehow, in his dream, he was put in his arms by a big black dog, and he flicked his hands and feet, and the big dog was very funny "purring" and laughing.

The scene in the dream is still remembered vividly decades later. Even if she was already the eldest princess later, she remembered this experience in front of the coffin of Emperor Yan Gongsun Xun, who was full of frost and snow, as if it were yesterday. Gongsun Li, who was full of gorgeous hair, couldn't help but laugh solemnly. Her position, this identity, and this status, no one around her can see it clearly, and she doesn't dare to smile when she sees it clearly. It's just that this time I frightened the little granddaughter who was guarding the spirit with her and was not deeply involved in the world.

The little girl is her eldest son and only daughter, and she has always cherished it, and Gongsun Li just wanted to say something, but the little girl had already obediently taken out a handkerchief from her sleeve - just now, Gongsun Li, who is both a mother and grandmother, laughed and cried.

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To be continued

(2) ——— ——— 10.20 update

The younger brothers and sisters gradually increased, and they began to be sensible and intentionally or unintentionally diluted the fatherly love that Ah Li received.

But Ah Li is no longer a child who will be entangled in planting flowers or bamboo in the yard [maybe she thinks that even if she is only a few years older than her younger siblings, she is the eldest daughter, she is also a sister who can laugh at Ah Ping and wet the bed].

And as his father's broken blade began to sweep the world, the behemoth of Amway also frantically grew, expanded, and annexed the land of Kyushu. Because the children grew up, the eldest mother also began to teach them many things that had not been taught before. The world that Ah Li came into contact with began to change.

The most intuitive feeling of this shocking change is that one day, Ah Li, who was standing behind Aunt Gongsun, watched the servants slowly unfold the new system and map.

The sphere of influence controlled by the Gongsun family is finely outlined with gold threads, and the other forces are circled with aftercolor because of the endless changes, reductions, and disorganization. And with the advancement of the White Horse and the change of the world, the flow of the golden thread changes, as if the golden dragon is marching in the clouds, and the Hua air flow is surging, and the surrounding variegated colors are dim and retreating, and they can only be entangled and bitten into a ball.

With a smile, the eldest lady said to the shocked Ah Li, the ignorant Ah Zhen, the excited Ah Ping, and the eager Ah Ding, the sensible and oldest juniors: "This is the world of our grandson's family. ”

At that time, the mountains and rivers overlooked under the body, magnificent and majestic, and the vast and endless. Such a small concept of "home" is not worth mentioning being defeated by the word "world" with vertical and horizontal momentum.

Ah Li's hand was no bigger than the size of his thumb compared to the city he was currently in, and the whole picture was wide and wide, and the hanging shadow obscured everyone standing below.

Aunt Gongsun looked at the appearance of several children and grandchildren, and saw that the small faces were covered with shadows by the pictures with the light on their backs, but the light refracted by the golden lines on them made the pupils of several children light up with a cluster of flames.

The eldest lady had already thought about it in her heart, but at this time, she touched the back of the cat that suddenly jumped up without saying a word.

That picture made Ah Li seem to have a better understanding of his surname, family, and the preciousness of his identity overnight. The heart is surging and heroic, and when I open my eyes and see the world, many things that happen in the mansion seem to have more extended directions with the in-depth exploration of the essence of things after this cognition.

For example, why did Ah Ping and Ah Ding still play together when they were children, but they were always deliberately separated by the slaves and maids on both sides, and by the time Enlightenment had already consciously sat politely and distantly on both sides. For example, when she heard that as long as Ah Ding was sent to Ah Daddy alone, Aunt Feng's face changed on the spot. For example, why Aunt Cai, Aunt Ren, Aunt Qin and A-Niang always like to go to grandma to say goodbye. For example, when they heard that Dong Bai was set as Ah Ping's wife, everyone's appearance was ......

It was the first night that Ah Li, who always had a loose and innocent temperament, did not fall asleep. She thought of Daddy's face in her mind, but gradually added a lot of details that she didn't care about before.

This kind of trouble disturbed her for a long time, so that as the eldest sister, Li Yin's responsibility and right to discipline all her younger siblings were exercised like a thorn in her back during that time.

Her younger sister Ah Zhen, who had always been close to her, was puzzled by her restraints, and put her arms around her neck and asked Ah Li why she stopped laughing with them, but Ah Li couldn't answer.

