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Chen Qingchuan smiled and did not refute.

Seeing that Chen Qingchuan had such emotions revealed for the first time, and her words were still so confused and suspicious, she said again: "Have you forgotten? When you first came to the house, Miss liked you very much, not only willing to talk to you but also love to stick to you, at that time asked her who she liked, she would always say that it was Brother Qingchuan. ”

Mother Jin probably remembered me when I was a child, so when she talked about this, she had a smile on the corner of her mouth.

Chen Qingchuan didn't speak for a while, and after a while, he said again: "Yes, she liked me very much when I first came, but then gradually, she no longer liked me, and her temperament began to change at that time." ”

Chen Qingchuan suddenly fell his gaze on me again, his eyes were not as cold and hard as before, and gradually became soft, he smiled and said to Jin's mother: "Perhaps, I made her like this." ”

When Jin Ma saw Chen Qingchuan's tone, she was full of frustration.

She was full of worry and said, "Uncle, don't think like that, Miss is really-"

Chen Qingchuan knew what Jin's mother was worried about, he comforted Jin's mother and said: "Don't worry, even if I have a little doubt about my original choice now, but when I come to this point, I will still go on firmly, I promised my father that I will take care of Kaiyan." ”

Mother Jin said with tears in her eyes: "Uncle, the grievances in the past few years have really been wronged and embarrassed for you." ”

Chen Qingchuan smiled with a smile full of indifference, he gently patted Jin's mother on the shoulder and said, "Look at what you said, this is all willing, I think maybe Kaiyan will finally accept me one day?" ”

Mother Jin said: "The day Miss escaped was your birthday, and so many things have happened in the past few days, and I haven't even had time to give you a good birthday." ”

Chen Qingchuan saw that Jin's mother still remembered it, he smiled and said, "It's okay, just come back safely." ”

Mother Jin sighed and said, "Don't give up." ”

Chen Qingchuan hummed softly.

Mother Jin was relieved, afraid of disturbing me who was sleeping, so she didn't say too much to Chen Qingchuan, and left lightly.

After Mama Jin left, I quietly closed my eyes.

The room was quiet for a while, only to hear Chen Qingchuan's footsteps, he didn't go to the sofa but sat down next to my bed, he pulled the quilt on my body for me, and then stroked my warm face with his hand, he called softly: "Xiao Yan." Then he sighed and whispered, "I'm going to have times of unconfidence and self-doubt." ”

He didn't say anything more, just took my hand outside the quilt.

This is the first time I have felt so clearly that Chen Qingchuan is in a bad mood.

In the past, even if he encountered a big thing, he just smiled and shook his head, not caring, or worse, he was just silent at most, he has never been a person who would confide his frustration to the outside world.

Today, today, I felt so really, because he sat there and never moved again, as if in a daze.

I don't know how long he held that position, but I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I was woken up by a nightmare, I dreamed of my father, he was sitting on the edge of my bed in a hospital gown, looking at me with great love, but in a blink of an eye, I dreamed that I was wearing a wedding dress and Chen Qingchuan Standing at the wedding scene, Lu Ming, who was watching from the side, suddenly held a knife and stabbed Chen Qingchuan in the back.

I didn't even react, and shouted in horror: "Chen Qingchuan-"

I woke up with a start, I opened my eyes suddenly, and I lay there panting hard.

At this time, a pair of hands reached into my forehead and asked softly, "What's wrong?" ”

I stared at the person next to my bed, Chen Qingchuan was sitting on the edge of my bed, I stared at him, stared at him for a long time, and then I was sure that it was a dream.

When he saw me staring at him, his pupils full of fear, he asked, "Have you had a nightmare?" ”

I lay there panting hard, my trembling hands touching his chest, and he looked at me incomprehensibly.

It's good, no blood.

In an instant, I burst into tears.

Chen Qingchuan didn't understand what was wrong with me, he asked, "What are you crying about?" ”

I cried and said, "I dreamed that you were dead. ”

He smiled, his tone full of smiles, and said, "Dreaming of me? ”

I cried and nodded vigorously, and then my hand touched his chest again, and I cried and said, "No hole." ”

Chen Qingchuan took the opportunity to hold my hand, and he smiled and said, "Dreams are reversed." ”

I wiped my tears, choked my voice, and didn't speak for a long time.

It was fake, but that dream was real and terrible, and then I was sobbing all the time, completely forgetting that I was arguing with Chen Qingchuan, and my hand was holding on to his sleeve and refusing to let go.

