232. To miss is to live

The night is deep, and the world is like falling into darkness. The west courtyard is very quiet, there is no insect chirping, no frog sound. Is it windy? There were no trees, not even the rustle of leaves in the wind. There is no moon in the sky, and there is not a trace of cold light. Through the open window, only the faint light of the candle in the distance can be seen.

Mother won't let the window close.

Nangong Jin leaned on the edge of the bed and sat on the ground, holding a yellowed letter in one hand and a box with the other, and there was no light in the room.

Yingying, what a stupid girl, she actually misses those days in Yunmeng Mountain. How so? Those days were precarious, insisting on not dying every day, and only doing one thing every day, that is, to protect her.

Nangong Jin closed her eyes, but she couldn't sleep at all. If she falls asleep, will she come to her dreams? Will it come? Yunmengshan, she will go there.

When I opened my eyes, it was still night. Nangong Jin couldn't see the words on the letter, so she could only hold the letter carefully. Seems to hear a warbler crying? No, she said she stopped crying when she got home, she stopped crying. Who is it? Who's crying? Is it ......, is it yourself? Why can't you stop? Why did killing everyone not get back a trace of ease?

Yingying, how could I forget you? How could I forget you for more than ten years?!

Nangong Jin reached out and gently touched a small bag hanging around his neck. Red, warblers like it. Now, I won't forget, I will never forget. But what do you have to do to come back!

'Wang Qin, I like you. I dreamed of you again last night, and you said you would marry me. It's so fun! ’

The first time I wrote this sentence was thirteen years ago, not long after the warbler returned home. What a little girl who doesn't understand anything. But you haven't changed for thirteen years, thirteen years.

Oriole, I'm sorry! I don't know.

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The first thing in the morning is to go to the West Courtyard, which is the habit that Nangong Jin has cultivated since he came back. Don't do this habit.

"How?" As soon as Nangong Dingkang entered the West Courtyard, he asked Mother Fu who was waiting on the side.

Fu's mother replied worriedly: "The young master still didn't sleep last night. ”

"Dr. Wang's medicine?" Nangong Dingkang asked. Nangong Jin was brought back by Nangong Pu a few days earlier, and when he came back, he was already in good spirits. Doctor Wang didn't have a good way, so he only prescribed some soothing medicine, but after drinking it for a few days, it didn't seem to have much effect.

Mother Fu nodded, "Whatever the young master gives, you can eat." But that tranquilizer only made the young master close his eyes. Master," Fu's mother asked worriedly, "If the young master wants to do this, will it hurt his mind more to drink this medicine?" Do you want Dr. Wang to take a look again? ”

Nangong Dingkang looked at Mother Fu and sighed softly. Fu's mother is not young, these days, she is getting older faster, her face is haggard, and half of her hair is white. Zhou Tang too, since Nangong Jin came back, Nangong Dingkang forced them to divide the work. However, yesterday Zhou Tang was still tired and sick, and he had a fever all night.

So he said to Fu's mother: "You are also tired, go and rest first." ”

Mother Fu shook her head, "Young master is like this, it's really ......, I cried all night last night." ”

Nangong Dingkang sighed and said helplessly: "Send someone to invite Dr. Wang, I'll go first to have a look." ”

In the room, Nangong Jin was still in that posture. It seems that since he came back, he has not moved. Only, now look down at the letter.

Nangong Dingkang already knew that this box contained letters, and there were almost hundreds of them. Zhou Tang tried to get him to put down the box, but he didn't succeed.

Every day, he was reading the letters, very slowly, word by word. The whole person is immersed in his own world, and that world has only lingering sadness.

Nangong Dingkang sat in the room for a while, and finally ruthlessly, walked up to him and squatted down to look at him, and said in a slightly sad tone: "Ah Jin, your mother is very sick. Today, she can't come to accompany you. ”

Nangong Jin didn't seem to hear it at all, and only the letter in his hand was in his eyes. Nangong Dingkang waited for a while, sighed slightly, and was a little disappointed with his performance. He stood up and sat back in the chair he had just put in before.

Nangong Jin took the letter and moved it, raised his head and looked at Nangong Dingkang blankly, and slowly the confusion on his face was replaced by more and more intense horror, put down the letter in his hand, stood up violently, and staggered to the door.

"Ah Jin." Nangong Dingkang grabbed him, "What are you doing?" ”

"Mother, mother......." Nangong Jin kept muttering, frightened and even more sad. "Mother, don't come, don't come, don't come again......." Throwing off Nangong Dingkang, he tripped over something, stumbled against the door frame, turned around and ran out.

"Ah Jin! Your mother is fine. Nangong Dingkang followed closely, and when he was about to reach the gate of the courtyard, he grabbed him stiffly, "Ah Jin, your mother is fine!" She's fine, so she won't come today, Ah Jin, did you hear that? ”

"No, no......." Nangong Jin's expression became more and more painful.

Nangong Dingkang regretted it, "Ah Jin, your mother is really fine, really, Dad won't lie to you!" ”

"I'm going to see her! I was wrong, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... I'll go see her ....... Nangong Jin was about to cry.

Seeing that his breath was becoming more and more disordered, Nangong Dingkang became anxious, "Ah Jin, you calm down." It's okay, nothing, your mother is fine, I'll come over in a while. It's okay, calm, calm ....... ”

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry ......." Nangong Jin had tears in his eyes, covering his chest with one hand, out of breath, and desperately trying to break free from Nangong Dingkang's hard hand.

