We went to the Kannon Temple. I knelt in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva with her, and it felt a little strange. I was not religious, and I looked at the tall Buddha statue with my eyes open—her kind face was a bit like that of my mother. I glanced at Xu Ruoxiu, her eyes closed, her hands folded, silently chanting something, I saw her pious appearance, and I also learned from her to kowtow to the Bodhisattva seriously.

When I opened my eyes and stood up, Xu Ruoxiu was still kneeling motionless, and there was no one in the hall except for the two of us, and I suddenly felt that my presence was also a disturbance to her, so I silently retreated.

I stared at the big words "Cihang Pudu" outside the temple gate for a long time, Xu Ruoxiu's eyes were slightly red when he came out, and he seemed surprised to see me waiting outside, and said softly: "Thank you." ”

Actually, I didn't do anything at all, and I didn't know why she thanked me, so I had to point in the direction we came and say, "Your grandfather seems to have come out and is looking for you." ”

She looked up, the slightly sad look on her face disappeared, replaced it with a smiling face, and said to me, "I'm leaving." ”

I nodded to indicate that I understood, looked at the back of her leaving, felt empty and lost, turned around to see the statue of Guanyin in the hall, and turned back to the Guanyin hall. I don't know why, I, a person who has never believed in Buddhism, hope that Guanyin Bodhisattva can see all this, be able to know my deep thoughts, and be able to forgive my non-divisive thoughts.

I knelt down in front of Guanyin as I had done before—it was the first time I had made a vow. I thought I would definitely hope that I would be able to reverse my fate and rewrite history in the future, but when I closed my eyes, I thought of myself at all, my father and my mother, I hope they live long and healthy, Yuru and Sanniang, I hope they are safe, and Xu Ruoxiu, and Xu Ruoxiu, and the previous idea is completely different, once I started fooling around with a woman, the most important thing I wanted to do was to get her, but now I only want Xu Ruoxiu to be happy, and there is no other evil thought.

Then I thought of my younger brother Li Shimin, who was less than a year old, and I hoped that he would also grow up healthy and live a peaceful life - not because of how noble I was, on the contrary, I was still out of selfishness, if something happened to him, how could my father and mother be healthy?

I opened my eyes when I felt that they were about to get wet, and when I raised my eyes, it was still the kind face of Guanyin Bodhisattva, and I suddenly understood why Xu Ruoxiu was crying.

This day's experience made me a little more interested in the Buddha, my mother has to go to the Shiye Temple every half a month to burn incense, I never followed before, but now it's different, I always have a trace of fantasy pestering my mother, I have to follow her, I often go to the Guanyin Temple to pray, every time I see the statue of Guanyin, I feel that Xu Ruoxiu seems to still kneel there. Of course, I didn't actually meet her again. However, not meeting Xu Ruoxiu again does not mean that I have not gained anything at all, at least I have a better understanding of Buddhism.

Because I often run to the Guanyin Temple, there is a monk in the Guanyin Hall who finally noticed me, of course, I would also feel strange if I were him, a child would be so pious and so regular to worship the Buddha, it must be very difficult.

One day I was about to leave after praying, when the monk came out of the back hall and said, "Little donor, stay here." ”

I was stunned for a moment and looked back, and saw him looking at me kindly, I guess he should be calling me, so I had to stop, turn around, fold my hands and ask, "What does Master have to say?" "This politeness was learned when I observed my mother talking to the monks in the temple.

The monk seemed to be very happy to see me so polite, and said with a smile: "I don't dare to teach the teaching, the poor monk is wise, and I see that the donor has come many times, but he seems to have doubts in his heart, and he is willing to solve it for the donor." ”

He seems to have talked to his father about Buddhism, I looked up at him with my little head, and thought to myself, how do you know that I have doubts, forget it, since he wants to solve my doubts for me, then I will reluctantly accept it, I pointed to the statue of Guanyin, and said: "The younger generation wants to know, can the Bodhisattva really get a glimpse of the world, insight into the suffering of the people, and whether he can really save people from suffering and benefit all sentient beings?" ”

Hui Channel: "What does the donor think? ”

"The younger generation thought it couldn't." I replied.

Huitong smiled: "The donor thinks that he can is can, and if he thinks he can't, he can't." ”

What does that mean? I don't quite understand. I certainly didn't believe that Guanyin could see or hear anything, because the second time I knelt in front of her and prayed for me to see Xu Ruoxiu again, my wish was not too much at all - I didn't want to do anything to her, I didn't want to get anything, I just wanted to ask her if she was in a better mood. But I've been here for the fourth time, and I still haven't seen Xu Ruoxiu's shadow, so I think the Bodhisattva shouldn't see or hear anything.

But I listened to Huitong's words - in fact, I didn't understand it at all, I felt that his words were a bit profound, and I couldn't understand them, which made me feel that although I had read so many books, it was useless, and reading didn't make me any different from before, and I was still an ordinary man in my bones.

