The new company is mainly composed of military personnel who have been demobilized en masse, and their families are all transferred skilled workers. There were a few children in front of them who were playing with firecrackers on the side of the road. One of the children fell and cried, wah, wow, and cried. Xiaoyu went over to help him up, the little boy stared at the two big eyes, his little face was red from the cold, and his little hands were too cold to hold the gunfight. The cuteness of the little guy's tiger head, especially the eyes, are shiny and fluttering like two small lights. She wiped the boy's snot and warmed him by shaking his frozen little hand. The little boy laughed and called softly: "Auntie! ”

Xiaoyu is auspicious about this child, and she thinks this child is very cute. "Huzi!" A woman on the slope in the distance shouted in a northeastern accent: "Don't go home yet, freeze to death you little rabbit!" ”

The child promised to break out of Xiaoyu's arms, turned around and ran a few steps before turning back and kissing her on the face: "Auntie, goodbye!" ”

Huzi ran to the woman, the woman took Huzi's hand, smiled at Xiaoyu and said hello, scolded and dragged Huzi away. Xiaoyu looked at the backs of the two of them stupidly, and said to herself: "How good it would be for me to have such a son!"

If he didn't join the army and enter the DPRK, she wouldn't join the army, she wouldn't have been demobilized, she wouldn't have gone to the rehabilitation home, and she wouldn't have come to the icy Xinjiang. They may be married, they may have respectable careers, or they may have a lovely son like Huzi. Every day when she goes to and from work and enjoys the peace of the country, her husband is tall and handsome, and her son is cute and lively, which is the greatest happiness of every woman. She wanted to accept that he had been sacrificed, because the volunteers had returned to China, and they should be exchanged even if they were captured, but there was no news of him. She hopes that he can return to her, even if he is injured and disabled, as long as she can see this person every day, her heart will be steady. Even if there is news from the Civil Affairs Bureau, she has indeed sacrificed, so she has no choice but to accept it, and she doesn't care about being empty.

Since coming to Xinjiang with the eldest sister, the eldest sister is a regiment-level cadre who has been transferred to another job, is a respected old Red Army, has many friends in the army and localities, and has been helping her inquire through letters. When she was in the rehabilitation home, she intended to play with Chen Guzi, and felt that playing together could forget her troubles; But when she knew that he was in love with her, her first reaction was to reject him, because there was no room in her heart.

Now I meet Li Dashan again, he looks like Liang Guocheng, and he is an admirable combat hero. He is lying on the hospital bed sickly, and he also has the heroic spirit of a soldier who cannot be overwhelmed, and he has the ambition of a worker. She loves to be with him and his co-workers, and she feels free and safe! But it's too difficult to really empathize and fall in love with someone else. Because Liang Guocheng is her first love, he has taken root in her heart, and her love for him has penetrated into her bone marrow. Although the volunteers have returned to China, their hearts are slowly changing, and they accept that they will never see him, but if they accept a relationship again, it is difficult for this person to take root in her heart like Liang Guocheng. But now I want to see him again, and I am worried that he has drunk alcohol and affected his injury. Everyone has his two sides, and Xiao Yu inadvertently exposes both sides. She felt that she couldn't accept Li Dashan's feelings, (in fact, Li Dashan didn't show his love for her) and was worried that he would hurt himself by drinking.

She stood in front of the window of Li Dashan's dormitory and saw the figure shaking inside. Lifting the thick curtain of pampas straw, he stopped hesitantly. On the night of the thirtieth night of the Chinese New Year's Eve, braving the snow of minus 40 degrees, it would not be annoying to come to his dormitory. After all, she only had a doctor-patient relationship with him, and it was only during his hospitalization that she got used to it. She regards him as her best friend, the kind of person who hides in her heart, a person who is willing to take care of her, but she feels that Li Dashan may not know her heart. Tonight was the end of a busy year, and he and his brothers had a party, and they drank together in big bowls, talked freely about women, and finally got drunk and messed up. She suddenly came in, it was a woman, a doctor, and a director, and they were bound to be restrained. Besides, in what name did she go in? She looked at the medicine box in her hand, and she felt quite ridiculous, Chinese New Year's Eve went to the patient's home to serve, and no one said it.! Besides, if you care about a patient so much, people don't know whether you appreciate it or not.

She was hesitating, and she probably heard movement inside. Li Dashan's voice asked, "Who's outside?" Come in quickly, freeze you bastard! ”

A worker ran over and opened the door and was stunned for a moment: "Doctor! ”

The smell of cigarettes and tobacco rushed to her throat, and she covered her mouth and coughed dryly. I don't know how much smoke they smoked, but above the lanterns were full of smoke, like the Cloud Hall in Journey to the West.

