Chapter 92: Confide

As the sun sets and the clouds change, the majestic Beirut estate is covered in snow and ice, reflecting the splendor of the sunset. Fang Yan, who was dressed in civilian clothes, sat on the car that drove to the back door of the manor, and there was a gloomy expression in his eyes: he didn't expect Lina to summon himself through a letter so rashly, and the time to ask for a meeting turned out to be this evening. You must know that these few days are by no means his vacation, Fang Yan, who has just returned from vacation, obviously needs to work continuously for a long time to make up for this shortfall!

"This woman is really well-informed, it seems that there are really her eyes and ears in the navy." Thinking that he had just come back and was found by Lina only half a day later, Fang Yan couldn't help but feel awe-inspiring in his heart while being annoyed. Pushing the door into the room, passing through the hall and corridor, a slender and slender familiar shadow appeared in front of Fang Yan with a strong fragrant breeze; It's just that it's a little different from Fang Yan's impression that at this moment, Linna's face is full of anger, and the light in her blue eyes is sharp, obviously in a bad mood. She stared at Fang Yan hatefully for a moment, and suddenly stretched out her jade hand and slapped it on his face, that kind of force that seemed to be heavy and not heavy, as if it was a punitive slap to vent the resentment in Fang Yan's heart.

"Tell me, in the past month, you have sown a hundred or dozens of seeds on your innocent and delicate little wife?" Lina spoke coldly, with undisguised hatred and bitterness in her voice, "Others may not be able to see it, but you will never be able to fool me." Your complexion and spirit are obviously much worse than before, and this can only be the result of many interactions every day for a long time! The honeymoon must have been a lot of fun, you should have explored every inch of your little wife's skin and forgotten me in the garbage heap! ”

Seeing the sad and mournful look flashing in Linna's eyes, the anger that had been surging in Fang Yan's heart suddenly disappeared like a long whale sucking water. Although she used her sensitive photos as a threat to force herself to come to the estate to meet her repeatedly, she did not force herself to do anything excessive during the year. Thinking of the old photos he saw in Linna's boudoir last time, Fang Yan was even more reluctant to fight back at Linna's words. After being silent for a long time, Fang Yan slowly spoke, "Lady Linna, can you tell me your true intentions?" What kind of role do you want me to play, a substitute for your former husband, or do you want to seek psychological comfort when you are tired and tired? ”

Linna's face changed suddenly, and she didn't expect Fang Yan to show the cards in her hand directly to her. Facing Fang Yan's deep and serious eyes and solemn expression, Linna's frivolous excuse that had reached her lips swallowed again. She was silent for a moment, then whispered, "That's right." I'm going to tell you about this sooner or later. Since you've already asked, I'll explain it to you now. ”

"Do you remember when we first met here? To this day I am deeply grateful to God for sending you to me, because you are so similar to my husband, Phoenix, who tragically died in the war. If it weren't for the fact that you were a decade younger than him, I would have thought that he had been resurrected and returned from heaven to be with me. Lina's lips opened lightly, and there was a hint of vicissitudes and memories in her voice; On that delicate and pretty white jade, there is no longer the charm that turns all beings upside down on weekdays.

Lina's starry eyes are misty, as if she is reminiscing about the scenes of the past: "Since Phoenix left me, I have never given up for a moment to miss and remember him. Those black and white photographs of light and shadow became my spiritual heritage throughout 1918. After the war, I began to look for men who looked like him, hoping to find a shadow of Phoenix in these people; Some of them looked like him, some looked like him, some looked like him, but none of them could make me feel the breath that belonged to my former husband. Speaking of this, the corners of Linna's mouth showed a little self-deprecation and bitterness, and said: "My bad reputation for being prodigal and coquettish came out at that time. In fact, even though I used to have intimate relationships with those people, I never really had anything to do with them; They are nothing more than chrysanthemums in my garden – I will stop to admire the beauty of the flowers, but I will never stop by them forever. ”

"So I'm just a substitute for your former husband that you used to remember you, just a little bit special?" Fang Yan said in a calm tone. He was not surprised by this situation, as early as half a year ago, he had already found some clues from those old photos of Lina.