She is no longer worried about the unevenness of the flowers and trees in the courtyard, and she understands the sincerity of her mother Bian Yu after being cramped and panicked. I also know that whether it is my father or my grandmother, or Mrs. Zhao, the eldest lady of the main courtyard, they are not people who despise their children because of their concubines.

But after realizing the existence of "this thing", the invisible emotion is like a thin thorn hidden under the skin, and it does not hurt. But when Ah Li wrote a note, when he was playing with his younger siblings, when he was reading a letter from his father from afar, and when he was listening to Mrs. Zhao's instructions to the backyard mansion...... Cold, inch by inch on the skin, there is no way to dispel and tell.

Because of this feeling of confusion and powerlessness, Ah Li is very grateful to his grandmother. The old man's method of unraveling allowed her not to get lost in a life of glory and bleakness, and directly shaped her personality with firm beliefs.

Aunt Gongsun taught them a group of children who had various problems in their growth and status changes, that is

- Take them to see the dead.

One of the reasons for the inevitable pandemic after the Great War was that the withered population was unable to dispose of the dead bodies left behind without outside intervention, which polluted drinking water and air in the process of decaying. Therefore, the work of pacification after the construction of a major town is particularly important. If a city becomes a dead city plagued, it has no meaning beyond its strategic position. And the governance of the dead city and the epidemic city is almost inverted with resources from other places, and this kind of inverted posting will not see a turnaround in a few years.

Therefore, after the princes annexed the new chassis, it often took a lot of time to reorganize the territory and prepare the logistics, and in the process, many small towns in serious situations would be directly abandoned and turned into places infested by wild foxes and wolves. It is said that the beasts of these places are different from the beasts of peacetime, that their eyes are red at night, and they are not afraid of people or fire at all, because they are the lonely ghosts who died on the battlefield, and they like to eat the flesh of the living.

When Ah Ping told this story in the car, Ah Zhen was so frightened that Ah Zhen hid in Ah Li's arms, Ah Ping didn't feel that it was enough, and while learning to cry and laugh, he had to pull his sister's sleeve and say that she was timid.

Ah Li saw that Ah Zhen's sleeves were about to be torn apart by Ah Ping, hugged his sister, and glanced at him for a long time, Xu Ah Li was restrained by what he was worried about in the past few days, and he didn't show the majesty of his eldest sister for a long time, and A boy of Ah Ping's age was the most disgusting, and he refused to stop. Seeing that there were already tears in his sister's eyes, Ah Li knocked his younger brother with a fan: "Did you see the ghost on the battlefield turn into a wolf?" ”

Ah Ping covered his nose and said no, he hadn't even seen the battlefield, and he was only a little better than Ah Li's girls, and he had participated in the autumn hunt and shot a rabbit. It's just that he said that this matter was told to him by the family general, and he specifically said that this family will be a white horse righteous servant. Ah Ping, who had a cocked nose, meant that he followed Daddy to the north and south, how could he deceive people.

Ah Li covered his sister's ears and continued to ask, "That wolf also wants to eat meat." ”

"Of course, their favorite is the meat of those nobles with fine skin and tender meat."

"Then they must be alive."

"A live wolf, of course."

"Well, as long as it's alive, it's going to be killed, right?"

"That's what the words say...... But that's a ghost turned wolf. ”

"Daddy saw tens of thousands of thieves who died in the sea when he was in the Yellow Turban, and the young Zhuang who died in contact with the Yuan family's sword soldiers emptied the dozen villages we saw on the road. So many people's ghosts have turned into wolves, so they must go to Daddy first. ”

"Sister! How can you say that! Our dad is to sweep the world and for the sake of righteousness, those ghosts must know, how dare they disturb adults! ”

"We're still Daddy's family, will those wolves come to us? And if they know that Daddy is righteous, how can they oppose Daddy when they are alive? ”

“…… That, that's because the adults won them, and they realized that the adults' side was the orthodox righteousness. ”

"Righteousness is decided by swordsmen? Or do you also think it's true that Daddy is out there and uses power to reason? ”

Ah Ping couldn't tell Sister A, so he could only mutter: "Sister is used to reasoning, is it just a story, and she has to teach people a lesson." ”

Ah Li wiped Ah Zhen's tears, listened to his brother's complaints, pursed his lips, but saw his grandmother's voice outside: "Your sister taught you for your good." Don't thank her soon, it's really embarrassing to wait for one day when you show off like this outside and then be scolded mercilessly. ”

The children saw their grandmother wearing glasses holding Aunt Jin's hand, followed by Ah Ding, who was called over to speak. Everyone bowed from slaves and maids to Ah Li, Ah Ping glanced at Ah Ding, and was a little unconvinced and saluted slowly: "Grandmother favors Ah Sister and speaks for her." Who is like a sister, she always likes to be reasonable, and even a strange story has to be gagged. ”

Ah Li secretly thought that even if Ah Ping was pampered by Mrs. Feng before, he was clearly discordant in front of his elders like this, which is the change in the past few days. The fruits of Daddy's success have unconsciously influenced and changed the Gongsun family.

