At this moment, Joanna didn't know why, but she suddenly remembered the past in her heart.

Just came back, when she saw Zhang Fan again, Joanna did have an urge to cry, after all, after so many things, she had a feeling of rebirth at this time, but she didn't cry at that time, she understood that she was going to live a happy life, even if the previous things could not be forgotten, but she would never let her current self cry because of the misery of the past.

And now, perhaps because of the long time she has lived now, although she has not forgotten those things in the past, even if she thinks about them occasionally, it makes her feel that those things are like dreams when she thinks about them now, those things in the past are like a nightmare, and the happiness in front of her is the most real existence.

It sounds like Joanna's feeling is simply deceiving herself and escaping the past, but now she has no need for this at all, after all, what is in front of her is real no matter what, and the past things, no matter how she can't let go, there is no way to change the past.

It's just that she may not have noticed that her dependence on Zhang Fan is really a little too strong, not that kind of formal dependence, nor does it mean that she has to stay with Zhang Fan all the time, but no matter what Joanna does, she will think of Zhang Fan in her heart, not to mention how Zhang Fan will affect her if there is something or show such troubled appearance.

Just like now, Joanna really couldn't sleep, but it wasn't because she had anything on her mind, she was just thinking about something, some of her own plans, but when she heard Zhang Fan's tossing and turning that she couldn't sleep, what she was thinking about changed completely, from her own affairs to Zhang Fan, and she began to worry about Zhang Fan, until she couldn't worry anymore, she came over and wanted to see Zhang Fan, so this was the conversation before.

As for Zhang Fan, he really didn't know what Joanna was thinking, and just now, Joanna's ruddy face was also blocked by the night and did not let Zhang Fan see it, however, the night can block the sight, but it can't block the transmission of sound, and it is precisely because of the darkness that the sound is heard more clearly than usual.

And Zhang Fan just heard the way Joanna spoke in a different tone than before when she said that just now, which made Zhang Fan a little distracted, he didn't know what happened to Joanna now and why it was like this.

However, before Zhang Fan could figure it out, Joanna walked to his bedside and asked, "Can I lie down and be busy,"

Joanna's words once again made Zhang Fan a little puzzled, and hummed softly, regardless of whether Joanna could see it clearly, nodded, and then moved his body to the other side.

Hearing the voice, Joanna got into Zhang Fan's quilt and lay down.

Although the winter here is not as cold as in the north, but now is the first month after all, and the night is also very cold, inadvertently, Joanna thought about Zhang Fan's body and leaned over, and Zhang Fan didn't think much about it, he just felt that Joanna's body was cold, and it was because he was only wearing underwear just now but standing outside for a while, Zhang Fan stretched out his arm and wrapped Joanna in his arms.

Compared with Han women, Joanna of European descent is indeed taller than them, but Joanna is considered to be that petite size, so it is not inappropriate to snuggle in Zhang Fan's arms like this.

But at this time, Joanna is not concerned about these, Zhang Fan's arms are very warm, although she clearly knows that this is because Zhang Fan has been staying in the quilt, but this kind of warmth makes Joanna have another feeling, a very nostalgic taste.

I don't remember how long I haven't felt this kind of warmth, I feel calm in my heart when I am held in my arms, and I feel that I am in the quietest place, no matter what wind and rain can touch me, and I feel completely protected by others.

How long has it been since she felt this feeling, Joanna herself doesn't know, she only remembers that when she was a child, her mother would always coax herself to sleep like this, but since when did her mother never hug her like this again, Joanna has long since she remembered, since when her father died, or since she had to take on the responsibility of reviving the whole family, Joanna really doesn't remember.

Once upon a time, Joanna felt that she had become strong enough to face any difficulty, even if she was alone, without anyone to comfort her, she could survive it alone and accomplish her goals.

However, now Zhang Fan's embrace has made her find that feeling again, not the feeling of being cared for by her relatives, nor is it a desire, just simple care, this feeling makes Joanna feel at ease, leaning her head on Zhang Fan's arms, listening to his heartbeat, Joanna feels that she never wants to leave again, she just wants to be immersed in this feeling forever.

