Nangong Dingkang didn't expect Nangong Jin to be so refreshing, but Zhou Tang was even more uneasy, and repeatedly told Nangong Dingkang to be open and honest, not to be too strong, even if he apologized to his son, it didn't matter, anyway, it was just the two of them who closed the door.

When Nangong Dingkang entered the door, Nangong Jin was fiddling with a set of white porcelain tea sets, and a small bucket of mountain spring and a small red clay stove were boiling water on his side.

Nangong Jin saw him come in and smiled slightly unnaturally. "It's been a long time since I got it ready, and the water will be boiling in a while. Sit. ”

Nangong Dingkang also smiled, closed the door, and sat down opposite him. "This is the mountain spring water outside the city, I saw Lao Meng preparing."

"Actually, the well water at home is also fine, and Uncle Meng has to go to the mountain spring." As he spoke, he used a tea needle to separate the tea cakes and put them into the tea pot. "Yunnan Pu'er. Uncle Meng treasured some of the best Biluochun, and wanted to take the opportunity to ask him for some, but as a result, Du Ling refused to let him drink it. ”

"Green tea has a strong temperament, you are really not suitable now. Pu'er is also good. Nangong Dingkang said with a smile.

Nangong Jin stopped what she was doing and waited for the water to boil, "I've been leaving this tea for a long time, and I don't think it's ripe and has a glutinous rice smell." ”

Nangong Dingkang nodded and said, "Remember, except for meat dumplings, you don't seem to like other glutinous rice things." ”

"Ha, what is so particular now, just be able to eat enough." Nangong Jin seemed to feel a little embarrassed by her words, and said in disguise: "The water is boiling." So, the whole set of actions of warming the pot, washing tea, and making soup was very skillful, and he poured out a cup and handed it to Nangong Dingkang, "Taste it." ”

Nangong Dingkang took it with a smile, took a sip, and nodded, "Not bad." ”

Nangong Jin also took a sip and said with a smile, "The tea is not good, the water is good." ”

"You know a lot about tea?" Nangong Dingkang put down the cup, "The movements are also smooth, have you learned?" ”

Nangong Jin said nostalgically: "I have a friend who likes it very much, and during that time, I have been following him and watching everything." ”

"That friend of yours is very elegant." Nangong Dingkang praised with a smile.

Nangong Jin scooped another spoonful of water and put it in the kettle to boil. "It's a pity, dead."

Nangong Dingkang paused, and said with an unnatural expression: "I'm sorry......." ”

"It's fine." Nangong Jin didn't look at him, still fiddling with the tea set in his hand.

The two drank tea silently, and neither of them knew what to say later. After a long time, the freshly boiled water boiled, and Nangong Jin picked up the small kettle and continued to soak it for the second time.

"I'm sorry." Nangong Dingkang seemed to be entangled for a long time, and finally spoke.

Nangong Jin looked at him and refilled a cup for him. "He's been dead for years."

"I mean...... Falling Star Slope. ”

Nangong Jin paused, took the tea for himself, put down the teapot, took a sip, and couldn't think of what to say, so he had to smile, picked up the spoon and continued to boil the water.

"I know, actually, I owe you a sorry......" Nangong Dingkang felt that after saying the first 'I'm sorry', the later 'I'm sorry' became easier to speak.

Nangong Jin interrupted him, "I understand, when I was a child, from your point of view, there is nothing wrong with handling it like this." I have to say, I'm too willful. ”

Nangong Dingkang smiled, "At that time, you were indeed more willful. At that time, I really didn't expect you to escape the family that followed you and leave Pingyang City. ”

After a while, Nangong Jin flattened her mouth, "I wanted to go to my uncle's house at the time, but I didn't expect it to happen." ”

"We also went to your uncle's house in Beizhili to look for it later, but he didn't know ...... you at all." Nangong Dingkang looked at him, while Nangong Jin looked at the teacup. "I, I see you have a lot of scars."

"Nope." Nangong Jin looked up at him and denied it directly.

Nangong Dingkang pointed to his right shoulder and asked, "What's going on?" ”

"Oh, this one......." Nangong Jin touched his right shoulder, "I accidentally fell." ”

"Huh?" Nangong Dingkang looked at him in surprise, and then laughed, "It's not easy to fall into a knife wound." ”

"It's not easy." Nangong Jin lowered her head and drank tea, not quite wanting to say.

It was a long silence again, and the process of Nangong Jin refilling water and pouring tea could also alleviate the embarrassment of silence. After a while, Nangong Jin seemed to think for a long time, put down the water spoon in his hand, and asked softly: "There is something that I have never been able to understand." ”

"What?" Nangong Dingkang looked up at him.

