Part 2 The Elegant Career of a Corrupt Official Chapter 2177 Unthinkable embarrassment
Someone said it, and threw out a gold medal casually.
In ancient times, copper was used as "gold", this gold medal was made of bronze, the back was carved with a complex pattern, and two lines of words were cast on the front, and these two lines of text were written from Su Shi's handwriting at a glance, which read: "Huanqing Road is brave, the thirty-second sentinel." ”
Zhao Xing was a rookie to the things of the Great Song Dynasty officialdom, especially the gold medal of the military, he pretended to inspect it, handed the gold medal to Shuai Fan, and said: "Zilian, you see, I am in Mizhou, and my subordinates also have many brave effects, but I forgot to award them the gold medal with me." However, the official badge of the Yangzhou officer was cast by me, but I forgot to call it a gold medal, and randomly named it the inspection card. You can help me see if the gold medal on Huanqing Road is like this. ”
Shuai Fan looked at it, shook his head and replied: "I don't understand it either, this thing is familiar to Wan Qiyong, but it's a pity that he ...... in the back team."
Hearing Zhao Xing speak, the "brave" on the other side was already full of black lines, and then heard Shuai Fan's addition, the man couldn't help it, pointed to the accompanying officer sent by Yanlu, and said depressedly: "My lord, I often fight side by side with Yanlu on Huanqing Road, who am I, that guy also knows, well, he still owes me a drink." ”
Zhao Xing threw the gold medal back to Wu Qing with a serious face, and said without blushing and heartbeat: "This official doesn't care about debt disputes!" …… Wu Qing, the most important thing for sentry detectives is not to believe in judgment, only to believe in eyes! You rushed towards us from afar, aren't you afraid that we are Khitans? ”
Wu Qing saluted Zhao Xing embarrassedly and explained desperately: "My lord, who can afford more than eighty pairs of Tang Pijia along the way, except for you, Man Xixia can't find anyone." ”
"Nonsense!" Zhao Xing reprimanded with a straight face: "This kind of armor is also called the big food armor and the Persian armor." In the Greco-Persian War 2,000 years ago, there were 200,000 troops in black and Persia who wore such armor, so what are my more than 80 people here? ”
Wu Qing was speechless: "200,000 people are all wearing such armor, how rich should Dashi be?" ”
Zhao Xing shook his head and said thoughtfully: "It's not much rich, as long as the metal wire drawing machine is popularized, weaving this thing is the life of women and children...... I have promised 50 pairs of armor to the commander. You work hard, and when you make a meritorious service, I will reward you with a pair. ”
Wu Qing hurriedly thanked him. When he straightened up, Zhao Xing asked again with a straight face: "How did you find this official?" ”
Wu Qing replied with his hand: "My lord." You have always gone all the way from Yangzhou, with clanging armor and showing off your might...... Everyone knows about this matter, who doesn't know that adults are so generous and can get together No. 100 Quanjia Ding. Since adults enter Hedong Road. We and other people on Huanqing Road are looking forward to the adults going to work soon.
Well, when I was leaving, Fan Jingluo asked me to see my adult and immediately conveyed: Please don't need to report to Jingzhao Mansion, and go directly to Gyeongju to take up my post. At the time of the next walk. Fan Jingluo has left Jingzhao and gone to Gyeongju. Fan Jingluo said that he would meet with adults in Gyeongju.
When he came back from Yan'an Mansion just now, Zhe Dianshuai told the adults about the situation, and chased after them all the way, and saw the adults' team from a distance, and wanted to come to this way except for the adults. No one can walk in armor. ”
Wu Qing tantamount to euphemistically explaining to Zhao Xing what he had just done. The Yanzhou officer also stepped forward to explain: "Lord Zhao, this thief dead bird is indeed an officer of Huanqing Road. But the little one doesn't owe him money for his drinks......"
