Luoyang Zhuge Liang camp

I don't know how long it took.

Zhuge Liang woke up slowly, vaguely saw a figure in front of the bed, and blurted out: "It's a young man, help me up." ”

The person who came was shocked and said: "Prime Minister, the last will be Jiang Wei, why is the Prime Minister like this?" Horse..... Ma has been in the army for many years. ”

Zhuge Liang rubbed his eyes, and when he saw that it was Jiang Wei, he was sentimental for a while, and sighed: "Don't be surprised, Boyo, I'm confused." ”

Seeing this, Jiang Wei also said sentimentally: "Cheng is very fond of Ma joining the army, but it's a pity that he disobeyed the general order and failed the prime minister." But it's been many years, so please don't be sad. ”

Zhuge Liang shook his head and said, "Alas, no, in fact, it's not that I'm young, it's that I'm young." ”

Jiang Wei was puzzled and asked, "What did the prime minister say?" ”

Zhuge Liang reluctantly got up and leaned on the side of the bed, looked at Jiang Wei and said: "I have known Boyo for many years, and I am also a teacher and friend. The incident of Wei Yan a few days ago reminded me of my childhood in the past, and I was very sad for a while. ”

Jiang Wei also lowered his head sadly when he heard this.

Zhuge Liang looked up to the sky and sighed, and said sadly: "The world says that I was a child, but in fact, I have suffering in my heart. I treat him like a parent, and I always hope that he can make a difference, and he will become a pillar of the Han Dynasty one day.

You Chang won my heart, and I knew that since our army entered Yizhou, it has always been a complex faction, including the former ministers of Jingxu, the relics of the first emperor, and the local scholars of Yizhou. The Yizhou faction seeks self-protection and has no fighting spirit, and the Northern Expedition still has to rely on the old generals of Jing Xu. I was born in Jingzhou with me, and I wanted to maintain the banner of the Northern Expedition for me, so I took the initiative to ask Ying to go to the street guarding pavilion. I knew that Youchang had no experience in commanding troops, but for the sake of the public, I wanted to let the Wenchen of Jingzhou's main battle faction be able to control the military power, boost the morale of the Northern Expedition, and for my own selfish desire to let Youchang get ahead and become famous in the first battle, I actually agreed to this foolish request. But as the saying goes, a loving mother has many defeated children, and I love her children unscrupulously, which causes her to become arrogant, and under the pressure of public expectations, he becomes more rigid and self-serving, and behaves abnormally. I knew that he wanted to prove in his own way that he could be alone without my protection, and he could carry the banner of the Northern Expedition for me, so he paranoidly disobeyed my orders and stationed on the mountain desperately.

After Youchang lost the street pavilion, the three armies were furious, and in order to correct military discipline, and in order to calm the hearts of the people and appease the grievances of the factions, I had to pay the price for my wrong decision and beheaded Youchang with tears. Although I have strict orders, I am also an ordinary man, and I often cut off the young, like cutting flesh and bones, and cutting off liver and intestines. At that moment, I was really heartbroken, and I was full of remorse, recalling that the first emperor had said to me that Ma Jian should not be of great use, and I knew that his intention was to let me cultivate it step by step, and I must not help the seedlings grow. At that time, I knew that the emperor was clever, and I was not as good as that.

If it weren't for my doting on him, he might as well have become so blind and despise the enemy; If I hadn't been confused for a moment and sent him to guard the street pavilion under heavy pressure, he wouldn't have made such a big mistake. If I can let Yu Chang have more experience and go to the battlefield again, he will definitely become a pillar of our army in the future. All of this is because I don't know how to use people, and in the end, the Northern Expedition was fruitless, and I often resisted my fate when I was young, which was really harmful to others and myself.

I can't say these words, in order to maintain the great cause of the Northern Expedition, I have to let Youchang continue to bear the infamy, grit his teeth and continue to move forward. It's just that in the dead of night, I think of these and cry bitterly, wondering if the young spirit in heaven can forgive me? After thousands of years, how should people comment on the merits of right and wrong? ”