79. Sweet and bitter

Zuo Feng Yiyang

Gan Ling has led the army to attack Zuo Feng Yi, the front of Linjin, Lian Lao, Chongquan and other places also came one after another, Zuo Feng Yi Song Yi under the command of the soldiers and horses, after being defeated by Gan Ling in the first battle, has been cowering in Gaoling City, trying to rely on the high wall and deep ditch to hold on to help, dare not go out of the city to rescue other cities.

Therefore, the entire Zuo Fengyi has completely become the home of Yan Xing's soldiers and horses, Gan Ling led the troops all the way to conquer the city, invincible, as if entering a no-man's land, there is a great tendency to hunt Chang'an with the army of Li Dao, Guo Yan and others.

Yan Xing, who was sitting in Haoyang and constantly receiving good news from the front, was not as happy as outsiders expected. For example, now, Yan Xing was in a state of mind, he stood in front of Zhang Rui's residence, stood for a long time, but did not push the door in.

The sound of the piano in his ears was endless, although Yan Xing was not good at music, but he could also feel the crisp and soothing sound of the piano, not as if he was expressing sad emotions, nor did he have the sorrowful grievances in his impression.

Xu Yes, she is also happy that she no longer has to stay as a hostage in the treacherous Chang'an City.

Yan Xing thought in his heart, thinking of this, he was touched by the heartstrings, and finally couldn't help it, slowly approached, and knocked on the door.

"Who?"

Zhang Rui's weak voice came from inside the house, Yan Xing hesitated for a moment, and finally responded:

"It's me!"

As he spoke, Yan Xing pushed open the door with a slight force in his hand, and just happened to see Zhang Rui in the room who hurriedly got up.

Zhang Rui's body still looked so weak, and there was still a hint of panic on her delicate and beautiful face. When she saw that it was Yan Xing, a surprised smile bloomed on her face, but then she lowered her head again and bowed to Yan Xing in a restrained manner.

"Concubine to meet the captain!"

"Don't be so inhibited."

Yan walked closer, gently helped Zhang Rui up, pressed her shoulder, let her sit back on the original long case, and brought himself a seat, and sat down beside her.

After Zhang Rui was pressed back to her position by Yan Xing, her bright face suddenly turned half red, and she didn't speak after seeing Yan Xing sitting next to her, she panicked, and didn't know how to talk to Yan Xing, she wanted to stroke the piano again and calm her mind, but she didn't expect that in her confusion, she actually plucked the wrong strings.

"Zheng—"

The strings played the wrong note, Zhang Rui was affected by this, the flush on her face spread to the root of her neck, her chest rose and fell violently, and her breath became a little chaotic, the piano naturally couldn't be caressed, and the atmosphere in the room became awkward for a while.

"You're afraid of me!"

Yan Xing saw Zhang Rui feeling as anxious as a frightened rabbit, his brows furrowed, and he suddenly said such a sentence.

Just such a sentence also made Zhang Rui feel like she was struck by lightning, her face was pale, and she hurriedly wanted to get up and confess.

"Don't be afraid."

Seeing that Zhang Rui was about to get up again, Yan Xing's eyes were quick, and he reached out and pressed her back. Looking at the restless Zhang Rui, Yan Xing smiled self-deprecatingly.

He felt like he had just asked a nonsense. Now in Hedong County, in Zuo Fengyi, I don't know how many people are as terrible as Qi Qi and Han Qi in their hearts, and there are even some gossip and rumors, trying their best to render themselves as a murderous god.

Imagine how a weak woman like Zhang Rui, sitting beside her, can not feel afraid.

"The concubine isn't afraid, it's just-"

Zhang Rui lowered her head and wanted to explain, but she didn't know how to skillfully avoid angering Yan Xing, so she was hesitant for a while and couldn't say coherent words.

Seeing her long eyelashes fluttering, Yan Xing smiled unconsciously. He was thinking that if he still forced him to ask again, "That means you are afraid of me", he was afraid that Zhang Rui would jump up in fright again and bow down to plead guilty.

After laughing, Yan Xing's heart seemed to be a little lighter. He said in as soft a tone as he could:

"Are you still used to living here?"

"Thank you Captain, the concubine is here, everything is fine."

Zhang Rui replied cautiously. But she suddenly thought that Yan Xing suddenly came to her this time, and asked her if she was used to living, could it be that she was going to be taken hostage and sent to live in which mansion.

Thinking of this, Zhang Rui panicked, she hurriedly raised her head, but just met Yan Xing's gaze, as soon as they looked at each other, Zhang Rui was immediately defeated, she lowered her head in a hurry, and asked worriedly:

"The captain came to find a concubine, but something happened?"

Looking at the frightened Zhang Rui, Yan Xing was also a little uncomfortable, he looked at the furnishings in the room, and said casually:

"It's okay, I'm just walking around in my spare time, and suddenly I heard the sound of the piano, so I came over."