"Your father, if he heard what you just said, but he wants to take off your pants, you won't dare to make up and scare your sister and sister again." The eldest lady touched the faces of the two girls, Ah Li, and Ah Zhen, completely ignoring Ah Ping's flushed face.

"I'm not lying to ......"

"And what is the name of the storyteller? When did he follow your family? Where did you see the ghost turn into a wolf? And how did you get to tell this story? ”

He ...... He is...... He...... He said he was, and then ...... Told the story...... Then ......"

Even Xiao Ah Zhen reacted that his brother was lying, pouted, and grimaced at Ah Ping with a tear on his cheeks: "Brother is lying, shame on his face." ”

Several people in the room laughed with the exception of Ah Ping.

But then, Ah Ping confessed that the story was heard when listening to someone whispering in the corner, and several people sat down, and the eldest lady held the sticky cat and Ah Zhen in her arms, and began to teach the children: "These wolves do exist around the battlefield and in ruined cities and villages to eat people, but they are not ghosts and gods, and red eyes are not necessarily. But they are not afraid of people because they eat human flesh. ”

"People, human flesh!"

A few children were surprised that they had indeed heard about Yi Zi in the book, but ...... Those wolves are just some beasts, some beasts who are slaughtered and made into furs and don't think the coat color is not good enough, how can they ......

"Because they are hungry and have nothing to eat, they can't even feed people in times of war and famine, and when they are hungry, they will change their children and eat. Those soldiers who died on the battlefield and those who starved to death were naturally their food, and after eating human flesh, they would not be afraid of people. ”

"At first, the Amway received letters only about the wolves of the carrion on the battlefield, then the small villages with withered populations were attacked by wolves, then the wolves prowling outside the town attacked pedestrians during the day, and now, they have begun to attack caravans in groups at night."

It was already evening at this time, and the place where their Amway caravan, escorted by thousands of elite soldiers, was walking in the wilderness, and a wolf howl could be heard in the distance in the twilight of the mountains and valleys.

Ah Zhen shrunk even smaller in the arms of the eldest mother, Ah Ping Ah Ding turned pale and clenched his hands, Ah Li didn't know how he was doing, but it took a lot of effort to speak and ask his grandmother: "What does grandmother mean that the world is like the attack of these wolves, is it getting worse day by day?" ”

"Starting from the party in the time of Hengling, then to the Yellow Turban rebellion, and then the Qiang people in Liangzhou, then there was such a strange thing as Dong Fatzi. The situation in the world is like those evil wolves, which are ferocious day by day, but the wolves have become evil wolves, because before that, they were hungry, hungry for too long, and they began to eat human flesh because they couldn't survive, and they took the initiative to attack the weak because the situation did not improve, and their ambitions became bigger little by little because they found that they could live better in this way...... The sensational evil image that is so far is only because of the beginning of the word "hunger". ”

Grandmother sighed long: "This world is so chaotic, so chaotic, even the beasts are so vicious that they are not afraid of the fire of the sword soldiers, not because they are beasts, but some people do things that beasts will not do, sow the cause, bear fruit, and naturally swallow it." But what accompanied them to swallow the bitter fruit was that the world had already suffered tens of thousands of thousands of lishu. So the world is in chaos, and innocent people can't stop the death of those who refuse to go along with it, such as your father's old friend Fu Nanrong. Crazy people want to take revenge for the injustice of the world to him, such as Dong Zhuo, who was your father's former friend and was later killed by your aunt. Those who have reaped enough of it and thought they would have the opportunity to take advantage of the chaos are dead, like so many thieves under the broken blade of your father...... The person who wants to save this world clearly finds that he can only kill by killing, he naturally knows that he is righteous, but among the meat that those wolves eat, the most are also the people he kills. ”

"The righteousness of the world...... Your father has the biggest territory, that is, the one who killed the most people, why do you think he can take this righteousness? ”

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