Chapter 103: In the Midst of Guilt
Qin Xi smiled, he just paused for a moment, his eyes seemed to unintentionally sweep over Yuran's cheeks, and the next moment he opened his lips and said: "Once, I was also confused, how deep the resentment in my heart was, how much I hated the dead king, and how much I hated the current Anjun Changsun Yan." I thought about forgetting it, but I couldn't, and the more I tried to forget, the more painful it became. And it was at that time that there was a person, she told me, so that I don't have to force myself to forget that past, because hate is also part of my emotions, I am a living person, so I have a lot of emotions, so I can't forget. ”
"If you leave the Xiangwang Mansion now, you can live very comfortably. On the contrary, if you choose to stay here, you may be taking your own life. Even if it were, wouldn't it matter? Eldest Sun Yi seemed to understand what Qin Xi was referring to, he frowned and asked.
"But that person, she knows that I have hatred in my heart, and she knows that I will never stop there, and she also believes that everything can be settled eventually." When Qin Xi said this, he suddenly laughed, very warm, "She said, when the time comes, I can really read my books every day with peace of mind, or go to see the world all over the world, looking at the sunrise and sunset, and the clouds rolling up." ”
Just when Qin Xi said the last sentence, he was very shocked by one person present. That person - it was Tamazen.
Tamaze lowered her eyes, and if someone looked closely, they could find that her eyes were full of astonishment and surprise. She seems to ...... Where did you hear this.
It seems that as long as Yuran closes her eyes, she can vaguely see her smiling figure in the night, and Yuran sees her lips open and close in her mind, as if she is facing someone and saying something, but Yuran can't hear it, and she can no longer see clearly.
"The dust settled? Four countries strife, this is a troubled time, I don't know where the person you said got his confidence. Changsun Yi responded calmly.
"Lord Wang, what do you think you can't do, in fact, there are many ways for you to do it, but everyone's considerations are different." Qin Xi said with a smile.
"That's what the guy told you, too?" Eldest Sun Yi's eyes flashed slightly.
Qin Xi nodded, "Yes." ”
Changsun Yi sighed softly, he looked at his eldest son, Changsun Hong, and said, "In the future, if you go out and get drunk again and don't know how to return home late at night, then you don't have to come back." ”
Changsun Hong touched his hair, laughed a few times, and said as if embarrassed: "Dad, I know." ”
Changsun Yi left, and the three people left looked at each other, not knowing what to say for a while.
"It's like telling me that you've been drunk until late at night these days, and you're very worried." Jade dye opened his lips and said to the eldest grandson.
"It's a little embarrassing, but His Royal Highness has always been known as a gentleman, so it's not a big deal, right?" Eldest Sun Hong bent the corners of his mouth, waved his hand and said.
Yu Ran sighed lightly and said disapprovingly: "That's ...... Not good. ”
"What's bad?" Changsun Hong asked rhetorically.
"What Nanyu means is that it will make others worry about it, it's not good to get drunk and not return, and of course, it's not good to be casually branded as a gentleman." Qin Xi answered for Yu Ran.
"Qin Xi, what are you doing, I haven't even thought you told me that you know Nanyu." Eldest Sun Hong crossed his arms around his chest and said complainingly: "Besides, the regent of the Ning Kingdom is obviously a woman, isn't it still the same as being rumored to have such a romantic reputation, what's so strange?" ”
Hearing this, Qin Xi's eyes flashed slightly, "But, have you ever thought about why Helian Yu can still be trusted and respected by his subjects even though he has such a fame?" If you don't have enough ability and don't have any confidence to strategize, you should not do this again in the future. Even if you make a show to others, so as to make it seem that you are a person who doesn't ask about business, not everyone will believe it, for example-An Jun's eldest grandson. ”
"Qin Xi, I always feel that it is obvious that you have left Anguo for five years, but you can actually know Anguo better than me." Changsun Hong said.
"That's just because you don't know too much." Qin Xi said with a smile.
"If you still want to talk, it doesn't matter how long we can talk, it's just that I'm hungry now, so why don't you talk by yourself first, and I'll go back." Jade Ran said loudly.
Qin Xi said gently, "I'll send you back." ”
"What do you mean to send, this is my family's mansion, why do you seem to be so familiar? No, you do know each other. Changsun Hong thought about it and felt that it was wrong, so he changed his words and said: "But you don't know which courtyard Nanyu lives in, or I will send her back." By the way, Nanyu, do you have anything you want to eat? I asked someone to make it and send it to you, how good is it to eat so casually every day? ”
In the end, Changsun Hong still walked behind Yu Ran with Qin Xi.
Yuran was helpless, "No." ”
"Really? By the way, Nanyu, you just said that you were worried about me, so what about you, are you also worried about me? Changsun Hong kept leaning over to Yuran's side and asked.
