Chapter 60: Humble Heart
After the Lantern Festival, some literati in Beijing also like to take advantage of this popularity to hold a poetry tea party to consolidate interpersonal exchanges, and Ye Huaiyu is naturally among the invitees.
After Xie Wanyan took a nap, he went out to bypass the fence wall and knocked on Cheng Jingxi's door.
Cheng Jingxi sat in the hall, as if Tete was waiting for the guests to come, and as if she was just idle and had nothing to do.
When he raised his eyes and saw Xie Wanyan, he took another teacup and poured tea, pushed it to the other side of the round table, and made a "please" gesture.
Xie Wanyan pursed her lips and hesitated for a moment before slowly walking over there and sitting down.
"Did you go out to see yesterday's Lantern Festival?" Cheng Jingxi asked with a smile.
Xie Wanyan took a sip of tea and said lightly: "Since everything is expected by Her Royal Highness the Princess, what does Her Royal Highness have to ask knowingly?" ”
Cheng Jingxi was taken aback for a moment, and then said: "I don't understand Miss Xie's words, what is meant by my expectations?" You came to me without saying a word, and I casually started a conversation with you, why did it become a knowingly asked question in your mouth? ”
Xie Wanyan had a faint anger on his face, but he couldn't bear to say it, "Her Royal Highness the princess once made that bet with the slave family, in fact, Her Royal Highness knew that the bet contract could not be realized, so he deliberately said it, so that the slave family felt good about themselves to hit the wall, and asked the princess to pick up laughter in the back, what the slave family said was right?" ”
Cheng Jingxi raised her eyebrows and stroked her palm: "I don't understand, that bet is indeed the first one I initiated, but if you never responded, what kind of bet is this?" What else is there to talk about? Yan Yu smiled and continued, "I'm not an immortal, how can I guarantee that everything I say is correct?" ”
Xie Wanyan was speechless for a while, so she had to purse her lips again, looking pained.
Cheng Jingxi glanced at her quietly, and said softly: "Actually, in the final analysis, this is just an obsession hidden in your heart, I just took it out and spread it out in front of you, if you shouldn't, this matter will be stopped on the day before yesterday, but you should have it, it shows that you have a certain courage, so that you are eager to confirm your obsession, I bring it up, just to let you experience whether this obsession is worth it or not." ”
"But what does this have to do with you, Your Highness?"
Xie Wanyan was also soft and weak when she was angry, as if she was born to be pitied, but it was a pity that the sky was always fooling the world and making her look like this, but she didn't give her such a life, her eyes were red, and her expression was sad, "No matter what, this is the slave's own business, His Royal Highness has to come in and insert a bar, what does it mean?" The slave family's obsession in the bottom of his heart is just for the slave family to let it go, why does Her Royal Highness the princess want to take it out? stimulated the slave family, what good is this for His Highness? Whether it is worth it or not is the willingness of the slave family, didn't His Highness say that he would stand by and watch? But why don't you even follow what you just said? ”
Cheng Jingxi listened silently, with no expression on her face, as if she couldn't provoke her by saying anything, and she was not moved at all.
Xie Wanyan's tears fell, I was very pitiful, Cheng Jingxi waited for a while and didn't see her speak again, so she chuckled lightly and turned her head to look at her, "Finished?" ”
Xie Wanyan didn't answer.
Cheng Jingxi said: "You ask me why I do this," she paused, lowered her eyes and didn't know what she was thinking in her heart, then smiled faintly and said, "It's very simple, because I'm happy!" ”
Xie Wanyan almost crushed the teacup in his hand, although he stopped in time, he still had obvious movements.
Seeing this, Cheng Jingxi burst out laughing, and said as if she didn't know what to rely on: "You are actually not as weak as you seem on the surface, what Your Highness said is right?" ”
If Ye Huaiyu heard this, he would definitely know that Her Royal Highness the Princess was unhappy.
But Xie Wanyan didn't know.
Being poked like this, Xie Wanyan did not show any panic, but was very calm and asked lightly, "Didn't His Highness say that he would stand by and watch?" Why do you always have to get to the bottom of what you are watching? ”
"Miss Xie, don't worry, I'm just curious," Cheng Jingxi said, "Besides, if I didn't know about this matter from you, I would have known it through other channels, the same, no difference." ”
Xie Wanyan just didn't hear it and was silent.
Cheng Jingxi said again: "Do you know how I recognized you? ”
"I hope Her Royal Highness the princess will speak out."
She didn't understand this matter, why she just came in and looked at her, and she already understood in her heart what her intention was to come to the Shuai Mansion, and she also cooperated to go back to pave the way for her, so that her efficiency increased more than a little bit.
"I saw you before you even entered the house."
