vs 30 Is it worth it?

Her voice and some maniacal laughter came out of the carriage, and when the carriage stopped, the coachman called the guards, and the mute maids looked at each other, and all the people stopped in front of the carriage, but no one dared to come near, and no one dared to ask what was the matter. There is only the sound of the wind on the long street, only the wind chimes are ringing sharply with the wind, this place is actually very close to the Nanguo Mansion, just on the same street, you can almost see the lights in front of the gate of the Nanguo Mansion as bright as day, and it seems to smell the clear aroma of wine in the house, and it seems to be able to hear the lively and laughing voices of the county guards. However, the area around the carriage was quiet, and the terrible silence contrasted with Yao Jin's laughter, which I don't know whether to laugh or cry again and again. She lifted the curtain suddenly, except for the slightly messy forehead hair, her makeup was still delicate and intact, and her eyes did not have a trace of tears, but they were as red as her lips, like the pigeon's blood rubies on the golden crown, like the blood that had just fallen from her heart.

Yao Jin muttered something, rushed out of the carriage by herself, pushed away the hands of the dumb maids who were about to support each other, and her eyes slid vacantly over the surprised expressions of the guards-she grinned, and looked around for a while, such a strange bluestone road, she didn't know why she was laughing, she didn't know why she was standing here, she didn't know why she was wearing a ridiculous full of gorgeous clothes, and she didn't know whether it was dawn or dusk at this moment- She was obviously empty in her mind, but her feet involuntarily went in the direction of Nanguofu, her messy steps stepped on the wide skirt, and miraculously, she didn't fall, staggering on the somewhat damp bluestone slab, and there seemed to be a thin white mist sinking around, turning the originally bright entire street into a blur, and gradually, Yao Jin's white coat melted into the fog and disappeared in a trance.

In front of the gate of Nanguo Mansion, the delicate and gorgeous red lantern is hung high, one left and one right reflect the plaque of the red background and red gold words of Nanguo Mansion, there is a string of colorful lanterns on the mast of three meters high, red orange, yellow, green, blue and pink, all are light-colored silk cloth wrapped round lantern covers, from a distance it looks like a colorful glass string, the brilliant color is sprinkled on the ground, stretching out a piece of soft light. What does not lose this colorful light and shadow is the red exterior wall of Nanguo Mansion and the layers of green tiles, each corner is painted with upside-down bats and ruyi cloud patterns, and the end of the eaves hangs a brand-new copper octagonal bell, all of which show the delicacy and dignity of this mansion. This bright and grand Nanguo Mansion has been waiting for so long, and at this moment it is like a girl dressed up, anxiously waiting for her family to open her room on the first morning of the new year, see her appearance, and then sigh happily: It is so beautiful.

"It's so beautiful......" Yao Jin stood in front of the gate of Nanguo Mansion in a daze, this is her home, it is the home she has worked hard to get from south to north and from north to south, how many times has she fantasized about the appearance of this place, how many times has she said that she wants to live in this land for a lifetime, but at this moment her feet are so heavy that she can't take a single step-

"Wei Yan, do you know? I finally found out that without you, my freedom and my home were so empty, so empty......" Yao Jin muttered, the lights and shadows in front of her overlapped, she suddenly felt that the crown on her head was so heavy, so heavy, she couldn't breathe and couldn't stand up, as if she was about to fall The moment she was about to fall, a pair of hands suddenly grabbed her:

"Your Highness, why did you come on foot?"

Wang Xiang, who ran out of the mansion gate, stepped forward in surprise and stepped forward to help her in three steps and two steps, looking at Wang Xiang's worried and suspicious eyes, Yao Jin shook his head blankly, pushed his hand away, and looked up at the majestic "Little Nanguo Mansion" Four words, looking at it, for a while, my heart seemed to be about to crack with something, as if a steel nail had hit Yao Jin's spine, forcing her to straighten up and straighten her waist, forcing her to raise her forehead high, mechanically arranging the tassels that were somewhat entangled, and letting them hang down on the back of her head, and then lifting the skirt slightly with both hands, step by step, walked up the steps.

The Nanguo Mansion is very large, and it is much higher than the general palace regulation, the courtyards and halls in the palace are independent, and the walkways connected with each other are also a step and a scene, and the pavilions and pavilions, gardens and water pavilions are cleverly worn between the courtyards, which is a bit of a condensed version of the meaning of the palace. However, even if it is a condensed version, it is big enough to make Yao Jin, who returned to the house for the first time, lose her way, her steps are steady and fast, ignoring the shouts of Wang Xiang in the back, let alone caring about the people in the palace who saluted and bowed to her along the way, her face was extremely calm. There was not a trace of anything unusual, but her feet were walking almost frantically and quickly, as if she was going to use her feet to step on every inch of Xiaonanguo Mansion at once. And Wang Xiang, who had been trying to shout at her to stop, really couldn't bear it at the moment, ran to Yao Jin in three or two steps, stretched out his arms to stop her, and said angrily and anxiously: "Your Highness, what are you doing?"

Yao Jin glanced at Wang Xiang a little confused, slowly lowered her head, her voice was soft, with a weakness and fatigue that Wang Xiang had never seen, and said slowly: "I want to see clearly, and be clearer, whether all this is worth it." Wang Xiang, Wei Yan is getting married, and he said that I should never bother him again - Wang Xiang, you tell me that even though I get all this in front of me, but I don't have Wei Yan, I will never have it, it will never be forever, do you think I am worth it?"

Wang Xiang couldn't answer Yao Jin's question, looking at this woman who had never been as warm as the sun, who had never been unattainable in his heart, was now getting closer and closer, so close that he often thought that she was in the place where he could touch it with his hand—as at this moment, she was in front of him, her fragility was clear at a glance, her sorrow was flowing backwards, she was so noble but so lonely, so lonely that no arms could warm her. Wang Xiang's outstretched arms trembled slightly, and he suddenly wanted to tighten his arms and hug Yao Jin, wanting to tell her that even if there was no Wei Yan, he Wang Xiang would follow her for the rest of his life and stand behind her forever.

Just as Wang Xiang's hand was about to fall, an anxious and concerned cry woke him up, and when he turned his face, Zhao Yu was striding towards here, and the two maids behind him were actually Lu Tao, who was about to give birth with a big belly. Seeing Lu Tao's difficult walking, Wang Xiang suddenly felt a pang in his heart, and hurriedly stepped forward to support her: "Why did you come out, didn't you let you rest at home?"

"After all, today is the Chinese New Year's Eve, I always want to keep the New Year with you; besides, the big banquet in the Nanguo Mansion, I also want to come and see, and it is okay to stay at home left and right, so I let people send me over, and I met Lord Zhao and His Royal Highness's carriage and horse at the door, only to know——" Lu Tao looked worriedly at Yao Jin, who bowed his head and was silent, and whispered: "What's wrong with Your Highness?"