And Zhang Fan is not like this, of course, he and Joanna feel differently at this time, holding Joanna in his arms, Zhang Fan has no desire, just holding her like this, and even after a while, Joanna's body is as warm as his, but Zhang Fan always feels that he still needs to continue to hold her like this and warm her.

Maybe at this moment, Zhang Fan was comforting Joanna, but Zhang Fan had a different feeling, he felt that Joanna was comforting himself.

Zhang Fan, who couldn't sleep, was thinking about those things in his heart, and after thinking about it for so long, there was no result, and in the end it was not much different from when he didn't want to.

And Joanna's arrival did not help Zhang Fan solve any problems, but only calmed Zhang Fan's heart and stopped thinking about things that had no answers at all.

After a while, Zhang Fan suddenly opened his mouth and whispered: "If you are worried about the situation here, in fact, there is nothing, I have already arranged it, although I don't know if it will go smoothly by then, but I don't think there will be any big problems, although there is going to be a fight, but it won't take long to finish, if you are still not at ease, you can go back to the capital first, I will go back in a few days, and then ......"

"Don't,"

Before Zhang Fan's words could be finished, she was interrupted by Joanna, who suddenly stretched out her hand and hugged Zhang Fan tightly, as if if she didn't do this, the two would be separated, and the face that was originally leaning on Zhang Fan's chest was even tighter.

The "don't" came so small, but it made Zhang Fan understand that Joanna was extremely resolute.

"You...... What are you ......" Zhang Fan didn't react for a while, and suddenly said self-righteously, "Look at what I said, yes, although there is going to be a war here, it is impossible to fight in Chengdu Mansion, not to mention, you are also a person who has been on the battlefield, I'm afraid you won't care about these things,"

"No...... No, ......" and in response to Zhang Fan, it was Joanna's negative voice, "I don't want to see the war anymore, I don't want to think about it, I have seen too much in that year, and I don't want to see it again in my life,"

"Then why ......" Joanna's words made Zhang Fan a little confused, since he didn't want to see the war, he didn't want to hear about the war, and he didn't even want to think about the war, why did he stay here, why didn't he just go back to the capital and wait for him.

"I ......" Joanna didn't know what to say for a while, and then continued to speak after a while, "I just don't want to be separated from Fan, when I first came here, I envied Ru Xue and them, and I also wanted to be mortal, but that time, when Fan went to hunt with the emperor, he couldn't bring his female dependents, and I didn't become a mortal, so I was really happy to be able to follow, and this time was the same."

"I'm not like a person to dominate you, it's just that I don't want to be separated from you, even if I can't see each other for a day, but as long as I know that you are not far from me, my heart will settle down, so this time, no matter what happens, I don't want to leave you, if you can do your things with confidence, as long as I know that you are not far away, I will be satisfied,"

Joanna's words made Zhang Fan speechless for a while, he originally thought that the reason why Joanna was reluctant to leave was because of his own reasons, but he never thought that Joanna would say such a thing.

In the end, how much she suffered in that year, Joanna didn't take the initiative to say it, and Zhang Fan wouldn't take the initiative to ask her about this kind of thing, but now it seems that even if she is safe, it is absolutely impossible for anything to happen, but Joanna's insecurity still hasn't receded.

No, it's not so much that it hasn't faded, but that there is no sign of subsiding at all, and the reason why Joanna can be so cheerful on weekdays is all because of Zhang Fan by her side, so that she won't think of those bad pasts.

At this time, Joanna confided in her heart, but it also made Zhang Fan understand how fragile Joanna, who seems to be the strongest, is in her heart.

"Don't worry," Zhang Fan kissed Joanna deeply on the forehead and hugged her tightly, "I won't leave you, when this matter is over, let's go back immediately,"

"Hmm," replied softly, Zhang Fan's peace of mind made Joanna's heart completely calm, and with this calm, she quickly fell asleep.

And Zhang Fan never fell asleep,