Chapter 185: Guilt is hard to bear

Liu Shan Fushang. After the scene just now. Zhang Fan was not affected. At most, I began to guess in my heart. Liu Shan's sudden change in attitude. Previously, his method of selling Luo Ling'er to Zhang Fan was just a kind of willing person to take the bait. relies on Liu Shan's confidence in Luo Linger's beauty. And tonight. This Liu Shan's opinion on this matter suddenly became hot. Zhang Fan didn't know what it was for. Although it was true that he had done it because of a temporary change in his heart before, he suddenly made a move on Luo Ling'er. But Zhang Fan didn't believe it because of this. Liu Shan would suddenly decide to do so. There must be some reason for this. Maybe Liu Shan will take this opportunity. It is not impossible to make any demands to Zhang Fan.

Zhang Fan, who was following behind Luo Ling'er, walked along. I was thinking about this question in my head. didn't pay any attention to Luo Ling'er who was leading the way in front. But Luo Ling'er, who was walking in front, was a little unnatural. Before Zhang Fan walked out of the courtyard just now. She also heard what Liu Shan said to him. What does it mean. She understands it very well. It's just that she's a woman after all. Even under Liu Shan's coercion before, he had done this kind of thing. There was no shame for her. But because the object is Zhang Fan. The long-lost shame in my heart came back to my heart. Even if he knew that Zhang Fan would not do anything to him now. But there are still some small expectations in my heart.

Luo Linger thought so. The pace of leading the way for Zhang Fan gradually slowed down. She had been waiting for Zhang Fan to talk to her. But he didn't hear Zhang Fan's voice for a long time. She thought about it herself. It is estimated that Zhang Fan is afraid that this place is Liu Shan's mansion. There may be some eyes and ears watching them. I'm afraid that talking to her will reveal something. It's just that Luo Ling'er is well aware of the situation in Liu Shan's mansion. I know that this place is really as it seems. It's definitely not going to be a big deal. But in order to follow Zhang Fan. She didn't take the initiative to talk to Zhang Fan.

Come to the door of a side room. Luo Ling'er pushed open the door and said to Zhang Fan: "Fan...... Brother Van. Come in and change your clothes. Wet clothes don't feel good on your body. "Call Zhang Fan that again. Luo Ling'er was very excited.

"Good. Ling'er. Zhang Fan said. Dragged her into the house. The door was closed.

Although Luo Ling'er knew that nothing would happen now. But when she walked into this room where there were only two people, she and Zhang Fan. The heart still sped up. Wait until Zhang Fan closes the door. She was even more nervous.

"How. What has changed here these days? Zhang Fan asked.

Seeing that Zhang Fan had no plans to do anything to himself. Luo Ling'er's excitement was also let go. It's just that a trace of disappointment in my heart is also revealed. However, Luo Linger is not a woman who does things completely by feelings. knew that Zhang Fan was now worried about Liu Shan. Of course, she will follow Zhang Fan's meaning. Even if it's just to please Zhang Fan.

"Liu Shan hasn't moved much in the past few days." Luo Ling'er shook her head and said. As he spoke. He also took out a clean new set of clothes from the closet next to him. "These days, Liu Shan's actions have become much slower. It just doesn't seem like it's intentional. If there is something related to it on weekdays. He did the same. It doesn't make me shy away either. It seems that nothing has happened lately. Luo Ling'er said as she spoke. While walking over to Zhang Fan's wide clothes.

Zhang Fan felt Luo Linger's softness sliding on his body through his clothes. Looking at Luo Ling'er in front of him, he didn't mean anything, but he always revealed a happy face. Zhang Fan was a little confused. What kind of mind does this woman have? Zhang Fan couldn't help but ask himself in his heart. What kind of feelings does he have for this woman? Whether it's hate, or joy, or some other emotion. This moment. Zhang Fan was confused again. I had made up my mind. In this moment. It was shaken again.

He had already planned for it. Use this woman to help him achieve his goals. When the time comes, if Liu Shan finds out, she will be killed. Then it can be regarded as her fate. Or rather, as a retribution for the deception she once had. If she's really lucky. So Liu Shan didn't find out what she did. Or maybe they found out and didn't ask her for her life. Zhang Fan didn't plan to continue to see this woman again.

And now. The mind that had been made up in my heart was shaken. It's not that Zhang Fan hadn't considered these before. But this intention has never wavered. And now. I want him to abandon this intention. As a result, Luo Ling'er's thoughts of re-accepting suddenly rippled in his heart. And with the continuous expansion of the ripples, it has gradually become a trend of turning over the river and the sea.