Zhao Xing immediately interrupted the other party's words: "This official said, regardless of the debt dispute...... Wu Qing, what is the emergency military situation? ”
Wu Qing hurriedly replied: "Pacify your lordship, the Xia army has broken Anding Fort, Liu Jingyuan (Jingyuan Road Envoy) died in Dao, the Jingyuan army has no leader, Fan Jingluo has gone to the imperial court, and asked the Imperial City Envoy and the commander of Kangzhou Thorn Shi Zihu to take over as the commander of the Jingyuan Road, and urged the commander of the palace to send troops as soon as possible, and asked the lord to go directly to Gyeongju to take office." ”
Zhao Xing and Shuai Fan looked at each other, and Shuai Fan sighed: "My lord, the situation on the front line is grim, and the cavalry drill will be carried out again, so we will go directly to Gyeongju." ”
Zhao Xingyi shook his head: "Our hundred people went to Gyeongju, and there is no help and the overall situation." War is not a matter of one or two hundred people. Anyway, since we were in a hurry, we adjusted our direction and went directly to Gyeongju. But the cavalry drills along the way were carried out normally, and in any case, we must not waste time on walking, but should practice while walking. ”
Shuai Fan did not object to this, and the team then adjusted its direction and turned to Gyeongju.
Shaanxi Road originally included Qinfeng Road and Yongxing Military Road, but also because of the war, Shaanxi's jurisdiction was divided into two, which became Qinfeng Road and Yongxing Military Road respectively. Subsequently, the Qinfeng Road was also divided into two like the Yongxing Military Road: Qinfeng Military Road and Jingyuan Military Road. Jingyuan Military Road is adjacent to Huanqing Road, and Weizhou is adjacent to Gyeongju.
Huanqing Road was attacked by Western Xia, presumably the Song army's local strategy was: Huanqing Road held on to defend on the spot, and launched a pincer offensive from the left and right of Jingyuan Road and Yanlu - but now the commander of Jingyuan Road died of illness on the road, and one leg of the Song army's offensive was broken.
The form was grim and messy, and when Zhao Xing rushed to Gyeongju unhurriedly, Fan Chun was already anxious to have a few more gray hairs on his head - if this 60-year-old man still had black hair.
Fan Chun looks a bit like his father Fan Zhongyan, with the self-cultivation and temperament of a well-educated Confucian, although he has an anxious temperament, his eyes are red as if he hasn't slept for several days, he still takes the official letter handed by Zhao Xing gently, examines it carefully, and nods unhurriedly. He nodded his head, and an official came out next to him, he was holding a pile of account books, and there was a silver ribbon pressed on the account books, and he couldn't help but stuff it to Zhao Xing, and shouted in his mouth: "This official, Huanqing Road is recruiting for pacification, Qingyang Festival envoy Kang Zhi, and he will be handed over today." ”
The silver ribbon and the account book were originally the work done by the master, this Kang Zhi actually jumped out by himself, Zhao Xingdi's master Wan Qiyong had not yet arrived, Zhao Xing would be reasonable if he didn't take the silver ribbon, but another white-haired official next to him spoke, and he said affectionately: "Leave people, the official is a guarantee, but there is a mistake in the account book of Huanqing, and the predecessor will definitely be held accountable...... Now that Huanqing Road is fighting, presumably Lord Kang will not leave when he leaves office. When the war is over, there is still time to check the books. ”
The other party bites the word "war" very hard, which is to remind Zhao Xing that if there is really a problem with the account books, the bad account can be put into the war expenses, and he absolutely supports Zhao Xing to do so. Fan Chun heard this, and nodded frequently at the man's words. And looked at Zhao Xing with expectant eyes.
The old man who spoke Zhao Xingchong arched his hand and replied respectfully: "The old man's life, I dare not resign." Mr. Liu Hua spoke. Kid dare to disobey! ”
Zhao Xing's words are equivalent to nailing the other party, if he is responsible. The other party can't pull out. As for him calling the other party "Mr. Willow Flower", it was because of a poem written by the other party describing Willow Flower: "The swallow is busy and the warbler is lazy and remnant,
On the embankment, willow flowers fall.
Flying around,
dot painting green forest,
No talent.
Take advantage of the gossamer.
Quiet in the deep courtyard,
The door is closed.
The bead curtain is scattered,
drooping,
I was lifted up by the wind.
The blue tent jade man sleeps,
Strange spring clothes, snow stained Qiong.
The embroidery bed is full,
There are countless incense balls.
It's round but broken.
When I see the bee sticking to the light powder,
Fish swallow pond water.