Chen Qingchuan saw that I was still in a nightmare, so he lay on the bed and hugged me, he gently patted me on the back, and gently comforted me: "I'm here, fool." ”

I cried for a long time and said, "I hate you, but I don't want you to die." ”

Chen Qingchuan's hand covering my head stopped, and then he continued to stroke and said, "Well, no. ”

I was a little emotionally broken, and I even cried in Chen Qingchuan's arms again, he was afraid that I would be injured, so he always controlled my head and tried to stabilize my body.

Crying to the end, even the nurse was alarmed by me, came in to patrol the room, saw Chen Qingchuan was holding me crying, she was startled, and subconsciously retreated, Chen Qingchuan didn't expect the nurse to come over so late, so he could only say apologetically: "Sorry, I made you noisy." ”

The nurse stood at the door and immediately waved her hand and said, "No, it's okay." She thought for a moment and asked, "What's wrong with your wife?" ”

Chen Qingchuan said: "I had a nightmare. ”

The nurse blushed and said, "I'm sorry I bothered." She immediately withdrew.

After the nurse left, Chen Qingchuan was amused by me and kept calming my emotions.

When I finally recovered from that terrible dream, I raised my face from his arms and looked at him, sobbing and said, "You will not see Lu Ming in the future." ”

He was puzzled: "Huh? He looked at me.

I shook my head and said, "Nothing. ”

I don't know why I had such a dream, even though I know it's fake, I'm still very afraid, Lu Ming's naked hatred makes me feel palpitations.

After crying, I realized that I and Chen Qingchuan are now incompatible, but looking at Chen Qingchuan who was holding me at this time, I thought about it, and I thought about it, I will temporarily reconcile for a day today, my eyes were red and swollen, and I said, "I'm hungry, you give me food." ”

Chen Qingchuan was a little out of rhythm by my series of emotions, but I have always been good and bad to him, and he is used to it, his emotions have also been restrained, and his tone has returned to the attitude towards me a few days ago, but the tone is still a little more gentle, he asked: "Drink some water first?" ”

I shook my head.

Chen Qingchuan got up and went to the kitchen to get me food, and after he brought it out, he first brought out a bowl of soup, and I couldn't move, so he fed me.

I lay on the bed, still staring at him with red eyes.

Chen Qingchuan fed me spoonful by spoonful, and when the soup was halfway drunk, I said again: "Brother Qingchuan, let's divorce." ”

The atmosphere was originally quite warm, but I suddenly said a word, and Chen Qingchuan paused with his hand holding the spoon.

I said very seriously, very peacefully, I stared at him and said: "You have asked me several times, do I hate you, I don't hate you, I want to thank you for supporting our family for so many years, trying to take care of me and my mother, and also fulfilling my father's last wish, all the time, I don't like you because of our marriage, I know that I have done a lot of excessive things to you before, and that is because I hated my parents for controlling me, and I took revenge on you very badly."

I know I'm bad, and I've seduced you and framed you, and I apologize to you. But there are some things I still want to say to you, Brother Qingchuan, this wrong marriage is enough here, we all have to stop the loss in time, do you understand? You shouldn't be tied up here.

For so long, you have been looked down upon and gossiped behind my back because of me, and because I and my family have always been incompatible.

I'm just a scourge and it's made your life terrible, so stop clinging to my dad's will, divorce me, and live the life you want. ”

It's the first time I've said something like this to him, it's from the bottom of my heart, and I know he's tired too, and I've been bullied for so long.

He is an excellent person, with his arrogance and talent, but for the sake of our family and Fu'an, he has suffered too much criticism.

Chen Qingchuan was so shocked by my words that he didn't react for a long time, and the time passed minute by minute, when the bowl of soup was cold in his hand.

Chen Qingchuan put down the soup bowl in his hand, he looked at me and said, "Xiao Yan, I'm very happy that you told me this today." He smiled and said, "But I still can't promise you." ”

I was puzzled and asked, "Why?" ”

Chen Qingchuan smiled, his pupils were dyed with a trace of tiredness and said, "No reason." He got up to leave.

I grabbed him by the hand and said, "Can you tell me why?" ”

Chen Qingchuan paused for a few seconds, not knowing why his back was completely lonely in the dim light.

He was silent.

But I tugged at his sleeve, but I still wouldn't let go, I must ask him to give my brother an answer today, I don't want to drag it out any longer.

Chen Qingchuan waited for a long time before he whispered, "Do you have to say it?" ”

I said, "I have to say, I want to hear it." ”

Chen Qingchuan finally turned to look at me, and he asked, "Kaiyan, can I ask you a question?" ”

I said, "You say." ”

Chen Qingchuan asked, "Do you think I only treat you as a sister?" ”

I said, "Isn't it?" ”

I don't understand why he would say that.

He was silent for a few seconds and said, "Do you remember the year you seduced me when you were sixteen years old?" ”

I nodded.

He said, "I took the bait willingly, I probably didn't tell you about it. ”