When Xu Qingxia walked in, Zhong Hao was reclining on the collapse and eating grapes. When I saw him come in, I sat up happily and waved at him.

"It's cold when you say it's cold this day, look at you frozen, your face is red, come over and bake the fire." He came down in person, took Xu Qingxia's hand, took him to the edge of the collapse, and poured him another cup of hot wine.

Xu Qingxia took the wine glass and drank it all, and put the fur big coat he brought in front of Zhong Hao with a smile.

"It's cold, I'm afraid that the housekeeper won't have the right things, so I'm here to see what you're missing. This piece is made by the white fox I newly hunted this autumn, you can wear it to see if it is suitable. ”

Zhong Hao stroked the soft fox skin in front of him, which was as clean as snow, "You still care about me the most." It's winter, and the smoke is afraid of the cold, and when it's empty in the future, you can go and see her for me. ”

Xu Qingxia's smile disappeared after a hook on the corner of his mouth. "Childe said it's funny, how long can you stay here, Yan'er is your person, so naturally you should take care of her."

Zhong Hao poured himself a glass of wine, put it in his hand, and looked at Xu Qingxia over the wine glass, "Who knows, my people, there are times when I can't take care of it." ”

Xu Qingxia's expression was faint, Zhong Hao only felt that his heart was pinched fiercely, and a pain for no reason made him frown.

"What's wrong with you?" Xu Qingxia stepped forward and looked at Zhong Hao with concern.

Zhong Hao looked at him, from the thick black and soft hair, all the way to the white and resolute chin, this person has been like this since he was a child, there was no flash of even momentary fierce sparks in his eyes, and there seemed to be no temperature when he smiled, so he never received any real attention, and he quietly escaped everyone's attention.

At this time, Zhong Hao realized that in fact, they didn't understand each other at all.

Zhong Hao avoided his gaze, "Yao Qianshao's waste is annoying to me, and now someone in the court has bitten us and wants to charge us with treason, heh, it's really hateful." ”

"Things don't necessarily go their way." Xu Qingxia said slowly: "Anyway, we still have the protection of Lord Meng and the eldest princess, and His Royal Highness the Crown Prince has always been close to the eldest princess, so it may be able to play a role in this matter." ”

Zhong Hao smiled and looked at Xu Qingxia, "The forces of the DPRK and China are mixed, and it is far from what we can see through at once." This year, there was another war in the northwest, Wan Tonghou's troops were transferred far away, the eldest princess caused some criticism because of the river construction, and His Royal Highness the prince is now marrying the concubine of the prince of Molan, and they have all rushed together, which is a little troublesome. ”

"Qingxia." He called out to him.

"Huh?"

"Why don't I transfer you out of Dart Gate and go to Shanxi to help me take care of the business there?"

The snow outside the window was endless, falling silently on the ground, just like Zhong Hao's words at this moment, a note at the end disappeared for a long time, and no response was heard.

He smiled, took a grape and peeled it slowly, his eyes focused but stiff,

"How can I leave this situation?"

"I'm relieved when you leave."

Zhong Hao still didn't look up, maybe he didn't dare to look up at the moment. Xu Qingxia sat opposite him, what kind of expression would he have when he said this? Is it shock, reluctance, or resentment? No matter what kind of expression it is, it is something that I can't afford now.

This sentence was indeed unexpected, Xu Qingxia didn't expect Zhong Hao to suddenly say such a thing, suddenly raised his eyebrows, and the whole person was half stunned.

He looked at Zhong Hao, but he couldn't see his face clearly, only the shining luster of the pearl embedded in the tortoiseshell hair crown on the top of his head. He peeled the grape for a long time. Slowly, Xu Qingxia's eyes began to accumulate a vague and complex mist, and the hand on his side was tightened, and the green tendons on the back of his hand struggled.

"What does Childe mean?"

He pursed his lips and forcibly dispelled the fog from his eyes.

Zhong Hao finally put the grape in his mouth, picked up the handkerchief on the side and wiped his hands, but still didn't look at him.

"It's nothing, I just don't think this place is for you, it's good to go out and have a look. No matter how bad the situation is, I can support it as hard as I can, you can rest assured. ”

He reached out to pluck another grape, but his hand held it down.

His voice was a little dry, but with a suppressed urgency, "Is Childe ready to abandon me?" ”

"What are you talking about?" Zhong Hao just laughed, but Xu Qingxia stole the conversation again.