Wangzhangtai Luqi,
Golden Saddle Wandering,
There are tears - "Water Dragon Song"
This poem is known as "the first willow flower", and Su Shi has a close relationship with him, and the willow flower poem he sang and is also known as "the end of view". It means that there is "willow flower first" in front of it. Later, there was Su Shi's singing and harmony. These two people have written willow flowers (catkins) to the end, and future generations no longer have to ponder to write willow flowers. If you have that kung fu, let's write something else.
This person is Zhang Qianfu, 65 years old this year, and later generations will praise him as "Machiavelli in China", because this literary master used military tactics to oppose the blind "strong wall and clear field", and advocated the attack of "building a fortress and attacking shallowly". This is the only scholar in China who has consciously proposed that "war serves national interests" in the past 3,000 years, while others have only parroted Machiavi's words.
Zhang had a close relationship with Su Shi, so he spoke, and Zhao Xing, as a disciple of Su Shi, couldn't help but listen. As soon as he took over the official seal, Kang Zhi burst into tears with excitement. But Zhao Xing couldn't greet the other party, and hurriedly put the official seal and account books in Shuai Fan's arms, and greeted Zhang with a teacher salute: "Mr. Liu Hua, before the disciple left, the family teacher asked me to greet him, and wished Zhang a long life and good health...... Well, this is a letter written by a tutor. ”
Zhang was not polite, he stuffed the letter into his arms, shook his gray-haired head, and said: "Since Liren has taken over, you and I will talk about official affairs first, and then talk about personal friendship." ”
Zhao Xing turned to "know the affairs of the Yongxing military government, and the Jingzhaofu road to pacify the envoy" Fan Chun, and signed up: "Baowen Pavilion Bachelor, Cheng Lang, Qingyang Regiment Training Envoy, Shouhuanqing Road Curb Invitation to Pacify Envoy, Quan Qingyang Festival Envoy Zhao, see Master Jingluo." ”
A room full of officials laughed, and even Kang Zhi, who was hiding on the side, was snickering, and when they couldn't laugh anymore, Fan Chun pointed at Zhao Xing and said with a smile: "Not long ago, Jia Yi impeached Su Laopo for liking up strange and obscene skills, and he didn't learn any skills. It's funny that Su Laopo is still eloquent, look at how he taught the students, are there any people in the world who you signed up for? ”
Zhao Xing looked at Shuai Fan and found that the other party was also foggy - he finally understood: it turned out that Shuai Fan was also an officialdom vegetable worm and didn't understand anything.
Zhao Xing looked at Zhang depressed again, and Zhang hurriedly came forward to solve the siege: "Leave people, the rules for registration are bachelors first, although the title of your Baowen Pavilion bachelor is low, it is the most noble title, so it should be put in the first place." And followed by the rank of the local official, it should be the highest grade among the remaining official ranks, but you put the senior official Cheng Lang in the back, and you laughed to death.
You should sign up like this: Baowen Pavilion Bachelor, Shouhuanqing Roadside Invitation and Pacification Envoy, Quan Qingyang Festival Envoy (Zhizhou), Qingyang League Training Envoy, Chenglang Zhao, sign up for see. ”
Since Zhao Xing missed his cowardice, he decided not to dwell on it, and immediately jumped over and asked, "Lord Fan, how is the military situation?" ”
Fan Chun nodded with his white hair, let out a long breath, and said, "Lord Zhao has been an official for many years, and he still maintains a simplicity, so I will dwell on this matter later." It's just a small amount of gas! Su Laopo taught a good student, I heard that he was in office in Hangzhou, and all the official affairs were handled by you and Gao Yu, and he only wrote poems. Now that you have come to Huanqing, I hope you will also let me only worry about banquets and drinking in the future.
