591 Xu Guangqi's Decision (I)
Xu Guangqi woke up a day and a half later.
After the exam, he went back to his rental hut and fell asleep, and after a day and a half, he woke up and saw that it was dark, and when he looked at the hour, he found that it was midnight.
He hadn't figured out what day it was for a while, but when he woke up, a huge sense of loss came over him.
The test was smashed.
He knew he had failed the exam.
The discomfort of his body and the chaos of his mind in the examination room made him realize that he must not have done a good job, and after the exam, he was all supported by a thought, and he himself was already very aware of what his outcome of this exam would be - if no miracle happened, he would have failed.
He is thirty-six years old, more than ten years of scientific examination, last year he was finally admitted to the lifting of people, I thought that this year, I would be admitted to the Jinshi Guangzong to bring an end to the road of scientific research, but the result was defeated in this extremely cold and uncompetitive body that could not be adapted.
The family no longer has more savings for himself to take the imperial examination, so he had to go out to make a living, but he was finally admitted to the examination, but he couldn't go further, which was a huge blow to Xu Guangqi, who just thought he was going to the pinnacle of his life.
He began to doubt whether he could go further on the road to the imperial examination, and he began to doubt whether he could become a jinshi, the title of the gold list, and the glory of his ancestors.
Even sometimes, he thinks it's better to stop, anyway, as a lifter, he already has a qualification to be an official, and with an official status, he can be exempt from taxes, and naturally someone will donate the land to his name.
Because of his poor family, he had to come out to study for the exam to find a way out, but in fact, he had already achieved his goal when he was promoted in the exam.
As a result, the pleasure of winning the Xie Yuan at that time completely destroyed his calmness, and he actually felt that he had the ability to impact a higher level of Jinshi, but after thinking about it, the Xie Yuan of Shuntianfu in the examination may not be a kind of luck for himself, because the examiner appreciated himself and was able to win the Xie Yuan.
Ran out of luck, right?
Although the results will not be announced in a month, Xu Guangqi has basically lost hope.
Really, just that kind of article, I feel uncomfortable after reading it, how can I have further confidence?
What should be done now is not to consider the ranking of the exam, but to consider leaving the Beijing Division and returning to the south to continue his life, there is no hope for the scientific examination, so it is better to be a man and spend his life rich and stable!
With such a thought, in the middle of the night, Xu Guangqi got up wrapped in his clothes and began to pack his luggage in his cabin.
Clothes, books, a little silver, in fact, things are nothing more than these things, as a person rushing to take the exam, what else can you have?
This is one of the few entanglements that his hometown can buy for himself, and the Xu family, who is in the middle of the road, can't support it for one or three years, and when he goes home, he will start to repay the family for his efforts over the years.
Xu Guangqi packed up the things in the cabinet, took out a few boxes under the bed, and when he saw a slender box, he was suddenly stunned.
This is......
Xu Guangqi silently opened the box and looked inside.
The flintlock was still lying in the box, and it was put in the box with Xiao Ruxun's letter and hidden under the bed, because he was worried that reading the letter would have an impact on his preparation for the exam, Xu Guangqi didn't read it, but prepared to read it after the exam.
Xu Guangqi lit the lamp brighter and opened the letter.
He thought that even if a military general read some books and knew some words, he would not be able to write anything, at most some words of concern, some descriptions of his relationship between the DPRK and China, etc., but he never expected that Xiao Ruxun did not say this, except for some greetings at the beginning, it was to state his ambitions and ideas.
"Although I am a military general, I also know etiquette, righteousness and shame, and I have understood since I was a child that studying is not to be an official but to govern the country, and to save the country in times of crisis."
"What is the purpose of studying, I am a family of military generals, I can't be a civil official, is it still useful to study? I once asked my mentor about it, and he thought about it for a long time and said to me that studying is for the sake of the common people in the world. ”
"That's because I'm still young, I don't understand how reading is for the common people in the world, and I'm a military general who is actually studying for the common people in the world, isn't it ridiculous?"
"It wasn't until the end of the Battle of Ningxia that I realized that all the things I learned and the knowledge I gained from reading were all used to fight against foreign enemies, win victories, capture the flag, quell rebellions, and restore people's livelihood, which is probably what the teacher wanted to tell me."
"I once heard that there are many scholars in the prosperous places of culture and education in the south of the Yangtze River, and then they stopped moving, from scholars to rural gentry, taking advantage of the privilege of raising people to make a lot of money, annexing land, arrogant and lascivious, reversing black and white, I wondered, is reading to make myself richer and fish in the country?"
"When reading has become a ladder in the land of mermaids with bad minds, what is the point of reading? What is the meaning of everything that Confucius said? What is the meaning of the heroic words of continuing to learn for the sake of the saints and opening peace for all generations? If you can't put it into practice, all your knowledge is just a decoration. ”
"Ru Xun thinks that if reading is just to make himself richer instead of saving the country and the people with the world in mind, then reading has no meaning, just to make another Sven scum in the world who will use his knowledge to bully the people and deceive the court."
"Scholars despise the vulgarity of martial artists, but isn't what they do after reading a book even more vulgar than what I, a general, do? Is it an act of civility to disrupt the law with literature? ”
"Saving the country and the people is not the privilege of scholars, but what everyone in the world should do, the world is the world of the world, not the world of scholars, saving the country and the people is not something that can be done by one or two scholars, but it can only be completed by the efforts of the people of the world."
"There are only 300,000 scholars in the world, but there are tens of thousands of people in Limin. Need the world people without distinction between agriculture and industry, are willing to contribute, need land without distinction between north and south, people without distinction between the old and the young, work together, then the world has great hope, it is the so-called rise and fall of the world, the husband is responsible. ”
"If Xun is not talented, although he is only a military general and a horseman, he is also willing to bear the rise and fall of the world on his shoulders, and use everything he has obtained from reading and fighting to make a modest contribution to the prosperity of the world."
"If Mr. is willing to help me, the gate of Myanmar Town will always be open for Mr., if Mr. is willing to be an official in the imperial court, if Xun is willing to be friends with Mr., I hope Mr. will not forget the foundation of reading and scientific examination, and he can also worry about the country and the people in the imperial court, and do not forget Zhang Jiangling, which is as Kaoru wishes."