readx(); "During the time you were unconscious, I have sent someone to search the bottom of the cliff, but I haven't found Zhong Ming, she's missing!"

Ji Xu's apologetic words sounded, like a sharp knife stabbed in the heart, the corners of Xu Yan's eyes twitched, and his already pale face became more and more miserable.

Although he had already guessed, although he had already guessed the answer from Ji Xu's previous attitude, he was still heartbroken when he heard Ji Xu admit it.

"No, no, you lie to me, she'll be fine, she'll be fine..." Xu Yan shook his head excitedly, not wanting to believe it.

Xu's mother looked at Xu Yan worriedly, and persuaded on the side: "Son, don't be like this..."

Xu Yan turned a deaf ear to Xu's mother's words, just stared at Ji Xu, and said with hope: "You lied to me, you lied to me, right?" ”

Many people face difficulties and bad news, knowing that things have happened and it is impossible to change them according to their own wishes, but they are still unwilling to accept it, hoping that all this is false, hoping to get support from others, and Xu Yan is like this now.

He wasn't like this before, in the past, when he encountered a problem, he would only find a way to solve it, but now it is different, because he is injured and weak, and because it was his beloved woman who had an accident, under the double blow, he also, like most people, thought of escapism, hoping that all this never happened.

However, facts are facts and cannot be changed by the will of the individual.

Ji Xu was silent, he understood Xu Yan's mentality, and he also knew that he just wanted to be comforted, but he didn't lie to him.

Because he is a soldier, and because he clearly knows that paper can't contain fire, after a panic, you need to spread more panic to fulfill the first lie, rather than lying now to give him hope, and then make him desperate later, it is better not to give him hope now!

After a long time of getting no response, Xu Yan's heart was full of hope, and gradually became cold again, and he closed his eyes in pain.

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault, I hurt them..."Xu Yan muttered, pain and self-blame, and a tear overflowed from his eye.

The man has tears and does not flick, but he wishes that he has not reached the sad place.

Killed his brother with his own hands, endured humiliation and continued to lurk, thinking that he could take revenge on the enemy, but he was calculated again, his hands and feet were picked, and even his beloved woman was knocked off the cliff in front of him.

"Son, don't be like this..."Mother Xu advised.

Ji Xu also comforted, "Xu Yan, don't be like this, no one wants to do this, just blame the enemy for being too cunning, don't blame you, don't blame yourself too much." ”

Xu Yan slowly opened his eyes, turned his head to look at Ji Xu, and laughed at himself: "No wonder me, don't blame yourself too much, what do you know, all of this is caused by me, it is all caused by me..."

His voice was low at first, then louder and louder, and by the last sentence it was already a hysterical roar.

Xu Xu's mother Ji Xu and the three of them were stunned.

Outside the ward, knowing that Xu Yan woke up, Jiang Danian, Zhang Sheng and others, who rushed to hear the news, heard Xu Yan's voice, several people looked happy, and said, "It's Xu Yan's voice, he woke up", and quickly rushed to the ward.

As soon as I came to the outside of the ward, before I could go in, I heard Xu Yan say loudly: "I caused all this, and it was my conceit that killed them." ”

"The mule took the initiative to expose me in order to cover me, and I shot him with my own hands..."

"You're also forced to..."

Xu Yan didn't wait for him to finish, then interrupted him and said: "What is the last resort, if I had fought to the death, maybe I could have escaped, but I was too conceited, I thought that I shot him in the heart, and if I rescued him urgently, I could have rescued him, but he was missing; I thought that if I endured humiliation and continued to lurk, I could uproot the scorpion, but I fell into the enemy's calculations again, causing everyone to fall into an ambush, and Zhong Ming was shot and fell off the cliff..."

Speaking of Zhong Ming's fall from the cliff, Xu Yan thought of the original incident again, his eyes were scarlet, and he blamed himself in pain, "I prided myself on being smart, but I fell into calculation from the beginning, from the beginning they knew that I was an undercover agent, and the reason why they didn't expose me was to use me, use me to kill my brother with my own hands, use me to lead you to be fooled, and I was stupid to get into it; In vain, I thought I was strong, but in a one-on-one duel, I was suppressed by the other party's strength, and I watched the woman I loved being knocked off the cliff in front of me, even myself, and others didn't want me to die too easily, so I broke my tendons and left me with a crippled life..."

Xu Yan's words of self-reproach sounded in everyone's ears, and there was a dead silence inside and outside the ward.

Whether it was Xu Xu's mother Ji Xu in the ward, or Jiang Danian, Zhang Sheng and others outside the ward, they all fell silent.

Before, they only thought that Xu Yan was injured and worried about his injury, but now they know that there are so many things in the middle.

Mother Xu looked at Xu Yan with pity, and wanted to step forward to soothe the tears on his face and blame herself, but her palm stretched out, but in the end it was frozen in the air, and only the tears spread silently.

Xu Yu sighed secretly, closed his eyes in pain, there was a past flowing in his mind, he had also lost his brother, and he deeply understood that feeling, not to mention that Xu Yan was calculated, killed his brother with his own hands, and watched his beloved woman being knocked off the cliff to be more auspicious, and he himself was abolished, or because the enemy was merciful to leave a life, this pain is more than a thousand times better than him.

Ji Xu's fist tightened hard, his five knuckles rubbed, and he let out a series of low sounds, and while worrying about Xu Yan, he also had deep self-blame.

He had long known that Xu Yan's state was wrong, but he didn't change him earlier, and even after Luo Yifei's accident, he felt that something was wrong, but he didn't force Xu Yan to quit the task, which caused Zhong Ming to be more auspicious, and Xu Yan was completely abolished...

The three people in the room were in different moods, and Jiang Danian and Zhang Sheng outside were also shocked, deeply worried about Xu Yan's state at this time.

Jiang Danian was excited, and even hit the wall with a punch, and in the muffled sound, he said worriedly: "Xu Yan has always been strong, but now he is being calculated and killed the mule with his own hands; In the duel again, he failed to keep Zhong Ming; From resourcefulness to strength, he was defeated, he lost his good brother and girlfriend successively, and he was abolished by others, how could he bear it..."

In fact, Xu Yan really couldn't bear it.

Since he said this, he has never opened his mouth again, most of the time he is looking at the ceiling with empty eyes, there is regret and hatred in his eyes, but more of it is dead and silent, his heart is like death, life is better than death.

This state lasted for three days, which made everyone very worried, and relatives, friends, and comrades-in-arms took turns to fight, but to no avail.

On the third day, there was a turnaround, Ji Xu received a phone call, it was the beautiful reporter Zhang Lan who called, saying that she knew Luo Yifei's whereabouts, and asked them if they wanted to know.

ps: This book is being completed, there are still one or two hundred thousand words, less than a hundred chapters, and the final transformation is going to be carried out, so that Xu Yan looks like a real soldier, so it is a little slower, please be patient, thank you. (To be continued.) )