"You should know that I have nothing in this life. From the beginning, I was just an abandoned baby, and my adoptive father died so early, except for you, I have been alone until now. Now, are you finally going to abandon me? ”

Xu Qingxia stared at Zhong Hao's eyes tightly, and his wolf-like expression finally stopped hiding.

"It's all the same, we all end the same. Whether it's Xu Pan or me, it's just an object that you can choose at will. Song Zhonghao, I am a person, a person of flesh and blood! I won't allow you to decide everything about me so easily, and I won't allow you to leave me behind! ”

With a "snap", Xu Qingxia pulled out the loneliness and threw it heavily in front of Zhong Hao.

"This is the gift you gave me, my weak crown. The reason why I call it 'lonely' is to tell me that I don't belong here, and I will always be just your minion! ”

"I sent you to be lonely because I wanted to tell you that the situation you face in the future will turn you into a lonely person completely." Zhong Hao calmly patted Xu Qingxia's hand and withdrew his hand, "But I hope you won't get hurt, it's always the stronger one." ”

He looked at him, "From childhood to adulthood, you have been my servant, this is an inescapable fact. It's as if you always feel like you're the one who is inferior and being taken advantage of. From my position, I was surrounded by unpredictable people and things, and I was surrounded by the center, and I could only discern by myself. ”

"Speaking of which, why am I not the one who was used and deceived?"

Zhong Hao sighed and laughed to himself, "You won't understand my predicament, just like I can't understand your depression." Just because we are two people, not one. ”

"So, you got it."

Zhong Hao lowered his eyes and nodded slightly.

Xu Qingxia looked at Zhong Hao blankly, as if he had suddenly lost all strength and emotion, and only a sentence remained. His hand fell down and hit the edge of the collapse, with a "bang", but no one cared.

"When did you know?"

"It's early." Zhong Hao raised his face and let out a long sigh of relief. For the first time, such a strong sense of helplessness and sorrow had accumulated on his face, and the face of the handsome boy who was always smiling was gray and tired at this time.

"When I was studying at the Ayutthaya Library, every time you came to see me, you would always go to the Three Thousand Tea House in private once or twice, in order to see Lord Meng's cronies He Lu. You bought Cheng Hai, the foreign account room, and hid your private property. From there, I made a deal with Yan Ting, and instigated me to punish Yan Zhuo and the two mansions, so that you could benefit from the fisherman. It's just that you didn't expect that I shot too hard and killed Yan Ting, making Zhuo Jun betray your agreement. ”

Zhong Hao said slowly, his tone was flat and calm. His eyes were clear, but he didn't relax for a moment and nailed straight into the eyes of the person opposite.

"I remember, you learned how to tame animals. That time in Heming Mountain, the cheetahs and tigers you domesticated were really powerful. Zhong Hao suddenly smiled, "Do you want me to say it again?" ”

"So, the trip to Heming Mountain, did you do it on purpose?" Xu Qingxia listened to him say everything he had done without omission, and his heart gradually calmed down. Suddenly, it's like going back to when I was a child, and there are no more secrets between each other, so it's easy to relax. He picked up the flask and poured himself a glass.

"I just wanted to know if you would be able to, but I didn't expect you to be so decisive." Zhong Hao saw that on Xu Qingxia's exposed arm, a thick black curve was snaking and dazzling. Once again, he felt a twitching pain in his heart, he was the only companion who had been by his side for so long, they had an interesting childhood, a sincere teenage friendship, but they never thought that they would not be able to accompany each other to the final end.

When did sinful desires begin to drive a wedge between them, and who made the wrong decision to perpetuate this fatal mistake to this day?

I didn't care about the past, and I finally have to pay for it now.

"Qingxia." Zhong Hao still called him softly, "Listen to me." Leave here and go to Shanxi, where I have another property. After a few years, I went to Suzhou, and General Cao has promised me that he will accept you, and you will follow him and live the life you want. Songmen is already a place of life and death, too many people, too many forces want our lives, I am afraid that in the future, I will also lose everything. Then I don't even have the strength to protect you to the last time! ”

Zhong Hao's eyes were slightly red, and he struggled to find Xu Qingxia's face, he wanted to find even the slightest trace of movement and wandering, but he didn't.

Xu Qingxia stood up and bowed to him, "Thank you Gongzi for thinking about me, since it is my own way of living, I have to find it myself." You also said just now, you are not me, and you will never really understand me. ”

"Qingxia!"

He strode towards the door, which closed and he didn't look back.

Zhong Hao sat on the couch dejectedly, and his eyes fell back to the snow-white white fox coat.