Yu Qiu fell heavily to the ground.

fell to the ground together, as well as the heart that refused to admit defeat. That heart used to have an obsession that as long as he worked hard, he could be as good as everyone else.

Now it's broken.

Yu Qiuyan slowly opened his eyes, and all he saw was the ceiling painted with patterns. He was lying on the ground at the moment, the empty sleeve of his right hand pressed under him.

A round... I didn't even make it to a round.

The opponent is still such a child.

Yu Qiuyan couldn't believe it, what happened just now? He didn't dare to face what had just happened.

I'm embarrassed, I'm embarrassed to Yuqiu's family, and I'm going to lose Yuqiu's face in front of so many people.

I'm just a piece of shit. Nothing.

·

The ridicule, sarcasm, and invective in the dojo were so chaotic and noisy, but he could hear them all clearly.

"Wow! I didn't hold it for a single round! What a recipe this cripple must have! ”

"Cut! After waiting for so long, I specially found the youngest child as an opponent, and it was not solved in one round? If you knew this, it would be better to find a master to fight against you, and it wouldn't be so embarrassing if you lost! ”

"Huh? Did anyone go up just now, I just rubbed my eyes, why is it over? ”

"I really don't know what His Royal Highness Momiji thinks, he would choose such a cripple as the young master! He and his brother were simply born an underground! ”

"That's it, the second son of Yuqiu behaved so well, look at him again? Born crippled, not at all fit to be a samurai! ”

"If I were a rainy autumn red leaf, I would definitely make the second son the next governor! Only a fool will set him up! ”

"I heard that he used to practice in the dojo all day before, why is he still so weak!"

"Born with a hand missing, what's the use of trying? Waste is waste. In the future, he will have no face. ”

I don't have a face to see people.

One sentence full of malicious words, like sharp arrows, shot Yu Qiu's heart full of holes. Humiliation, shame, self-blame, anger, unwillingness, all kinds of emotions are scurrying in Yuqiu's heart. His mind was a mess, and he stood up like a walking corpse, and walked straight towards the exit of the dojo with a dull gaze, not daring to look at the crowd and his father again, and not daring to hear another word.

Seeing his brother's strange appearance, Yu Qiuyou hurriedly got up from his seat, ran towards him, and grabbed his arm. However, Yu Qiuyan, who has always been gentle since he was a child, became angry with his younger brother for the first time. He shook off his brother's hand and walked out into the snow without looking back.

Seeing this, Naoe Narumu, who was sitting in the same place, also hurriedly left his seat and ran out. And Yu Qiuping and Imagawa Kaede in the stands had already walked down the stairs to the first floor for the first time after seeing Yu Qiu's defeat, and hurried towards the door.

"Brother Yan'er, wait a minute!" Naoe Narumu, who arrived first, pulled Yu Qiuyan's sleeve, "It's too cold outside, my brother will freeze if he only wears a single coat!" ”

Yu Qiuyan was about to get angry again, but he saw Naoe Narumu's frightened and worried expression, and the small padded jacket he was holding in his hand. The anger in his heart was gradually suppressed, and he took a few deep breaths, took the padded jacket from Naoe Narumu's hand, and put it on his body.

And at this moment, Yu Qiuping, Imagawa Kaede, and Yu Qiuyu also rushed over.

"Brother, brother! What happened to you! Yu Qiuyou was murdered by Yu Qiu just now, and he was a little scared for a while, and comforted at a loss: "Victory or defeat is a common thing in soldiers, and my brother doesn't have to..."

"Shut up!" When Yu Qiuyu saw Yu Qiuyou coming, the anger that had been suppressed in his heart suddenly rose, and he shouted loudly.

"Yan'er, you can't talk to your brother like this!" Imagawa Kaede saw Yu Qiuyu scolding Yu Qiuyou so rudely, his brows furrowed, and he was about to scold. However, Yu Qiuyan, who has always been obedient, did not have the appearance of a good child in the past, and scolded his younger brother in the open snow like a cannon: "It's all your fault!" It's all you! If it weren't for you, how could I be scolded so badly? Everyone, mom and dad, the elders of the family, and everyone else outside, compare me to you! They all think I'm useless, I'm a waste, and they all think you're better! ”

"But why! What the hell! Yu Qiuyan scolded loudly unwillingly: "Since you were a child, you have always been so playful, practice for a while and then go to play!" I know you're talented, you only need to learn one hour when someone else learns for two hours! Yes, okay, I admit it! Then I'll study for three hours, I'll put in your many times the effort, I don't think I'll be worse than you! But the result? I can't even look down on your tail? Why? Why? ”

Yu Qiuyou had never seen it, and he had never even imagined that his brother would be so angry, and he would have such a deep grudge against himself, and he was so frightened that he couldn't speak for a while.

