Chapter 10: Obsession
In the end, Yang He picked up a few captured fire folds and materials, which were very rough to make, just twisted into ropes with rough paper and stuffed into bamboo tubes, which was outrageously simple. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info
The production of a good fire fold is actually very complicated, it requires many raw materials, but it is easy to rekindle and the storage time is long, sometimes the fire can be up to two days, and these several fire folds are estimated to be less than half a day, such as the difference between ordinary matches and Zhibao lighters.
These soldiers obviously took this into account, and prepared a large pile of rough paper to change from time to time.
At this time, their fire folds are smoldering, and the fire is blown out after being lit, and the outside is covered with a bamboo tube. There are many firecrackers used in the army, especially firecrackers, which are a must-have, and they cannot use flint to temporarily light the fire rope in wartime.
I have seen a few fire folds, Yang He covered them one by one and stuffed them around his waist, in fact, he rarely used fire folds, after all, it is fire, it is not good to put it in a package or pocket, otherwise there will be safety hazards, and it is troublesome to replace it from time to time, he uses flint.
However, there are a lot of materials here, as well as ready-made fire folds, Yang He put them away, and in the fire for fire, fire folds are indeed more convenient than flints.
I looked at some seizures again, and there was nothing Yang He was interested in in them, so that's it.
In the afternoon, Yang He closed the door tightly and took a bath for his younger brothers and sisters, and he and Minister Yang also took a shower, but their clothes did not change, and they did not even have a bed every day, even if they lay on the thatch, they were easy to get dirty and wrinkled.
Inside the house, Yang He could feel the movement outside, and several times he looked out of the closed gate, he could see some refugees probing their brains nearby, hesitating to come, but they didn't dare to walk to the door.
He also saw the lazy towel with a yellow-skinned woman and a few weak children, dodging to the front of the house, he wandered back and forth, tried to knock on the door several times, but finally stopped, and then the woman scolded him dissatisfiedly: "Wretched." ”
The lazy towel was full of guilt and helplessness.
While they were preparing dinner, they seemed to hear the hungry whining and crying of children outside, Yang He walked to the gate and looked, was silent for a long time, and returned to the main hall.
That night they had supper, and they lit a bonfire in the hall, and prepared a simple but necessary obstacle around them to prevent horses, and then put the cloth curtain under them, and covered them with a cloth curtain, and the four of them snuggled together, and slept like that.
Like last night, Yang He couldn't sleep again, he listened to the cold wind howling outside, and watched the wind blow the bonfire in the hall to shake. He kept his eyes open, and he didn't know what he was thinking, and then he was tired for a long time, and when he fell asleep, he was awakened by a cry in the middle of the night.
At this time, the hall was dark, and only charcoal fire remained in the bonfire, and occasionally the unfinished firewood emitted a faint light and a soft "pop" sound.
He listened carefully, but it was Minister Yang on the side who was crying.
His cry was so sad that it broke people's intestines and lungs.
Yang He said softly: "Minister, what's wrong?" ”
Minister Yang whimpered: "Woo...... I think Mrs. Old...... Woo...... It's all because I'm useless, I can't protect them......"
He whined and cried, just blaming himself, for him, everything in Yangzhuang is a good memory, his parents died when he was a child, it was Yang He's parents who raised him, although he was a scholar of Yang He, but he regarded him as a son, and Yang He did not treat him as a servant, but all this is gone.
He was optimistic in front of people, but he was very insecure, and he was experiencing thrilling things every day these days, and suddenly he collapsed.
His cry woke up the two children, and they also began to cry, just to ask for their father and mother.
Yang He's heart is like a knife, his younger brothers and sisters are five years old and one is six years old, they are happy to play and carefree age, but they have experienced so many things in a short period of time, especially this series of tragic human pains.
And after he woke up, the two of them were scared all the time, just like today, if they were shot, what would they do, Yang He didn't dare to imagine the consequences.
The heart-wrenching pain in his heart came to his heart again: "...... I am ashamed to be a son of man......"