I looked at him with confused eyes, shook my head and admitted directly: "The juniors don't understand." ”

In fact, Huitong should have known that I didn't understand, and he explained to me in even more difficult words, "The poor monk thinks that the little benefactor is a smart person, and those who don't understand it have a quiet heart, and a calm heart is naturally clear." ”

But I understood this difficult sentence, wait...... Calm? I seem to have seen somewhere, can it be called a calm mind when my mother copies Buddhist scriptures? Is Xu Ruoxiu kneeling in front of the statue of Guanyin and praying a calming mind? What about me, I'm in the Guanyin Temple, but I only think about the scene of kneeling with Xu Ruoxiu two months ago, how can people meditate?! I felt my face flush and white, as if I had made a mistake.

Huitong continued: "The little donor understands? ”

I nodded but said, "The juniors understand, but it seems difficult to do." ”

Huitong smiled: "Of course, it is true. The small donor is not shallow, the poor monk and the small donor have a fate, leaving the small donor here, in fact, there is something to give. ”

I was a little vigilant in my heart, first of all, I didn't know this monk at all, but he had met with my father a few times about Buddhism, and secondly, pie falling from the sky was not a good thing in most cases, I didn't dare to pick it up, in case something went wrong, I couldn't afford to take responsibility.

I arched my hand and said, "The younger generation really can't stand it." ”

Huitong came over and stuffed something into my hand, and said: "Ling Zun was once kind to the poor monk, and this thing is related to the little donor, so I give it to the little donor, and the little donor doesn't have to refuse." ”

I insisted on returning it to him, and he said with a straight face: "Little donor, there is no reason to take back the gift I gave out." ”

Hearing this, I suddenly felt a little creepy, this sentence definitely didn't seem to come from the mouth of a monk, but like a rampant and domineering scoundrel, and there was a threatening smell in his words. I was a little scared, and I didn't dare to hand it back to him with the cold thing in my hand, so I had to say, "Thank you so much, Master, for your kindness." ”

Huitong saw that I had accepted it, and then regained his smile and said, "Little donor, please take care of yourself." As he spoke, he turned into the back hall and disappeared.

I carefully studied what he had given me, it was like a small shield made of metal, only the size of a palm, and the small shield was surrounded by a circle of lilac jade, and the upper part was engraved with a small "Qi" character, also made of purple jade, and the rest of it was brown. I don't know why he gave it to me by force, or what the little iron plate was for, but it looked so delicate that it felt like something of value.

A few days later, my mother told me that Master Huitong had passed away, and of course I thought it was incredible, because Master Huitong was only thirty or forty years old, and it was a bit unreasonable to say that he would die without illness or disaster. Although I don't know how he died, but his death is definitely very strange, because there are rumors that he died in the abbot's room with blood all over the ground, I think a person would never be like this if he died normally, ask Dad, Dad told me that Huitong Zen Master offended people who should not be offended in his early years, and now someone has found him, as for more specific, Dad himself does not know.

Another conspiracy! I've been here for a long time, and I've had an instinctive way of thinking about these two words, and at the slightest hint of wind and grass, these two words pop up in my head. But why did he give me that little shield? Did he already know he was going to die when he was talking to me? It's amazing that a person can be so calm when he knows his end is coming, and I definitely can't do it.

Huitong's death caused a certain amount of trouble to the mother, who was very familiar with the monks in the temple because she often ran to the temple, and she was a little sad, but the sadness lasted for a short time, because there were things that bothered her more and needed her attention - Shimin was sick again.

Children are trouble, if they don't agree, they will get sick, and the mother will send someone to ask for Dr. Xu Ren with a baby under the age of one, I think I can take a closer look at what kind of person this doctor is, and maybe I can see Xu Ruoxiu. But my hopes were disappointed, because the servant who went to ask for a doctor reported that Dr. Xu Ren had moved away.

No way! I have the urge to curse someone I haven't had in a long time, how can this person just leave? Doctor Xu Ren is gone, then Xu Ruoxiu I will definitely not be able to see it, in vain I remember to run to Shiye Temple every day, but I didn't even see a shadow, it turned out that I had already moved.

My anger and annoyance were reflected in the eyes of my father and mother, and turned into concern for the condition of the people, I admit that I was a little worried, but it didn't make me annoyed like this, the main reason was still I couldn't figure it out - I lived well in Qizhou City, what to move? Besides, Xu Ruoxiu, we met once, even if it's nothing, it's still a friend, so I left without even saying hello, who is taking me as a person? The more I thought about it, the more incomprehensible it became.

Of course, I can't just forget Xu Ruoxiu, the afternoon of early autumn that day seems to be engraved in my mind, and it's hard to forget, but I picked up the ability of the gangster before and immediately put my troubles aside-since the sky is different, then everyone is fine. Anyway, I have begged in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva many times, and if she really hears it, she will definitely know my piety, and she will definitely fulfill my wishes, and she will definitely see you again in the future, and this kind of self-paralysis has indeed made me forget my troubles for a while.

And then...... On a sunny afternoon, my father told me that His Royal Highness the Crown Prince had been deposed.