Chapter 164: Self-Deception Heartache
Bai Yanxiao ran all the way to the hill behind the courtyard, the mountains and fields were full of wild grass and tree roots, and if one was not careful, Bai Yanxiao tripped over the spiky tree roots.
"Ahh Bai Yan sat on the ground with a smile, tears in his eyes.
"Ah Yan, how are you?!" Behind him, Gu Beiyu staggered over.
"Don't come here!" Bai Yanxiao retreated in horror and shouted in a hoarse voice, "Don't kill me!" No! ”
Even if she lost her memory, she still remembered the sword she had that day, and a touch of pain floated between her eyebrows, Gu Beiyu's face became more and more embarrassed, and she took a deep breath and softened her voice: "Ah Yan, I'..... I won't hurt you. With that, Gu Beiyu slowly squatted in front of Bai Yanxiao and reached out to pull her.
However, just as he was about to grab her, she suddenly swung hard, and a pillar of ice that had gathered at some point suddenly slid in front of him, and the sharp ice tip slashed through Gu Beiyu's cheek, leaving a trail of blood.
"Ahh I, I didn't mean to. Bai Yanxiao looked at his palms a little blankly, trembling and retreating, until he reached a tree and hugged himself tightly, then he raised his eyes timidly and trembled his lips, "You!" Don't come here! ”
Gu Beiyu raised his hand to wipe the blood on his face, and slowly raised his pale face, only to feel the pain of tearing all his internal organs: "Ah Yan, you actually ..... I'm afraid ......."
I'm afraid it's the saddest thing in the world, that is, the beloved woman is afraid of herself. She forgot everything, but she didn't forget her hatred. He would rather she kill him, resent him, and anger him, than she was afraid of him.
Gu Beiyu knelt on the ground, raised his hand to cover his heart, only to feel that the pain there seemed to be suffocation, and gradually he bowed down, hugged his head, and trembled and whimpered. But what can be done, is he didn't recognize her, it was he who killed her relatives with his own hands, it was he who cut her off the cliff....... After all, he has to bear all this himself. It's just that, seeing his beloved woman so defensive against himself, for a moment, he sadly felt that God was cruel and unfair, and this emotion could not be contained, just like a dam bursting to drown himself, and all his internal organs were in pain.
Behind the "Lord ......", Qing Yin couldn't bear to look at this scene anymore, so he turned around and waved away the people who followed.
"Ah Yan, it's good for you to blame me, just hate me, but you forget me, but you are afraid of my eyes......" Gu Beiyu buried his face, his shoulders trembled, and his voice was as sad as the sound of broken jade.
Bai Yanxiao looked at the man in front of him, for some reason, his heart was very sour, he gradually frowned, and involuntarily reached out and stroked his hair.
Gu Beiyu felt the touch, shook suddenly, and raised his head with some joy, but Bai Yanxiao still inadvertently trembled when he saw Gu Beiyu's pupils, and Gu Beiyu's face suddenly darkened.
"My sister once said that a manly husband can't cry." Bai Yan said timidly.
Hearing this, Gu Beiyu actually laughed, and the red in his eyes gradually faded.
"Come back with me." Gu Beiyu looked up and said softly.
Bai Yanxiao hesitated for a moment, and slowly stood up, Gu Beiyu wanted to help, but Bai Yanxiao still instinctively took a step back, making Gu Beiyu's hand fall short, but, there was a sudden pain in his feet, Bai Yanxiao was unstable, and fell backwards, seeing that his head was about to hit the tree behind him, his waist suddenly became weak, and he was pulled by a strong force, Bai Yanxiao didn't have time to react, he was already pulled into an embrace, facing a pair of cool eyes, looking at himself greedily, there was endless pity and pain in those eyes, and a little guilt, gradually, It was like an abyss and a mist of it. Bai Yanxiao seemed to be trapped, and fell into it deeply, and he didn't come back to his senses for a long time, and for a while, he was no longer afraid of the blue eyes, and vaguely felt that he was a little good-looking.
Bai Yanxiao heard that his heart palpitated.
"But you hurt your ankle?" Gu Beiyu helped Bai Yanxiao up, slowly hid the emotion in his eyes, and asked softly.
"Well, it hurts a little." Bai Yanxiao widened the distance between the two slightly, sat on the ground again, and rubbed his ankles hard.
Gu Beiyu stretched out his hand to check, but Bai Yanxiao suddenly withdrew his foot and looked at Gu Beiyu defensively. Gu Beiyu understood, pressed the sourness in his heart, reached out again and grabbed Bai Yanxiao's ankle, and his voice was vaguely stern: "Don't move!" I'll show it for you. ”
Bai Yanxiao was caught by Gu Beiyu's feet, and he didn't dare to be presumptuous anymore, so he took off his shoes and socks, only to see that his ankles were already bruised, and they were vaguely swollen. ”
Gu Beiyu didn't speak, and then, kneeling in front of Bai Yanxiao, holding her heels with one hand and her soles with the other, he slowly rubbed them up, the movements were gentle but just right.
Bai Yanxiao looked down at the man in front of him secretly, only to see that his somewhat thin face was angular, his long eyelashes were thick and black, and his chin was covered with green stubble, and his expression was slightly haggard, but he looked gentle and calm, and even, the stubble was lined with a sense of stability and handsomeness.
"Does it still hurt?" Gu Beiyu asked softly.
"Good...... Much better. Bai Yanxiao's voice was still a little trembling.
"You're so afraid of me?" Gu Beiyu looked up at Bai Yan and smiled, and his hand did not stop.
"You...... You and the ...... in your dreams The man who pierced me through the heart....... They all have the same blue eyes. Bai Yanxiao lowered his head.
Gu Beiyu's hand paused: "Then have you seen clearly, what does that person look like, and what is it called?" ”
Bai Yanxiao shook his head.
Gu Beiyu looked at Bai Yan and smiled and asked, "What do you remember?" ”
Bai Yanxiao thought about it carefully: "I remember that I had a sister, but she disappeared later, where did she go...... I remember Xiao Sheng, he is the regent of Xiao State, I remember Xin Aohan, who is a demon, and Fu An, he seems to have proposed to me...... But where have they gone...... Why don't I remember what they looked like and can't remember what happened next...... My head hurts so much......" Bai Yanxiao's face was a little pale.
"Don't think about it anymore." Gu Beiyu closed his eyes in pain, and forcibly did not let the movements in his hands stop.
She remembered everyone, but she forgot him.
She also remembered the happy things with them, forgetting Mu Wanci's death and Xiao Sheng's death...... Forget all the bad memories, but remember the sword he stabbed her.
Gu Beiyu smiled silently and muttered: "It will be fine in the future, everything can start again, and it will start again." These words are for Bai Yanxiao, but they seem to be for themselves. It's like comfort, but it's like self-deception.
"I'll send you back." Gu Beiyu slowly hugged Bai Yan and smiled.
This time, Bai Yanxiao didn't hide anymore, and obediently let him pick him up.
"In the future, no matter what happens, don't run around anymore." Gu Beiyu admonished.
"You...... Who is it? Bai Yanxiao asked probingly.
Gu Beiyu lowered his head and was silent, the shadow on his face covered his expression, and he spoke after a while: "I am your husband." ”
"Oh, husband, who am I?" Bai Yanxiao blinked.
"You are Ah Yan, my Ah Yan." Gu Beiyu stretched out his hand and held Bai Yanxiao tightly in his arms, like a lost treasure.