Okay, let's get down to business: the Xia army invaded. The deputy commander of the infantry army, the Xuzhou observation envoy, the Jingyuan road through the slightly pacified envoy, and Liu Shunqing of Zhiweizhou led the troops to battle, and stayed in the road and died. Liu An, the general of Shunning Village, reported: The Western Xia general Hu Juan has led his army to break through Anding Fort. The two forts of Masuko and Tumen are being demolished. ”
Zhao Xing asked again: "How is the situation of our army?" ”
Zhang replied: "Li Yi, the sixth general of this road and the envoy of the imperial city, and Xu Xing, the deputy general and deputy envoy of the East Workshop, violated the edict. and did not obey the moderation of the commander, sent troops into the realm at night, and died in battle with the summer thief. Huanqing Road Governor Zhang Cun, the second general Zhang Cheng, and the third general Lan Yu are leading troops to battle, and now only the seventh general of the road, Zhang Cheng, the envoy of the inner garden, is still in the city. ”
Zhao Xing wondered: "Wait, Mr. Liuhua." I just heard that the second general is named Zhang Cheng, why is the seventh general also called Zhang Cheng? ”
Zhang replied with a smile: "The second general, Zhang Cheng, is the Imperial City envoy Zhang Cheng, and the seventh will be the Inner Garden envoy Zhang Cheng, these two people are not alone." Speaking of which, Zhang Cheng, the envoy of the Imperial City, still has a little relationship with you, he is the elder brother of Zhang Yong, the Mizhou regiment. can also be regarded as a disciple of the general. ”
The so-called "second general" and "seventh general" are both "regular generals" with the official rank of "capital supervisor", and the military system of the Song Dynasty was led by "regular generals" to lead the army to fight, this official rank is similar to that of a battalion commander, and the army led by each "general is limited". Generally speaking, the highest rank of "general in a certain region" is not the first general, but the last general in the ranking. And this one will often remain with the commander as a reserve. Hit it out if necessary. For example, now, the seventh general who is staying in Huanqingdi. He is the most courageous general in the entire Huanqing Road, and he leads the first strategic general reserve.
As for the Imperial City Envoy and the Inner Garden Envoy, they are all honorary titles, which means that the military general has won the trust of the emperor and is qualified to guard the imperial palace and the inner garden for the emperor.
The situation was so grim, Zhao Xing took a breath of cold air and hurriedly asked, "How is the strength of our army?" ”
Zhang replied: "There are 28 towns and 28 towns on Huanqing Road, 31,723 strong men, 3,495 strong horses, and a total of 1,182 teams. See the Tujun (see the equivalent of the present, the Tujun refers to the local army), more than 6,000 guest troops, and a total of 4,000 soldiers from Ning and Yaozhou. If we exclude the garrison troops left behind in the prefectures and counties, our mobile strength in Huanqingdi is less than 5,000 people. If you want to fight, you can use a maximum of three or four thousand troops. I tired of begging to add one or two generals and horses, but it has not been implemented by the imperial court so far. ”
Fan Chun shook his head, his face full of regret: "If the imperial court allows the generals along the border to draw out the fighters, the outer walled city will reduce the troops to hold on, and the inner line will be heavily garrisoned in the Shuaifu, and the people from all walks of life will be gathered to support at any time...... We are not so embarrassed. ”
Zhang shook his white hair and said happily: "Haha, in the future, this matter should be worried about by others, I am old, and I should live a few days on the ground of Su Laopo." ”
Fan Chun was stunned for a moment, and immediately shook his white hair and laughed relaxedly. Even Kang Zhi, who was hiding to the side, shook his white hair and snickered.
Zhao Xing looked at a room full of white hair, and sighed from his heart: No wonder Liu Shunqing, who was appeased by Jingyuan Road and knew that Weizhou, died on the road, he was so old, and he had to deal with high-intensity and frequent wars, and he was strong if he could support it.
This place is very old.
The old man in the room laughed happily for a long time, and Zhang asked again: "What can you do if you leave someone?" ”
Zhao Xing and Shuai Fan glanced at each other, and asked worriedly: "Why are the troops so embarrassed, there are only 31,723 strongmen on the entire Huanqing Road, and less than 5,000 mobile troops...... How did this happen? ”
Kang Zhi finally mustered up the courage to interject: "This is still last year's statistics, just now the military report, the Khitans broke through three villages, our army lost two generals, and the people were taken captive more than 10,000 people. Huanqing Road is like this every year! After more than 100 years of fighting, every family on Huanqing Road has a blood feud with the Xixia people, and now we can have so many people left, which can be regarded as tenacious...... The people are miserable. Zhao Xing thought for a moment, and then asked: "What is the situation of the treasury and the situation of materials."
