The Tang Mansion hung up the white flags. The mother said that there are decades of loving husband and wife, filial piety and filial piety, and a pair of grandchildren in Anping Chengping, no regrets, this life is enough.

I don't know why, I looked at the heavy coffin in a daze, but I couldn't cry at all.

You haven't seen your husband guiding the country, you haven't seen your children fighting on the battlefield, and you haven't seen the phoenix crown and your mother in the world, how can you have no regrets?

You didn't either, you didn't see our brothers working together, you didn't see me become the founding prince of the Tang Dynasty, you didn't see me turn things around and rewrite history, you didn't see me live a long life, how can you have no regrets?

I know these words, when my mother was alive, it was a burden for her to ask them, and now, even if they do, they will not get any answer.

I suddenly remembered the time when I had an accident when I was a child. In fact, drunken behavior is not necessarily just nonsense, and children's words and deeds are not necessarily just ignorant. At that time, I knew that my mother was kind to me, but I was afraid of her dignity and seriousness, so I got drunk, but I wanted to pierce the barrier between me and her.

You know all of this, right? So since that time, you have let go of the dignified seriousness of the royal family for me, is that so?

How can you give up? The sons and daughters who have given up their fathers and have not yet reached the weak crown are alone in the face of this boundless darkness. This small coffin can put you down, but can it let go of your thoughts about your father or can you let go of your beloved son's affection?

I knelt before the spirit and kept thinking about these questions, always thinking that maybe she would answer my questions, maybe she was still alive, and everything in front of her was a dream, and when she woke up, she would stay at my bedside as before, looking at me with concern.

The night gradually enveloped everything, and the dim candlelight in the room burned straight without a hint of wind.

On summer nights, the heat has not subsided, but I only feel cold.

I really wanted to grasp something, but I couldn't grasp anything, and this feeling of powerlessness was like a knife in my heart.

I am the one who does not belong here, I have not said a word of truth to anyone from the past to the present, if there really are gods and Buddhas, and I really think that my deception deserves to be punished, why is it not me who suffers? But you will take it upon a man who believes in you and honors you? Even if I really want to die, it should be me.

Why? Why were you able to throw down the entire Tang Mansion so indifferently? But to bear the grief of loss?

I got angry and angry with her for no reason. Angry with herself, angry at herself, why didn't she die for her, angry with Ruoxiu, she could cure the diseases of the world, why couldn't she cure her mother? Angry with everyone, why not keep her?

Someone came behind me, and the sound of footsteps broke the silence of the mourning hall, and also made noise to my sleeping mother, and I shouted angrily: "Get out!" ”

The people who came did not leave.

I said again, "Get out!" ”

Someone came to help me, I didn't get up at all, and was about to say something, but when I turned my head, I saw Ruoxiu's tear-stained face, looking at me anxiously.

Behind her stood Daddy.

If you cultivate: "If you continue like this, you will ......"

I suppressed my anger and whispered, "Ruoxiu, leave me alone, you go and rest first." ”

My father approached me and said in a deep voice, "If the living don't know how to mourn and change, how can the dead rest in peace?" ”

As if I had just realized that I had a splitting headache, I shook my head and said to Ruo Xiu in a daze: "Why don't you cure her?" Why ......?" I said, feeling as if I had been hit by something in my chest.

Ruoxiu came to help me up again, and I was about to push her, but as soon as my hand moved, a sharp pain hit my chest, and I spit out a mouthful of blood.

Seeing this, Ruoxiu hugged me, and I fell asleep quickly in a groggy state.

When I woke up again, Ruoxiu sat on the edge of the bed, his eyes were red, and he kept wiping the sweat from my forehead with a handkerchief.

When he saw that I was awake, he threw himself on my chest and cried, "You frightened me! I ......"

I raised my hand and hugged her tightly in my arms and whispered, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" You don't want to ...... Don't leave me again, okay? ”

Ruo Xiu couldn't help but nodded and said, "Okay, good, good ......"

After a while, she got up and sat down, and said, "You haven't eaten a drop of water for several days, and your body is very weak. If...... If the mother ...... She won't be at ease knowing you're like this. ”

I chuckled softly and asked, "Does she still care?" ”

Ruoxiu looked at me and said, "You are not allowed to ......"

I took her hand and said, "You blame me for resenting her?" How can I complain? You don't know, she is the first person I have met in this world who is good to me...... The first person who believed in me unconditionally regardless of right and wrong, the first one ...... "There were tears in my eyes that began to slide, and the words were blocked in my throat, and I couldn't go on at all."

Ruoxiu said again: "Father said, you are the eldest son in the family, you want to ...... Stop. She got up to leave.

I grabbed her and said, "Where are you going?" ”

Ruo Xiu sighed and said, "Xuanba is also sick, and he is very sick. ”

I was startled, and I wanted to get up from the bed immediately, and before I started struggling, Ruoxiu stopped me and said, "You ......"

I pulled her by and said, "Help me up." ”

Li Xuanba's health has always been bad, and the most worrying thing about his mother is this frail and sickly son, if he has any accidents, how can I be worthy of her?

I promised her to take good care of her younger siblings.

If Xiu saw that I insisted on going to see Li Xuanba, and knew that he couldn't stop me, he put on a dress for me and walked towards Li Xuanba's room.

As soon as I entered the room, I smelled a burst of wine, and when I looked around, there was no trace of any wine, Ruoxiu guessed my doubts, and said, "Zhiyun has been drinking here before, and now I don't know where I went." ”

When I approached the bed, Li Xuanba's pale face did not have a trace of blood, even if his eyes were closed, I could see that he had cried, he frowned, and when I looked closely, this younger brother looked the most similar to me.

I stood for a long time and became dizzy, so I had to lean on Ruoxiu, who helped me sit down on the edge of the bed.

I looked at Li Xuanba like this and asked Ruo Xiu, "How is he?" ”

Ruo Xiu shook his head and said softly: "Like you, he is overly sad, but his health has always been bad and he can't withstand such ...... So tossed. ”

After a while, the room was unusually quiet, Ruoxiu put his arm on my shoulder, smiled bitterly and said, "You two brothers are the most alike, not only in appearance, but also in temperament and character." ”

I shook her hand and said, "Isn't that exactly what happens between brothers?" ”

Ruoxiu shook his head and said, "Not necessarily." Semin and Motoyoshi...... It's different from you, it's natural, and I always feel like my mother is ...... I prefer you more. ”