"Why? Hehe..."Yu Qiuyan asked why many times in a row, but he laughed angrily, grabbed his empty right sleeve viciously with his left hand, and said loudly: "Because I was born without a right hand!" Because I'm born a piece of shit! Why is the person with one less hand being me and not you! Why is this? ”

"Mom, why the hell are you turning me into waste? Why, exactly? Yu Qiuyan then turned to Imagawa Kaede and continued to roar in confusion, tears streaming down Yu Qiuyan's cheeks. Why was I born without a right hand? And why do you want to make a cripple like me a young master? Where am I like my brother? If I wasn't the young master and the heir, I wouldn't have to be compared to my brother! ”

Imagawa Kaede couldn't say a word under Yu Qiu's questioning, tears burst out of his eyes, and he hid his face and wept. Yu Qiuyan cried and shook his head, ripped off the red leaf pendant around his neck, and threw it heavily into the snowdrift.

"It's useless, it's useless, my life has been a failure from the beginning. No matter how much effort I put in, it is impossible for me to write, read, practice swords, and sumo wrestling like a normal person. No matter how much effort you put in, you can't become a qualified samurai and let your parents down. ”

Yu Qiuyan shouted and shouted, his voice was already hoarse, and he couldn't move, but kept crying.

"It's over, it's over." He tilted his head, looked at the snowy sky and the endless night sky, and sighed helplessly. At a young age, his voice was as cold as ice, and he said tremblingly: "My life... It's all over... From the moment of birth, it is already predestined. I was born without a right hand, I was born worse than others, I was born inferior to others. It's not fair. Why? ”

A family of four, just like this, stood in the snow, watching the snowflakes fly in the moonlight, and finally return to the earth, silent. In the quiet night sky, you can faintly hear the shouts of good cheer from the dojo not far away, and the sobbing sound of Yuqiu and Kaede Imagawa.

After a long time, Yu Qiuping bent down, picked up the pendant that Yu Qiuping had thrown into the snowdrift, and opened his mouth to break the silence.

"Yan'er, I'll go with you. Feng'er, you take You'er back. ”

·

Yu Qiuping and Yu Qiuping walked side by side on the street, towards a high mountain outside the city. Yu Qiuping did not hold Yu Qiuping's hand as usual, but held his shoulders like an adult.

The night was getting deeper, and Yu Qiuyan silently followed Yu Qiuping. He didn't know where his father was going to take him, and he didn't know why Yu Qiuping didn't say a word. But as he walked slowly with his father, he felt that his restless heart was slowly calming down, and his resentment was gradually subsided.

I don't know how long I walked, but anyway, the woods in the high mountains are getting denser and denser. On the mountain road, which is covered with thick snow, there are two rows of footprints, one large and one small.

Just as Yu Qiuping was slowly moving forward with one foot deep and one foot shallow, Yu Qiuping suddenly spoke, breaking the silence.

"It doesn't feel fair, does it, Mourner?" He asked in a low voice.

Yu Qiuyan was stunned when she heard this, and did not speak, but nodded silently. Yu Qiuping, who was walking beside him, didn't look back, but he seemed to have understood his answer.

"Don't you feel that your life is particularly unfair? Born with one less hand than others, no matter how hard you try, you still can't compare to others? My own life is never as good as others. Yu Qiuping spoke softly again.

This time, Yu Qiuyan also replied softly, "Hmm".

"Do you think that if you can have a right hand, maybe your life will be completely different, you don't have to work so hard, and you can have a life that is not inferior to others."

"That's right." Yu Qiuyan nodded vigorously, "So I think it's so unfair." Why is my life destined to be no better than others from the beginning! ”

"You're wrong." Yu Qiuyan heard it, and his father's gentle voice sounded, "There is no good or bad in life, and there is no comparison, never." ”

"What does my father mean by that?" Yu Qiuyan was stunned when she heard this, and asked puzzledly: "But I don't have a right hand, no matter how hard I try, I can't compare to others in all aspects, isn't my life inferior to others?" ”

"Nope. Because your life is yours, your unique journey. Everyone's life is different and they are all only once, so they can't be compared. ”

Father turned his back to him, facing the starry sky and the heavy snow, and whispered.

·

"When you are learning to write, the teacher will tell you which character is good and which is not, and will make you compare. When you are practicing martial arts, the teacher will tell you which posture is good and which posture is not, and will make you compare. ”

Yu Qiuping turned his head and laughed softly: "The reason why you want to compare is because you still have another chance." So use the comparison to distinguish the good from the bad, so that you can make a better choice next time. ”

Yu Qiuyan nodded as if he didn't understand, but didn't respond.

"But life is different." Yu Qiuping turned his head back again, looking at the endless and distant starry sky, "Everyone's life is only once, and it is made up of countless life events. There may be good and bad between each event, but when they are combined as a whole, they are a unique life. Life can't be repeated, so there is no comparison at all. Even if you compare and know that having a right hand is better than not having one, you won't have a chance to start over with your life. ”

"But they did do have a better life than I did. They don't work as hard as me, but they are better than me! Yu Qiuyan didn't seem to agree with his father's theory, and retorted in a low voice.