He blamed himself, why didn't he persuade his father, he hated and hated why he didn't stick to his heart.
Perhaps because of the relationship between Yang He in later generations, and knowing the future outcome of his mentor Ji Maoxun, the torture is even more profound.
"The thief has broken and returned to Germany, and he has trapped Luyi, and Ji Maoxun of the county has died."
He didn't dare to recall, when he told him that he was leaving, the disappointed gaze of his teacher, he didn't blame, only sighed and said gently: "Everyone has their own ambitions, survive this body well, don't forget to write back to report safety." ”
Every time I think about it, I only let myself be ashamed of myself.
“…… I am ashamed to ...... teacher"
The residual consciousness of this body is full of regret all the time, and every time at this time, Yang He's heart hurts like a knife.
It's just that......
Although this is obsessed, Yang He knows that he can't be blamed for making the wrong choice, this is the reality of history, because even if he stays in Luyi, sooner or later it will be a dead end.
In the game, he can't see the future direction, but standing at the historical height of hundreds of years, Yang He knows that the situation in Zhongzhou is irreversible.
Soon Li Zicheng will capture Nanyang, Xiangcheng and many other cities, kill the deputy general Liu Guoneng, the general army is as fierce as a tiger, the governor Wang Qiaonian, etc., and then besiege Kaifeng in December, and more than ten cities belonging to Kaifeng Mansion are all in the hands of the enemy, leaving a dead end in Zhongzhou.
According to the development of history, Li Zicheng will besiege the city of Guide at the beginning of next year, because the defenders are resolute, after the city is broken, Li Chuangnu will gather tens of thousands of captives in the west of the city, regardless of the noble and low, it is also a dead end to Guide.
It is also wise not to flee to Fengyang and Luzhou Mansion, if nothing happens, Li Chuang will send troops to attack Fengyang Mansion after capturing Guide, and many cities in the territory will be captured.
There is also Zhang Xianzhong, who cooperated with the five battalions of Ge and Zuo to capture Luzhou City, which has not been captured, and then successively captured Hanshan, Chaoxian, Quanjiao, Lu'an, Huoqiu, Wuwei, Lujiang and other Fuzhou counties. Luzhou Mansion, Fengyang Mansion, there are almost no cities that do not fall, and even Liuhe, which is separated from Nanjing by a river, has been conquered.
The situation in Jiangbei is even more eroded, and no place is safe.
Even if Zhang Xianzhong is gone, Yuan Shizhong is here again, and there are still many bandits, gathering and burning and plundering.
In the sixteenth year of Chongzhen, the Qing army entered Huai'an Mansion to plunder, and even fell into Haizhou, Ganyu, Shuyang and other cities, and then there was a chaotic situation for 17 years, and finally the Qing army went south, and the military disasters were repeated, even the south of the Yangtze River was unavoidable.
Whether you flee or not, there is no place in the world that is peaceful.
Minister Yang's crying became more and more sad, the crying of the two children became more and more poignant, Yang He also burst into tears, he also knew that he could not go back, all this was so real, he had to struggle to survive in this era when life was as cheap as ants.
Every time he thought of this, he felt a tearing pain in his heart.
The obsession and residual consciousness of his body also tormented him all the time, constantly saying something in his mind, and finally merged into a voice, which reverberated in his ears: "Kill all the thieves, and punish the Hulu!" Rebuild mountains and rivers! ……”
"Okay, I promise you."
Yang He suddenly said: "I promise you!" ”
There were tears on his face, but his expression had calmed down, and he touched the chopping knife beside him, which was cold and cold.
It's coming, it's coming, so what?
Where is the paradise in the world?
It's in my heart.
What is the meaning of life?
That's guarding!
Yes, Yang He has a kind of realization in his heart, he has the responsibility to guard, just like the big and two small around him, he can't let them end up like those people today.
"I pity you the most for the midnight dance, and say: Men are as dead as iron. Look at the test hand and mend the crack. ”
"Minister, we will live, and we will live well."
Yang He said quietly.
He said to Minister Yang, and also to himself.