Xie Wanyan was slightly shocked in her heart, "When and where did the princess see the slave family?" ”
"Changjie, I just came out of the palace at that time, and when I looked out of the carriage when I had nothing to do, I saw you, walking with Gu Boyan, the son of Shangshu. Then, when I saw your face, I recognized you. ”
Xie Wanyan is not stupid, Cheng Jingxi only needs this sentence, and she can figure everything out.
It turned out that she mentioned her mother that day, not casually, but deliberately.
Xie Wanyan lowered her head, her willow eyebrows looked particularly good, the corners of her lips pulled slightly, and she said, "The princess deduced what was going to happen next only through these two meetings?" ”
"That's not it," Cheng Jingxi said, and suddenly smiled, "You don't think I'm really an immortal, do you?" Seeing you is just an accident, maybe it is really destined, but it doesn't matter. I don't like nosy people, and I don't know that you will really be rewarded, after all, at that time, my husband was still unknown, life and death were uncertain, and I didn't know that you would enter the palace. It's just that then you come and everything makes sense. ”
"As for why I want to help you, this reason has nothing to do with you, you don't need to know, and there is no need for this."
Cheng Jingxi poured another bowl of tea and took a sip.
She looked indifferent, as if she really looked like she could see everything.
But only she knows that what is hidden under the indifference is a humble heart.
It's hard to understand that Gui, the eldest princess of Jokhang, can grow a humble heart.
"Our bet is void, right?"
Cheng Jingxi nodded, "Since Miss Xie has verified it herself, this bet should have never been played," he paused and continued, "The road is your own choice, and it is better to count on anyone than on yourself." ”
Xie Wanyan said goodbye and left, Cheng Jingxi silently watched her slowly bypass the fence wall with small steps, and after a while, she heard a soft door knock, and a crack finally appeared on her calm face.
Xie Wanyan's questioning voice was still in his ears.
Why did she help her?
Why did she bring what was in her heart to the surface and stimulate her?
What's in it for her?
The benefits are great!
Cheng Jingxi's straight back slowly bent down, the corners of her lips struggled to pull out a smile that she didn't know who to see, her heart ached, her face was bitter, she looked even duller than usual, even more unbearable than usual.
Xu is a woman in the world like her, when she is ignorant, she hears people talk nonsense, but she can still get by, and even disdainful. When I am older and learn to look at myself in the mirror, although I often sigh, I can comfort myself after sighing, saying that it doesn't matter, anyway, it's not for others to see.
But when she really met someone, a person who got along with her day and night, raised eyebrows with her, and slept with her, she suddenly realized that the ugliness of her appearance could make people so embarrassed.
Cheng Jingxi still remembers the disgust in her eyes when Ye Huaiyu unveiled her red hijab on the night of the wedding.
At that time, she still didn't care, her heart was full of disdain, and she was very confident that although the two would live together in the future, she was still her, and he would never enter her heart.
She thought that no one could enter her heart, just as she had never been loved by anyone since she was a child.
But the world is unpredictable, from the day she married into the Shuaifu, to this time, it has been a year in a hurry.
And Ye Huaiyu and her person also stayed in her heart unhurriedly during this period, and slowly filled it until it was tightly closed and heavy.
But Ye Huaiyu's disdainful gaze was still very clear until this moment, and he couldn't help but shed tears every time he thought about it, although now he rarely or even no longer looked at her like that. But she still wondered, was this a deliberate cover-up?
Although he always shows that he likes her very much, he always makes her can't help but wonder, is he lying to her, is he holding back any idea in his heart, and then give her a head-on blow when she accepts it, and since then she has been slumped and in pain?
But she's in love with him!
Sometimes I wonder, even if he pretends, what if he pretends? As long as he doesn't look at other women, even if he looks secretly in his heart, as long as he is willing to look at her, even if it's just a superficial effort, she is willing.
So she would help Xie Wanyan and help her, but she just wanted her to leave their yard earlier and stay away from Ye Huaiyu's sight.
The reason for this is really simple, it is a woman's small and humble selfishness.
This kind of thinking didn't even alleviate the fence wall in the yard much.
also knows that this time the rule of law does not cure the root cause, but most women like to blindfold and deceive themselves.
She spread out the secret in Xie Wanyan's heart and said that she would provoke Xie Wanyan to find out, but in fact, this was not a bet she made with herself?
Fortunately, Gu Boyan did not respond to her obsession, and very happily let Xie Wanyan die and helped her invisibly.
She knew that she was shameless in doing so, she forced a woman to use her innocence as a bargaining chip, and she indirectly pushed a woman into the abyss.
But she had no other way, all her strategies would not work at this time, and she had nothing to do with Ye Huaiyu.