Nangong Dingkang turned his head and said to Fu's mother, who was in a hurry, "Is Dr. Wang here?" ”

"I've asked for it, but I haven't arrived yet." Fu's mother was also anxious, looking at Nangong Jin's half-crazy appearance, and cried with heartache.

"Ah Jin, calm down. Your mother is here, go back to the room first. Nangong Dingkang said as he half-hugged him, wanting to pull him back to the room.

Nangong Jin didn't seem to hear what he was saying at all, his expression was grief, and he struggled in extreme pain, and suddenly roared into the sky, spurted out a mouthful of blood, and collapsed in Nangong Dingkang's arms.

"Ah Jin!" "Young Master!"

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Nangong Jin was in a coma for a day. Dr. Wang said that he was angry and had an old injury. I prescribed medicine and repeatedly told me that this disease needs to be recuperated, not to be tired, not to be excited, not to drink, and not to be so depressed. Although this time it is not very serious, if you don't listen to the doctor's advice, it will be difficult to say next time.

Zhou Tang didn't want to leave for a single step, just guarded quietly. Nangong Dingkang didn't dare to explain the situation to her, if he knew that he had stimulated Ah Jin again, he would be angry.

A box of letters was scattered all over the place, and Nangong Dingkang helped put it away and put it back in the box. Of course, I smoked and read a few copies. It's full of a little girl who has had a crush on her son for more than ten years. Wang Qin? Yunmeng Mountain? Alas, all this is over, one way or another.

Ah Jin is too affectionate, Li Mo said that he is too ...... Yao Fangyu, but people still don't appreciate it. This Xiao Ying, Ah Jin obviously didn't like it, and she would do the same for her. Alas, if you don't change your character, I'm afraid it will be difficult to live a long life.

Nangong Dingkang was afraid that he would wake up and not see the box, so he was excited again, so he simply put the box next to his pillow. casually took a big coat from the hanger, draped it for Zhou Tang, sat beside her, and gently held her to lean on herself.

"Ah Jin's?" Zhou Tang pulled his clothes and whispered, "I haven't seen him wear it." ”

"He's not very particular. I finally went out and was still fully dressed. Nangong Dingkang smiled and said lightly: "It's okay." Dr. Wang has seen it, and it will be fine soon after drinking the medicine and resting well. ”

Zhou Tang nodded, "I know." I just don't know what to do when he wakes up. ”

"Go to the outhouse and lie down for a while? He wouldn't wake up so quickly, so Dr. Wang added tranquilizers just so that he could get a good night's sleep. You've been with you for a day, and you're still burning. Nangong Dingkang persuaded.

"Akang, shall we take him out for a walk?" Zhou Tang turned his head to look at Nangong Dingkang's proposal.

Nangong Dingkang nodded, "Okay." However, he is so old, I'm afraid he doesn't want us to bring it. ”

Zhou Tang thought for a while and asked, "Did Li Mo go to find Miss Yao?" ”

Nangong Dingkang smiled helplessly. Seeing his expression, Zhou Tang said with some dissatisfaction: "Even if Ah Jin has always been willing to her, our family has decided on her after all." Li Mo said that Ah Jin was afraid that she would be wronged so she took her out of the South China Sea, even if she didn't thank Ah Jin, even if Ah Jin did something, at this time, she shouldn't have just left. ”

Nangong Dingkang sighed slightly, "I think about them, it's better to forget it." I'm afraid she'll hurt Ah Jin. ”

Zhou Tang nodded, "Okay, then retreat." ”

Nangong Jin lay motionless, but breathing evenly, as if she was asleep. Zhou Tang said heartbrokenly: "Ah Jin is very tired. ”

Nangong Dingkang patted Zhou Tang, "It'll be fine." Go get some sleep, I'll watch. ”

"Dingkang, I can't let him read those letters anymore. If Xiao Ying hadn't died, he would have married, and it would have been okay to marry him back. But this is clearly ....... Zhou Tang wanted to hide the box at the head of the bed.

"Now, alas, ......, anyway, he did ...... thing." Nangong Dingkang paused for a long time, and finally nodded and said, "It's okay." Ah Pu will deal with this matter, and this time Li Mo and Jingzhou Tang will also deal with it in a timely manner, and Ah Jin will not be found. However, Xiaotang, this matter still has to be ...... at home, especially for Ah Jin, behind closed doors, it is still necessary to let him know that this is not allowed at home. ”

Zhou Tang thought for a while and nodded, "I understand, you are the head of the family, and Ah Jin did it this time." However, Dingkang, it's good to relax and get something for him to do, in short, you can't let him always hold the box and read the letter. I also have to give him a long entourage to serve, Fu's mother is old, and it is really hard. ”

"I also thought about it, alas, Jingzhou and Quanzhou are not suitable, I am afraid that he will think crankily and do something. The four halls on the north side are still empty, and when he is better, let him go to the north. He knew Tatar and knew a lot about Tatar, and it was better to break off these things and these people now. Long-term, I'll pick one of the Qingfeng Hall secret guards for him. Nangong Dingkang said his thoughts.

"No, no, no." Zhou Tang shook his head, "It's not good to be too capable." You see Ah Jin to Dr. Du and Li Mo, I'll find one for him. ”