However, to Fang Yan's surprise, Linna shook her head slightly. She looked at Fang Yan's gaze with a soft and gentle expression, and said softly, "When I first met you, I did think of you as another existence of Phoenix in this world. I was so excited that I was about to cry, so I didn't think about your mood or the consequences of doing so, but just threw the medicine into your wine. In the years since, I've always seen you as a gorgeous chrysanthemum in the garden that deserves to be stopped and admired. However, when I saw you again last year, I suddenly realized that you already have a unique rhythm that is different from Phoenix; And it turned out to be the same attraction to me, who had already closed my heart, and made me turn into a bee butterfly that wanted to fly above the flowers. ”

Lina pursed her lips and smiled, but there was a bit of bitterness in her smile, and said softly: "From that moment on, I changed my mind. I don't want to see you simply as a substitute for Phoenix, but just as the ideal companion for your physiological needs. I want to get your whole person, as well as your heart. However, you chose the Milanese girl after all. Maybe she, who is pure and immaculate, is really worthy of your existence. ”

Fang Yan stared at the delicate young woman in front of him in a daze, and his heart was filled with mixed feelings as if he had been knocked over a five-flavor bottle. He finally understood why Lena was so eager to get her body a few years ago, and understood the whole reason why she had gone to such great lengths to find him last year, but had always given her a gentle experience in the subsequent relationship. If she didn't want to really get herself, then she wouldn't have to be so vain to herself when she held the key handle, but directly let herself dedicate herself against her will. Thinking of this, Fang Yan's last trace of bad feelings towards Linna also disappeared, the woman in front of him was certainly a coquettish and debauched corrupt heretic in the eyes of outsiders, but how could she not be one of the countless poor people affected by the collapse of the old Empire State Building, which led to a series of transmutations?

"Thank you, Lady Lina." Fang Yan spoke in a low voice, and his eyes filled with sincere friendship when he looked at Linna. Lina smiled, the smile outlined by her bright red lips was extraordinarily bright and pure. There was a look of hesitation and anticipation on her face, and finally she said, "Jonas, can you still come to my manor in the future?" I beg of you, don't let me go back to the lonely and cold world where I was once alone, and spend the rest of my time guarding the eternal black and white light, then I will surely go crazy. ”

Facing Linna's expectant and pitiful blue eyes, Fang Yan's chest seemed to be blocked by something. Although reason told him that he must not have anything to do with this mature and charming young woman after he had already married Sylvia, the emotion surging in Fang Yan's heart made him not be ruthless to abandon this shepherd dog who was extremely attached to him. Anyway, he already had a physical relationship with Linna, and it would not be a matter if he had any contact in the future, not to mention that he was far away from Sylvia, and Kiel would also feel lonely.

"If I have some free time, I'll come here to see you." In the end, Fang Yan's rationality was defeated in the decision for the first time, and his emotions dominated his actions. Linna's delicate smile bloomed like a spring flower, and her bright starry eyes were filled with a little mist; She gently hugged Fang Yan into her arms, and her trembling fragrant and soft body completely showed Fang Yan her excited and joyful heart. Fang Yan's shoulders moved, but he didn't choose to push Linna away from him. Lina closed her clear and watery eyes with a smile on her face, and took a deep breath of the pine breath on Fang Yan's body; After a moment, he whispered like a dream, "I love you, Jonas." ”

Shortly after the lights came on, Fang Yan left the snow-covered manor with Linna's smile on her face. Since tomorrow was not a holiday, Fang Yan must not stay longer or even overnight at Linna's place, otherwise it would inevitably cause unbearable consequences and waves. However, Fang Yan's heart did not feel happy and optimistic, on the contrary, it was full of heaviness and worries about the future; His showdown and promise to Lina this evening is undoubtedly to plant a time bomb under his feet that will explode at any time, and the power of this bomb will become more and more powerful as time goes by. But now the situation is that the wood is already in the boat, and Fang Yan can only hope that it will sleep quietly in the ground like this, or wait until he has done everything he needs to do before breaking out.

"Forget about this annoyance. The economic crisis is coming soon, and the economic and political landscape of Germany and the whole world will usher in a complete restructuring and reshuffle, and I should make some preparations for this. Fang Yan muttered to himself in his heart. The appearance of the Austrian corporal had quietly appeared in his mind.