After listening to Yan Xing's words, the heart hanging in Zhang Rui's chest finally settled down a little. She also began to be bold, raising her head slightly, looking up at this man who she had not seen for several years, but who often appeared in her dreams.

Yan Xing was not draped today, so he could clearly see his resolute face, his tough facial features, and the short, thickening beard under his jaw from a close distance.

Zhang Rui looked at it secretly, Yan Xing didn't care, he smiled and said:

"Since you don't play the piano anymore, let's talk to me!"

"Okay."

As soon as Zhang Rui heard Yan Xing's words, he hurriedly lowered his head and answered nervously.

The two talked intermittently like this, the status of the two was like a world apart, Zhang Rui was very nervous at first, only when Yan Xing asked, she answered, and the answer was also very restrained.

Gradually, she also discovered that Yan Xing, who was sitting next to her, seemed to be an ordinary person with flesh and blood, joys and troubles after taking off his armor, and he was no longer so frightening.

So, the words in her mouth gradually increased, Yan Xing sat beside her, quietly listening to her, from her memories of the troubles in the family, to the young self was not an official slave, and then to Zhang Rang's house, and the chaos in Luoyang, and the experience of the female Lu in the army······

Zhang Rui talked about her short life situation, when she talked about sadness and moving, her tears flowed down, and when she talked about lackluster joy, she also showed a sincere smile, just like that, crying and laughing, she finished her own story intermittently.

When she finished saying all this, Zhang Rui raised her head and looked at Yan Xing with some surprise, this was the first time that she had finished telling her story, and it was also the first time that someone was willing to sit and listen to her story quietly.

Yan Xing took in the changes in her countenance, he smiled at her, and said slowly:

"After listening to your story, I'll tell you my story too."

Yan Xing looked at the window and spoke a little distractedly.

"I grew up in Jincheng County, which is the border county west of the Han Dynasty, where there are majestic and majestic Qilian Mountains, which cover the snow all year round, the Hanhai Sea that is boundless and often full of wind and sand, the grasslands full of cattle and sheep, and the farmland and mulberry forests in the river valleys.

"In the city in the city, there are occasional merchants from the Western Regions and even farther west, but more often are merchants from the Han people, Qiang people, and Hu people, whose cloth and grain, horses, cattle and sheep, and rare jade, whenever the market opens, the camel bells in the city always ring non-stop."

"In the streets and alleys of Lilu, there is also a group of unscrupulous young men, they are good at drinking and horse racing, if you unfortunately lose to them, they force you to lie on the street, kick your stomach in public, and humiliate you playfully."

"In the felt tent outside the city, there lives a group of Qiang and Hu who do not bathe all year round, and are full of fishy smell, although the Qiang Hu of some tribes hate the Han people, but the Qiang Hu of some tribes are also friendly with the Han people, they are bold and hospitable, whenever a distinguished guest arrives in their tribe, they will kill cattle and sheep, dedicate the best mare's milk wine, and let their wives and daughters dance in the tent."

Yan Xing was able to speak, so he stopped talking. Zhang Rui couldn't help but be a little fascinated when she saw his serious appearance, and she could also feel the faint sadness in Yan Xing's words,

"Although the captain has left Jincheng now, he has already made contributions in Hedong and Zuo Fengyi, and he will return to his hometown in the future, and he will also return to his hometown in fine clothes, and he will be among the glorious clan."

"If it weren't for an accident, maybe everything would still be in Jincheng, I would still be the same me, living an ordinary life, and then marrying a wife and having children, mediocre and mediocre, and living a lifetime."

Zhang Rui didn't immediately understand the meaning of Yan Xing's words this time, she didn't dare to speak rashly to persuade her, Yan Xing didn't care, and continued:

"In the eyes of many people, what they see is how majestic my current troops are crossing two counties and crossing the river, but in fact, the next road is still very long, not only those people can't see clearly, but even I myself sometimes can't figure it out, just like walking at night, for fear that if I take a wrong step, I will fall from the cliff and be annihilated in the boundless darkness."

After saying this, Yan Xing turned his head to look at Zhang Rui, who seemed to understand whether he understood or not, remembering that she was a hostage and living in Chang'an, thinking of the carefully sewn winter coat she sent, his eyes showed a rare tenderness, and he said with a light smile:

"If you are not afraid of hardships and dangers, stay and walk with me."

Zhang Rui suddenly heard this, she was surprised and delighted, and she was about to scream, her chest was pounding, everything came so suddenly, even if it was the happiness she had dreamed of, it still caught people off guard for a while.

When she reacted and saw Yan Xing's gaze staring at her face, she suddenly blushed and lowered her head. But soon he thought of something, and hurriedly raised his head, looked at Yan Xing seriously, and said affectionately:

"If you are a rock, your concubine is willing to be a grass, and you will never be separated. As long as you don't want to dislike concubines, it's a burden—ah"

Before she finished speaking, she was already embraced by the people around her, Zhang Rui was suddenly a little frightened, she shrunk back, but quickly relaxed, a little shy in her heart, mixed with sweetness, and unconsciously intoxicated.

