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I sat there and suddenly felt a little desperate, my shortcoming was a bad temper, and Lu Ming's shortcoming was that when we quarreled, he would always leave me behind for some reason and walk away.

Inexplicably, there is an illusion of going back to my college days.

At that time I would always cry, but now I don't feel like crying at all, I just sit there with a cold face, I know he will come back, but I don't know when.

About half an hour, Lu Ming really came back and got in the car, he went out to smoke, he sat in the position, exhaled, and then asked me: "Do you want to eat at that restaurant?" ”

I said, "Go back, I don't have much appetite." ”

Lu Ming glanced at me, he didn't say anything more, started the car and drove away.

After the car drove downstairs to the apartment, the two of us went upstairs one after the other.

I went to the bathroom to take a shower, Lu Ming called for takeout, he sat at the dining table and ate, and when he saw me coming out, he said, "I ordered a few favorite dishes for you, come and eat." ”

If the person sitting there at this time was Chen Qingchuan, there must have been a bowl of freshly steaming egg noodles with green vegetables on the table, not a slimy takeaway.

I stood there silent for a few seconds, then walked over and sat down across from him.

While eating, Lu Ming watched the news on TV.

The house was inexplicably noisy, and I was in a bad mood at this time, but I had already had a fight with Lu Ming today, so I tried to restrain myself.

I ate a bite or two, then put down my chopsticks and got up, and then Lu Ming asked, "Don't you eat it?" ”

I looked at him and said, "I don't have much appetite, you can eat." ”

He thought I was still angry, so he ignored me.

After the two of us lay on the same bed at night, Lu Ming lay down next to me and asked, "It's been a month, aren't you going to let me touch you?" ”

I was lying there with my back to him, and Lu Ming said again: "Kaiyan, you give me a deadline." ”

I said, "Do you think we're in the right position right now?" I thought about it for a while, and then said, "Lu Ming, or are you just unwilling to let us separate and didn't touch me back then." ”

Lu Ming looked sideways at me and said, "Who do you think of me?" I respected you at the beginning. ”

I said, "But I don't feel you love me now, it's like two unwilling people, stubbornly getting together here." ”

Lu Ming suddenly turned over from the bed and sat up and said, "You don't want me to touch you!" Why say such things? Xu Kaiyan, I love you or not, I know very well in my heart, the point is whether you love me or not, have you figured it out yourself? ! ”

He began to yell again, so that the bed was shaking, it was the middle of the night, and the house was not alone, it was full of people.

Although Lu Ming had a bad temper in the past, he would not be as irritable as he is now.

I lay there with my eyes closed and didn't speak.

Lu Ming stretched out his hand to pull me, and he said, "Xu Kaiyan!" Don't pretend to be asleep for me! You look me in the eye and answer me! ”

I was pulled by him and my arm was torn and painful, and I sat there waddling with the quilt and looked at him.

He grabbed me by the shoulder, red eyes and said, "You tell me, do you still love me, I let you look me in the eyes and tell me!" ”

My whole body was shaken by the force of his speech, I looked at him with half-open eyes, and said in a very tired voice: "Lu Ming, you have never been like this to me before. ”

His hand on my shoulder tightened secretly, gritted his teeth and asked, "I didn't do anything to you before?" Are you still when I was before? How many times have you betrayed me, you know? Whenever I lie on this bed with you, I can think of the scene where Chen Qingchuan pressed on you, but now you don't let me touch you, what do you mean? Am I still as stupid as I used to be? Do you leave it as it is and make a wedding dress for others?! ”

I sneered and said, "Lu Ming, you finally told the truth?" You really don't mind if you didn't put me to sleep before. I smiled and said, "Okay, you're here to fulfill your regrets, aren't you?" I'll give it to you, I'll give it to you! I pulled the pajamas on my body hard, it was the sound of the buttons collapsing, my pajamas were wide open, I pulled the clothes down, naked and said, "Sleep, I'll round your regrets." ”

Lu Ming stared at my chest, suddenly pushed me to the bed, pulled my pants hard, and pressed against me, he wanted to enter, but the moment his body touched me, the whole person softened.

He was shaking, yes, shivering, without any strength, and he was gasping in my ear.

I looked at him and looked at him in amazement.

Lu Ming suddenly pushed me away and rolled off the bed as if fleeing, he picked up the TV on the cabinet and fell to the ground like crazy, he grabbed his head and roared, after the roar, he fell to the ground and cried hysterically, and then he slammed his fist against the wall.

The whole person is like a beast with an out-of-control head.

He smashed a bloody fist mark on the wall, and I heard the sound of bones shattering, and Lu Ming seemed to be completely crazy.