Kang Zhi smiled bitterly: "No! There is nothing, Huanqing Road has been emptied, and we have not paid a single contribution in three years. In November last year, the imperial court had a decree that Xu Qinfenglu and the Yongxing Army were exempted from taxes and a special subsidy of 500,000 yuan was granted. I heard that the money has already reached the Hedong Transshipment Division. If Lord Zhao has the ability, he will send someone to transport it back, otherwise, this month, the salaries of the hundred officials of Huanqing will not be paid. Now I can't leave, I still want to wait for the money to arrive, and Lord Zhao will give me some Cheng Yi. ”
Zhang spread his hands. He smiled helplessly and said: "My Huanqing Road is like this, the fields are completely barren, and those who dare to go to the fields to farm in the summer." If you are not careful, you will be taken captive by the Tanguts. But what to eat without farming, now spring ploughing has begun. As a result, this year's harvest is gone. Leaving people, this rice cooking, no soldiers, you need to plan well. I really need a pair of gold hands. ”
Zhao Xing only saw in the past: the Great Song Dynasty was rampant, causing the people to live in poverty, but he did not mention the war of aggression suffered by the Great Song Dynasty, because this belonged to the "great achievement of national integration", he never knew that the war caused such a big disaster to the people, and never knew that the people not only did not pay taxes during the war. You can also enjoy local financial subsidies from the government.
The subsidy of 500,000 yuan does not sound like a lot. However, if you think about the fact that the court hired tens of thousands of farmers and vans to renovate the Yellow River for a year, and only 8,000 yuan was issued, you can know what a huge amount of money this is.
Originally, Shaanxi was a wealth-rich land, and in the Tang Dynasty, it was also called the "Land of Abundance", but now only a desert remains. This is still a great "great achievement"! Come to think of it. Zhao Xing felt chills all over his body.
The atmosphere inside the house was heavy, and Zhao Xing thought for a moment. Shaking his head, he said: "No matter what ideas you have, you have to wait for the Xixia people to withdraw from the army, Shaanxi is located inland, and if you have any ideas, it will be too late to implement them this year." In this case, we can only do our best and die. ”
Fan Chun and Zhang sighed together, and after a long time, Fan Chun said again: "I heard that Fan Yu and Zhe Dianshuai played together, and asked to leave the person for three years, so that my two old men also showed this face and played by name." In any case, it is better to leave people to come to Huanqing than to let Cai Yuan come for a long time. After all, leaving people is the only master of civil affairs in my Great Song Dynasty, and I can't find anyone who is beyond leaving people. That's it. ”
Zhao Xingchong thanked the two of them.
Being a recommender in the Great Song Dynasty is a risky investment, Su Zhe was victimized not long ago, these two old people only saw Zhao Xing, and they were willing to take responsibility, they were out of illness and rushed to the doctor, for this, Zhao Xing was full of gratitude.
Yanlu Di Zhangzhang first to the imperial court, Huanqing Road followed by the play, because these two roads are fighting, the music is a military channel, so the transmission is very fast, the court received the chapter in two days, at the beginning of the court is very difficult, because these two roads require Zhao Xing to complete a term, that is, the court is required to remove the word "right" in front of Zhao Xing's "right Qingyang festival degree". The Qingyang Festival envoy is a five-grade official, which means that the imperial court has just promoted Zhao Xing, and he has to promote the other party, which makes the imperial court very difficult.
The five-grade official is a threshold, many people have not crossed it in their lives, and now the two roads are played successively when the military situation is tense, so that the court can not refuse, and it is really a dilemma.
In the end, it was Empress Dowager Gao who made the final decision, and she asked: "Is Zhao Liren's talent enough to guard Gyeongju?" ”
Su Song, Su Zhe, and Qian Xian, these people are satisfied with Zhao Xing, and the current privy envoy Wang Yansuo saw Zhao Xing when he was in the West Garden, and he had a good impression of Zhao Xing, and he didn't want to oppose it from the bottom of his heart, but Zhao Xing's teacher Su Shi was extremely at odds with the imperial historians, and Zhao Xing's Shu Party label made him unwilling to express his position easily, so he had to look at the imperial historians.
Liu Anshi jumped out and said: "This year's county call, although there is no explicit order, but Zhao Liren's previous merits have been grinded, and he has been promoted to the sixth grade, and now he is suddenly promoted, I am afraid that the rules will be broken." ”
Empress Dowager Gao replied: "The state affairs are difficult, and I will guard the border for my Zhao family." Zhao is not good at leaving people, who does the Zhongqing family recommend? ”
Su Zhe held back for a long time, he was worried that others would attack his friends, but now seeing that Empress Dowager Gao's words made everyone speechless, he jumped out and said: "Fan Yu......"