Yan Xing hugged Zhang Rui in his arms, rubbed her hair lovingly, and silently recited in his heart:

"You have been a weakness for me for three years, and I hope to be your armor from now on."

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The candle is swaying, and the warmth and coldness are self-aware.

Dong Dai knelt on the side of the bed, looking at Dong Bai who was sleeping peacefully on the couch and breathing evenly, she was in pain since the collapse of the family, and she also smiled rarely.

After escaping from Yiwu, she originally took Dong Bai to take refuge with Niu Fu in Shaanxi County, but they hid in Tibet and fled all the way, and before they arrived in Shaanxi County, they had already heard the news of Niu Fu's death.

Blank and desperate, Dong Dai had to take Dong Bai and flee to Haoyang to join Yan Xing, who had some intersections in the past.

Needless to say, the difficulties along the way, after arriving in Haoyang, although he finally took the risk to meet Yan Xing, the general of the Xiliang Army treated himself quite coldly, the light in his eyes flickered, and his thoughts on the ground were even more unpredictable.

This once made Dong Dai worried.

But no matter how worried they are, they are still lucky, at least for the time being, they are out of danger, and they and Dong Bai don't have to sleep in the open anymore, and they don't have to hide in Tibet anymore, because they are worried about the chasing soldiers, and they can't live in panic.

Thinking of these, Dong Dai remembered the burly man she hadn't seen for several years, which shocked and hated her.

She recalled in her mind the scene when she and Yan Xing met again.

When Yan Xing saw Dong Dai again, he was a little surprised, he didn't expect that this arrogant and domineering daughter of the Dong family in the Dong family manor in Lintao in the past would be able to escape in the catastrophe of the upheaval in Chang'an and the collapse of the Dong family, and she also ran out with her young niece.

However, it is one thing to be surprised, and quite another is to have a headache. Dong Dai and Dong Bai are like hot potatoes for Yan Xing, Dong Zhuo, Dong Min, Dong Yue, Niu Fu and others have died, and the prestige or price of the remaining two Dong family daughters is very small.

On the surface, Li, Guo and others attacked Chang'an this time, and they were still under the banner of revenge for Dong Zhuo, but in fact, Dong Zhuo's remaining old troops, such as Li Dao, Guo Yan, Duan Xuan, Zhang Ji and others, were by no means able to be subdued and mobilized by the two women Dong Dai and Dong Bai.

And Dong Zhuo, who died, as a failed minister, could not escape the fate of being ruined, and his infamy was exactly what Yan Xing could not avoid.

Therefore, keeping these two daughters of the Dong family by his side will inevitably do more harm than good to Yan Xing.

It's a pity that Dong Dai, who met again, still had a trace of fantasy in her heart. After she met, she quickly asked Yan Xing to help her take revenge, but the result was self-evident, and naturally Yan Xing immediately refused.

Yan Xing looked at Dong Dai, who had a withered face and red eyes, and knew that she still had illusions, and what she said was very direct.

Regardless of whether he is willing to help Dong Dai take revenge, whether he has enough strength to help Dong Dai take revenge, just with the current situation, revenge is not the top priority of his army at all, and there is no need for him to do something that damages his foundation for Dong Dai's request.

Dong Dai, who was overwhelmed by the coldness in Yan Xing's words, did not dare to speak out although she had resentment, but became enlightened, and instead asked Yan Xing to protect the two of them and save her and Dong Bai's lives.

She pleaded hard, but she also had a new hope.

Because when he was in the Dong family manor, he agreed to Yan Xing's request, and he was also half-forced and half-traded, so that Yan Xing promised to do something for her in the future.

It's a pity that looking at the monarch of the Dong family, who used to be flying and domineering, but now she has become pitiful, Yan Xing's heart is like iron and stone, and she did not softly agree to Dong Dai's plea, but was silent, turned around and retreated outside the tent.

The unknown is frightening, because of Yan Xing's behavior, Dong Dai is worried.

It wasn't until after staying in the city for a few days that Dong Dai relaxed her vigilance a little.

But the lives of the aunt and nephew are still all tied to Yan Xing's thoughts.

As soon as she thought of this, at this moment, Dong Dai looked at Dong Bai, who could finally sleep peacefully, and the worries in her heart became disturbed again.

I am worried, and I may not be able to bear too much of my body.

But even when she couldn't help but lean on the side of the couch to rest because of fatigue, Dong Dai's body in a dream still curled up vigilantly.

The dream changes, and when I wake up, everything is the same, and the pain is still the pain.

But maybe only in a dream, she can see that she has exhausted her scheming, step by step, and finally annihilated the enemy, avenging the old and young of the family, and can hear that the bloody Chang'an City has been surrounded by the horns of the Xiliang army outside the city, and the end of Wang Yun, Lu Bu and other enemies is approaching, and the death period is not far away.