Nangong Jin stared at the teacup in his hand, "I, I don't want to blame you, I just want to know the answer." Because, I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Originally, I thought that after eighteen years, ...... I knew that I must have made a big mistake and let you ...... after eighteen years. Nangong Jin sighed, as if she had made a lot of determination, and asked, "Why do you think I'm going to kill Luo Xiaopang?" will think that I will hurt...... Mother? ”

Nangong Dingkang pondered for a long time and said, "Ah Jin, I don't know what to say." ”

Nangong Jin looked at him and smiled: "It's okay, I know you don't like me very much, I just want to know an answer." ”

"All four of you are my children, I don't dislike it, it's just ......." Nangong Dingkang hesitated, then nodded with a smile, "Okay." Your mother has always confessed to be open and honest. Ah Jin, no matter what, what I said only represents the past, and I hope to have the opportunity to re-understand and correct it, because I already know that it was my fault in the past. ”

Nangong Jin looked at Nangong Dingkang silently, waiting for his next step. This time, Nangong Dingkang lowered his head, as if he didn't dare to look at him. "You're only one year younger than Xiao Yao. Actually, your birth was not in our plan. Originally, with your eldest brother and eldest sister, we have both children and daughters, and we are already very satisfied. However, your eldest sister was born weak, and then she fell seriously ill and fell ill. Although we all feel sorry for her, in my heart, I still want to have another healthy girl. After that, there was Xiao Yao. ”

Nangong Dingkang stopped for a long time, as if reminiscing: "Not long after I got married to your mother, my father passed away, and I am only the third son of the big house, and I have to move out of the mansion." The eldest brother and the second brother ....... Nangong Dingkang sighed, "Ah Pu has been very sensible since he was a child, and when we had him, our family was not good, and your mother didn't dare to go back to her parents' house." A family of three, dependent on each other. ......, my father said this because I want you to understand that back then, it was not easy for your eldest brother. ”

"I know." Nangong Jin nodded.

"Before Xiao Yao was born, I was already the patriarch. Ah Pu takes good care of Xiao Wan, he was afraid that we would no longer love Xiao Wan if we have Xiao Yao, and he was worried that Xiao Wan would not like Xiao Yao, so he took care of Xiao Wan every day and told her that it was fun to have a sister. Pu was generous and pure, and at that time, I decided that he would succeed him as the patriarch in the future. ”

"When your mother conceived you, I wanted to be a girl. Because, I think it's enough to have a boy with Pu. When the midwife told me it was a boy, I thought of Pu. I'm afraid he's unhappy, I'm afraid he'll think that having another brother will affect him. As a result, I was wrong. Nangong Dingkang smiled and glanced at Nangong Jin.

"When Ah Pu saw you for the first time, she cried happily. He said that he had always wanted a little brother, starting from Xiao Wan and then to Xiao Yao, he said that he didn't dislike his sister, but he wanted a younger brother more. He was afraid that we would lie to him, so he opened your little quilt and kept confirming. Then, he doesn't worry about the nurse, he doesn't worry about anyone holding you, as long as it's your business, he doesn't worry. At that time, he was eight years old, and as soon as school was over, he sat next to you, and even the homework assigned by his husband sat next to you. You're older, as long as it's your business, he's more worried than we are. Ah Jin, your eldest brother is reluctant to let you suffer a little grievance. ”

Nangong Jin laughed, "Big brother is very good. ”

"Ah Jin, you are different from Ah Pu, you have been very naughty since you were a child. Until, your eldest brother taught you to learn martial arts. Do you remember that Cloud Flipper? You say that the way you make the move is not reasonable, and then you change it. ”

Nangong Jin smiled, "I still don't think it's reasonable until now. ”

"You're right."

Nangong Jin looked at Nangong Dingkang in surprise, "I remember, at the beginning, you didn't seem to have this attitude. ”

"Yes. When your eldest brother told me about this, I directly punished you for running a hundred laps along the house. Nangong Dingkang may have thought this was a little funny.

"However, later, I still didn't get there, the house was too big...... fortunately there was a big brother." Nangong Jin said with a smile.

Nangong Dingkang nodded, still with a smile on his face, "Ah Jin, this set of palm techniques has been passed down for a hundred years, and the key to this matter is that you were only six years old at the time." Do you understand? It's not something a six-year-old should do. ”

"I don't know, I'm just trying to be lazy. I remember that at that time, the eldest brother woke up every day before dawn. I want to prove that what he teaches is not right, so that I don't have to learn, I don't have to get up so early. I searched for this ballast for a long time until I taught this trick. Nangong Jin explained.

"If you're a martial arts idiot, Dad probably won't punish you, but you yourself say you just want to be lazy. Ah Jin, your cleverness makes Dad afraid. The smile on Nangong Dingkang's face had gradually faded.