Yu Ran stopped suddenly, stared at him, and raised the corners of his lips, "To be honest, I don't really like people who always have others to worry about him. ”
"Then according to Nanyu's meaning, you like me?" Changsun Hong suddenly grinned and asked.
This time, before Yu Ran could respond, he saw Qin Xi take two steps to block in front of Changsun Hong and Yu Ran, his expression was warm and a little smiling, he suddenly raised his hand and touched Yu Ran's sideburns.
Yuran was stunned for a moment, but did not move.
Qin Xi saw that Yuran's hair scattered at the back of his head was entangled with her hairpin, so he stepped forward to help her untie it, and then he withdrew his hand, and couldn't help but smile and said, "Miss Changsun is very good at combing her hair, you can ask her to help you before." ”
"No, I think it's good now." Tamarin said.
"It's okay, whatever you want." Qin Xi nodded.
The eldest grandson Hong and Qin Xi sent the jade dye back to the courtyard and then returned.
The atmosphere between the two was dull for a long time, and finally it was Changsun Hong who broke the silence by speaking first, he hesitated, but still asked, "Qin Xi, do you like Nanyu?" ”
Qin Xi's eyes were calm, "Why do you ask that?" ”
"You see Nanyu's eyes are about to drown, can I see it?" Changsun Hong pursed his lips and said reluctantly.
"Really, that bothered you?" Qin Xi asked amusedly.
"No, how could I be embarrassed." Changsun Hong raised his eyebrows, he looked up at the dark sky, and then sighed and said, "But, no matter what, it's great that you can come back." ”
In the past five years, Changsun Hong has been living in guilt, he feels guilty that he thought that he failed to rescue Qin Xi, and can only watch the Qin Mansion and Qin Xi disappear.
Now, when Changsun Hong found out that the Xiang Wangfu might also be about to get the same fate as the Qin Mansion, and his father was still indifferent, he was already dead, so he was drunk with the smell of wine every day. However, at this moment, something unexpected happened, that is, Qin Xi came back.
"One cannot live forever in one's own guilt toward others." When Qin Xi heard this, he seemed to feel something, he remembered what Yu Ran said to him before, and he also gave this sentence exactly the same to his best friend before.
The current Xiangwang Mansion has long been almost free of the maidservants of five years ago, and even if there is, on the second day of Qin Xi's arrival, they were all sent to the other courtyard of the Xiangwang Mansion. At the same time, Qin Xi was also treated as a guest of the Xiang Palace, so he temporarily covered up the past.
In a flash, another half a month has passed.
"Sub-period, sub-period? Are you there, did you see where I put the scroll from the last drawing? Yu Ran looked at the bookshelf in surprise, and swept the bookshelf up and down again before asking.
It's just that Yuran didn't get a response, and he didn't see the figure of Xiuzi Period.
"Aren't you there?" Yuran muttered to herself.
Ever since Yu Ran knew that the Xiuzi Society would always follow her, she had more times to call him for help. It can be said that other people's secret guards or attendants only take action when the master is in danger, but the reason why Yuran often calls the cultivation period may be just because of a small trivial matter, and the cultivation period has never mentioned this, and he is very accustomed to it.
In the past, when Yu Ran shouted about the Xiuzi period, the Xiuzi period would generally appear immediately, but in the past few days, the number of times the Xiuzi period was absent has increased, and Yuran didn't know what the reason was, but he didn't ask.
Yu Ran stared at the bookshelf and was silent for a long time, looking a little surprised.
After the last time he finished painting with the eldest grandson, Yu Ran would sometimes take a look at the person he painted. Then, she would also think of something in bits and pieces, so she often added some outlines to the people on the scroll.
The person in my mind was always dressed in white and snow, floating like a fairy, and seemed to be extremely close to her. Compared with the familiarity with Qin Xi, it can be said that this person gives her a greater throbbing in her heart, the kind of feeling that is both unpredictable but still wants to get closer.
However, what makes Yuran feel strange now is that she obviously left the scroll on the bookshelf yesterday, but today she woke up and the first floor of the bookshelf was empty.
"What's wrong with you?"
Yuran looked at the door, and the person who pushed the door in was Qin Xi.
Yuran withdrew her hand from the bookshelf, thought for a moment, then shook her head and smiled, "It's nothing. How did you get here? ”
"Can't you come over if there's nothing to do?" Qin Xi asked with a smile.
"It's nothing." Yuran paused, and suddenly thought of something, so she raised her hand and took a delicate hairbrush from the table, although she handed it to Qin Xi with a smile, she opened her lips and said, "Oh yes, you came just in time, I don't know why last night, let me have to make up well today." It seems that my hair is tangled up a lot, but no one else is there, so I can't get it right. Qin Xi, you can help me comb it. ”