After I climbed out of bed, I rushed over and hugged Lu Ming, who was out of control, and I asked loudly, "Lu Ming!" What are you doing?! Are you crazy?! ”

He suddenly grabbed me by the neck with his hand, roared at me, and said, "I'm a waste, I'm a waste, Xu Kaiyan!" It's all because you and Chen Qingchuan, do you know? Do you know?! ”

I was pinched by him and couldn't speak at all, I only felt that my head was blank, my whole body was shaking, Lu Ming's face became more and more terrifying, more and more blurred, and I watched his mouth open and close in front of me.

When I felt like I was about to be choked by him and vomited blood, he suddenly pushed me to the ground and smashed things like crazy in the house.

I was lying on the ground gasping and coughing, with flying debris behind me, something grazing against my cheek, bloody.

I was panting there, and before I could catch my breath, then Lu Ming pulled me up again, tugging at my collar, his face was full of tears, and he said, "Do you remember the year you took me to your house?" The day Chen Qingchuan kicked the door open and dragged me up from you, because of that time, Xu Kaiyan, I Lu Ming became a fucking inhumane waste! You didn't really want to have sex with me at that time, did you? You're just using me to take revenge on Chen Qingchuan, right?! ”

He threw me to the ground, and there he staggered and stood there, smiling desolate at me, and the whole room was miraculously quiet, and I lay there with blood from the corners of my mouth and a dizzy head.

Lu Ming kicked open the door and was about to rush out, I got up from the ground and hugged him from behind, I shouted: "Lu Ming, where are you going!" ”

Lu Ming wanted to push me away, but I was dead on him, he turned his head and yelled at me, "You let me go!" Xu Kaiyan! ”

I won't let it go, I can't let it go, I must not let him go now, his emotions are so out of control, he doesn't even have clothes on.

I hugged him tightly, I didn't have much strength left, I just begged him and said, "Lu Ming, calm down, calm down, don't do this, I beg you." ”

Lu Ming's tense body suddenly fell to the ground, his face was in a trance, his eyes were dull, he sat there and looked at him sitting down, kneeling there.

In that moment, he hugged me with his backhand, like a driftwood in a great flood, and he buried his face on my shoulder and cried out loud.

I hugged him back and didn't say a word, when Lu Ming cried until he was silent.

I asked in a hoarse voice, "How long has it been?" ”

He didn't answer me, and I said, "Let's go to the doctor." ”

He suddenly raised his face, looked at me excitedly and desperately, and said, "It's useless, open face!" I'm a complete piece of shit! ”

I held his face and made him look at me: "Lu Ming, let's go to the doctor, it will definitely be useful, you believe me!" ”

Lu Ming didn't speak, but after a long time, he asked in a hoarse voice, "Would you still be willing to be with a cripple?" ”

I said, "If you need me, I do." ”

Lu Ming smiled, his whole body slipped out of my arms and lay on the ground, and then he lay there silently as if he was dead.

I hugged Lu Ming again.

That night, the two of us lay on the cold floor all night, absorbing each other's warmth, but Lu Ming and I were both cold, cold to the bone.

By the time the sun rose over the bed, we had all pretty much calmed down, and we were all sitting there tired, looking at each other.

Lu Ming had already escaped from last night's madness, and he said in a hoarse voice, "Go take a bath." ”

I said, "Okay." And he got up.

After I came out of the bathroom, Lu Ming was cleaning up the room, and the room was completely unsightly. It's all in pieces.

I walked over and swept the things underground with Lu Ming, but at eight o'clock, there was a doorbell outside our door, and when I heard it, I went to open the door, but the people standing outside the door were two policemen.

I stiffened and looked at them.

The two policemen also said: "We received a call from someone who said that there was a loud noise and fighting on your side last night. ”

The policeman who spoke, seeing my dark face, asked, "How many people are inside?" ”

Lu Ming probably didn't know who was coming, so he walked towards me and asked, "Who is coming?" When he saw the police at the door, he was also stunned.

The two policemen looked at Lu Ming suspiciously, and then he asked me, "Are you husband and wife?" ”

I denied it, saying, "Boyfriend and girlfriend." ”

The policeman asked, "Who hit you?" "The police may be wondering if it's domestic violence.

Lu Ming's face turned pale.

I said to the policeman, "I accidentally hit it, and no one hit me." I didn't want to say anything more to them, so I said, "I'm sorry, we're still resting, please go back." Then I slammed the door shut.

It should have been too much movement last night, and the neighbor next to me called the police.

I looked at Lu Ming, and Lu Ming whispered, "I'm sorry." ”

I pretended to be relaxed and said, "It's good that those two cops don't know us." ”