Nangong Jin frowned, a little puzzled, and suddenly a clever one blurted out, "Because, I'm not the eldest son." After a while, he asked puzzled again: "Is it because of this?" ”

After a while, Nangong Dingkang shook his head and sighed: "This is one of them. Actually, I've been paying attention to you since then. First of all, I came loosely, but fortunately you didn't bully him. After that, ......, do you remember that your eldest brother had a classmate surnamed Xu? ”

Nangong Jin thought about it and shook his head.

"He bullies you a lot. You, Xiao Yao, and Song Ran. ”

Nangong Jin laughed, "At that time, the eldest brother read too well, as long as we were praised by Mr., we would be bullied." Yaoyao and I are okay, Songran is too young and honest, and anyone will bully him. ”

"However, the guy surnamed Xu likes to bully children. Pu has warned him many times, and it seems that he has fought for you. I don't know if you remember, you had five or six kids together and you wanted to teach him a lesson. Then, you make a plan. Your plan is very thorough, but if you really follow this plan, the result is likely to be fatal. That man is eight or nine years older than you, and if something happens, he will probably never suspect your group of children who are only seven or eight years old. I don't know, you didn't mean to. At the time, I just thought, with your cleverness, that you wouldn't be unaware of the consequences. ”

Nangong Jin frowned and recalled, still couldn't remember, and said uncertainly: "We shouldn't have done anything, right?" I don't really remember. ”

Nangong Dingkang shook his head, "No, it didn't take long for him to enter Beijing with his father." At that time, it was Xiao Yao who said that she was leaking, and I asked Song Ran. Actually, Song Ran couldn't say it at all. ”

"You, didn't ask me?" Nangong Jin asked uncertainly.

"I went to your room while you were in school. In a bunch of big letters, I almost ignored it. The font and size are not much different from those characters, and I know you did it on purpose. So, I think you know the consequences. ”

Nangong Jin couldn't remember what Nangong Dingkang was referring to, so she frowned and asked, "I—I don't remember being punished for this." You're not looking for me? ”

"I was shocked at the time, and I didn't say anything to anyone, just asked Qingfeng Tang to keep an eye on the three of you." The more Nangong Dingkang said it, the lighter it became, and even he was a little skeptical about whether the handling of this matter back then was inappropriate.

"What do you think I ......?" Nangong Jin didn't seem to be able to find a suitable sentence.

"I, probably...... Wrong. ”

For a long time, Nangong Jin tried her best to suppress her emotions and asked tentatively: "You don't teach me anything, because you think I take human life as a child's play?" So, human nature is ...... Evil? ”

"I know, that's my problem. I'm too worried that you'll go the wrong way, too worried that one day no one will be able to restrain you. ......, you, you may not be able to understand such feelings. I know I was wrong, like I thought Pu wouldn't like you. Nangong Dingkang defended himself.

Nangong Jin took a deep breath and asked, "That day, Luo Xingpo, do you think so too?" ”

Nangong Dingkang didn't know whether to nod or not, his actions that day really seemed to be unfavorable to Zhou Tang, and he did feel that it was something he did. Of course, this is just a misunderstanding, but if you believe him from the beginning, there will be no misunderstanding at all. Speaking of which, I was wrong.

"But, but after the fall of the stars, I haven't done anything......." Nangong Jin didn't wait for an answer, her expression was bitter, and her voice was very soft.

Nangong Dingkang was stunned. Yes, after falling on the star slope, Ah Jin didn't do anything, why did she think she was wrong? Just because he was seriously injured and was going to die? Nangong Dingkang suddenly hesitated. Why? A lot of things don't make sense, for example, why did he suddenly appear? Where did you get so much money to start the matter of Quanzhou? It seemed that in an instant, all the doubts that had been almost forgotten returned.

Nangong Jin looked at Nangong Dingkang, saw that he lowered his head and didn't make a sound, and finally didn't suppress the feeling that he had been asking for his father since he was a child, and a painful expression flashed on his face. The charcoal in the small stove burned out, and the water in the pot began to cool. The two sat opposite each other, and finally Nangong Jin broke the silence, her voice trembling slightly, "Last question, if I hadn't left back then, what would have happened now?" ”

"The past is all gone, there are no ifs." Nangong Dingkang's voice was flat and indifferent, and he was startled, he picked up the teacup and took a sip of cold tea, trying to hide it.

Nangong Jin seemed to hear the coldness in his voice, and was stunned for a long time. I seem to understand, but I don't want to understand. Finally, he laughed miserably: "I'm a little tired, so be it." ”

Nangong Dingkang looked up at him and said softly in a gentle tone, "I hope you can go back to Pingyang with us and give everyone a chance to ......." ”

"I'd like to be alone." Nangong Jin tried her best to smile and try her best to restrain herself.

Nangong Dingkang looked at him, saw that his body seemed to tremble slightly, and asked softly, "Are you uncomfortable?" Do you want to call ....... ”

"No, you don't." Nangong Jin took the teacup and stopped looking at him.

Nangong Dingkang sat down on a small half-column of incense again, sighed, and went out.