After a pause, Su Zhe continued to add: "Fan Yu Fan Xunzhi leads, the first Zhao Liren; Zhang Qianfu (Zhang) and Fan Deru (Fan Chun) played one after another, and the minister thought that these three people had met Zhao Liren, and it must be Zhao Liren who had said something about planning, which made everyone admire. However, it is a matter of military intelligence, and it cannot be explained in detail in the military delivery. The saint, the minister, may as well make it. ”
Su Zhe jumped out, Fan Tao was on fire in his heart: I knew that you were going to be the first to jump out, who is Zhao Liren, your Shu party's money bag, and the gifts of the cart and cart are sent to your home during the New Year's holidays, usually I see that he does not cause trouble, does not take credit, and does not want to be impeached, you jump out, I can't spare him.
Fan Tao grabbed his sleeves and was about to jump out to insult, Liu Anshi stepped on his toes and shook his head slightly. Fan Tao hesitated, Empress Dowager Gao spoke, looking at the excitement on her face, it is estimated that she has been waiting to come out and agree: "Zizhan teaches students well, since Zhongqing can't think of another recommender, and Su Qing's military department agrees, what does the Privy Council say?" ”
How so? Wang Yansuo slandered in his stomach: The Queen Mother has asked like this, and the tendencies in her words are so obvious, when I am an idiot, can I not hear it?
Wang Yansuo snorted twice and replied, "Zhao Liren...... It is rumored that he killed too much, and it is rumored that the bandits in Hushan for a hundred years have been cut down by him, and Zhao Liren is also a soldier, maybe Huanqing Road can borrow his murderous spirit and ease it for a year or two...... Well, I heard that he brought a hundred family members with him, and it only took more than a month to walk from Yangzhou to Gyeongju, perhaps, such an elite person went, Xixia could have some scruples. ”
Su Zhe especially emphasized that Fan Yu, this is a master of Guan Xue, Zhang Zai's first apprentice, Luo Xue belongs to the Guan Xue school from a geographical point of view, and it can even be said that it was born from Guan Xue. Su Zhe specifically pointed out that Fan Yu initiated it, plus Fan Chun and Zhang, one is Fan Zhong's son of the flooded land, and Fan's children are all over the world, and they are not easy to mess with. Zhang Ze, as a military master, is very influential in the army, and these two people are added behind Fan Yu, and anyone who wants to oppose it must be considered. As a member of the Luo Party, Wang Yansuo certainly would not oppose Fan Yu's proposition, so he had to say this vaguely, but tendentiously.
Su Song is China's No. 1 accountant, Qian Xian is managing the household department, and the two hummed together: "Sage, the ministers have seen Zhao Liren's financial methods, Mizhou and Hangzhou, not to mention, Yangzhou's methods are simply incredible, and the ministers only after seeing the results want to understand the mystery, the mystery lies in the construction of the road, and the land yield of the road is several times that of the deserted land...... This approach is simply breathtaking.
Shaanxi Road is barren, what is not produced, that is, Zhao Liren can't toss anything, and the court has nothing to lose, at most the subsidy is more, but now the subsidy is not much. Therefore, the meaning of the subordinate is that it is better to let him toss. ”
Empress Dowager Gao decided: "Zhongqing just said that Zhao Liren knows the soldiers, and in the future, he will also lead the military horses of Huanqing Road, so he will simply give him enough grace at one time, and add a military position to him first." Edict: Zhao Liren, a bachelor of the Treasure Pavilion, is Xuan Zhenglang, in addition to the Qingyang Festival envoy (Zhizhou), the rank official is promoted to the court to serve the doctor, and the wife is given a wife. issued an edict to encourage Zhao Xing, the housekeeper valued him very much, and he had to guard Gyeongju for the country, but there was a difference, and he was punished severely. Official, what do you mean? ”
Zhao Xu sat on the chair like a piece of wood all the time, and when he heard this question, he saw that the courtiers didn't even turn their buttocks, and he didn't roll his eyes, and replied blankly: "Zhao Liren, that big man, good, good!" Very good! ”
The matter was so decided, after Liang Tao retreated, he reproached Liu Anshi: "In vain, you are also called the Tiger of the Palace, I was going to go out to oppose it today, why did you stop me?" ”