Since the death of Yao Zhenqing's mother and wife, the whole person has become more and more depressed, and he has been drunk at home all day long, and has handed over his livelihood of practicing medicine to his eldest son Yao Heng.

Yao Heng's medical skills are not yet proficient, some ordinary minor diseases are relatively reluctant, and he is helpless when he encounters some incurable diseases.

The life that used to be worry-free has become overstretched.

After coming out of the ancestral hall of the Meng family, Yao Tianxi felt a little comforted when he thought that there were at least loving fathers and brothers at home.

Thinking all the way about how to tell my father and brother how his teacher worked hard to cultivate himself after arriving home, and how comfortable the quiet bamboo forest outside Nafu City is comparable to the fairyland, do I want to make a poem to make my father happy, or forget it, then if I do it, my father will most likely be proud of himself, but my brother, who doesn't read much, will probably think that he is showing off......

Yao Tianxi tried her best to put aside her sorrows, calm down, and while walking, she watched the house at home gradually approaching, and her mood finally improved.

When he walked into the house, the corners of his mouth that were about to rise a little lowered again, and he was stunned.

Since Yao Tianxi was born, he has never seen such chaos at home, and the time he has been away for a long time is not long, what happened at home, why is it a mess?

Yao Zhenqing was drinking alone at home, a whole jar of rice wine had bottomed out, and when he saw movement at the door, he raised his eyelids, and when he saw that it was Yao Tianxi, he didn't speak, and continued to drink.

Yao Tianxi hurriedly walked over and snatched the wine bowl from his father's hand, and comforted: "Dad, I'm back, I know that you are sad that grandma and mother are gone, but you can't drink so much wine." ”

Yao Zhenqing said drunkly: "It's a long time to go out, isn't it?" My son taught me a lesson, and I sent you to study, did I want you to reason with me? ”

"But if you go on like this, your body will collapse." Yao Tianxi said with a worried face.

Yao Zhenqing glanced at Yao Tianxi, raised the bowl and drank it all, and said in a low voice: "It's just right to come back, don't go to study from tomorrow, come back to help your brother." ”

Yao Tianxi knew that there would be today, and bowed his head and said, "Dad, although Mr. Meng passed away, I don't want to study medicine either." ”

Yao Zhenqing frowned, staggered to his feet, pointed at Yao Tianxi and said, "What did you say?" ”

Yao Tianxi whispered: "Dad, I don't want to be a ......"

Before the word "Lang Zhong" could be spoken, Yao Zhenqing, who was already drunk, rose with an evil fire, picked up the wine jar on the table and smashed it towards Yao Tianxi.

Yao Tianxi couldn't dodge, the wine jar smashed straight on his arm, Yao Tianxi was staggered, and fell to the ground without standing firmly, and the wine jar also fell to pieces, the fragments cut Yao Tianxi's bare arm, and blood suddenly flowed out.

After the loss of his relatives, the teacher died suddenly, and he thought that at least there was a loving father in the family, but at this time, he was drunk and drunk, and he smashed himself with the wine altar to hurt his father, who used to be kind to him and humble and polite to outsiders.

Ren Yao Tianxi is so talented and resolute that his endless disappointment in life is difficult to suppress, and he sits on the ground aggrieved and tears.

Yao Heng happened to come back, and when he entered the door, he saw Yao Tianxi who was crying bitterly, and hurriedly put down the medicine box, helped his younger brother up, frowned and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Yao Tianxi has been resolute and intelligent since he was a child, rarely crying, this kind of heart-wrenching cry has never even been when his mother died, and the corners of his eyes swept to his drunken father when he thought about it, and his heart was a little clearer, and he didn't know how to comfort his younger brother for a while.

Yao Zhenqing was already drunk, startled by Yao Tianxi's crying, blinked his eyes vigorously, tightened the muscles on his eyebrows before he struggled to open his eyes, and stretched out his head while shaking, only to see his son being smashed to the ground by himself, and scratched by the wine jar, realizing that he had lost his temper, he wiped his face fiercely, and sobered up a little.

Yao Tianxi gradually stopped crying, wiped away his tears and sobbed and said to Yao Heng: "It was I who accidentally tripped and fell, and broke my father's wine jar." After that, his eyes were sour, and he left a few lines of tears.

Yao Heng hurriedly checked Yao Tianxi's injury, helped him bandage it, sighed and said, "Fortunately, I didn't hurt anything important, but my arm was scratched a few times, and the wound was not deep." He immediately comforted: "Tianxi, I have already helped you with medicine, be stronger, it's okay, with my brother here, don't cry." ”

Yao Zhenqing heard in a trance that his son was still defending himself, and he was even more ashamed and blamed himself, opened his mouth and wanted to speak, but he had a headache and weakness, his steps became more and more shaky, and he was no longer able to stand steadily.

Seeing this, Yao Heng hurriedly supported his father and carried his father into the bedroom to lie down.

Yao Tianxi squatted down and picked up the fragments of the wine jar piece by piece, tears dripping down his cheeks and falling to the ground......

