6. Shame

I just called Mom, but the old lady ignored me, put the teacup in her hand on the table, got up and left.

Mother Jin obviously didn't dare to disobey my mother's order, so she replied: "Yes." So he went to make a phone call with his things.

I glanced at Jin's mother for a while, and then looked at the old lady who had already walked upstairs, and I was anxious for a while, so I could only walk towards my mother and follow her upstairs.

When I got to her room, I wanted to go in and talk to my mother, but as soon as I stepped into the door, I saw my mother kneeling in front of my father's spiritual seat

At this time, my mother scolded: "You stop me!" ”

I froze.

She said, "Come and kneel for me." ”

It's been three years, it's been three years since my dad died, and whenever I do something, she always uses the old way to deal with me.

I know that she is probably not only because I am asking Chen Qingchuan for divorce now, but also because of other things.

I stood in silence at the door for a few seconds, thought about it, walked over honestly, and then knelt down beside my mother.

My father's photo was hanging on it, looking at me and my mother with gentle and compassionate eyes, and I don't know why, but I still didn't dare to look at this photo because I was afraid of seeing the blame from inside.

I bowed my head and knelt there without speaking.

My mother was holding the beads in her hand, and the beads had been polished by her.

She asked in a low voice, "Why, knowing that you are not filial, you dare not face your father?" ”

I knelt there silently.

My mother sneered and said: "Xu Kaiyan, I know that you are very dissatisfied that we forced you to marry Qingchuan, but there is one thing, you must clearly understand that your father did this not because of anything else, but because of our mother and daughter." We don't have a son in our family, only you are a daughter, and you, since you were a child, your father knows that you don't have much wisdom, so he will sponsor Qingchuan to protect the future life of our mother and daughter. Now you, after your father's death, you can still live as you want, without worrying about food and drink, all because of your father! ”

When my mother said this, she suddenly looked at me with tears on her face and asked; "But what are you doing now? You are disobeying your father's last wishes, you are dishonoring Fu'an, and you are dishonoring our Xu family! ”

In other words, I would never dare to refute my mother's words, but today I don't know why, my mother repeated the same tune, and I actually laughed.

She heard my laughter, twisted her eyebrows and asked, "What are you laughing at?" Am I wrong? ”

I said: "You're right, Dad did this for our good, but my dad is for Fu'an, in his eyes, his daughter's happiness is just by the way, the reason why he asked me to marry Chen Qingchuan is just because he likes his ability, he wants Fu'an to go higher and further without him, because this is his life's work, isn't it?" ”

My mother was surprised, she couldn't believe it and asked, "Xu Kaiyan, what are you talking nonsense here?" ”

But I didn't flinch, I still looked her in the eyes and said: "Mom, you have never asked me what I want, you always think that it is good not to worry about food and clothing, but since the first day of marriage with Chen Qingchuan, every day to the present, I have not been happy for a second, for the company, for my father's last wish, I have endured every minute and every second every day, but how long do you want me to endure it, is it a lifetime?" ”

My mother looked at me like she was looking at a stranger, because of these words, I never told her and my father, I have been married to Chen Qingchuan for so long, I have been in trouble for so long, in their eyes, it is just a toss that is full and has nothing to do.

I smiled at her and said, "Yes, Chen Qingchuan has the ability, he can help Fu'an go further, but Mom, I don't love him, I hate him from the first day he came to our house!" ”

At this, I almost couldn't control my emotions, and I was afraid that my tears would gush out like magma along with the resentment in my heart.

Now that things have come to this, I have no right to resent them anymore, so after saying these words, I got up and was about to leave, but I was only able to stand firm, when I heard my mother calling out in surprise behind me: "Qingchuan? ”

I looked back at her, but she was looking at the door through me, I followed her line of sight, and found that there was a person standing at the door, it was Chen Qingchuan.

We didn't even pay much attention to when he appeared here, so much so that we don't know if he heard what we just said.

My mother looked a little panicked and asked, "Qingchuan, you, why are you here?" ”

Chen Qingchuan, who was standing at the door, had nothing unusual on his face, and chuckled at my mother as usual: "It was Aunt Jin who called me and said that you asked me to come over for dinner." ”

My mom remembered it, but she didn't expect him to come so quickly.

Her mother also quickly stood up from the ground, then pulled me forward a few steps, and said with a smile to Chen Qingchuan: "That's right, I asked Aunt Jin to call you, but I forgot about it just now." ”