Platoon Commander Li was also a little surprised when he saw Xiaoyu, and suddenly seemed to understand something. In the hospital, Xiaoyu's care for Li Dashan made him feel beyond common sense. Today's heavy snow day was another Chinese New Year's Eve suddenly visited, and he felt that Xiaoyu was special to Li Taishan, and he was happy for their company commander. Turning around, he made a fool of Li Dashan and said, "The director is here." Quick, please come in! ”

There were more than a dozen people around the room, and there was almost no room for people in the small room. A smell of stinky feet, another smell of oil from work clothes, mixed with the smell of food and wine. Platoon Commander Li asked everyone to squeeze in, let Xiaoyu sit down next to Li Dashan, found a pair of chopsticks that no one had used, wiped them with his sleeves and handed them to her. "Don't dislike it. ”

The dishes were brought back from the canteen, and their dinner was nearing the end, and the bowls and bowls of dishes were leftovers. Xiaoyu thought that if she wanted to play with them in the future, she would have to blend in with them, so she picked up the chopsticks and put the food in her mouth. Platoon Commander Li took a bowl and poured wine: "Take a sip and go to get rid of the cold on your body." ”

Xiaoyu was really hungry at this time, shook her head and said, "I've never drunk alcohol." ”

Platoon Commander Li pushed the wine bowl to her and said, "Take a sip and taste it." ”

Xiaoyu turned his head and asked Li Dashan: "What does the wine taste like?" ”

Li Dashan told Xiaoyu: "Wine is a good thing, but it is a little spicy." ”

Xiaoyu has never drunk alcohol when he grows so big, and he believes in Li Dashan, so he takes a small sip as if he is drinking water. Immediately choked on his throat and coughed loudly, coughing up tears all the time. It was easy to cough up, and the room burst into laughter, as if the roof was going to be torn off. Xiaoyu saw that the room full of people laughed at her alone, not only did she not feel shy, but stubbornly picked up the bowl and took another sip, this time coughing a few times. Li Dashan got out of bed, beat her back, and reached out to snatch the wine bowl. Xiaoyu turned around and avoided his hand and took another sip, feeling a little dizzy and dizzy, and the electric lights became a circle. She snatched the wine bowl and took another sip, muttering, "Wine is a good thing, it's just a little spicy." ”

The eldest sister was worried about Xiaoyu, and the entertainment was not over, so she got off the stage to find Xiaoyu. In such a time of joy for the New Year, the more lonely people who have been hurt in their hearts feel. She walked around the auditorium twice, trying to find Xiaoyu and go home to sleep. Leaving the happy place and calming the heart, on the contrary, I feel so uncomfortable. The hour hand points to midnight, another year of celebration*. Everyone in the small hall poured dozens of numbers in unison, ten, nine, 、、、、、、eight, two-one, and everyone cheered and blessed each other. The eldest sister is a person who has come over, and Hou Xiaoyu's heart is the most painful at this time. There was no shadow of light rain everywhere, and I went out of the auditorium and looked for the dormitory in the wind and snow.

The lights went out in the dormitory, and there was no one at the hospital. The eldest sister was anxious, and felt that she had nowhere to go. She went to ask the porter, who only pointed in the direction of the staff dormitory. Except for Li Dashan, I haven't seen who she has been with, so it's hard to be with Li Dashan? She found Li Dashan's bachelor dormitory all the way, and knocked on the door without hesitation, and pushed the door in directly. I saw Xiaoyu lying on the bed, drunk and unconscious.

The eldest sister pointed and scolded angrily: "Li Dashan, you bastard! She'd never drunk a sprinkle, so why did she get drunk? Li Dashan felt particularly aggrieved, it was not they who invited her, and they did not pour her wine. She helped Xiaoyu up from the bed, and Platoon Commander Li volunteered to carry it back. The eldest sister has been with her all the time, Xiaoyu vomited in the dark, and Xiaoyu was awakened by thirst in the middle of the night. She remembered that her head hurt as if it was about to explode. The eldest sister helped her sit up, and when she looked at her embarrassed image, she laughed, and the eldest sister laughed too, until her stomach hurt; Then they wept silently, and then the two of them cried loudly. The new year may bring happiness to most people, but it brings more melancholy to two women. Outside, the wind is whisking snowflakes and banging on the windows, who doesn't want their loved ones to come suddenly!