After Yao Heng settled his father, he walked up to Yao Tianxi and said softly: "After my mother left, my father started drinking, at first only a little, and then you went out to travel, and the house was even more deserted. My father had no intention of practicing medicine, so he handed it over to me to do, I was not very talented, and I was not good at medicine, but whenever there was a slight mistake in diagnosis and treatment, outsiders would come to complain about my father. After four times, my father became more and more decadent and began to drink heavily, and when he got drunk, he was inevitably delirious, but he was able to fall asleep after a while. ”

Yao Tianxi was sad when he heard this.

The dearest relatives have gone, the teacher has passed away, and his father has become decadent like this, Yao Tianxi only feels that he is confused about the road ahead, and he wants to run wild to vent at this moment, but he doesn't know where to run, he can't help but feel sad, why does God treat me like this?

Recalling the powerlessness of my father and brother when my mother was seriously ill, and thinking of the hard work and ardent expectations of my teacher, I became more and more determined to not practice medicine.

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The next day, Yao Zhenqing, who came to his senses, changed his drunken state yesterday, made a few dishes himself, and said patiently to Yao Tianxi: "Tianxi, you are studying hard in the township, presumably it is no longer a problem to read and hyphenate words, Mr. Meng has passed away, you can read some medical books with me at home, and practice medicine as soon as possible." ”

Yao Tianxi shook his head and said, "Dad, I don't want to study medicine anymore." ”

"Don't want to study medicine? Do you want to go to the fields and farm the land? Yao Zhenqing was puzzled.

"Studying medicine is still poor and shabby, let alone farming?" Yao Tianxi said and put down the dishes and chopsticks, and said yes.

"So what do you want to do? If you don't study medicine and don't farm, what do you eat, can't you go and ask for food" Yao Zhenqing gradually lost his patience, and his tone couldn't help but worsen.

Yao Tianxi explained: "I want to continue to study, if I am fortunate enough to succeed in my studies, I will be a good official for the sake of the people, to benefit the people, if not, I am willing to become a monk, to be a person outside the party, not to be burdened by the rush for a living." ”

"Successful in reading? Dad didn't think about it this way when he was young, but our Yao family has been poor for generations, and we can't even find a decent collection of books at home, so how can you read? Now that you are surrounded by walls, you really can't afford to continue your education. Yao Zhenqing smiled helplessly.

Yao Heng also interjected at this time: "Tianxi, you are not young anymore, you must always learn some skills to make a living in the future, otherwise it will be so difficult to even survive, let alone study everywhere?" ”

Yao Tianxi sat up straight and said to his father and brother: "I have already decided, I will go to Miaozhian to become a monk in a few days." When I can wait for the monks, I will no longer have to suffer from the burden of food and clothing, and I can study with peace of mind. ”

Yao Heng said: "Being a monk can avoid the burden of running around with food and clothing, but your parents worked hard to raise you as an adult, so how did you want to be a monk?" ”

Yao Tianxi immediately said: "When I succeed in my studies, I will be able to shine in the court, not to mention that I am not old enough now, and I am not allowed to be ordained as a monk directly, and when I go to the temple, I will be a novice first." At least during the time I was a novice, I could have a better study environment, and I didn't have to worry about eating, and I didn't have to be a burden to you. If I had succeeded in my studies as soon as possible, I might not have been able to wait to become a monk, and I would have become a well-known talent like Gao Qi and Yang Ji, and I would have traveled the world with them. ”

"Our Yao family came to Jiangnan to flee, and it is difficult to master the skills of farming, boating and fishing, etc., so we have no land, let alone industry, and even our houses have been rented so far." Yao Zhenqing sighed again and continued: "But no matter how difficult our family is, at least it is slightly stronger than the farmers who borrow land to cultivate, and if you learn a little medical skills with me, you will not starve to death." In the future, I will marry a wife, have children, and start a family, and I will be worthy of your mother's spirit in heaven. If you become a monk and don't say that you have cut off relations with us, you don't even have any descendants, and you will be lonely and alone all your life. Have you thought about any of this? ”

Yao Tianxi said: "Daddy, brother, I originally wanted to spend my life in peace as you said. But I don't want my family to be as poor as they are now, I want my relatives to live in their own house without being urged to ask for rent every year. In the unlikely event that my loved ones get sick in the future, I want to ask them to be treated by the best Langzhong instead of being helpless. I want to be respected, not to be called around and on the go. I even want to see the name of our Yao family in the annals of history, instead of doing nothing and annihilating in the dust of history! ”

Yao Heng was secretly surprised by his younger brother's words, it turned out that his younger brother had such great ambitions, but then he thought of the bleakness and cruelty of reality, and he didn't know what to say to persuade his younger brother under the contradiction.

Yao Zhenqing said: "Dad knows that you have ambition since you were a child, but you can ......"

Yao Zhenqing didn't finish speaking, Yao Tianxi interrupted: "Dad, don't persuade me anymore, I've already decided." I must continue to read the book, and I don't want to burden you and my brother, so I will go to the temple in a few days. ”

Yao Zhenqing saw that his son had made up his mind, and knew that no matter how much he persuaded him, he sighed, recalling the daily warm picture of the family when his wife was alive, and couldn't help but feel sad!

Although he is arguing on the basis of reason, and his words are eloquent, Yao Tianxi is also really worried in his heart, and he can't be sure whether his thoughts are right or wrong, can his ambition really come true? …… The road ahead is unknowable!