Zhang Fan thought so in his heart. His intellect, however, began to oppose this idea. I tried my best to let this ridiculous idea in my heart disappear as soon as possible. However. The harder he tried to do so. The more the thought became clearer.

Thereupon. Zhang Fan changed his approach. He tried hard to think about all the bad things about Luo Ling'er. Everything that can make you hate him. Just think about it. Zhang Fan was surprised to find out. Luo Ling'er really didn't have anything worth making a big fuss about. What happened to her. Or what she went through. It wasn't her intention at all. Whether it is selling the flesh on the Qinhuai River. Let different men be her own guests in the curtain. It's still here in Liu Shan. Reduced to his plaything for others. None of this was her intention. No woman in the world would want to do that.

When she came to Zhang Fan's side, she came. In order to find out the news. Get some news about Liu Shan from him. But is this what a woman like her wants to do? It doesn't matter if things work or fail. In the end, Liu Shan was safe and sound. Officials who continue to control the three provinces come to desecrate large sums of silver. Or Zhang Fan's success. cracked Liu Shan's gang. None of this meant anything to her. She didn't get any benefit from it. Ultimately. She did it just for herself and the family she cared about. Hopefully they will be able to survive at the same time. I can live better.

learned about Luo Ling'er's past from Zhou Quan. Zhang Fan was very angry at the time. Angry that this woman deceived herself. But now he remembered for himself. There was nothing wrong with what Luo Ling'er did. For a woman living under feudal etiquette. Chastity is almost everything. Luo Linger didn't explain to him that it should be. After all, she had just found one she liked. And can give himself a man of hope. And this man has a lot of power. But he didn't dislike that he wasn't a virgin. This is a great gift for Luo Ling'er. How could she tell Zhang Fan these things. Did she wish that her last hope would be dashed? Could it be that she doesn't cherish the happiness in front of her? The answer is a no-brainer.

Zhang Fan wants to come now. It seems that everything he has done to Luo Linger has become so ridiculous. And he is simply the biggest laughing stock. He would actually use such a macho mentality. This was the kind of mentality he had ever disdained to measure a woman who was so badly injured. There is even a desire to sacrifice her life to use her to achieve his own goals. This is simply the behavior of a beast.

Zhang Fan had such a thought in his mind. overturned his plan just now to continue to hate Luo Ling'er. However, this is the opposite of what he had just purposed. But it didn't make him feel regretful. On the contrary, he was relieved.

Luo Linger didn't know what Zhang Fan was thinking. She was very careful to change Zhang Fan's clothes. Unbutton your shirt inside. Zhang Fan's unrestrained chest was exposed. Luo Ling'er was a little shy when she saw it. It's just that she didn't expect it. When you lose your mind. She will be greeted by Zhang Fan's hug.

Zhang Fan hugged Luo Ling'er tightly in his arms. He didn't say anything for a long time. Just hugged her tightly. As if to express his apologies.

The moment when the pretty face was close to Zhang Fan**'s chest. Luo Ling'er's heart was really flustered. She didn't know why Zhang Fan was suddenly like this. But she wasn't going to refuse. But it was a long time. Zhang Fan didn't make any further moves. That's how he hugged her so tightly. She listened to Zhang Fan's heartbeat. I also gradually felt the difference.

"Brother Fan. What's going on. Luo Ling'er, who didn't know why, asked softly.

"Ling'er." Heard Luo Ling'er's words. Zhang Fan held her shoulders. Look at her face. Said guiltily. "I'm sorry. It's all because of me. Sorry ......"

Luo Ling'er didn't know what Zhang Fan was talking about. It's just that she's not stupid. But she didn't know Zhang Fan's true mood, she thought that Zhang Fan was apologizing to her for letting her return to Liu Shan. Let's be honest. This moment. Luo Ling'er's heart was very happy. For her. Zhang Fan did this to explain. He is in love with himself. He cares about himself. He didn't want to be in any danger.

"Nope. Brother Van. I did it voluntarily. Luo Linger shook her head. Said. "I volunteered to come back to help Brother Fan. Brother Fan doesn't have to blame himself for anything. And since I came back. Although Liu Shan still treats me as before. But he never felt sorry for me. ”

Zhang Fan heard her words. First, there are some differences. But then. He understood what Luo Linger was talking about. Come to think of this. The guilt in Zhang Fan's heart couldn't help but get even worse. Thinking of her even now. I never forgot the idea of wanting to help myself.

It has only been two months since the two met. And this short period of time really made Zhang Fan feel that he owed Luo Linger too much.

"That's right. She didn't know what my bastard was thinking after all. Zhang Fan suddenly said in his heart. I want to remedy. Ling'er. I'm going to find a way to make amends for the wrongs I've done to you. ”